The school grass boyfriend has a big problem

After Lu Xi left.

Ji Nian took a deep breath, looking at the closed door, heavy tears also fell down.

He just felt that he was useless. He knew that he shouldn't treat Lu Xi like that, but he just couldn't control it.

Ji Nian was already upset, but now that Lu Xi was driven away, he felt even more uncomfortable and blamed himself, which was also mixed with anger at his own incompetence.

Rubbish.

Can't do anything well.

Take your anger out on others, even facing your favorite Lu Xi...

Disgusting...go to hell.

Ji Nian clenched his teeth, and let out a low voice that seemed to be roaring or whimpering, suppressed to the extreme.

He crumpled the pages of the book with one hand, and as his hands continued to tighten, there was a crisp "stab" sound, and the paper was torn to shreds.

The sound was like turning on a certain switch, and the beast in the cage jumped out.

Ji Nian lost control in an instant, and tore the thick original book to pieces. The paper was sharp, and he made a small cut in his hand, and saw traces of blood oozing from his slender, pale fingers in a short while. Wire.

But Ji Nianman didn't care, and even felt that it wasn't enough.

The pain in his heart was like a bottomless abyss, forcing him to do something more painful to divert his attention.

The book was torn to pieces.

Ji Nian got up and punched the wall beside him, one after another, all with full strength.

A few blood marks were gradually printed on the pink-white wall, and more and more of them gathered.

Ji Nian spared no effort to torture his own hands, but the physical pain could not alleviate the psychological suffering, and the whole person became more and more fragile and helpless.

His face was pale, his eye sockets were red, his wet eyelashes were drooping, and he was trembling slightly while taking in breath.

Ji Nian asked himself over and over again in his heart.

Why is it so useless?

……

After a few hours of light sleep in the early morning of Ji Nian, when he woke up, his whole body was shrouded in a huge gloom, and his mood was extremely depressed.

He understood what was going on.

If he is at home, Ji Nian will maintain a motionless posture, lie on the bed for a day, do nothing, just let himself be trapped in his emotions, and sink quietly, without anyone's help, and he doesn't want anyone to disturb him.

But today, Ji Nian is in the school dormitory, with Lu Xi by his side.

Ji Nian forced himself to get up, slowly tidied himself up, sat at the desk, and slowly relieved himself.

He thought he could make it through.

Then Lu Xi got up.

In the spare time of the year, I saw Lu Xi walking around, heard the sound of slippers rubbing against the ground, the sound of water flowing from the faucet, and the rustling sound of changing clothes... I began to feel anxious uncontrollably.

Any noise is undoubtedly a provocation to his delicate nerves.

At the same time, he was always worried about what he would reveal in front of Lu Xi, but the more worried he was, the more upset he became.

Ji Nian finally compromised with the abyss, and only hoped that Lu Xi would ignore him and leave directly, as if he couldn't see him, he just wanted to be alone.

But Lu Xi didn't do that.

When Lu Xi uttered the first sentence, Ji Nian was still able to handle it.

Lu Xi immediately asked the second sentence, and Ji Nian suddenly felt extremely bored in his heart, and even felt that Lu Xi was noisy.

Then he got angry at Lu Xi.

After Ji Nian drove Lu Xi away, he felt bad and his mood became more unstable.

Ji Nian kept hitting the wall until his hand was so painful that he became numb and lost consciousness, then he stopped.

He stood there for a while, finally calmed down, and then walked towards the bathroom with a drowsy face.

Ji Nian stood in front of the mirror, bent his back slightly, and turned on the faucet.

The young man's body is turned against the light outside the window, like an abstract oil painting with gloomy colors.

He was about to put his broken hand into the water, but he caught a glimpse of something faintly shining on the shelf beside him from the corner of his vision.

Ji Nian looked at it expressionlessly.

A sharp knife was placed on the glass - it was left by Xiao Ruiyang last night.

Looking at the knife, Ji Nian fell into a trance.

He had a thought that had been hidden in his heart for a long time, and at this moment he couldn't help but popped up.

When Ji Nian came back to his senses, the knife was already in his hand, and he was gesturing at his thin wrist and forearm.

The blood dripped on the white tile wall of the washbasin, and dark red flowers bloomed, and was washed away by the current.

Ji Nian looked at the wound on his arm almost obsessively, feeling a sense of relief.

He slid the edge of the knife to the inside of his wrist, slowly making a cut, and the blood flowed down meanderingly.

But just when Ji Nian was about to press down with his persistent sword, a distant and ethereal voice suddenly broke into his mind——

"What? Who do you like?"

"I like Lu Xi..."

"Huh?...Who likes Lu Xi?"

"I like……"

"His name is Lu Nan...I miss him..."

