Atypical Cafe Love

He looked at Ning Siqin's trembling lips, and finally he slowly lowered his voice back to the usual volume, "...I can't wait indefinitely, I need to know."

Ning Siqin smiled miserably: "So, are you giving an ultimatum?"

"Do you have to speak so harshly?"

"Is there a difference? That's what you mean!"

"...Okay." Chen Songmao said, "You can put it this way. I just want you to give me an exact deadline. In all fairness, is this too much? Since you and I have known each other, I have never said a word I'm hiding a thing from you."

He looked at Ning Siqin almost painfully: "...Why can't you treat me like this?!"

Ning Siqin pursed his lips tightly, until his lips turned pale with force, he looked at Chen Songmao for a moment, and then looked away: "Well, even if I believe you haven't checked me before, but since you don't believe me now Sincerely treat you, and don’t want to wait for me to explain myself, it seems that I have to check it myself?”

"I need to know about it," Chan said. "I don't want to, but I do if I have to. I'm not a saint — I can't turn a blind eye."

"Okay, since you have made up your mind, then you can do it yourself." Ning Siqin said, coldly making a gesture of seeing off the guests.Chen Songmao stared at him for a few seconds, stood up, walked out quickly, took two steps, and stopped abruptly: "—I want me to take you back——"

"Get lost!" Ning Siqin roared.Chen Songmao gritted his teeth, strode away without saying a word.The glass door creaked, and he opened it and left.Ning Siqin also stood up and walked away quickly, not towards the door, but towards the back kitchen of the store.

The shopkeeper had stood aside and looked at them earlier, with a worried look on her face.She almost trotted behind Ning Siqin, but she had no intention of stopping him.Ning Siqin strode into the staff lounge, it was time for lunch, the staff were busy, and there was no one in there.He slumped on the chair closest to the door, his head hanging.The female shopkeeper followed behind and closed the door with her backhand, and walked to him worriedly: "Siqin..."

"Sister." Ning Siqin said in a muffled voice, stretched out one hand for her to hold tightly, and stretched out the other hand under the sunglasses, covering her face.A line of water quickly slid down his wrist.

Chen Songmao did not go home.

He got into the car aimlessly, and chose the road with the fewest vehicles, because the only sliver of reason left made him realize that driving in his current emotional state might not be very safe.But he couldn't think of anything else to do.Along the way, he obeyed the traffic rules almost subconsciously by relying on his habitual reaction. When Chen Songmao came back to his senses, he was already outside the city.

He really wanted to continue driving like this, continue to pick the unmanned road, maybe the end point would be a reservoir outside the city, maybe a certain river and lake around City A, maybe he would reach a small county town after walking.But he reached out and fumbled in his briefcase for a long time before he remembered that he had lost his mobile phone in the theater. At that time, he was so angry with Assistant Zhuo that he turned around and left. Afterwards, he quarreled with Ning Siqin, and he had completely forgotten about it. The mobile phone thing.

This is different.Driving away alone, there is no way to get in touch—Chen Songmao is not such an irresponsible person.He parked the car on the side of the road, leaned on the steering wheel with his elbows, covered his face with his hands, and felt that his heart was blocked and empty, his mind seemed to be a mess, and it seemed to be blank.It was like on the eve of a sultry and humid rainstorm, his chest was heavy and out of breath, but his fingers were clearly cold.He wiped his hands across his face, inserted/into his hair, his head drooping, his forehead resting on the steering wheel.He wanted to get out of the car and run ten kilometers along the road, and he also wanted to go home and bury his head in a deep sleep for a day and a night, maybe he would wake up and find that it was just a dream.

He has never been in such pain.Maybe it's because before meeting Ning Siqin, he was never really emotional; after meeting Ning Siqin, he never doubted him.

Now that Ning Siqin was shaken, so was he.What happened to Ning Siqin when he was in college—something that damaged his reputation? This incident had a great impact on him, but Ning Siqin refused to let him know.So Chen Songmao didn't ask, Ning Siqin didn't talk.This shadow from the past became the elephant in the room, and they tacitly pretended it didn't exist.However, the conflict has always been lurking below the surface, and now it finally broke out.As long as Ning Siqin disagreed, he would make it clear that they would quarrel like this, not today, but one day.It is impossible for Chen Songmao to stay behind closed doors and never see any strangers again.

Now that they finally talked and quarreled, Chen Songmao also wanted to understand this matter.This is what he suffers from.Because this means that their differences today are not just caused by misunderstanding or coincidence, conflicts always exist, and the fuse of mistrust always exists.As long as Ning Siqin conceals it for a day, he will not be able to gain a complete sense of security from this relationship, and neither can Ning Siqin.

——But what reason does Ning Siqin have to keep procrastinating and refuse to explain to him personally for two years? !

He wants to believe in Ning Siqin, the credo he has adhered to for more than ten years in his life is not to doubt the people close to him because of groundless words.But now Ning Siqin's overly violent reaction made him have to have doubts - not only for him, but also for his own belief.Could it be that if he didn't abide by the promise of the day, but found out the truth first, he would not be so confused and unprepared in the face of Ning Siqin's sudden outburst today?

But if he doesn't trust Ning Siqin, can he blame Ning Siqin for not trusting him?

