Atypical Cafe Love

When Ning Siqin was finally involved, it was time for the situation to calm down.Those who are still paying attention at this time are only those who are closely related - such as Zhuo Huarong's classmates, colleagues, and friends; such as the relatives and friends of his wife who was cheated into marriage by him.As for others, read the gossip when things are hot, and forget about them when they are cold.

At this time, the girl who was said to have been cheated by Ning Siqin - Ye Xuantong who has now immigrated to the United States suddenly posted a long article in her space almost silently.The time of publication is daytime in the United States and early morning in China.It still caused a sensation in the circle of D tone alumni before the working hours in the morning.

That was the only long post that Ning Siqin read carefully from beginning to end in the whole incident.On Wednesday evening, Chen Songmao went out to tune the piano for others, and he read the long confession slowly on the computer at home.In the post of thousands of words, Ye Xuantong described the truth of the year and her psychological process afterwards in great detail.

【…At that time, Zhuo Huarong called me and asked me if I had read the school forum. I said I hadn’t, and he asked me to check it immediately.I was chasing dramas at the time, and I was a little angry, saying why did you ask me to watch it, and I just went to watch it.He said, "I know you're gay."

I was petrified at the time, feeling like a bucket of ice water was poured down, I didn't dare to resist him, so I went to the forum to read the post, and I saw it.At that time, there were only two or three posts on Hei Ning Siqin, so I quickly read all the main posts.Zhuo Huarong didn't hang up the phone the whole time. I told him that I had finished reading, and he said, I'm not allowed to post, I'm not allowed to speak for Ning Siqin, and I can't tell him about it, otherwise, he will use the same method Come hack me.

I was really scared and cried. Everyone else in our dormitory had gone to class. I cried and begged him not to do this. He said that he only wanted to get revenge on Ning Siqin. As long as I shut up, he could keep it secret for me. ...I asked when I could tell him, and he said that it would be three days later, but I was absolutely not allowed to say a word for him...]

[...I blame myself every day, really, I have been unable to forget this matter for ten years.Now that I immigrated to the United States, I have gradually understood that homosexuality is not a disease, and I can accept my own sexuality.I saw this incident again recently, and finally mustered up the courage to explain everything.I don't know if the other things are true or not, but he did not do the things mentioned above, nor did he deceive me.I don't know where Ning Siqin is now, how she is doing, if you can see, I want to say, I'm really very, very sorry, I was too timid at the time, and I have no other excuses to defend myself, but I really, really never stopped feeling guilty for a day.I don't know how you have been in the past ten years, I hope you are doing well now...]

Yes, after Ning Siqin went abroad in her sophomore year, Ye Xuantong also went abroad in her junior year, and later settled in the United States.Of course she didn't know what he had been like in the past ten years - she didn't know that on the eve of going abroad, his well-maintained violin was thrown out of the dormitory window viciously and broke in two; , Tears dripped into the river; I don't know that every time he walks through the campus, he is always afraid of meeting other Chinese students.The ex-boyfriend who had been intimate the day before suddenly turned his back on him, turned on the tablet, pointed at the familiar forum interface and angrily spit out a series of questions in English, none of which had anything to do with Ye Xuantong.

Ning Siqin knew that she was also a victim.But this kind of thing cannot be smoothed over with a simple apology-the matter has indeed passed.But he couldn't forgive so easily.

Losing the mood to continue reading comments, he closes the page and lays down on the bed in a daze: This is a shadow that has haunted him for ten years. It once covered his whole life without any hope, and now this shadow is about to disappear. When it disappeared, he didn't feel excited or joyful, nor did he feel wronged or sad, but suddenly felt a little empty, as if he didn't believe that he could get rid of it so easily.

Ning Siqin didn't realize that he had fallen asleep unknowingly until he heard the door knock.He rubbed his eyes and sat up, walked out of the bedroom, Chen Songmao had just put down his briefcase, when he looked up and saw his messy hair: "Have you taken a nap so far?"

"I fell asleep before I knew it." Ning Siqin looked at his watch as he said, and realized that it was almost five o'clock, "Didn't you only arrange one tune in the afternoon, so troublesome?"

"I went to do something by the way." Chen Songmao seemed to be in a good mood, and said with a smile, "You asked me last time, remember?"

