red dust upside down

It was already late at night after Lin Sa finished her last rehearsal, and just after she said "Everyone worked hard today", she received a call from Su Rong.

He originally thought that Su Rong was explaining about watching the show tomorrow, so he smiled and called "Xiao Rong", but Su Rong didn't speak.

He is crying.

He didn't say a word, as if he was too sad to speak, he just cried on the other end of the phone without saying a word, crying so sadly.Even if he wasn't from the ninth floor and hadn't seen him happy before, he could still hear the sadness in the crying.

"It's okay." Lin Sa's eyes were also hot, and she coaxed him patiently: "Where are you, I'll find you, I'll be right there, don't be afraid, take a deep breath."

Su Rong didn't speak, but cried very sadly. At least twice, he wanted to call him "Senior Brother", but was interrupted by his shortness of breath. Lin Sa took the assistant's mobile phone and sent someone a message to find out where he was. He finally sobbed and said, "I'm at Bai... Baile Grand Ceremony..."

"Don't move there, don't hang up, I'll find you right away." Lin Sa grabbed his jacket, ran out, and called a taxi at the door, heading straight to the venue of the Baile Festival tonight, while taking his assistant's mobile phone to him. Li Shang sent a message asking him what happened.

Just as he was sending out, Li Shang didn't return for a long time, but Su Rong's crying gradually stopped, he seemed to be crying dumbfounded, and he seemed to feel that crying was too embarrassing, and he instinctively wanted to find some adults Controlling her own life, she sniffled and said, "I...I'm going to find my bag."

Lin Sa was naturally worried that he would go out like this, so he comforted him, "Wait for me to go and look for it with you. I'm taking a taxi and I'll be there soon..."

Before he could finish his sentence, a black car stopped in front of him. He thought it was a private taxi, but when he was about to get close to the passenger window, he suddenly froze.He obviously knew who was in the car and recognized the car.

The expression on his face suddenly became very cold. If Su Rong was here, he would definitely be shocked by his expression.But he didn't say anything, just stood there with his phone in hand.

The co-pilot's window was down, and the person in the driver's seat was undoubtedly Xiao Su. He seldom drove by himself, and he rarely dressed like this, as if he ran out of the house in a hurry. shirt.He has a handsomeness that is different from Jin Yunsen's. It is something more indifferent and hard, but also has a natural beauty. It is the gravel mixed with golden sand among the crushed stones by the cold river, and there are winding golden spots on the rough black stones. ore seam.Few people know that there is a slight difference in the color of the pupils on both sides of his eyes, and the one on the right is more of an extremely dark olive color. As long as there is enough light, it is actually very beautiful.

"I..." He only said one word.

"Get out of the car." Lin Sa said to him.

Before Xiao Su could react, Lin Sa had already walked around to his driver's seat and opened the door.

He watched Xiao Su make room for him, got into the car and sat down, glanced at the phone, obviously the call had been hung up, punched the steering wheel anxiously, cursed "fuck!" Then he He closed the car door directly, he was not used to driving Xiao Su's car, he almost hit the trash can on the side of the road when he kicked the accelerator, but he still drove away without looking back.

Qin Jianjia found Li Shang at the small bar of the afterparty prepared by the organizer.

When he said drinking, he was really drinking, and it didn't matter if it was an important party or not. The entertainment industry looks like a job that falls in the sky to outsiders. In fact, people inside often have a kind of timid trembling, like winning the lottery. Or stray into a lavish ball.But Li Shang is different, he has a kind of careless arrogance, a kind of ego that is above everything, no matter where he is, he will live according to his wishes.

What attracted Qin Jianjia in the first place was his attitude. He was a powerful and beautiful creature, even cruel in nature, walking arrogantly in the entertainment circle, not stopping for anyone or anything.

Today is actually a party. The dress on her is worth seven figures. The skirt is as beautiful as a fairy tale, but it is just a dress.

If the person he likes doesn't dance with her, everything is meaningless.

