lost spark

As usual, Qu Yixiao stood at a fixed place at the school gate and waited for Ye Ting to finish class. It was dusk and it was not time to turn on the street lights. They had to go home together through the street with fallen maple leaves and the long road. alley.

I am used to walking on the bluestone slabs of the path, because too many people have stepped on them, and some of them are broken and collapsed. The small stones make small noises against the soles of the shoes. Walking from the entrance of the alley to the depths, the breeze becomes more humid and hot.

The two holding hands tacitly got into the narrower and darker alley on the right. Qu Yixiao covered his head with his school uniform, and his vision was plunged into darkness. Qu Yixiao said that if a passer-by finds out, they will run as hard as they can, but now All it takes is a bold kiss.

Just released from the panting under the school uniform, the atmosphere was hesitant to talk, no one would have thought that Liang Jieyun, who was supposed to be cooking at home and waiting for them to go back, would pass by, and just behind her, that uncertain voice was like a ghost. The human scalp is numb.

"Is it... Qu Yixiao?"

Qu Yixiao turned his back to Liang Jieyun, almost covering her entire field of vision.

The hand on his waist suddenly tightened, even though he couldn't see the other person's expression, Qu Yixiao could feel Ye Ting's nervousness and fear.

He was very glad that he made the wisest decision in the panic. He calmly and slowly put away the school uniform. At the same time, he ruffled Ye Ting's meek hair with one hand, and signaled softly: "Well, be obedient, the original plan, later return."

The bewildered Ye Ting trusted Qu Yixiao without a doubt. He hesitated for a second before turning and running away. He ran to the opposite alley, turned around and stopped again. His beating heart hadn't calmed down yet, and his legs were weak while panting.

After calming down, I realized how stupid this move was.

He wandered in the street in a daze, the sky darkened and the lights were brightly lit. About an hour later, Liang Jieyun called him and urged him to go back quickly.

It was the first time that he felt that stepping through the threshold was extremely heavy. Ye Ting took a deep breath to prepare for the storm, but after entering, there was no insults or reprimands waiting for him, only Liang Jieyun's red eyes, and the solemn face sitting on the stool Ye Wanhong.

"Where did you go?" Liang Jieyun asked.

In her expression, Ye Ting, whose brain was blank, took a few seconds to realize that Liang Jieyun didn't see the other person was him. What did Qu Yixiao say to her? Liang Jieyun seemed to have cried a lot. Qu Yixiao Where did you go again.

The home was eerily quiet, as if it had experienced a war without gunpowder not long ago.

Ye Ting used the excuse of being tripped by a classmate to prevaricate her, Liang Jieyun seemed to believe it, and then shed a few tears, maybe they suffered too much and did not notice the same abnormal Ye Ting in front of them.

"Where's Qu Yixiao...has he come back?"

He used to bark his teeth and claws, but now he went as if his hands and feet were frozen and he didn't dare to move. He only asked about Qu Yixiao's situation. There was still a bunch of bristles in his tidied hair, which seemed very funny in such an environment.

Liang Jieyun wiped away her tears and said, "Don't ask so many questions, you will sleep alone tonight."

"Has he not come back?"

"Don't mention him!" Liang Jieyun's choked voice was a little louder, and she broke down a little: "He sleeps on the sofa, we raised him for nothing, and he got sick. I've made up my mind, if he doesn't leave, we will move in a few days, so as not to harm him." about you."

"Moving?" Like a thunderclap from the top of his head, Ye Ting couldn't believe his ears, and couldn't bear the amount of information in Liang Jieyun's words for a while.

Turning to look at Ye Wanhong, his father still maintained the original posture and did not say a word. Ye Ting felt unbelievable, and tremblingly looked at the person who said such heartless words: "Mom, what are you talking about, why did you get sick, why did you move?" ?”

"Don't ask if you don't understand, kid."

Ye Ting didn't ask, this night was especially quiet, there was no yelling at home, no one turned on the TV all night, Liang Jieyun didn't prepare fruit, and there was no unnecessary movement in the house.

Qu Yixiao was originally staying on the balcony outside the kitchen. When it was completely dark, Liang Jieyun probably heard what Liang Jieyun said. He went back to the bedroom to get some things and was about to go out. Ye Ting wanted to talk to him, but Liang Jieyun was outside monitor.