Ning Siqin immediately remembered.Indeed, before they quarreled, Chen Songmao had said what he was going to do, but he refused to tell him.At that time, he mistakenly thought that Chen Songmao was secretly checking his past, but now he knew it was not. He was reminded again, and immediately became curious again: "Can we talk about it now?"

"I'll tell you tonight." Chen Songmao said with a smile, "By the way, I have other things to discuss with you."

"There are only a few hours left, and you want to whet my appetite?" Ning Siqin complained inappropriately.He still had a few hours of patience, so he washed his face and went to practice the piano, while Chen Songmao went to the kitchen to cook.He took a lot longer to prepare this meal than usual. When Ning Siqin entered the restaurant, he was startled by several dishes on the table: "What day is today?"

He immediately recalled: The birthday of the two of them?first encounter?Sure relationship?It seems neither.Shouldn't it be commemorating United Nations Day?Chen Songmao smiled and shook his head: "It's not a special day. It's just that I suddenly want to make it richer."

He pulled out the chair and sat down. Ning Siqin became even more curious when he noticed that his briefcase had also been carried to the dining table.After eating, Chen Songmao took away the dishes and served two small dishes of dessert.Ning Siqin was extremely curious: "What are you going to talk about, so special?"

"Can't you wait?" Chen Songmao asked.Ning Siqin nodded, and took the initiative to push the dessert plate aside.So Chen Songmao took out a folder from his briefcase and handed it over: "I want to show you this."

This development was completely beyond Ning Siqin's expectations. He opened the folder in doubt, and pulled out a large stack of documents - the top one was even a real estate certificate, "What is this?"

As he spoke, he lowered his head and flipped through the real estate certificate, and then he was stunned - the owner of the real estate certificate originally only had Chen Songmao's name, but now he added another one - Ning Siqin's name .He looked up at Chen Songmao in disbelief: "You—"

Chen Songmao smiled calmly and motioned him to continue looking down.Ning Siqin stared blankly at the real estate certificate for a while, then put it aside, and turned his gaze to the document below: a copy of the insurance policy, he and Chen's parents have been added as beneficiaries of the insurance.Below is the property notarization, and the chromosome inspection report.The last document made Ning Siqin gasp in fright: the will.

For a moment he almost thought that Chen Songmao was terminally ill or something, but luckily he realized it quickly and knew it was not.The distribution of the estate was listed in the will in great detail, and Ning Siqin's share was almost in accordance with the legally recognized spouse status.The will has been notarized, Ning Siqin read a few lines, and soon felt hot in his eyes, he didn't dare to read it carefully, and turned over ten lines at a glance.

"Siqin." Chen Songmao called him across the table, and when Ning Siqin looked up, he realized that he had pushed a small black velvet box in front of him at some point.Ning Siqin's lips trembled, his heart beat wildly, he vaguely guessed something, but couldn't believe it: "You are..."

"According to the law, I cannot formally marry you. But in my heart we are more than just cohabiting. Although the marriage law cannot recognize it, I still hope that I can share joys and sorrows with you, and can share everything. To make up for this deficiency." Chen Songmao slowly opened the box, revealing two plain silver rings side by side inside, "Siqin, are you willing to marry me?"

Not only was Ning Siqin seeing her for the first time in her life, but it was also the first time she heard that she proposed with a real estate certificate and a will.He was a little funny, but he was more moved beyond words.He couldn't believe his voice at the moment, but with tears in his eyes, he nodded affirmatively to Chen Songmao.Chen Songmao picked up a ring and put it on the ring finger of his left hand for him.With trembling fingers, Ning Siqin picked up the other one and put it on for him as well.

"I know this method of proposal may be too ingenious." They looked at each other silently for a while, Chen Songmao said, avoiding Ning Si and Qin Zhuozhuo's eyes as if embarrassed, "But you know that I am It’s impossible for such a person to come up with a very romantic confession—and I don’t want to make a fuss in front of you. So I think, it’s better to just leave it like this, if it can make you smile, it’s worth it.”

Ning Siqin trembled and took two deep breaths, and finally he was able to speak: "You said earlier that you have something to do...so you are going to do these things?"

