[Comprehensive] Why do I like you

"Can you be the mother of my child?"

When these words were spoken, Shinichi felt a big rock in his heart unknowingly fall down, his eyes said, and the expectations in his eyes were clear at a glance.

I don't know when it started, but this thought came to Shinichi's heart. Although it was vague at the beginning, it gradually became clear recently.He wants to be with Nana, hold her hand, walk through every corner of the world, hold her hand until she turns white.He has always insisted that although sex and love are inseparable, they are two completely different things.He can go to bed with a strange woman because there is no love, but he cannot have sex mixed with lust//desire because of love.And Nana is the one who can make him abandon sex and be together for it.

He wanted to tie Nana by his side and not let her go anywhere.

Shinichi seemed to suddenly understand Nana's feelings.

He used to laugh at Nana, thinking that she was too possessive of Nana, and kept barking at her all the time, as if he really regarded her as his loyal dog, making Nana lose her own freedom.

But now he can understand it deeply.

Nana is too stupid, too innocent, and too straightforward. Once she puts all her heart in her heart, she will give all her loyalty to him, which makes him worry. If one day, she gives her heart wrong, how sad will it be?

On the one hand, Shinichi hopes that Nana will not be so serious and trust others so easily, on the other hand, he also hopes that she will pour all her heart into him, so that he can protect her well and prevent her from being hurt by the outside world.

When Nana heard that sentence, she was shaken for a moment, and she almost subconsciously agreed in her heart, but luckily her reason stopped her.

She gently broke away from Shinichi's hand, and pinched her own fingers uneasily under the complicated eyes of the other party.

So far, the two have been dating, and there are not many bumps and bumps, and it may be because of the fact that they get together less and leave more, so although she relies on Shinichi, she has not yet reached the point where she has to rely on him.

Also, Nana did not tell her family that she already had a boyfriend.

For a long time, she has been facing it with the mind of serious love, really with the idea of ​​"love", so she has not thought about the future.

Not to mention, marriage is an extremely solemn thing in her opinion.

For the first time, Nana felt a little cold.

She never thought that her love for Shinichi was superficial, but although she gave her sincerity when she was with Shinichi and let the other person's every move easily arouse her emotions, she never included him in her future. in the plan.

To put it bluntly, Shinichi Okazaki does not have a place in her plans for the future.

Nana is not such a person who lacks love, or to be more specific, she does not lack the love of family, and she has never thought of starting a family by herself. For her, this kind of thing seems to be premature.

Even if he really wants to build a home, it's not Kazu Shinichi.

In her definition of a future husband, Shinichi does not fit any of them. He is suitable to be a boyfriend, but not a husband.

She may long to be loved, but that love comes from her partner, not her family.She envied the deep love between Nana and Lian, but she only hoped that she would have ordinary happiness.

To Shinichi, Nana paid more than she gained. Even though she knew that one day, this kind of feeling would gradually fade away, she never stopped or fought for anything. Instead, she gave more, as if she was going to watch him slowly Overdraw her full of enthusiasm, and then they will enter the infinite cycle of quarrel-reconciliation-quarrel-reconciliation, and finally stop at breaking up.

At that time, she will be able to leave this sad place with her body covered in scars, to find another man who loves her, and spend her whole life.

This kind of life path spread out smoothly as if she had stroked it countless times.

On the one hand, Nana was saddened by her own experience, but on the other hand, she watched with cold eyes, witnessing this seemingly established sadness with her own eyes.

"You do not want it?"

Shinichi's voice suddenly interrupted Nana's thoughts.

Nana turned her head and looked into the corner of his eyes.

Shinichi's voice was a bit cautious and worried, but his eyes were like the calm before the storm, with dark tides surging, very contradictory, but exceptionally harmonious.

Nana was stunned by the bone-destroying stare, hurriedly avoided her gaze, stared at the scattered sketches in front of her in distress, and unconsciously tapped the table with her index finger: "Isn't it too early to say this now?"

The smile on Shinichi's face faded after all, his mouth was pursed into a straight line, his thin lips showed a bit of coldness: "You don't want to."

One sentence explained the hesitation in Nana's heart.

Looking at Nana's obsessed face, Shinichi sullenly refused to say 'why', which made him lose his dignity.

Although he looks heartless, and occasionally does things deliberately to please girls, but in fact he has always been a man with exceptionally strong machismo.

A dignified atmosphere diffused between the two, and the room was so silent that the sound of a needle falling could be heard.

The uneasiness in Nana's heart gradually turned into a kind of unwillingness.

It's not the attitude of unwillingness to speak to her, but the unwillingness to get along with them like this, and it will really develop as she imagined.

"It's not that I don't want to." Nana said, with a rare bit of toughness in her words, "I just never thought about it."

Zhenyi carefully pays attention to Nana's emotions, expecting her to continue to say something, but afraid that she will say something he doesn't want to hear.