"I will be there when you are lonely, I will be there when you are sad, and I will be there when you are happy, so don't show a sad expression, you already have me...Lu Xi, I like you..."

"Who likes Lu Xi?"

"I."

With a bang, the knife fell into the sink.

Ji Nian clutched his wrist and exited the bathroom as if he had just woken up from a dream. He looked at the knife in the washbasin with fear in his eyes.

Between life and death.

He thought of Lu Xi, and the promise that night that no matter whether Lu Xi was sad or happy, he would be there.

Ji Nian squatted in the corner, with his back against the wall, touched his mobile phone with bloody hands, dialed the number, and said with a sob:

"I'm sorry, please come pick me up..."

……

Ji Bailun arrived at the dormitory fifteen minutes later.

Pushing open the door, the father and son looked directly at each other.

Ji Nian got up from the corner, covered his wrist with one hand, and stumbled towards Ji Bailun.

The young man's face was pale, his skin was so transparent that it seemed to disappear, blood was rubbed on one cheek, and his hands were covered with dull red.

Ji Bailun was furious, and was about to scold, asking how Ji Nian made himself like this!

But Ji Nian approached, and bumped his head into Ji Bailun's arms, his body was so weak that he couldn't support himself.

"..." Ji Bolun was taken aback, and instinctively wrapped his arms around the boy's waist, supporting him.

Ji Nian leaned against Ji Bailun and did not move.

Ji Bolun's jaw line was tense, with the intention of gnashing his teeth, and he couldn't say anything for a long time.

Ji Bolun tried his best to suppress his anger, his face was silent and gloomy, he took off his windbreaker and put it on Ji Nian, stopped Ji Nian's legs, picked him up, and walked out of the dormitory.

***

Lu Xi was kicked out of the dormitory by Ji Nian, and after eating a bowl of fried pork cutlet noodles in the cafeteria, he thought about it again.

He guessed that Ji Nian might be in a bad mood because something happened in the training camp because he came back halfway.

Lu Xi only thought that he accidentally hit the muzzle of the gun, but he didn't think too much about the others, and his mentality was once again Buddhist.

But Ji Nian didn't come to the classroom until the lunch break.

Lu Xi was lying on the table, her eyelids half drooped, looking tired and lazy.

He stared at the empty seat next to him, and after a long time, he suddenly got up and left the classroom.

Lu Xi plans to go back to the dormitory to have a look.

It is lunch break time on campus, and there are no people on the trails.

Lu Xi wandered all the way back to the dormitory, and when he pushed the door open, he didn't see Ji Nian.

gone back?

When Lu Xi walked into the room, he didn't find anything unusual, and there were no missing things from the year.

Lu Xi went to the table and sat down, leaned on the back of the chair, took out her mobile phone, opened WeChat, and swipe up and down the chat list.

Ji Nian did not leave him a message.

That being the case, Lu Xi didn't intend to take the initiative to ask.

Before exiting the interface, Lu Xi conveniently clicked into Ji Nian's circle of friends.

There have been no updates for nearly a month.

Lu Xi put down her mobile phone, then looked around the dormitory, thinking that today is Friday, and I just have time to move out after school.

Just at this moment, Lu Xi caught sight of something, his attention was attracted, and he looked intently.

On the wall next to the chronicle desk, there were a few blood-pink smears, as if they had been wiped or cleaned.

I don't know when it was printed.

Lu Xi thought it was a bit evil, but when she thought about it, she moved away soon, and didn't pay much attention to the bloodstains on the wall.

When the time was almost up, Lu Xi went downstairs.

As a result, when Lu Xi walked into the hall, he raised his eyes and saw through the glass door that there was a beautiful figure standing outside the dormitory building.

The girl was pacing back and forth with her hands behind her back and her head down.

Lu Xi walked out of the dormitory building, stopped, and looked lazily at the girl.

At this moment, the girl happened to be walking in the direction of Lu Xi, as if sensing something, she raised her head.

When she saw the person in front of her clearly, she suddenly burst into a sincere and beautiful smile:

"Hi."

"..." Lu Xi asked, "Waiting for someone?"

"Yes." The girl nodded and admitted generously, "I've been waiting for you for a long time."

Lu Xi: "..."

Lu Xi was only blocked by groups of boys, usually to provoke trouble.

Now instead of a beautiful girl waiting for him, Lu Xi expressed a little awkwardness.

wait for him?

What?

fight?

……

Liu Siyi waited for Lu Xi downstairs in the dormitory for a lunch break.

After the person came out, they walked towards the teaching building together.

Although the two are walking together, but because they don't know each other well, there is almost a person's distance between them.

"Lu Xi, are you avoiding me recently?" Liu Siyi said with a smile against the afternoon wind.

