Silently affectionate

Su Kesheng took his family on the train the next day, spent a boring morning on the train, and embarked on the familiar and unfamiliar road in his hometown, unexpectedly felt a kind of emotion as if he had passed away.

It's just that he didn't come back for more than half a year, and the buildings in his hometown have changed a lot. After so many years, the place where he played and played when he was young has long disappeared, leaving only fragments and small fragments. The people guarding this increasingly prosperous place.

Busily helping the family carry their luggage, it was already after dinner when everything was settled.

Su Kesheng couldn't stay in the house of his hometown. After eating, he wanted to go out for a while, and take a look at the recent changes in his hometown. He wanted Su Jian to go out to play together, but when he turned his head, the kid was watching animation The film was amused and laughed.

Su Kesheng sighed in his heart that this is what a child of this age should look like, Su Jian was usually scared by his sister, opened the door, put on his shoes and went out.

At this time, the people who went out were all old ladies and old men of certain grades. Everyone lived in the neighborhood for a long time, and everyone was familiar with them. With a small belly, he walked casually through the familiar alleys, and unconsciously walked to a small river that Su Meng often took him to when he was a child.

The water in the river has been almost polluted, and the surface of the river is full of garbage, which emits an unbearable stench in summer.Just as Su Kesheng was about to turn around and leave, he saw a familiar figure in a rather hidden place not far away.

It was a dark place next to a willow tree, where the street lights couldn't shine through. Su Meng was leaning cross-legged under the tree, smoking a cigarette while dazed.The sparks of the zero end occasionally fell, and the tiny light was fleeting in the dark night. Su Kesheng stared straight at the familiar silhouette, as if infected by her lonely emotions.

He walked over, not too dirty, and sat down with Su Meng.

"Stinky boy." Seeing him coming, Su Meng didn't hide her emotions, and after snuffing out the almost burnt cigarette, she lit another one, and handed one to Su Kesheng.

Su Kesheng hesitated for a few seconds, took it for the first time, smiled at Su Meng, grabbed the lighter in her hand, and lit the cigarette himself.

Su Meng snorted and laughed: "Why don't my mother-in-law persuade me now?"

Su Kesheng was choked by the smell of tobacco, and he breathed a sigh of relief when he heard the words, and said, "Is it useful to persuade you?"

"Hey, it's good that you know." Seeing that he was choked to death, Su Meng didn't teach him how to smoke, because she knew that Su Kesheng didn't refuse the cigarette, just to make her feel better.After this time, he will definitely not touch this kind of thing again - after all, people like Su Kesheng who have dreams hidden in their hearts must be more life-threatening than her.

However, she is now a family member after all.

Su Meng chuckled, took a deep breath of the Seven Star Cigarette in her mouth, and then extinguished it.Then she stood up, moved her stiff joints, looked at Su Kesheng who was choking to the point of tears, and couldn't help laughing out loud.

Su Kesheng looked up at her in the mist, and suddenly lost his mind for a moment, thinking of Si Chao——

If it was Si Chao who was laughing at him now, he would be so ashamed and indignant again that he couldn't help but gnash his teeth and choke him...

He came back to his senses in an instant, and couldn't help smiling.

But in the next second, he saw Su Meng pulling his raised hand and was stunned.

Su Meng didn't understand, so she gave him a brainstorm with her half-raised hand: "What are you thinking with a silly smile, why don't you get up?"

Su Kesheng was shocked, patted his buttocks and stood up.

When the two turned around to leave together, Su Meng's footsteps stopped suddenly.She turned around and patted the big willow tree again, with unspeakable melancholy in her eyes, but her attitude was indifferent - indifferent to the point of sadness.

"Hey, brat, this tree is just like you, it has grown so big in the blink of an eye."

The evening wind blew slowly, and the willow branches were set off to dance with it——Su Meng's eyes, like Su Jian's, had obvious big double eyelids, and they were even more beautiful than the ones cut out by little girls nowadays, but hers But the eyes are not so big that it is scary. With a slight smile on the face, the eyes are as if they are squinted.

Because she is too lazy, her beautiful long hair is done with a light bundle every time, and she doesn't want to go to the barber shop to sit and wait for the barber to fix it, so she is such a small woman. , with long hair that almost reached her waist, her whole body was almost buried by the hair.

Tonight, for the first time ever, she put her hair up in a bun, and she looked much brighter and tidier than usual.

——Su Kesheng once witnessed Su Meng's love in his youth under this tree. At that time, he was only a half-child, but Su Meng had grown into a big girl.The love at that time was pure and ignorant, but it was so beautiful that it made people's hearts flutter. He had seen Su Meng leaning her head gently on the boy next to her with red cheeks. look at each other.

But now Su Meng, who is in her 30s, revisited her hometown, and the smile she showed was exactly the same as that time, beautiful, warm and pure.But the love in his eyes has already become a thing of the past.

For some reason, Su Kesheng's eyes were sour, and he unconsciously looked away.

After a while, he heard Su Meng whisper, "This time, it's a permanent farewell."

She was silent for a while, and the movements of her hands were much gentler, as if she was stroking the willow tree: "Zheng Jiayan, I will never regret meeting you in this life."

Su Kesheng didn't know much about Su Meng's story, the only thing he knew was Zheng Jiayan's name.This name can be said to almost carry through Su Meng's entire youth, or in other words, Su Meng's entire youth is Zheng Jiayan.

However, the two finally separated, just like countless ordinary couples, after the relationship came to an end, they said goodbye calmly.

Su Kesheng listened to Su Meng's appearance as if saying goodbye, and actually began to feel the stagnation of breathing, as if his heart was pinched hard by someone, numb and soft, joy and sorrow-everything.

It's a pity that Su Kesheng has grown up to nearly 30 years old, but he has never had a decent relationship, let alone met someone who doesn't regret meeting him.

For a moment, he seemed to have a sense of joy when he suddenly realized, but he also felt a kind of helpless sadness for the decision he made next.

Or rather, he was in a flash.

——Finally see clearly what I was thinking during this period of time.

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Did I drink too much, why the chapters I saved locally and the uploaded chapters don’t match... [Sorrowful