He never thought that there would be a day when Nana, who had always followed him, would refute him. On the one hand, he was confident in Nana’s love for him; on the other hand, he was afraid, he was uneasy, and he wanted to hold Nana firmly in his hand inside.

I would rather destroy her with my own hands than lose her.

It's just that rabbits can bite people when they are in a hurry, not to mention that Nana has never been a soft rabbit.

"Shinichi."

Nana called his name, with unknown emotions flashing in his brown eyes, as if he couldn't understand her for a moment.

"I'm still in my sophomore year, and I still have 2 years to graduate from college, and you are still just a middle school student. Although you are sometimes frighteningly mature, you can't deny the fact that you are still young. Not only you, I think I am also Immature, despite my age, but I still act like a child sometimes."

Nana paused for a moment, as if she was pondering something. A few seconds later, she continued: "You are in the entertainment circle, and we all understand how complicated this circle called the big dye vat is. In the future, you will meet more and more different people." Man, maybe there will be a second Layla between us, a third Layla, or even a fourth, do I have to face an empty room by myself every time you take care of other women, Still can't have any complaints? Just because I want to understand, be considerate, and think about your difficulties from your perspective? Sometimes I even think, it would be great if you didn't enter the entertainment circle..."

Shinichi suddenly said: "I can!"

Before he finished speaking, he was interrupted by Nana. She shook her head and smiled as if she had expected it: "No, you can't leave. Do you still have such childish thoughts... "

Nana's words made Shinichi frowned severely.

"Not to mention that you, as one of the members of Blast, are the constituent factors for Nana to realize her dream, and since you have decided to become an idol, you have to take on your due responsibilities. Besides," Naina paused, with an expression on her face His expression softened a lot: "What I like is Shinichi Okazaki, who is so talented and shines on the stage. We met by chance, when we knew each other, when we fell in love and when you were in high spirits, but have you ever thought about it? What do we have to be with? Without the amazing talent and stunning beauty that matches the bass, are you still the same you?"

Shinichi never knew when Nana became so eloquent, and for a moment he didn't know how to answer.

"But...we're in love, aren't we?" he murmured.

In his view, with love, all hardships can be overcome.

Nana narrowed her eyes slightly, as if she was a little uncomfortable under the noon sun.

"Shinichi, you want to marry me, don't you?"

"Correct."

"However, marriage is not just about love."

The voice fell, and there was silence in the room.

Nana lowered her eyes, not looking at Shinichi's scorching gaze that made people feel chills. She carefully recalled what she had said, and after making sure that there was nothing missing, she let down her tense back as if relieved.

Deep love also requires a lot of strength. To love hard, but in the end to feel the pain of loss hard. She doesn't want to do this. If she takes the initiative and changes the attitude of getting along with each other, will it be okay? different?

Shinichi raised his head, his hands hanging beside him were clenched into fists, and he didn't feel much pain when his nails dug into his flesh.He suddenly felt that he really couldn't understand Nai Nai, there seemed to be something blocking them, invisible, intangible, but also difficult to get through.

He always thought that the two of them would get along well with each other, and in the future, no matter what difficulties they had, they would pass.But now he realizes that Nana has never cared about him?

This is impossible!Obviously Nana has such deep feelings for him, but why would she say such words?

I never thought that age was not a problem between them, but now, it has become a sharp sword hanging in the sky, and it will fall at some point, and then cut off the last connection between them.

"So what do you mean, do you want to break up?"

Shinichi gritted his teeth, looked at Nana with red eyes, felt that Nana was about to turn his head, and abruptly avoided her gaze, as if he didn't want her to see his distress.

Nana shook her head, took the initiative to walk to Shinichi's side, hugged him into her arms, and let his head rest on her neck.

Since you don't want me to see your sadness, let's embrace each other like this, so we don't have to face each other's feelings.

"I just said that because I didn't want to break up," she said. "So Shinichi, you have to grow up quickly. I like your childishness, your responsibility and innocence, but I don't want these things I like to turn into hurt and come to me."

The reason for this conversation was that Shinichi was confused and didn't know the severity, and made her wait all night, just to find out whether that girl was the one who radiated kindness to her when she was a child.I also know that Shinichi didn't leave Leila a girl in the bar at night because he was worried about her safety.

If Shinichi ignored Leila and left her alone in that place, she might blame him instead.

What Nana cared about was that he didn't call her in advance, didn't notify her, made her worry about him, made her uneasy, felt empty, and made her efforts worthless.

Don't blame her for always forgiving Shinichi's things, she is also very bad, and has been watching with cold eyes.

"By the way, it's almost noon, shall I make you lunch first? Why don't you go straight to work after eating? I heard Nana urging you just now!"

Seeing the nonchalant expression of the woman in front of him, she excitedly ran to the refrigerator and took out the dishes from last night, Shinichi couldn't help narrowing his eyes slightly.

You couldn't believe that the other party could be so calm and composed, as if what happened just now was illusory.