i want to be by your side

Since the two of us chatted deeply that afternoon, every night when Yuan Jian and the others fell asleep, I would go out in the dark and ask the monsters in Xiqi for news about the Chi Snake Gang.Of course, it’s not about asking any monster you see, but looking for monsters that have been active for hundreds of years.

Since when Chi Snake Sect was disbanded, many monsters escaped and lived in seclusion in the nearby mountains and rivers. You can detect how many qualified monsters are hidden in this area by just using your spiritual sense.After one night, you can ask about a dozen at the fastest.However, when this happens, it is generally unknown.When encountering something suspicious, you will use the soul search technique to search its memory.

In this way, after asking hundreds of monsters in half a month, I finally gained something, and I no longer have a clue about this Chi Snake Gang like before.When I didn't know Yuan Jian's feelings for me before, I felt that whether it was the Chi Snake Gang or the Jiaolong Gang, as long as I killed my people, I would be cleared up, and I would not be involved in anything.If it is really involved, then I have no choice but to collect all the heads that were sent up. After earning enough life, I will find a remote mountain to retreat. After 100 years, I will be a good man again.

But not now.Since Yuan Jian and I communicated with each other, I can no longer be as reckless as before, because I am no longer a person... no, I am a demon, and there is another person who will accompany me. danger to her.

Jin Rui is very careful and gentle.From that conversation, I knew that she was worried about my retreat.At that time, I wanted to say to her for a moment, "Don't worry, I will not die, I will never die", but I couldn't say it.Didn't the previous generation of Yaozun also die?But she couldn't stay by Ling Dang's side, watching Yeyin grow from a child to a young girl, and missed her child's most beautiful years.

So it's not as long as I don't die, my biggest wish is to be with her all the time.Although I still don't understand why Yuan Jian fell in love with me, and I haven't spoken a few words to her, and when I'm with her, I'm always full of nonsense, and I don't care about anything. Just look at Xiao Qinglan, how hurtful and annoying my words are sometimes, if it were someone else, they would have driven me aside long ago—out of sight, out of mind, even me Sometimes I can't stand myself.Maybe she was helpless, sad, sad, and even wanted to give up when I was not around, but she still treated me as tenderly as ever in the end.

It would be a lie if I said that I still don't like her after all this.It was precisely because of knowing her intentions that I ran out every day, not daring to approach her again.During that period of time, I really hated myself for being born without that piece of flesh in my chest.Without it, I can feel that my love may not even be liked enough in the eyes of others!Even I myself have the illusion that "even if I watch her end up with someone else, I can easily forget her".

But, "You really know how to make excuses for yourself!" You Yao said to me.I still remember her speechless and disgusted look at me at that time.

"Love is love, and not loving is not loving. Where is the harm if there is no comparison?" She said to me at the time.

Then I was stunned: "How did you come up with the last sentence?"

"Don't worry about how I came up with the last sentence, I just said it out of my mouth." She said, then lowered her head to hold a cigarette holder made of bamboo poles, and took a puff of the cigarette.

"In short, don't keep thinking about your lack of heart, and don't always use this as an excuse. The extent to which you love each other is not decided by you, but by the other party."

"How do you say that?" I immediately asked humbly.

She gave me a blank look: "If you love each other to death, but the other party just doesn't appreciate it, what can you do?"

"So don't care about how much love you have and how much you can love. In short, you must give her all your love. If she accepts your love, it will be a long time, and the love will always accumulate little by little. "If she doesn't accept it, you'll throw away what you gave her for nothing, and it's useless how much you cry and feel sorry for yourself!"

I wrote down the words on the spot, and I was very grateful to her.If she hadn't woken me up, I'm afraid I would never have dared to take that step in my life and face up to the fact that I don't have a heart.

Half a month has been spent in this seemingly calm but dark tide. Bai Yanmo still hasn't come back, and I still haven't heard any news about her.Yeyin also told me that she is ready and can leave at any time.

Let's talk about the bell.After Lingdang woke up, I rested in Taohuajian for a few days, and I took her to Xiao's house and gave her to Yeyin to take care of her. At the same time, I taught some theoretical knowledge about how to control demon power—about Yeyin wanting to return to herself. I had already told her about the demon pill when we were on the way out of Taohuajian, and about the grievances between her and Xiao Qinglan. Now that she is living in someone else's house, and she has repented now, it can be said that she has sacrificed her heart and soul to Yin'er, she almost took out her liver, so you can let her go for now."

Ling Dang said on the spot: "For the sake of her dedication to Yin'er, I reluctantly let her go." As a result, when we met later, she was caught off guard and left three claw marks on his face.

I said: "As for what, he is still a junior..."

Ling Dang sneered: "What about the junior? Who in this world is not my junior?"

Me: "..." I was wrong. I forgot that this is a cat demon who has only lived for a few hundred years.

When everyone gathered for dinner that night, Xiao Qinglan ate very calmly under the eyes of everyone who were first surprised and then understood, with the three claw marks on her face.If I hadn't met her in private with a sad face and took the opportunity to act like a baby to Ye Yin, I would have really thought she was a girl who didn't pay much attention to appearance and had a strong heart.

