ma'am i want to be quiet

No one knows the loneliness and helplessness of a lonely soul in another world. It is Feng Tiantian who uses her love to warm this heart that has been cold for two lifetimes.Walking alone in another world, without care, without fear, but after all, it is too deserted and lonely.

In fact, Shu Fan knew that Feng Tiantian's uneasiness was not Feng Tiantian's problem, he was responsible for most of it.She was afraid, afraid of taking responsibility, it was her own lack of ability and responsibility, the previous escape and silence made Feng Tiantian feel unconfident and secure, everything was her fault.

She is afraid of approaching a person, afraid of that person's wholehearted trust and dependence, and the feeling of bearing all the beliefs and happiness of the other person makes her afraid.The responsibilities of my father and sister in the previous life made me very tired, and finally exhausted my life.She was afraid of the kind of love that went all out, so she ran away.

Now, she is willing to pull the other party into her own world, and is willing to spend the rest of her life to keep her safe and happy, without any worries.Compared with the burden she bears, the warmth and sunshine in her heart make her feel more at ease.

What Shu Fan pursued in this life is to be indifferent and follow one's heart. The imperial palace is a place she can't even imagine.Red walls and glazed tiles, carved beams and painted buildings, pavilions and pavilions, the picture is very beautiful, but when you look up, you can only see a square sky.That's not where Shu Fan wants to stay.

"Sister Li is beautiful and noble, worthy of everyone's love, you and Sister Li are a good match!" Feng Tiantian said a little sullenly. Feng Tiantian suddenly remembered that Boss Zhao of the chaos stall once said that he loved his wife Appearance is very demanding. Li Minle is indeed alluring, with a high bearing and a noble status. Will Shu Fan really like it?

"She is perfect, but I am not perfect. I have a bad reputation, bad character, no talent, no martial arts, no fame, and I am not worthy of others." Shu Fan did not blame Feng Tiantian for being suspicious. I care about it, but it's just that this care makes her family Tian Tian feel sad.

"I'm just a county magistrate girl, she is a princess, with her, your life will be completely different in the future." Feng Tiantian did not compromise.

"You don't have her alluring beauty and peerless elegance, but I'm just an accountant. I don't have the talent to overwhelm the world, the rich family, the shocking appearance, and the fame and fame. I can't afford to be so beautiful. What's more, I It's just a woman, in this world, you are the only one who is most suitable for me, you who love me the most and will never dislike me, and you will be the one I love." Shu Fan supported Feng Tiantian's shoulders, his eyes straightened Looking at her carefully, let her see the truth and seriousness in her eyes.

Many years later, Feng Tiantian and Li Minle met again. Li Minle found that Feng Tiantian had a good temper, was considerate in hospitality, and was courteous. When asked why, Feng Tiantian replied: "Shu Fan said that the person who came was a guest, although you I am the lord of the world, but I am the lord of the family, and as the master, I must entertain the guests well."

Shu Fan endowed Feng Tiantian with a sense of ownership, and at the same time gave her the backbone to stand in front of Li Minle confidently.Of course, this is something to say later, at this moment Feng Tiantian looked at Shu Fan's serious eyes, his heart was shaken, and he finally relaxed, nestling in Shu Fan's arms.

"Wu Mu, you can't do without me. If you do not want me, I will go crazy." Shu Fan looked at her with gentle and affectionate eyes, full of love, full of indulging tenderness. Willing to believe.Feng Tiantian's tone was full of grievances, she couldn't bear the pain of losing Shu Fan again, she couldn't even imagine such a scene.

"Silly girl, where there is you, there will be me, and I will never leave you again." Shu Fan hugged Feng Tiantian pitifully, and at the same time hated herself who fled weakly back then. It was she who made Feng Tiantian so proud As fragile and not confident.

"En." Feng Tiantian hugged Shu Fan, and responded softly.

That night, Feng Tiantian had a dream, it was very long, a strange dream, the scene was chaotic, the time was out of order, but it was a dream that made her panic and sad.

The scene in the dream shows Shu Fan and Li Minle talking intimately and living in harmony.And the time seems to go back to the time when Shu Fan and Feng Tiantian confessed their women's identity. Anyone who likes gentle and dignified women.