"..." Lu Xi didn't know how to answer.

To be more precise, it is not called hiding.

Ever since Ye Yubei's birthday party, Lu Xi would often see Liu Siyi's hesitant eyes, as if he really wanted to talk to him, but Lu Xi chose to ignore it.

Because Lu Xi didn't get the male lead's bed photo, he felt that he had nothing to talk about with the female lead.

Liu Siyi didn't hear the answer, so she turned her face to look at Lu Xi, and saw that the boy's face was expressionless, and there was always a cool expression on Qingjuan's face, she couldn't help but pursed her lips and smiled.

Liu Siyi said: "Thank you."

"Ah?" Lu Xi glanced at Liu Siyi, not knowing what she was talking about, but still said perfunctorily, "Oh."

Liu Siyi shrugged, took a deep breath, then suddenly relaxed, walking briskly, said: "I really hated you before, and I spread rumors about you in the forum, I'm sorry."

Lu Xi said, "...well."

"Aren't you angry?" Liu Siyi was surprised, and said, "I'm ready to make up for it."

"No need." Lu Xi said lightly, he never cared about those rumors.

Liu Siyi nodded and muttered, "You have such a good personality..."

"?????"

Good personality?

Lu Xi couldn't help but glance at Liu Siyi again.

A straight guy starts to notice that something isn't right.

Lu Xi thought that Liu Siyi wanted to talk to him about the calendar, but so far, there was no sign of that, and the topic seemed to revolve around him all the time.

"What do you want to talk about?" Lu Xi said directly.

Liu Siyi gave a strange "Huh?", looked at Lu Xi with clear eyes, and said, "That's all, thank you, and then apologize for those things in the past."

Lu Xi doubted: "... gone?"

"Hmm!" Liu Siyi smiled and said, "What else can I have?"

Lu Xi tried to remind: "Ji Nian..."

"Hey, can you not mention him?" Liu Siyi interrupted directly, and said, "If it weren't for the fact that he is a rich second generation and handsome, to be honest, I would be quite afraid of him."

"........."

Lu Xi was in a mess.

This plot...is not right.

Lu Xi buried his head and walked for a while, thinking all the way, and suddenly realized that the hero and heroine might be separated by him.

... I don't know if there will be retribution.

Lu Xi recalled the past, and guessed reasonably in his heart, maybe since he handled the bottle of fluoxetine, the emotional line between the hero and heroine has been distorted.

Suddenly thinking of something, Lu Xi asked Liu Siyi, "Is your condition stable?"

"..." Liu Siyi looked at Lu Xi with a speechless face, and asked in confusion, "What?"

"I know you're taking medicine." Lu Xi said lightly, "Fluoxetine, for depression... I won't have a problem with you."

Liu Siyi's face flushed, and she was silent for a while, then took out a transparent frosted bottle from her school uniform pocket, and said softly, "You... mean this?"

Lu Xi is familiar with this bottle, it may be the one he gave to Ji Nian at first, and later asked Ji Nian to give it to Liu Siyi.

Lu Xi said, "Yes."

Liu Siyi suddenly laughed awkwardly, struggled for a while, and confessed: "Actually... I eat it to lose weight... Although there are risks, it can suppress appetite. I have the kind of physique that can gain weight by drinking water... "

"?????"

"!!!!!!"

Lu Xi's world view was shattered again.

He always thought that the heroine had depression!

Without even thinking about it, Lu Xi blurted out: "Didn't you wait for Ji Nian to heal you?"

"Don't be funny, okay?" Liu Siyi said, "The calendar can only make me depressed."

"..." Lu Xi didn't know what to say for a moment.

Liu Siyi murmured complainingly, and said: "Last time he almost slapped my head... If I hadn't planned on him back then, I would have stayed far away..."

There was no words between the two of them for a while.

Liu Siyi stroked the body of the medicine bottle, and after a long time, asked in a low voice: "Lu Xi, to be honest, if there are two girls, one has a good-looking appearance, but her personality may not be so good, and the other has an interesting soul, but she looks good. Maybe it's not good-looking... As a man, which one would you choose as your girlfriend?"

"..."

Lu Xi thought.

I would probably choose Chronicle.

Good-looking and funny, except it's not a girl.

But since Liu Siyi asked this question, Lu Xi gave his opinion from a straight man's point of view, saying: "The personalities don't match, it's troublesome to get along with..."

Liu Siyi gave a "hmm", smiled from the bottom of his heart, and said with determination, "Understood."

Then, she raised the medicine bottle in her hand and was about to throw it towards the bushes in the distance.

At this time, Lu Xi added what was left unfinished, and said: "But I'm looking for a girlfriend, not a confidant, so I must choose one, and it will look good."