"That's right." Chen Songmao just calmed down, but now he blushed slightly and nodded, "Fortunately, I can do all these things by myself, and you don't need to be present, otherwise I couldn't give you such a surprise today .”

Ning Siqin smiled and stood up suddenly: "Wait a minute."

He gestured to Chen Songmao to sit there and wait, and hurried away.After a sound of opening and closing drawers, Ning Siqin hurried back with his hands behind his back.

"I didn't expect to prepare such a complete certificate for you." He said, suddenly raised his hand in front of him, and handed a small red book to Chen Songmao, "But this may be a small surprise .”

That is also a real estate certificate.Chen Songmao opened it, and quickly realized that it was the house next door to him that Ning Siqin had just bought and hadn't finished remodeling—the owner's place had two names lined up side by side.

But for this house, Ning Siqin clearly never asked him to pay for it.

The king's heart is like my heart, and he lives up to his lovesickness.

Is there anything better in this world than this?

Chen Songmao stood up suddenly, and hugged Ning Siqin tightly, and Ning Siqin also hugged him back.He didn't even put down the real estate certificate in his hand, and the corners of the small book were pressed against Ning Siqin's back through his clothes, and he suddenly felt at ease and peaceful.

The public opinion on the Internet has not completely subsided, and the rumors against him have not been completely cleared.But he suddenly had a sense of the reality of those events at the same time, and he also had the feeling that the dust had settled.

The past is all over.Everything is fine now.

"Whenever, come back to City D with me." He said softly to Chen Songmao, "Meet my parents too."

☆, end

By the time the first snow falls, winter is already halfway through.

City A is in the south, and there is little snow in winter.Ning Siqin couldn't go out for a morning run in the morning, so he could only practice boxing at home, and he was still quite happy all day long.When Chen Songmao arrived home in the evening, he saw Ning Siqin poking his head out of the piano room with a smile on his face: "I have some good news to tell you."

"Really? I also have good news." Chen Songmao said.

"You speak first?"

"The divorce lawsuit between Zhuo Huarong and his ex-wife finally ended a while ago." Chen Songmao said, "Today I heard that he fled the country."

"Are you still thinking about him?" Ning Siqin laughed, "Forget it, it's not worth worrying about."

"No worries, I'm quite happy." Chen Songmao said, "What's your good news?"

"I'm now the chief violinist of Galaxy No. [-]," Ning Siqin said.

In terms of his level, he is actually comparable to the chief, but he joined the group later, and the chief is not a frequently changing seat, and usually does not change, so he can only feel wronged and become an ordinary member.Now that he was suddenly promoted to the chief, Chen Songmao was both surprised and delighted: "What about the original chief? Has Dai Fangquan left the group?"

"She has a chance to go abroad for further studies, maybe she will directly join a high-level troupe in Europe." Ning Siqin said with a smile.

Chen Songmao nodded. Dai Fangquan was a very nice girl and had a good relationship with both of them. Now that she had a better chance, he was really happy.He was going to put the briefcase away, but he paused halfway, picked it up again and took two steps to the side, before putting it on the sofa safely - they just moved back from Ning Siqin's house to live in a house that had already been opened, Chen Songmao is not used to the sudden change of furniture.However, after opening the piano room, the piano room has become much more spacious, and the kitchen and living room have also been remodeled and redecorated. Now when you walk in the door, you will never recognize the living room in front of you as the room that only had black, white and blue tones three years ago. .

Ning Siqin leaned on the door frame, still holding the violin in his hand, and smiled gloatingly.Chen Songmao himself laughed, but he was quietly paying attention to him——When Ning Siqin joined Yinhe, Yinhe was not as famous as it is now, and it was a bit inferior.Originally, his level could have entered a more excellent government symphony orchestra, but because of his sexuality, he was rejected by the conservative chief.Now that Dai Fangquan has quit the band, he may join a better symphony orchestra in the future. I don't know if he will be reminded of this.He took a closer look, and seeing that Ning Siqin really didn't show any concern, he was secretly relieved.

"I haven't finished the news yet." Ning Siqin smiled, and continued, "In two months, our troupe may be going abroad to perform - it should be right after the Spring Festival holiday. Do you have time then? ?”

