Obsessed with Qin

The ever-changing scenery outside the window made him feel desolate, and he regretted taking this hot job from Song Jingqi.

How can I tell you that the person you waited for for six years may never come back.

The car turned a corner, Qin Jin swayed a bit due to inertia, and he opened his eyes sleepily: "Are you there?"

Liu Xianghua didn't dare to look at him at all, and said in a low voice: "Qin Jin, it's already the sixth year, are you going to wait like this forever?"

Qin Jin lowered the car window to let the wind blow in, his black forehead hair brushed over his eyebrows, blocking the light in his eyes, Qin Jin's voice was very deep, like a kind of emotion, he said: "You know when we are together, Does he spoil me like that? When I wake up in the middle of the night and want to drink water, he pours it and delivers it to my mouth. I don’t even have to open my eyes. I have the best person in the world, how can I let him Homeless."

Liu Xianghua only felt a lump in his throat, and there was a moist coolness in front of his eyes. He wanted to say, Qin Jin, Qin Zhao is gone, we can't find him, maybe we will never find him.

He wanted to say, Qin Jin, don't wait.

Those words pierced my chest like an awl, and I couldn't utter a single word.

After being silent for a while, Qin Jin suddenly remembered something and turned to look at Liu Xianghua, with a gentle smile on the corner of his mouth, he said: "Brother Liu, you don't know, I sponsored a five-year-old child in the orphanage. Boy, the little boy was thrown at the gate of the orphanage less than two months after he was born. He almost froze to death. No one knew what his last name was. The child liked me very much. The dean said that he could have the same surname as me. He was named Si Zhao. The Si Zhao of 'There are so many Si Zhaozhao, and they are infinite', Qin Sizhao."

Qin Sizhao, Qin Sizhao.

Qin Jin hid his whole life, his love, in that name, waiting for a happy ending.

The wetness in Liu Xianghua's eyes became more and more obvious. He didn't dare to let Qin Jin see it. He turned his head slightly, looked at the scenery passing by outside the car window and said, "It sounds good, it's a good name."

Qin Jin didn't notice Liu Xianghua's strangeness. He stretched out his hand, felt the temperature of the wind passing through it, and said, "How can everything go well in one's life? You all think that I have a hard life, but I never feel I love Qin Zhao, he loves me too, I know he will come back, he knows I'm waiting, that's enough, in a sense, we've never been apart. He lives in my heart, never Didn't go far."

A tear fell out of Liu Xianghua's eyes, and he wiped it away very quickly. He remembered a sentence he read in a book a long time ago, which was perfectly suitable to describe Qin Jin's current appearance——

You walked through unintentionally and trapped me for the rest of my life.

Qin Jin finally sensed something was wrong, and looked at Liu Xianghua suspiciously: "Brother Liu, what's wrong with you?"

Liu Xianghua pulled the car to the outside, parked on the side of the road, hugged Qin Jin with open arms, and said in a low voice: "Qin Zhao is reluctant to go for too long, he will come back, he will."

for sure.

will be back.

We all have to believe that.

(131)

In the seventh year of separation from Qin Zhao, Qin Jin was 28 years old.

He graduated from graduate school that year, and incidentally rejected the suggestion given by his tutor to stay in school to teach.Since Qin Zhao left, he has been living under the protection of others, living in the ivory tower that Qin Zhao carefully built for him. Both Liu Xianghua and Song Jingqi are trying to protect him as much as possible. You should learn to face the future life in your own way.

What's more, he still has to raise Si Zhao, the child who put all his heart on him.

In the second month after leaving school, Qin Jin found a very good job and entered the financial department of a well-known company. It was only a matter of time before he got promoted and raised his salary.

After Zhou Tanyuan left for Australia, Song Jingqi became extremely busy. There were too many people waiting for him to deal with, and too many businesses waiting for him to rob and abandon. He took the time to meet Qin Jin once. Behind the gold-rimmed glasses, with a sense of longing, he said: "I originally thought that when you graduated, you would come to work with me. You can choose the subsidiary company under my name. After a few years of experience, you will be directly promoted to the headquarters." , Follow me for the rest of my life."

Qin Jin smiled, fine lines appeared at the corners of his eyes, his thin body was sunken in the booth of the coffee shop, his whole body was filled with a deserted and depressed atmosphere, like an old man in his twilight years, he said: "I'm not your wife, How can I depend on you all my life, I have to learn to live alone."

Song Jingqi took a sip of coffee, the bitter taste exploded in his mouth, he hesitated for a long time, and said after deliberation: "Qin Jin, it's been seven years..."

Qin Jin raised his eyes and looked at the increasingly intense sunlight outside the window. The light golden color fell into his pupils, and a mist-like film floated up, hazy and soft. He sighed and said, "It's been seven years, so fast." Ah. After a while, Si Zhao will go to elementary school. After elementary school, he will go to junior high school, then high school, and university. That kid loves reading. It shouldn’t be a problem for him to study for a master’s degree like me. When he graduates, I will Get old, and your life will pass like this."