"…………"

Holding the medicine bottle, Liu Siyi paused, looked at Lu Xi in shock, couldn't help but swear, and said, "Damn... men are really big pigs."

But in the end, Liu Siyi still threw the bottle of medicine away.

"Lu Xi, I will never sacrifice my health again, and I will never compromise for other people's opinions."

"What determines my life is my acceptance and tolerance of myself, and the essence I want to stick to the most. Thank you for letting me see all this clearly..."

"Thank you, too, for standing in front of me at that time... You were the first person who was willing to lend a helping hand to me, thank you..."

***

"...Don't be so disgusting, okay?" Lu Xi said with goosebumps, "At that time, I really just wanted to pick up a mobile phone."

Liu Siyi: "..."

***

Ji Nian returned to school after half a month.

At that time, he felt that something was different.

When Ji Nian returned to school, it was Monday afternoon, and the students in Class [-] were going to physical education class.

Before going upstairs to the classroom, Ji Nian was unavoidably nervous, jumping up and down like a rabbit in his arms.

I haven't contacted Lu Xi for half a month, and Lu Xi didn't take the initiative to contact him.

Ji Nian didn't know if Lu Xi was still angry at his rudeness that day.

Feeling uneasy like this, he walked into the back door of Class [-]. Coincidentally, he bumped into Lu Xi who was about to go to physical education class.

When the two met, they were both a little dazed.

Ji Nian's heartbeat stalled for a while.

After meeting Lu Xi, he realized that his longing was a little more intense than he had imagined, and he was so moved when he first saw her that his eyes were almost red.

"Hi..." Because of Ji Nian's restraint, there was a bit of youthfulness in his smile.

It's just waiting for Lu Xi to say anything.

At this time, a gentle and laughing voice came from the front door:

"Lu Xi, the field is occupied, and the basketball is also borrowed."

Hearing the girl's voice, Ji Nian was sensitive, frowned slightly, looked towards the front door, but paused obviously.

The girl standing by the front door was Liu Siyi, with a basketball in her arms, but Liu Siyi was obviously rounder than before, and her skin was white and shiny.

In the past, Liu Siyi was very thin and looked full of immortality, but after only seeing her for half a month, she has obviously become...down to earth.

Ji Nian is wondering what happened in the past half month.

At this moment, Lu Xi glanced at Ji Nian indifferently, turned around and walked towards Liu Siyi without saying anything.

Lu Xi took the basketball and said, "Thank you."

Liu Si followed Lu Xi out and said, "Let's go, the water is ready for you..."

The two walked out of the classroom through the front door while chatting.

Just leave the calendar behind.

"........."

After a while, they also arrived at the basketball court. Peng Manman and Cheng Jue skipped class as usual and sat on the grass beside Ding Chang.

Seeing Ji Nian, Cheng Jue waved: "Baby, come here."

Ji Nian walked over, but didn't sit down, leaning against the street lamp beside him, staring at Lu Xi who was playing basketball not far away.

"Jinian, you are back." Peng Manman handed a cup of milk tea to Ji Nian.

Ji Nian didn't move, still looked at Lu Xi, and asked, "Did anything happen during my absence?"

"Yes, yes!" Peng Manman said excitedly, "It really is!"

Ji Nian turned his face to look at Peng Manman.

Peng Manman said, "I finally passed the monthly exam in November!"

"..." Ji Nian said indifferently, "Who wants to listen to you? I'll ask Lu Xi."

With an arrow in his heart, Peng Manman murmured in a low voice: "Could it be... as expected... I'm just being self-indulgent."

"What can Lu Xi do?" Cheng Jue stretched his long legs, swayed leisurely, took a sip of milk tea, saw through what Ji Nian was worried about, and said, "Don't worry, it's still your wife Lu Xi."

Ji Nian looked at the court again, only to catch another figure inadvertently.

Ji Nian looked at the person opposite.

It turned out that Liu Siyi was holding a SLR camera and taking pictures.

Ji Nian visually checked where the camera was aiming at, and the alarm bells immediately rang in his heart.

He found that the camera was on Lu Xi who was about to make a layup not far away.

On the opposite side, it seemed that a photo had been taken. Liu Siyi took off the SLR, covered the screen with his palm to block the light, and checked.

Then, a happy smile appeared on the corner of the girl's mouth.

Ji Nian stood up straight and lost his composure: "What does she mean?"

"What?" Cheng Jue didn't hear clearly.

Ji Nian was angry and anxious, looked at Cheng Jue, and said, "Do you dare to say that Liu Siyi didn't love me?"

"Pfft-"

"Pfft-"

Two sounds, Cheng Jue and Peng Manman spraying milk together...

tea.