For piano tuners, the holidays of ordinary people are always busy time. After all, it is always convenient to wait for the client to tune the piano at home.However, Chen Songmao is quite famous in City A now, so it is not a problem to push a few orders: "Do you want me to go abroad with you? Or is there something else?"

"It's just a sudden whim..." Ning Siqin said slowly, "Would you like to go to London with me?"

Yinhe's performance abroad this time is just an exchange performance, not an art festival or competition, but everyone in the troupe put in a lot of effort early on to prepare.In order to reward everyone, the head of the group specially booked a hotel for an extra day. After the performance, he would have one day free to wander around London.

In fact, there was no need to wait until the next day. On the night after the performance, everyone gathered in groups and went to play separately.Ning Siqin took Chen Songmao for a walk around the West End of London, but did not enter any theater.As he walked, he suddenly pointed to a theater across the street: "That's where I first heard the Les Miserables musical."

Chen Songmao nodded, not knowing what to say, he reached out and took his hand.In China, they rarely do this. Ning Siqin looked back at him with a smile in his eyes and did not break free.They held hands and walked all the way. When they reached the river, it was already dark. Chen Songmao took out his mobile phone to check the time. Ning Siqin asked, "Are you afraid you will be late?"

"If it's late, I'll send a text message to Commander Zhou," Chen Songmao said.

"Then will you be scolded for me?" Ning Siqin asked with a smile, raised his clasped hands, and gently wiped Chen Songmao's gloves with his lips, "Only by this, I can marry you."

They chatted for a while lying on the bridge railing, talking about very casual topics.No one mentioned it, but Chen Songmao knew in his heart that maybe this was the place where 20-year-old Ning Siqin thought about jumping off.Until now, this thought still made him faintly afraid, and he didn't respond as quickly to Ning Siqin's words as usual.Ning Siqin seemed to notice that he was absent-minded, and the two of them stopped talking slowly.After listening to the sound of cars and water for a while, Ning Siqin suddenly asked: "Do you want to wait here for the sunrise?"

"Now? Waiting here overnight will freeze to death." Chen Songmao said, suddenly remembered: "Wait, when you watched the sunrise here, it wasn't winter, right?!"

"I knew you were absent-minded, you must be thinking about this." Ning Siqin smiled, "Don't worry, it's not."

He turned around and walked back.Chen Songmao was eager to leave this place that made him both terrified and distressed, so he hurriedly followed.This time it was Ning Siqin who took the initiative to hold his hand.

"What are you worried about?" he said with a smile, his eyes reflecting the bright light of the street lamps. "The past is the past. I walked over and met you."

They walked back to the hotel hand in hand.No one on the road cast strange glances at their clasped hands, as if they were an ordinary couple, which is a matter of course in the world.

Finish

The author has something to say: there will be a side story from Ning Siqin's perspective later on.

Although this article breaks through the arctic ocean and reaches Antarctica, as the first original article, there are many shortcomings, but I like it very much, and I am very happy to write it!Thank you xuelinpei for your comments all the way~

☆, Ning Siqin episode 1

On the other end of the phone, her cousin Qin Ruohan was still talking, but her voice had gradually degenerated into a meaningless buzzing background sound.Ning Siqin hung up the phone abruptly, and slammed the phone on the table.He finally recovered his senses and looked at the shards of glass under his feet, then turned his gaze to the room.

His house is no longer what it used to be. The books belonging to Chen Songmao are piled up on the corner of the coffee table, a small piano model is placed in the corner for decoration, and there are several long perfume lilies in the big vase in the corner, half-opened and half-opened. Thank you, he bought it with Chen Songmao last time on a whim.No matter how you look at it, this is a room full of warmth.

However, at this moment Ning Siqin scanned the entire room slowly, but his eyes were full of bewilderment and panic.

Again, he thought, again.

He is leaving me.Chen Songmao is leaving me too.

—I'm going to lose him.

Ning Siqin met Jack at the age of 22 in England.At that time they rented the same apartment and were neighbors upstairs and downstairs. Jack is a fan of China. He was ecstatic when he discovered that Ning Siqin knew Chinese Kung Fu. He clings to him like a husky wagging his tail all day long, wanting to learn Chinese Kung Fu and this and that.Even though they are the same age, Ning Siqin is lifeless every day, while Jack is frolicsome, lively, outgoing and self-sufficient, he is a very standard--a sunny young man whose standard may be a bit too much.