So, you see, the so-called life is nothing more than that. There is nothing terrible about waiting like this for a moment.

Song Jingqi felt that he had a lot to say, but when he touched Qin Jinman's quiet eyes, everything turned into silence.

Song Jingqi turned down all the work that day and drank a lot of wine with Qin Jin. The two drunks hung shoulder to shoulder and swayed from one end of the road to the other, all the way, sparks and lightning.

Song Jingqi pointed to the sky and said, look at that round yellow thing above, does it look like Zhou Tan's eyes widened when he was angry.

Qin Jin smiled and said in a low voice, "You really do love him."

Song Jingqi paused for a while, raised his head and drank the whiskey in the bottle, and said, "I love this thing, but it's actually the cheapest thing."

When wandering to the river, Song Jingqi was the first to lose it, holding the trash can and vomited, Qin Jin's stomach hurts like hell, but he couldn't vomit anything, he was stuffed inside, suffering like a living.Song Jingqi struggled to lift his miserable green head from the trash can, looked at Qin Jin and said, "You just said, what is the most uncomfortable thing?"

Qin Jin turned on the lighter, lit a cigarette first, stuffed it into Song Jingqi's mouth, lit another and held it in his mouth, and said slowly, "It's affection."

Song Jingqi nodded with a vague understanding, thought for a while, and said, "What is that useless?"

Qin Jin breathed out the smoke against the wind, squinted his eyes and looked at the gradually fading stars in the sky, and said in a low voice, "It's also affectionate."

Love is the toughest and most tormenting thing. It is the one that is desperate, and it is the one that is the prison.

Song Jingqi was suddenly very grateful, thankful that both he and Zhou Tan got out early, even though there was a little sentimentality, but it didn't hurt the root.Unlike Qin Jin, who was completely dazed inside.

After seeing off that drunk Song Jingqi, Qin Jin took a taxi to the hospital by himself. The pain was so bad that he was shaking.

Gao Tiantian went abroad to study, and Qin Jin, the doctor on duty, looked at him strangely, after a round of inspections, his body was covered in cold sweat.Qin Jin gritted his teeth and said, "Doctor, can you give me some painkillers?"

The doctor put his hands in his pockets, looked at Qin Jin and said, "Take some omeprazole first. You still insist on smoking and drinking when your stomach is like this. You are really persistent."

Qin Jin listened silently, not daring to speak back, the doctor said again: "Quit smoking, drinking, and irritating food, it's really cancerous, and it's too late to regret."

Qin Jin shrank from the hospital bed and stared at the roof in a daze. He thought, Qin Zhao, if I was really sick, would you come back and take a look at me.

when are you coming back...

Not long after Qin Jin was discharged from the hospital, Qin's mother was admitted to the ICU due to a sudden cerebral hemorrhage. Fortunately, the rescue was timely, and there was no danger to her life and no sequelae. However, she became extremely emaciated, aged more than ten years, and could not even breathe. All felt strenuous.Qin Jin took a long vacation with the company and stayed in front of the hospital bed every step of the way.

Qin's mother has lost a lot of weight, her hair is more than half gray, and her eyes are no longer as strong and shrewd as before. She loosely holds Qin Jinzheng's hand in Little Pingguo, and pleads: "Xiao Jin, tell Qin Zhao , just say that Mom knew it was wrong, and it is Mom's fault that you have become like this. Mom really misses him, can you let him come back to see Mom?"

Qin Jin lowered his eyes, and his voice was low and sad: "Mom, I really don't know where he is. It's been seven years, and he has never contacted me."

Qin's mother said "oh", the light in her eyes dimmed a little, and she murmured: "He still hates me, I know, you all hate me..."

Qin Jin turned his eyes away, his eyes were slightly wet. Up to now, he didn't know who he should hate, whether he should hate Qin's mother or the guy who had been away for seven years and hadn't heard from him.

Qin Zhao, I don't know how many seven years I have left in my life, I don't know how long I can wait for you, and when will you come back...

Qin Jin put down the half-peeled apple, turned around and went into the bathroom, his face was covered with water stains when he came out again, the nurse asked him what was wrong, he said he was not in good spirits, he should wash his face to wake up.

The nurse didn't understand why washing her face made her eyes red, but she didn't ask any more questions.

Qin Jin inquired about Zhou Hesen's burial place and visited him once.The cemetery is very quiet, no crying can be heard, but if you take a step, you will feel sad.Zhou Hesen looked very young and handsome in the photo of the tombstone. Qin Jin put down a bouquet of flowers and whispered: "He is fine, don't worry."

The person in the photo can't speak, the wind blows, and the snow-white petals are scattered all over the ground, like a snow that is late for the season.

The place where Zhou Hesen was buried is a very high-end cemetery with a good environment.