After eating, I secretly gave Yeyin a small bottle of ointment.After all, Ling Dang is also a monster. Although there is no demon pill, once someone is caught, the wounds left behind cannot be treated in the same way as being caught by an ordinary cat.So I gave the ointment to Yeyin and asked her to bring it to Xiao Qinglan.

Yeyin took the medicine bottle and showed me a smile that I felt was very forced.The first thing that came to my mind was Xiao Qinglan's faint heart and bullying Yin'er?I looked at Xiao Qinglan who was not far away with a murderous look, but I saw the other party looking at me with confusion and doubts.

no?I immediately put away my murderous aura, lowered my head and rubbed Yeyin's hair, and said, "Don't force yourself, don't laugh if you can't laugh."

The corners of Yeyin's mouth collapsed in an instant.I suddenly realized that something big might have happened, or maybe it was her own horns that got into something else. At the age of 16, it is the time for sentimentality, and if no one guides it correctly, it is easy to grow crooked.

"How about tonight with..."

Originally, what I wanted to say was "Why don't I sleep with your mother tonight", although it is not my own, but Ling Dang is still my mother in name, and it is normal for a daughter to talk to her.However, when I thought that Yin'er's temperament, which was buried deep down in her heart, was still learned from Lingdang, a scene of a person and a cat lying on the bed, staring at each other and not talking, immediately appeared in my mind.

I thought about it carefully, and finally said to her: "Why don't you sleep with your mother tonight, anyway, she is also your mother, if you have any troubles, you can talk to her, or... now It’s okay to tell Aunt Qing, it’s better than just thinking about it by yourself..."

"..." Yeyin hesitated for a long time, and finally said, "Aunt Qing, I haven't slept with mother for a long time..."

Yes, it's been a long time, maybe more than ten years... I silently complained in my heart.In fact, since Yeyin can remember, she has been sleeping alone, and Lingdang has played more of an image of a strict mother (strict mother) in her life.Although strict, it can be seen from many things that Ling Dang actually loves Ye Yin very much, and her strictness is kept within a measure, which does not make people think that she is ruthless and cold.

I understood what Yeyin didn't finish next, so I didn't take it to heart.I smiled and patted her on the shoulder, suddenly remembered something, and asked hesitantly: "Yin'er...have you ever hated Aunt Qing? I mean...about the master-servant mark on your mother..."

"Never!" Yeyin interrupted me, looked at me very seriously and said, "Yin'er never hated Aunt Qing because of this, on the contrary, Yin'er was very grateful that Aunt Qing took in Yin'er and mother back then. Moreover, Without Aunt Qing, Yin'er would not be able to live today. Yin'er has remembered everything that Aunt Qing has done for Yin'er these years, and never dares to forget. As for the imprint on her mother... But Aunt Qing has never Treat your mother as a servant, don't you?"

"Yin'er..." I was so moved by Yin'er's heartfelt words that I couldn't speak, and finally I just stepped forward and hugged her.However, Ye Yin suddenly grabbed my skirt, buried her head in my arms, followed the outburst of emotions, and choked out all the words in her heart.

"But... Yin'er relies on Aunt Qing for help in everything. Yin'er wants to help...but she can't help with anything. Even if my mother's demon pill was robbed, I can't do anything...Qing Lan is as old as me, but even she can ask someone to find out... But I can't find anyone, so I can only sit around..."

Yeyin's outburst of emotions caught people off guard!I frantically patted her on the back to comfort her, ignoring other people's gazes.Bell was the first to discover the situation here. She was sitting on the threshold and taking a nap. When she saw that Yeyin's situation was wrong, her hairs stood on end in shock. She ran to my feet and ran around anxiously below. .In the end, he grabbed my clothes with his paws and jumped on me, and then came to Yeyin's shoulder to comfort him.

I think at this time, Bell must hate how much she has lost the demon pill, and can only maintain the shape of a cat.

After listening to Ye Yin's words, I finally understood why the other party looked so gloomy.It seems that the matter of Bell still took a big blow to her.Maybe she realized her desire to help a long time ago, and she is constantly working hard to improve herself, but the incident with the bell happened too fast and suddenly, and it greatly exceeded her ability. It's like all the hard work has been in vain, because I still didn't help anything in the end.

But, "Yin'er can still help," I said to her, "so don't underestimate yourself!"

Yeyin suddenly stopped sobbing, and looked at me with teary eyes.Bell leaned over to help her lick the tears off her face.I also took out a handkerchief and wiped away the tears on her face.

"I think Yin'er may not be able to understand what is helpful. According to different situations, making judgments and actions that are beneficial to the target is already helpful. You know that I am in Xiqi, so put the bell quickly Send it here, isn't that considered a help? Could it be that you have to stay in the restaurant and wait for me to come back before calling for help?"

I said persuasively, I am very glad that Yeyin has not recovered so quickly after crying for a while.If she is an ordinary person, she will definitely find that my words cannot stand up to scrutiny.But it doesn't matter if she thinks about it afterwards, in short, my purpose of comforting me has been achieved now.