Ning Siqin had no way to refuse him.Not only could he not refuse, he quickly plunged into it.

In hindsight, maybe it wasn't true love, but at the time he was dependent on Jack.To describe it in more literary terms, Jack and music were the only two lights in his life at that time.Their passionate love period lasted for three years. For two years, the two were almost like conjoined twins. They never separated all day long. Until the year Ning Siqin graduated, the two sides were preparing for graduation, thesis, and returning to/going abroad. Things like that, the time they stick together is getting less and less.

Therefore, Ning Siqin should have noticed when Jack was no longer so attached to him.But maybe it's because the love period is too long, maybe he trusts Jack too much, and he has no doubts at all.On the third day after they returned to City D, Jack ran away all day long without knowing where he was going. Ning Siqin asked him curiously: "You have made new friends after only a few days in China?"

"Honey, I'm preparing for something." Jack raised a finger to his lips seriously, "I'll keep it a secret from you now, okay? I want to surprise you."

Ning Si Qin Xin readily agreed.Five days later, Jack asked him to go out, and Ning Siqin sat down opposite him with eyes full of curiosity, joy and anticipation, and asked with a smile, "What is it, can you finally tell me?"

Jack's face was frosty, and he pushed the tablet over on the table.Ning Siqin turned to the screen with a smile, glanced at it, and thought that this page seemed quite familiar.With a second glance, he finally saw the title of the post clearly.

No words can describe his mood at that time.

It's like a basin of icy water poured down suddenly on the hottest day of summer, like a hero who has overcome thorns and thorns and dies on the last page of the book, like the strings of a piano are broken at the peak/tide of the music, and each broken string draws a bloodstain on the tip of the heart. Jack on the opposite side of the table began to question like a machine gun, but Ning Siqin seemed to have suddenly lost his English ability, unable to understand a single word.He said almost hastily: "No, it's not—where did you see it? It's not like this, let me explain—"

It took him a few words before he realized that he had been speaking Chinese, which Jack was not familiar with, and when he gritted his teeth and desperately wanted to switch back to English, Jack got up angrily, shook his hands and left.Ning Siqin rushed up and grabbed his arm: "Wait! Jack, please—"

At this time, half of his arrogance has been polished away, but after all, it has not been completely worn out. The remaining edges and corners are rubbed against the two square characters, and Kadening Siqin feels pain all over his body, "Please You, let me explain—”

Jack yelled back at him, "I don't need an explanation! You lied to me for three years!"

He struggled to free his arm and rushed out without looking back.Ning Siqin chased after three steps, but was caught by the clerk who chased after him: "Sir, sir, you haven't paid yet!!"

He paid the money, and called and texted Jack desperately all the way back, but Jack never answered.When he got home, there was only one suitcase alone in his room, and Jack's one had disappeared.Only then did he suddenly realize that for the past five days, Jack had been quietly packing his things—just for this day, he would leave as soon as he could pick up his things, and not let Ning Siqin chase him at all. Chance.

In the past five days, he thought they were still sweet, but in fact, Jack has been secretly collecting evidence behind his back that can prove that he is a liar and a scumbag, and he is only waiting for this day to have a showdown with him and berate him for everything. Fan, and then leave.Every happy smile of his these days, every suggestion of going out and going in with him, in Jack's eyes, do you think he looks like a fool?Could it be that Jack smiled at him on the surface, but was secretly sick in his heart?

This fact is easy to infer from reason, but it is too difficult to accept.

Ning Siqin locked herself in the room for three days.Three days later, when he opened the door again and came out, he had already lost a lot of weight.He said, "I'm leaving City D."

His parents were waiting for him in the living room, and no one spoke to stop him."Have you got a goal?" asked the father.

Ning Siqin shook his head.

"Then how about going to City A?" The mother's eyes were red, and her voice was slightly hoarse, "Your cousin is also in City A."

Ning Siqin has two uncles.The second uncle had passed away in an accident, and the cousin of the uncle's family was named Qin Ruohan, who opened a coffee shop in City A.So he went to City A, and at first he only performed in cafes, and later he joined the Galaxy Chamber Orchestra.Three years later, because the performers of the Yayun Cafe went out temporarily, he happened to be free, and was caught by his cousin to take over the class.