"My Tiantian was wronged?" Shu Fan appeared in front of her somehow, and said softly to her.Feng Tiantian hugged Shu Fan and cried, just crying without saying anything.She thought she had lost her, she thought she would never see her again.When others point to Li Minle and say that she is a model of women, and point to Li Minle and say how failed she is, no one around her gently says to her, you are unique, you are the best in the world, you are The most beautiful scenery in my eyes.No one said to himself, don't cry, I will feel bad.

Feng Tiantian in the dream was a nightmare, she completely forgot that she was married to Shu Fan, she hugged Shu Fan tightly, she didn't want to care about it, she didn't want to think about it anymore, she only wanted Shu Fan.In this world, except for Shu Fan, in the eyes of everyone, I am inferior, vulgar and ugly. In this world, except for Shu Fan, who cares about my own happiness, my own happiness, and only myself.Since only Shu Fan cares about himself, what's the use of caring about others.Living so humble and hard, living so wronged and cowardly, trying to pretend to be happy for others, who cares about their true happiness.

Feng Tiantian figured it out, happiness is her own, only she can grasp happiness, and only she can realize it.The only person who can make her feel happy, who can make her feel happy, Shu Fan, she doesn't want to let go.

Seeing Feng Tiantian crying so aggrieved and forbearing, Shu Fan felt extremely distressed.

"Tiantian, don't cry, my heart hurts." Shu Fan hugged Feng Tiantian, and gently kissed the top of her hair.I didn't expect Feng Tiantian to cry even more because of that sentence.

"Shu Fan, I miss you." I miss you very much, miss your tenderness, miss your hug, miss your kindness to me.

"I miss you too. I miss you so much, I try so hard to refrain from thinking about you, but the clouds in the sky, the trees in the wind, the grass in the water, every plant and tree can transform into your appearance, appearing in front of my eyes, appearing In my mind." In the dream, Shu Fan said love words that Feng Tiantian had never heard before, tender and affectionate.

"Then why haven't you shown up for so long?" Feng Tiantian said angrily.The time at this moment seems to have returned to the time when Shu Fan left without saying goodbye, Feng Tiantian is delicate and savage, but she has always played helplessness in front of Shu Fan, never in front of Feng Chengzhou.Because he knew that Shu Fan would pamper him, he knew that Shu Fan would not laugh at him even if he knew his appearance, in front of Shu Fan, she lived the most real life.

"I, I..." Shu Fan seemed to hesitate to speak, and finally said nothing.

"I know you want to leave, right? You don't want to see me, never want to see me again, right? You, you all have to leave, all of you have to leave?" Feng Tiantian felt extremely uncomfortable.Shu Fan's departure and the memory hidden deep in his heart when he was a child emerged, the little beggar who made such a sincere appointment and put it in his heart also left silently.Shu Fan also wanted to disappear in his life like this.Why, why do people who give sincerely want to leave and leave themselves?

"I, I, no." Shu Fan gritted his teeth and lied.

"You're lying." Feng Tiantian said with certainty.

"I don't." Shu Fan became more confident.

"Are you going to lie to me?" Feng Tiantian glared at Shu Fan angrily.

"I don't." Shu Fan turned his head away, not looking at Feng Tiantian.

"You want to leave me, right?" Feng Tiantian asked again, Shu Fan's actions already explained everything.

"Yes." Shu Fan replied dejectedly.

"Did you tell me any other lies?" Feng Tiantian was satisfied with Shu Fan's answer.

"I, I, one more time." Shu Fan seemed a little helpless, thinking that it would be better to explain clearly once.

"When?" Feng Tiantian raised his eyebrows.

"That night..." Shu Fan said,

"You said you were going to get married?" Feng Tiantian deeply remembered what Shu Fan said the night she was hurt.

"I just want you to stop thinking about it. Besides, even if I get married, you will never come to my wedding, so you don't care about the truth." Shu Fan said helplessly.

"You really want to get married?" Feng Tiantian in the dream suddenly jumped up, so angry and irritable.

"No, no, no, what I want is to let you leave Feng County after giving up, find a place with beautiful mountains and clear waters, and live the rest of your life alone." Such a scene was bleak, and Shu Fan's tone was inevitably sad.