He could guess what "getting sick" meant. He never knew that it was such a heinous thing for a boy to like a boy.He made eye contact with Qu Yixiao several times, but Ye Ting couldn't read any information from it. He hated himself for being so stupid.

Until midnight, Ye Ting got up secretly and went to the living room. Qu Yixiao was curled up on the sofa with long legs. As soon as he squatted down, the eyes of the two met, and Qu Yixiao didn't fall asleep.

"I won't leave you." Ye Ting said directly, with a voice that only two people could hear.

"Auntie doesn't know who it is. She's not sure if it's a boy. In fact, she already has the answer in her heart, and I admit it. Don't tell her the truth. She cried a lot at night."

The "disease" Liang Jieyun said was homosexuality. She subconsciously felt that the son she gave birth to must be innocent, which is human nature. If there was no Qu Yixiao, Ye Ting would be the most lovable appearance Liang Jieyun hoped for.

"Moving must be an angry word." Ye Ting's chin lay on the edge of the sofa, and he felt flustered for some reason.

"Aunt Liang asked me if I could go." Qu Yixiao was silent, looking into Ye Ting's eyes, his voice contained the sadness that Ye Ting could not understand at the time: "Ye Ting, I don't want to go."

"I know." Ye Ting put her face in his palm and rubbed it sticky, naively thinking that they would be able to pass this test.

Unable to see Ye Ting's outline clearly, Qu Yixiao raised his hand and touched his cheek, with nostalgia in his eyes: "Well, go to sleep, you have to go to school tomorrow."

"I won't leave." Ye Ting promised over and over again that if he was braver, he would be able to sleep on the sofa with Qu Yixiao. Without Qu Yixiao's body temperature wrap, he would suffer from insomnia.

"Well, I know that too."

Teenagers can take love so hard, Ye Ting finally left without even saying goodbye.

At that time, Qu Yixiao was taking a math test, and when he came back, the building was empty, except for him, everything he could take away was gone.

Looking at the empty room, Qu Yixiao found it difficult to even sit down. He shouldn't be delusional, he shouldn't have hoped for that person's countless promises of "not leaving". In fact, there are not many things that can be left to belong to him.

After many years, when he came back to answer Ye Ting's question about "nostalgia", he might as well just laugh it off and think about it: "It's better not to think about it, because I never expected that you would come back, so it's useless to think about it."

"Why don't you think about it?" Ye Ting turned around, chewing on the meaning of Qu Yixiao's words, realized something after a while, stepped forward to hold his hand in surprise, and asked, "So you thought about it?"

Qu Yixiao froze for a moment, then nodded almost imperceptibly.

In the next second, Ye Ting threw himself into Qu Yixiao's arms, almost causing the two of them to fall off the chair together. Ye Ting's eyes were hot, and tears fell out of nowhere. This was the second time he cried. Once, I was so distressed by Jin Xi's words, this time, all kinds of complex emotions such as sadness, excitement, and shame rushed through my heart.

While he was thinking about Qu Yixiao, Qu Yixiao was also thinking about him.

"I left...you must have been very disappointed." Ye Ting said, "You must blame me. You refused to accept my apology. I said "I'm sorry" so many times, but you never responded."

"Of course I will be disappointed, Ye Ting, it's not because of you, it's because people will be disappointed once they have hope."

When Qu Yixiao said this, he smiled softly, with a hint of self-mockery, put Ye Ting on the chair and sat down, and wiped his tears for him, but stood up by himself, saying: "But I never I didn't blame you."

"Really?" Ye Ting looked up at him with rosy eyes.

"I was only a little sad, because at that time I decided that we would last forever. Your departure broke my fantasy. I always wanted to get you, and finally lost you. When I often think about the past days, I began to understand you, Aunt Liang is right, and you are right, even though our birthplace and address are exactly the same on the ID card, there is still a difference between me and you to your parents, and that's fine, I don't belong there in the first place."

Qu Yixiao's face was as calm as water, neither sad nor resentful, Ye Ting felt very uncomfortable seeing it, he really wanted to deny Qu Yixiao's words, telling him that it was not unimportant at all, but any words seemed to be for him He argued with Liang Jieyun.

The good news is that Qu Yixiao was able to pour out his heart.

Ye Ting was about to say something to express the happiness at this moment, and he could do anything, when Qu Yixiao's phone rang. From the conversation, Ye Ting could guess that it was Fu Wangfeng who called. Qu Yixiao listened Finally, I asked "No problem, when will I leave", and then answered "Okay".