His mind was in a mess, and he sat silently in the car for a long time. When he raised his head, he realized that the tree shadows on the ground had elongated and shifted to another direction—it was already afternoon before he knew it.

He had never been so distraught since he was 16 years old.

Chen Songmao smiled wryly, started the car, and drove back slowly.

This time his mood was a little more stable, and he tried his best to maintain his composure and drove home.As soon as the elevator door opened, he was startled: Zhao Su was leaning on the door frame to play with his mobile phone, looked up and saw him coming, then reached out and took out a mobile phone and threw it in his direction.Chen Songmao narrowly snatched it in his hand, feeling a little guilty: "How long have you been waiting?"

"About half an hour." Zhao Su was playing a game on his mobile phone and said without raising his head, "The theater staff found your mobile phone when they were sweeping the floor, and they called your mother for emergency dialing, and my aunt asked me to get it A trip..."

While talking, the game is over.Zhao Su raised his head with a smile, and saw Chen Songmao's expression, all the indecent expressions disappeared immediately: "What's the matter?"

Chen Songmao smiled wryly, took out the key and opened the door.As soon as he entered the door, he felt that something was wrong. After carefully looking around the entire living room, he suddenly realized what was wrong, and almost staggered back a step.

In just these few hours, Ning Siqin had already moved away all his belongings.Books, music scores, music stands, clothes, trinkets, not even those plush toys were left behind, and the room was restored to its cleanliness and indifference before he moved in.On the countertop at the door, there was a note on the spare key: [You can pick up your things yourself, remember to return the key. 】

This was so unfeeling, Chen Songmao never expected that he could break it so simply, decisively and cruelly, he was so shocked that he couldn't speak for a moment.Zhao Su took the note and looked at it, and was also shocked: "What's wrong? You two broke up?! What's the situation?"

Chen Songmao was silent for a moment—he didn't know where to start, and he hadn't recovered from Ning Siqin's cruelty.Zhao Su put his arms around his shoulders and pulled him out the door: "All right. Let's go, I'll take you out for a walk."

City A is not near the sea, but it is very close to the sea.A big river in the outskirts of the city passes by. When the weather is fine, standing on the embankment, you can even vaguely see its mouth into the sea, or maybe it’s just the imagination of the viewer-Chen Songmao visited it several times when he was still in middle school. Here, I have never encountered the weather that "can see the mouth of the sea".

Today is not such a good weather.Zhao Su casually bought two boxes of snacks for dinner, took two cans of beer, and went to the embankment with Chen Songmao.On weekdays, there is no one on the embankment, it is empty, only the sound of Jiang is there.They sat until the sky was dark, Zhao Su asked: "Tell me in detail, what happened?"

Chen Songmao sorted out his language, starting with Ning Siqin's abnormal phone call on Monday night, and slowly recounted the whole thing.He has always been a very restrained person, but now he has tried his best and still can't be objective. He often expresses confusion in his sentences, and at the end he still couldn't help raising his voice a little when he talked about the inexplicable quarrel with Ning Siqin.Zhao Su rarely listened to the whole process in silence, and asked, "So, what do you think now?"

"...I don't know." Chen Songmao raised his hand to cover his face, "I shouldn't doubt him, but I can't trust him as firmly as before. He almost admitted that he had something when he was in D tone You don't want me to know, if you know, you will break up."

"If you want me to say, there has never been such a thing as 'shouldn't suspect him'." Zhao Su said, "It's not that I'm partial to you, Songmao, you are already a clean stream among human beings. What normal person would you be?" When you encounter this kind of thing, you promised him the day before, and then secretly checked it, okay? You have waited for a year, and now you still feel that you shouldn’t doubt him. You were given some kind of ecstasy by him ?"

"I still don't think he is such a person, I would not be so blind." Chen Songmao said.

"Beauty is in the eye of the beholder! You know people, you know their faces, but you don't know their hearts! You fell in love with him at first sight. When have you ever looked at him objectively?" Zhao Su said, "If this happened to me, to anyone, if this You saw an 818 post on the Internet, and the host said that her boyfriend had concealed so many things from him. What do you think? Don’t talk about fearful rumors, don’t say that he might be wronged, just from the perspective of probability, make a rational inference .What do you think?"

"...If it happened to other people, I would say that he is probably indeed a scumbag." Chen Songmao said in a low voice, "But Siqin—but when it comes to an individual, you can't make a conclusion based on probability alone -"

"I didn't make a conclusion. However, you can't just conclude that he must be a good person!" Zhao Su said, "You have to investigate, right? Since there is such a possibility, you must first rule out the risk, right? Isn't it? Look at his current attitude, it's obvious that he doesn't intend to tell you, he said it himself and let you investigate it yourself. Then what worries do you have?"

Chen Songmao was silent for a while, and he was also asking himself: Yes, what worries do I have now?In the final analysis, he is not a rigid and pedantic person who does not know how to adapt. Now that he is going to investigate Ning Siqin's past, it is not unreasonable or even immoral to do it out of emotion and reason.

The answer he got was a bit surprising to him, but he felt it was reasonable: Ning Siqin once said that if he took the initiative to check D Yin's past, they would break up immediately.

——As of now, he is angry, skeptical, and bewildered.

But he still didn't want to break up with Ning Siqin.