An hour and a half before the end of the party, there was only a bartender at the bar who was seriously wiping glasses. Qin Jianjia took a look, and the bartender left consciously.This is Boyi's party, everyone knows her, and sometimes her words are even more useful than Li Shang.She has never been a big talker, no matter what method she uses, she can finally sit with him on an equal footing.

Li Shang drinks tequila and limes with salt. The first time I saw him ordering wine like this, Qin Jianjia had just passed her 20th birthday. She is a good girl from a middle-class family. like a crane.He is the most logical lover, and those inconspicuous and elegant details make up Li Shang.But why does one love another?Because he had a good life?good education?Or because the shadow of his eyelashes almost gives the illusion of melancholy when he drinks with his eyes downcast?

"I remember you drink very well..." she said softly.

"Have you ever loved someone?"

She thought that the person in the whole world would ask this question, but she never thought it would be Li Shang.She remembered him mocking the so-called literary films to herself, talking about seamless narratives and counter-narratives, in fact, he should have guessed it at that time, he was not even interested in talking about Zhao Yi, and the people he said loved watching literary films would be who?

But she didn't say anything, just lowered her eyes and replied as if sighing: "I loved it."

He absolutely doesn't care about anything other than the answer. He can't hear the subject of these two words, "Qin Jianjia", and naturally he can't guess who the object is.

"What does that feel like, is it pain?"

"Well, it hurts. It hurts like burning my heart."

"Won't it hurt if you get it?"

"I don't know, it might just keep hurting."

He earnestly asked for advice, and she earnestly taught, but the pain suddenly flooded up like a tide and overwhelmed her.She watched his slender fingers press against the cold glass wall, who would these hands hold in the end?Just imagining it is unbearable for even a second.

Under the dim light at the bar, Qin Jianjia suddenly leaned over, as if wanting to kiss him.Li Shang avoided, his eyes were still clear, he has always been a good drinker.

"I have someone I like," he said. "Don't do this stupid thing."

Nothing makes sense to him, the world doesn't even make sense to him, he's just like a beast, like an animal, hunting, sleeping, sitting here drinking a glass of wine.But nothing left a mark on his heart, except the man who made him sit here and drink.That person left a scar on the corner of his mouth. Qin Jianjia even knew what kind of life he lived in middle school. He survived such an environment. How could he be so easily injured in the entertainment industry?

She didn't cry this time, she just grabbed the wine on the bar, poured a glass, and drank it all in one gulp. She just drank one glass after another, and it didn't matter what kind of wine it was.Alcohol really is the best thing for pain.

"Take me back, Li Shang." She said suddenly.

All his weaknesses come from his upbringing, like everyone knows he won't let a drunk girl go home alone.It's not something she would do, it's Cheng Man, it's Yan Siyun, but it's not her.But what's the difference?He fell in love with someone who couldn't talk to him about Kurosawa, who was so different from him that he was like two species, but he would go home with him every day.

"You have an assistant." Li Shang replied.

"Please, take me back, Li Shang." She looked into his eyes and begged, "Just like when we first met."

There was a momentary movement in his eyes, he felt guilty towards her, and he knew that he loved him.Qin Jianjia knew it, she knew it the first time she saw him after she came back—how could Li Shang feel guilty?Someone changed him.Taught him to love such a thing, and he even began to recognize its value.Everyone joked that she returned home with a golden body, but she knew that she came back too late, and she lost something very precious.

Without that phone call, he probably wouldn't have made the decision so quickly.But when his cell phone rang, Qin Jianjia saw him looking at the number and guessed who it might be. There was something in him that was not suitable for establishing an intimate relationship, like a stress response. The more he cared about someone, the more he would push him away. Wanting to hurt is an instinctive self-preservation strategy.Because he knew he could do nothing about it, like some horrible prophecy, faintly walking towards him.

It's a pity that she has never seen the way Li Shang and Su Rong get along. The one who called was not Su Rong, but Lin Sa.

"The dog training school is about to start again?" This was Li Shang's first sentence.