Soon, he met Chen Songmao.

At the beginning, he only regarded Chen Songmao as an ordinary guest, but the situation changed quickly. Chen Songmao came here frequently, sat in a fixed place every day, ordered a cup of flower and fruit tea, sat for several hours, and listened to his performance specially. one night.As if chasing him, but politely keeping a considerable distance, giving him room to take the initiative.Quickly, curiosity turned into interest, interest turned into goodwill, and goodwill sparked eagerness to try again. He became the first person Ning Siqin was tempted by in three years.

But this good impression only lasted to the last day of Yayun performance, when he saw a familiar car following in the rearview mirror of the taxi.

At first, Ning Siqin thought it was just a side trip.But after several intersections and several turns, the car followed persistently.Finally, seeing that he had already arrived at the door of his house, Ning Siqin finally stopped taking chances: "Master, please drive faster, the car behind has followed all the way."

The master speeded up according to his words, and asked curiously: "Yo, you are still following, young man, what is your background?"

"Ex-boyfriend." Ning Siqin said casually, but he immediately realized that this was not a very good lie, the way the driver looked at him immediately changed, and became the kind of eyes he was already very familiar with.Probably tonight, this matter will become his talking point: "I picked up a gay man today! And I was followed by my ex-boyfriend! Tsk tsk, the gay circle is not serious."

But at least, the driver master didn't say anything in front of him, took his money normally and left.Ning Siqin waited on the side of the road at the entrance of the community, but did not go home directly: the place where he asked the master to get rid of the car behind was already too close, counting from that intersection, this is the nearest residential community, the other side If you're really following him, it's easy to start here first.When Ning Siqin was in college, he was stalked by classmates with a strong sense of justice, trying to harass his family by human fleshing his home address. Although he failed, he didn't want to have that experience again.

What's more, if Chen Songmao is really a perverted stalker—even though Ning Siqin is very reluctant to admit this possibility—it means that he may still search for all information about him based on his name.Then he will inevitably be disappointed because Ning Siqin does not match his imagination.Ning Siqin knew how powerful this disappointment was. It would be even more terrifying if this force would drive a psychopath to do something. He didn't want to take the risk.

After waiting for a while, he saw the familiar car, and there was indeed Chen Songmao in the car.

He forced the car to a stop, Chen Songmao rolled down the window, showing a surprised expression, and following Ning Siqin's questioning, he showed some helplessness, and frantically showed him the parking pass, saying that he also lived here.Ning Siqin just wanted to keep a distance from him at this moment, so he took a step back and didn't pick it up: "What a coincidence."

Chen Songmao's brows were almost knotted, and his face showed distress and helplessness that was so sincere that no one could believe it: "How can I prove that you can believe me?"

His face was facing the streetlight, his eyes were bright, and his face was full of sincerity. Ning Siqin originally wanted to say a few threatening words, but at this moment he suddenly changed his mind and took back all the more ruthless words: "You don't have to prove it to me What. I'm just here to make sure we don't 'just happen' to live in the same building."

This is basically the most conciliatory tone he can achieve in this situation.Chen Songmao sighed and drove the car forward.Ning Siqin watched his car drive for a long time, until the car turned and headed towards the garage, and it would be impossible to get out unless it turned back the same way, so he turned around and slowly walked towards the second district Walk.

Although the sprained ankle was better, there was still a slight tingling pain every time I took a step.Ning Siqin gritted his teeth and came back from the second district, already drenched in sweat.When he was waiting for the elevator downstairs, he was still thinking about this matter, and the emotions in his heart mixed into two wonderful opposites: on the one hand, he was completely angry at Chen Songmao, and this anger came from deep disappointment: I I thought you were not such a person.

On the other hand, apart from anger, this kind of disappointment seems to be mixed with Chen Songmao's overly sincere expression, giving rise to his illogical hope: Maybe, it is such a coincidence that he really lives here?

