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"do not want!"

Lin Mu suddenly opened his eyes from the darkness and woke up.

She half sat up from the bed, and found that most of the clothes on her back were wet with cold sweat again, sticking sticky to her back, very uncomfortable, so she got out of bed, went to the refrigerator in the kitchen, poured a glass of cold water, raised her head I drank all of it, and the cold white water slightly relieved the hot and dry throat, but it couldn't resolve the emptiness and numbness in my heart.

It was that dream again.

After going abroad for more than two months, Lin Mu would be awakened by a dream every night, and then she would suffer from insomnia all night. She would usually take a bath again, and then sit in front of the French window in the living room, silently watching the night outside the window. until dawn.

The same plot always appears in the dream.

Always stay on the day of parting.

When the lights came on, the city was quiet and noisy under the hazy night. In the snow all over the sky, she looked at Su Qinghan's back and walked forward without looking back. She wanted to keep her, rushed forward and hugged her into her arms, but Her feet seemed to have taken root, and she couldn't move at all. She called her desperately, but she turned a blind eye to it, and finally disappeared into the boundless night.

She was left alone, experiencing the heart-piercing pain and fear over and over again.

Lin Mu's knuckles holding the glass turned white, and her face was bloodless in the darkness, like a body whose soul had been drained. Suddenly, there was a sharp pain in her head, and there was also a tumbling pain in her stomach. , blood welled up in her throat, she couldn't help coughing violently, went to the coffee table in the living room, picked up a few medicine bottles, poured them in the palm of her hand, and swallowed them all, then she seemed to have lost all her strength and sank into the into a soft sofa.

Cough and headaches have always been there, but after going abroad, they became more serious. I also went to the doctor. The doctor told her that it was caused by mental depression and overwork, and advised her to have a comprehensive examination and rest more , maintain a good mood, want to open some.

Only she herself knows where the root of her illness lies.

She will never be better again.

After returning to Canada, Lin Mu completely took over the family business and asked her parents to travel around the world. When her mother handed it over to her, she was a little worried, but she smiled flawlessly, which made people feel at ease. Lin Mu has always felt guilty because he was much older in those five years, so he wanted to share more for them.

Although she doesn't like business at all.

But what does that matter?

When she was in college, her wish for the future was to open a law firm in China, and then buy a small house nearby to live with Su Qinghan.

Every day, she will pick her up to and from work. If you are not busy, you can go to a nearby supermarket to buy some ingredients and make them yourself at home. If you are busy, you can go to Su Qinghan's favorite restaurant to have a meal. After eating, you can go for a walk in the garden downstairs , When it is more stable, you can also raise a dog or cat and live with them.

It was such an ordinary day.

However, this wish was shattered long ago, and the fragments dissipated with the wind and ceased to exist.

So, it doesn't matter how you live now.

The bright and clear moonlight fell on Lin Mu's expressionless face, and her eyes were filled with deep and silent blobs of ink.

Spring goes to autumn, and the days go by day by day, but every day after returning, Lin Mu feels unusually long and lonely. Every day, he seems to be living by instinct, relying on his responsibilities to his family and the company live.

Rest has become a terrible thing, as long as Lin Mu stops, Lin Mu will think of Su Qinghan's smiling face, together with those scenes of pain and sinking, tumbling in his mind, touching her heart over and over again.

She seldom drinks or smokes, so work has become the only time to relieve stress. Only when she is working, only when she is so busy in the dark, can Lin Mu stop thinking about those complicated thoughts, don't want to go, her.

On this day, Lin Mu went to the company as usual, and was busy all morning as usual. When she went to the lounge to pour coffee at noon, she suddenly felt a burning pain in her stomach. She couldn't stop the surging blood, so she had to call an assistant to take her to the hospital.

The doctor diagnosed acute gastric bleeding and needed surgery as soon as possible. When asked if the family members needed to sign, Lin Mu was silent for a while and shook his head. Her parents were traveling abroad, and Lin Xi was still in China. She was not familiar enough to be here. Lin Mu, the friend who signed the consent form for the operation, covered his stomach and signed his name with trembling fingers.

