The princess is poisonous [rebirth]

The palace is majestic and covered with dark clouds.

In the winter of the first year of Jianping, the emperor passed away due to illness, and the new emperor ascended the throne at the age of eight. Everything seemed to be in order.

Lu Ying writes and draws in the palace every day, chatting to pass the time, this deep palace is actually colder than before, now Gu Qingzhan can't accompany her all the time, but even those chattering maids are gone trace.

Dinner is set according to Lu Ying's taste.

"If you don't like them, I will send them away." When Lu Ying asked, Gu Qingzhan replied like this.

Although Azhan is very kind to herself, outsiders seem to be afraid of her, they dare not look up at her, and dare not speak to her loudly, "Why are they all afraid of you?"

She arrests young men and women for Gu Yong every day to make alchemy, but the court ladies and eunuchs are afraid of her, even the powerful concubines in the former harem see her as Shura.

Gu Qingzhan doesn't like Lu Ying asking her these things. When she is with Lu Ying every day, she treats herself as an ordinary woman, and her hands are not stained with blood.

"If you don't want to say it, don't say it, Azhan, even if others are alienated from you, I will stay with you."

"Well." Knowing that this is an oath she cannot keep, Gu Qingzhan is still relieved, now that she is humble enough to hear her words, she feels satisfied. When Lu Ying wakes up, Gu Qingzhan knows that she can't even get these words. None of the qualifications.

"You need to eat more, you're all skinny." Lu Ying looked at Gu Qingzhan's increasingly thin face, and was really worried. She picked up a piece of chicken and put it in Gu Qingzhan's bowl, but after thinking about it, she handed it to her mouth. By the way, you have to watch her eat it with your own eyes. She always has no appetite and eats very little during these days.

Gu Qingzhan was about to eat, but her body felt a little unwell, and she felt exhausted. She knew...it was time to eat again...

She also knew that she was relying more and more on Mo Wan, and if she continued like this, she was afraid that she would really end up like Zheng Yi.She didn't want Lu Ying to see her ugly side, but now her cheeks are getting more and more haggard, her face is getting paler, and she has to put on a thick layer of makeup every day.

"You eat first." Gu Qingzhan stood up.

Lu Ying put down the ivory chopsticks in her hand and heard her rummaging for something in the house. At first there was a small crackling sound, and then the movement became louder and louder, as if something had fallen.

Gu Qingzhan trembled all over, and could no longer stand on her feet. The room had been moved, and what she wanted was gone, and she couldn't find it after searching the entire room.

"Azhan?" Lu Ying heard the movement, knocked on the door outside, and shouted anxiously: "What's wrong with you?"

"It's okay...you wait outside..." Gu Qingzhan searched in a panic, and accidentally saw his pale face in the mirror.

"...I'm coming in." Lu Ying was anxious.

"Aying...be obedient...don't come in!" Gu Qingzhan wanted to tie the door, but he couldn't move, and the door was pushed open with a bang.

When Lu Ying went in, he found that Gu Qingzhan was leaning on the wall, buried his head very low, "Go out..."

"Azhan..." Lu Ying looked at the messy room. It turned out that she was really looking for something. Lu Ying slowly took out a blue and white porcelain bottle from her sleeve, her voice trembling, "You... Are you Looking for this?"

Lu Ying also saw her taking these black pills, and didn't pay much attention to them at first, but later found that she took them more frequently, and asked what they were, she only smiled and replied that they were pills for dispelling cold.

"...um... good...give it to me..." Gu Qingzhan felt that her mind was starting to become chaotic, and she became more and more uncontrollable. She had never experienced this before, and if she didn't eat before, it would only cause physical torture, but now she just Like possessed by a demon.She leaned on the wall to walk towards Lu Ying, but she was about to fall down after only two steps.

Lu Ying hastily stepped forward to support her, her face was as white as rice paper without any color on her face, her rouged lips became more and more red, it was already winter, but the sweat on her forehead was dripping down.

"Azhan, are you uncomfortable?" Lu Ying pulled her sleeves to wipe her sweat, "...why..."

"Give it to me..." Gu Qingzhan reached out to her.

"What on earth is this?" Lu Ying looked at the porcelain bottle in her hand, and she could guess that the black pill inside was by no means a medicine for dispelling cold.

"...give it to me quickly! I can't take it anymore..." Gu Qingzhan pinched Lu Ying's wrist tightly and exhausted all his strength. Fortunately, she was weak and weak, and she had already crippled Lu Ying's wrist on weekdays .

Lu Ying hesitated whether to give it to her or not. It was not a good thing for her to rely on these pills so much. "Azhan..."

"Give it to me!" Her emotions became more and more out of control.

Lu Ying's wrist was painfully pinched by her, she had never yelled at herself like this before, she seemed to be a different person today, "It hurts...", even if she said it hurt at this time, Gu Qingzhan didn't feel sorry for her at all.

Gu Qingzhan broke away from Lu Ying and slid down the wall. She wanted to hit her head against the wall in an attempt to make herself dizzy, but when she knocked hard, blood dripped from her forehead.

"Azhan!" Before Lu Ying had time to stop her, she saw the blood dripping down her pale cheeks. Seeing her torture herself like this, Lu Ying tremblingly poured the pill from the porcelain bottle into her palm, and fed it into her mouth.

Sure enough, after a while, she quieted down.

"Azhan..." The two of them leaned against the corner, looking extremely embarrassed, Lu Ying hugged her, looked at her bumped forehead, tears streaming down uncontrollably, what happened...how did she become like this ...

"Fool, why are you crying..." Gu Qingzhan asked knowingly, she reached out to wipe away Lu Ying's tears with tears in her eyes, and said weakly, "I have this disease when I urinate..."

"It's my fault! It's my fault..." She should have given her something to eat, and she wouldn't let her torture herself like this. Lu Ying hugged her body and cried while repeatedly blaming herself, "It's my fault... …It is my fault……"

"You're fine." Gu Qingzhan smiled confusedly. She was too tired. She rested her head on Lu Ying's heart, quietly listening to her thumping heartbeat, and said with a sore nose. To Lu Ying, "...I am not good enough for you."

She is not worthy of Lu Ying, she is not worthy of Lu Ying's sincerity towards her, even today she refuses to repent, and still uses lies to trap her.

Now that Gu Qingzhan has come to this point, she no longer has the distinction between right and wrong in her heart. She has killed far more than twelve lives, but she feels that the fault lies with destiny and not with her.

But now she knows that she made a mistake, she knows that her biggest mistake in this life is falling in love with Lu Ying.