Feng Tiantian suddenly remembered that Boss Zhao said that Shu Fan had already offended everyone from all over the world, how could anyone be willing to marry him.

"Yeah, let me give up. I'm so sad that I'm about to die. I'm so sad that everyone in the county knows that I, Feng Tiantian, fell into lovesickness for your comfort, and I'm about to die." Thinking of my own feelings at that time Painful, Feng Tiantian's tone was indescribably cold.At that time, when she knew that Shu Fan was a woman, she was so painful that she was about to die.

"I, I, I'm sorry." That's all Shu Fan could say.

"I'm sorry, does being sorry work? How do you make up for my pain at that time? How do you make up for my sadness when you run away alone?" Feng Tiantian gritted her teeth, wanting to get a promise from Shu Fan that she would never run away again. promise.

"What do you think?" Shu Fan knew that Feng Tiantian had a hole waiting for him, but at that time, he had to jump into the hole he dug with tears in his eyes.

"I want you to stop running around, stop disappearing quietly, and more, just... If I can't get married in the future, you have to marry me." Even if Feng Tiantian is cheerful, he is so ashamed The words made her blush.

"Okay." Without any hesitation or Feng Tiantian's entanglement, Shu Fan agreed readily.

"Did you really agree?" Feng Tiantian couldn't believe what she heard, putting all those words at the end, firstly, it was out of shame, and secondly, she never thought that Shu Fan would agree.You just want to make things difficult for Shu Fan, right?

"Well, if I marry a wife in this life, it will only be you, Feng Tiantian." Feng Tiantian doesn't know Shu Fan's thoughts, the person who originally decided to be alone for the rest of his life, if he wants to get married, it will only be Feng Tiantian.

"I promise, I promise... You, you can't go back on your word." Feng Tiantian was so excited that he couldn't speak clearly, with tears in his eyes, he looked up at Shu Fan with aggrieved and pitiful eyes.

"Don't regret it, I will always protect you in this life." Seeing Feng Tiantian excited, Shu Fan hugged her into his arms forgetfully.

"Shu Fan, will you marry me?" This embrace was so clean and fresh, it was so reassuring.She couldn't believe it was the words of the man who would only run away.

"As long as you want." Shu Fan said with certainty.

"I am willing." Feng Tiantian's voice was soft.She is willing to marry Shu Fan, but Shu Fan is a woman.The thoughts of love between men and women in Feng Tiantian's heart imprisoned her, made her entangled, and made Shu Fan escape.

"I know, I know everything." Shu Fan said with a sigh.

"But in this world, you don't get more because you do more, it doesn't mean you can get what you want, and it doesn't mean you can achieve what you want. You always care about others, and your heart is rejecting." But the next moment, Shu Fan uttered words that made Feng Tiantian's heart ache.

"Just like in my previous life, I gave everything, including my own life, to protect the only warmth I had, but that warmth was still ruthlessly taken away by the god of death, so I was willing to disappear in that world willingly. In this life, you can't accept I am a woman, so I leave, I hope you are happy." Shu Fan looked at Feng Tiantian, said with a smile, turned and left.

"No. You don't have to think about anything else, but I can get it by reaching out. I don't want anything, as long as you nod, you can marry me in." Feng Tiantian cried, but Shu Fan got more and more As he walked further and further, he seemed to hear nothing.

Feng Tiantian was awakened by herself, the dream was so real, it was so real that it made her heart ache and she shed tears.She gently wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes, looked at Shu Fan who was hugging her to sleep, and let him rub her arms, warm and real.

Shu Fan in the dream is so real, he can't keep it, he can't get it, he doesn't want to try to have it, he has nothing to gain, nothing to lose, nothing to suffer.I want to spend my life quietly, I want to watch the flowers bloom and fall in front of the court, I want to watch the clouds roll and clouds in the sky, and I want to die alone in Shu Fan, is it true?Is it if they are not brave together, that is their end, the two will not meet each other.Everyone feels at ease.

She is afraid of Shu Fan's leaving, but Shu Fan is also afraid of her alienation, so we just need to hug each other.Thinking of this, Feng Tiantian smiled, got up gently, kissed the corner of Shu Fan's mouth, and fell asleep in her arms.

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This chapter feels a bit strange, it doesn’t matter if you don’t read it, so be it