Lin Sa was driving, obviously in a bad mood: "Li Shang, what did you do to Xiaorong?"

"So impolite? Why, don't you pretend?"

In the past, Lin Sa would not have been so straightforward. He has experience with monsters like Li Shang, and he has been trying to lead him back to the right path of getting along with Su Rong all the year round, but today he has exhausted a lot of self-control.

"I know what you want to say, let me say it for you." It is rare for him to be so angry: "Yeah, I'm just being rude, I just know that you are in love with Xiaorong, so I have nothing to fear. Don't resist here , What’s the matter? Loving someone is a weakness, a weakness, and a reason for others to control you. If you don’t even have the guts to be a rock for the rest of your life, then that’s up to you. You’ve resisted the world for too long. So what if you were injured, many people who are weaker than you have survived, if you give up eating because of choking, and spend your whole life as a bystander outside this world, you will be wasting your life."

"It's really good words."

"It's up to you whether you listen or not. Let me just say it straight. Of the two of you, you are the smart one. You have to be responsible for making you and Xiao Rong have a good result."

"Is that your love advice for today?"

In fact, if Lin Sa was not angry, he might be able to realize the nuances of Li Shang. What he still retains now is only a mocking attitude, but no sharp words. Thorny hedgehog.

It's a pity that Lin Sa didn't.

"My suggestion is that if you really understand your current situation, you shouldn't ask me to be polite. Instead, you should be more polite to me."

Because of this sentence, Li Shang sent Qin Jianjia back to the hotel.

Qin Jianjia didn't seem to drink too much, and she was not lightly drunk. Li Shang sent her to the door, and she was already hooked on his arm. Li Shang opened the door and put her in the hallway, but she sat on the ground and cried, grabbing his arm.

"Why do you want to change?" She grabbed Li Shang and kept crying: "I thought you would never change, why did you change?"

"you're drunk."

"Isn't it bad to be like before? How many people love you, adore you, and are willing to give you their hearts, and you don't even need to take any responsibility. Why do you want to become a stupid ordinary person, you don't need to be subjected to anyone Threats, and there is no weakness, if you are unhappy, you can turn around and leave at any time..." Her tears were hot and kept streaming down: "Let's go back to the past, okay?"

At that moment, Li Shang took a step into the room. He remembered the time Qin Jianjia mentioned, the boundless sea, he and his boat, he didn't need to establish any connection with this world, and he didn't need any ties .

But at that moment, he was thinking of another sea, another boat.

Qin Jianjia saw the change in his eyes.

"why?"

"Maybe it's because I don't want Su Rong to cry."

"Then why is it Su Rong?" Qin Jianjia asked him desperately: "Why can't it be me, Tong Xiaojia is fine, even Cheng Man, Yan Siyun..."

Changing any one would not make her feel such a deep sense of missing out, and that regret tortured her day and night, making her unable to sleep peacefully.

"Why are there so many, if you must have an answer." Li Shang answered her like this: "Because he is my rose."

He quoted the little prince as a bedtime story he read to Maimai with disgust. If Qin Jianjia could understand, she would know that the ending was doomed long ago.How could the flawless phantom she was chasing called Li Shang read fairy tales to people?

It's a pity she didn't understand.

The author has something to say: "The Little Prince"

"You are nothing like my rose, and you are nothing!" said the little prince to them. "No one has tamed you, and you have tamed no one. You are as my fox was, when he was just a fox like thousands of other foxes. But I have now regarded him as So, my friend, it is now unique in the world."

At this time, those roses looked very embarrassed.

"You are beautiful, but you are empty." The little prince was still saying to them. "No one can die for you. Of course, my rose, an ordinary passer-by thought she was just like you. However, she alone is more important than all of you, because I watered her. Because I put her in the flower cover. Because I protected her with a screen. Because the caterpillars on her body (except two or three Only to become a butterfly) I exterminate. Because I have listened to her complaints and boast, and sometimes I have listened to her silence. Because she is my rose."