The next day, he went to ask the guard at the door - about the only advantage of long hair is that he would be quickly remembered by the guard and security.He ordered a takeaway, then pretended to go downstairs to do some errands and wait for the takeaway, and chatted with the security guard at the door.He soon found out that the car did live in this community, because the car had to go in and out every day, sometimes several times a day, and the security guard was very sure, saying that it would never be wrong.

In other words, he had wrongly blamed Chen Songmao——Ning Siqin breathed a sigh of relief, feeling so relaxed that he didn't even think of it.Then there was only the question of how to apologize to him. He was inexplicably confident in this question, perhaps because Chen Songmao had never been a person who cared about every detail.

However, how to apologize has become a difficult problem.Ning Siqin had just misunderstood that Chen Songmao was following him, so he couldn't turn around and inquire about him behind his back—he couldn't open the mouth.I can only wait for when I meet again in the community, and I can take this opportunity to solve this misunderstanding.But he waited for half a month, but he still failed to meet Chen Songmao.

In the end, it was Zheng Zijun who approached the door first with a folder.

He always felt that it was one of the luckiest things in his life.

He should have known that such luck would not last long.

Completely forgetting about the shards of glass at the door, Ning Siqin put down the piano case and subconsciously walked towards the bedroom.He took off his shoes and shrank to the bed, pulled the blanket beside him to wrap his body, stared at the front in a daze, his eyes did not fall on any specific things.

—Again?Do you want to come again?

Chen Songmao's frankness has always given him the greatest sense of security.From the beginning of the two of them, even from the time when Chen Songmao first mentioned his name, the information exchange between the two of them has always been unequal - Ning Siqin actually knows this, but he has never had the confidence to continue. Tell Chen Songmao about his past.But Chen Songmao didn't seem to care, and still revealed everything to him.If Ning Siqin didn't know anything, if he asked, he would answer.He always exposed more and deeper, so deep that it made Ning Siqin jealous—a person who dared to confess like this must have never been stabbed in such a deep place and bled.

But at this moment, Chen Songmao's frankness brought him the greatest fear.In the past, whether it was disagreements, quarrels, or doubts, Chen Songmao always asked questions bluntly.If he has already started to hide this matter, it probably means that he no longer regards Ning Siqin as a person worthy of being honest.That probably means that it can no longer be recovered.He can still try to redeem Jack, he can send him long text messages or facebook messages, even when he lowers his posture and typed out those pleading and justifying words, every keystroke of his finger hits his self-esteem and pride hard hit.But Chen Songmao treated him perfectly, and he couldn't find any flaws.Chen Songmao was going to accuse him, and he couldn't even find the confidence to quarrel.

Maybe Chen Songmao wasn't checking him?As soon as this thought came up, Ning Siqin vetoed it.If he told Zhao Su about the D City Conservatory, he still needed an explanation; so what about Chen Songmao's appointment with Jack?He knew that Jack had returned to China and made a new boyfriend, and it was not easy to find him.Chen Songmao didn't have any contact with him before, and the circle of friends of the two of them didn't extend to the UK. Unless he deliberately searched, how could he find Jack?

He sat there in a state of confusion for a long time before he remembered, took out his cell phone and sent a text message to Chen Songmao: [I'm a little tired today, I'm going to bed first. 】

Chen Songmao replied almost immediately: [Are you feeling unwell?Have you had dinner yet? 】

Ning Siqin looked at the two short questions on the screen and bit her lip hard.This is still Chen Songmao's usual care and consideration, but in his eyes now, everything is different, everything is different—is he caring?Is he sincere or is he perfunctory?Has he already believed those people's words at this moment and treats me as a joke, or does he still have some leeway?

——All these thoughts finally boiled down to a question: Do I still have a chance to convince him of my explanation?

☆, Ning Siqin episode 2

The next morning, Chen Songmao came with breakfast.

Ning Siqin watched him rush into the bedroom as if terrified, and heaved a sigh of relief when he saw him, and brought the porridge in.Even if he had spent a full night doing mental construction, seeing Chen Songmao's glance was enough to shake his entire determination: maybe he still didn't believe it?Maybe he still wants to hear my explanation?If I take the initiative to bring up this topic... Is there any possibility of redemption?

It was a ridiculous, senseless hope, almost a fluke.He has already suffered such a loss once, and he shouldn't fall in the same place a second time.But Chen Song