In fact, it is usually fine, working, going home, eating alone, it is not a big deal, Lin Mu has always been independent and quiet, and he has long been used to living alone.

But lying on the hospital bed in the operating room, for the first time, Lin Mu felt a kind of heart-wrenching loneliness. It felt like black vines with countless tentacles enveloping her bit by bit. Her existence will eventually be forgotten by this world.

The anesthesia gradually overwhelmed Lin Mu's consciousness, and at the last moment before falling into the boundless darkness, she seemed to see her face again.

I miss you so much, Qing Han.

The night Lin Xi heard the news, she caught a plane to Canada overnight.

It was already the second day after arriving, she hurried to Lin Mu's ward, and saw her lying on the hospital bed, the room was covered with white scenery, Lin Mu's face was melted into the whiteness of the snow, it was almost recognizable. Not coming out, she turned her head and looked out of the window quietly, noticing her arrival, then slowly turned her head and looked at her silently.

She was so weak that she looked like a paper figure that could be blown down by the wind. Although she didn't say anything, she looked at her with a little bit of joy in her eyes. Just by looking at her, Lin Xi felt that all the anger accumulated along the way was gone. Dissipated, she sighed deeply and sat down on the edge of her bed.

"Is it better?" You can only ask softly.

Lin Mu nodded, his lips were pale and a little black and purple, but he still smiled at her comfortingly, "It's all right now."

"If something happens in the future, you must tell me, okay?" Lin Xi was still a little scared. She couldn't imagine what the situation was like at that time, and what happened to her. She signed the letter and performed the operation by herself.

If it wasn't for the assistant's slip of the tongue, Lin Mu still planned to keep it from her.

I asked the doctor, Lin Mu's stomach bleeding is very serious, in fact, there have been symptoms since a long time ago, and the best time for treatment has been missed. The risk of that operation is very high, although fortunately she survived, but if she doesn't Restoration will leave the root of the disease.

"Okay." Lin Mu nodded obediently and agreed, she thought for a while, and then asked, "How about you come late?"

"She's fine." Speaking of her lover, Lin Xi's face naturally revealed a gentle and happy expression, "She has an important operation today, so she couldn't come to see you."

"En." Lin Mu responded softly, turned his head again, and looked out the window.

Lin Xi frowned. Lin Mu's current appearance was a little different from when he was in the hospital five years ago when he was in a car accident. Five years ago, although he was still as pale, weak and sad, at least he still had a little bit of anger and vitality. Hope for the future, but at this moment, there seems to be nothing in her empty eyes, and it seems that there are too many hidden things that she will never understand.

Such Lin Mu made Lin Xi feel very far away.

She is obviously by her side, but she seems to have erected a barrier invisible to isolate the outside world, while she is slowly withering inside.

Lin Xi understands better than anyone else why she has changed like this.

So she hesitated for a while before deciding to speak: "Xiao Mu, do you want me to..."

"No." Lin Mu turned her head, and there was a trace of condensation in her dark and deep pupils. She rarely had such an unusually serious and stubborn look, and said word by word: "If you tell her, you don't have to come to me again. .”

If you are well, then do not disturb, that is my tenderness.

This is the last I can do for you.

Her face and words are the same as five years ago, the same rejection, the same stubbornness, the same, so distressing.

Lin Xi was speechless.

After the day of parting, Su Qinghan has been managing the affairs of the Su Group in China, and she is not very busy. During her absence, Lin Mu helped her take care of it very well.

It seems that everything has calmed down, going to work, leaving get off work, and every day is peaceful.

But is this really the case?

Su Qinghan knew, it wasn't.

Josh has now been promoted to Su Qinghan's special assistant. She often talks about Lin Mu, her eyes are full of admiration, saying that Lin Mu is her goddess and the object of her study.

"President Su, is Assistant Lin really not coming back? Many colleagues in the company are asking about her." Josh always asked her with expectation.

Su Qinghan shook her head, her heart was full of desolation, she couldn't answer Josh's words, she couldn't tell her that she drove her away with her own hands.

Although Lin Mu left, her breath, her figure, her smile, her tenderness...everything about her remained in Su Qinghan's heart. She knew that she would never be able to escape her influence for the rest of her life.

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Still writing, there will be the second half later.