unobtainable warmth

One year later, Xu Zhou graduated from University E. Instead of going to other provinces and cities to find a job, he stayed in City Z, stayed at University E, and became a lecturer. teacher.

Xu Zhou also opened a bookstore in Z City with the support of Yang Shan’s parents. It is small, with warm yellow lights inside, very cozy. There are not too many books in the bookstore, and they are all the type that he and Yang Shan like. Every day in his free time, Zhou would go to the bookstore to read books, and occasionally customers would come to buy books.

A year ago, Yang Shan had a car accident on the way back to school. The taxi driver was drunk and drove straight into Yang Shan who was walking on the side of the road. Xu Zhou and Yang Shan's parents waited for a long time in front of the operating room. But he didn't wait for Yang Shan who was alive.Yang Shan's mother fainted from crying on the spot. Yang Shan's father carried her to the ward without saying a word, but looked a little older.Xu Zhou was listening to the doctor in a daze, without saying anything, just staring blankly at the operating room, as if that smiling Yang Shan would come back.

When Xu Zhou was helping Yang Shan's parents with Yang Shan's funeral, he thought of Ning Xiao, who was also a person who loved to laugh. He also lost his life because of a car accident. He felt very helpless, and gave birth to a sense of powerlessness. There is no way.

Xu Zhou had never been to Yang Shan's tomb, and he didn't know where his tomb was. He didn't want to know.

When Su Su came last time, she asked him angrily why she didn't go to see Yang Shan, and she shed tears while talking.

"It's nothing, I just don't want to go." Xu Zhou replied.

Yang Shan, they all think that I am stubborn and refuse to face the fact of your death, that I refuse to accept the reality, but it is not, I just don’t want to see and warm you sleeping in that cold underground, what a warm person , but sleeping in that kind of place, Yang Shan, I can't bear to see it, I can't bear it.Just thinking about it like this, but two lines of clear tears flowed from Xu Zhou's eyes. This was the first time Xu Zhou cried after Yang Shan left. There was no sound, very quiet, as if nothing had happened.

It took a long time for Yang Shan's parents to accept the fact that a white-haired man sent a black-haired man. Since then, they have treated Xu Zhou as their own child. Xu Zhou's family has kicked Xu Zhou out. She has lived in Yang Shan's house for a long time, and it should be Xu Zhou's house now.Xu Zhou still lived in the guest room, Yang Shan's room was locked and only cleaned regularly, no one lived in it anymore.

Sometimes when Xu Zhou was cleaning Yang Shan's room, he would look through Yang Shan's cabinet. Inside were the pens he gave Yang Shan, photos of the two of them going out to play, and various small things that Xu Zhou usually gave Yang Shan. Xu Zhou could sit all afternoon just by watching.

Yang Shan's parents also euphemistically told Xu Zhou to find someone else, regardless of gender, they knew that Yang Shan was gone, but they didn't want to delay Xu Zhou, they treated Xu Zhou as their own child, and hoped that he would be happy.Xu Zhou just smiled and said that this is pretty good, he doesn’t need to look for other people, he has identified Yang Shan in his life, and Yang Shan said that he will guard him for the rest of his life, since Yang Shan can’t guard him now, then change He went to guard Yang Shan, and guarded Yang Shan's family for the rest of his life.Yang Shan sighed, didn't say anything more, and never mentioned this matter again since then.

One year after Yang Shan left, Xu Zhou saw an abandoned puppy on his way back from school to the bookstore. The puppy seemed to be unaware that he was abandoned, and barked cheerfully at passers-by. Xu Zhou I thought it was very like Yang Shan's temperament, so I took it to the bookstore without thinking about it, found a pet hospital, took care of all kinds of things, and took it home.Yang Shan's parents looked at the puppy brought by Xu Zhou, looked into the puppy's eyes, and probably knew the reason why Xu Zhou, who had always disliked animals, brought the dog home.Since then, the dog named Mu Mu stayed at home, and Xu Zhou took him with him when he went to the bookstore.

On this day, when Su Su came looking for Xu Zhou, he suddenly asked Xu Zhou, "Have you ever regretted being with Yang Shan?"

Xu Zhou hadn't heard Yang Shan's name for a long time. After thinking for a while, he said to Su Su, "I regretted it, but I didn't regret it. If I regret that I didn't meet Yang Shan and fell in love with him, maybe he is happy now." I live in this world; but I have never regretted it. Yang Shan brought me the warmth I have never had before. If there is no accident, I will always be with him to enjoy the simple happiness and warmth. It’s just that there are so many ifs , When I met, I met, and when I liked it, I liked it. Although Yang Shan left, the warmth did exist. Now every time I think of him, I feel warm in my heart. The warmth is enough to make me Resist those feelings of regret."

Su Su heard Xu Zhou's words and knew that Xu Zhou would definitely not regret it.

When Qiu Yan walked into Xu Zhou's bookstore, Qiu Yan hardly recognized that it was Xu Zhou. Unlike the cold Xu Zhou before, the current Xu Zhou is warm.When Qiu Yan came back from abroad, he went to find Xu Zhou and Yang Shan. He heard about Xu Zhou and Yang Shan from Yang Shan's parents. After a few days, he decided to go to the bookstore to meet Xu Zhou.

Xu Zhou raised his eyes and saw Qiu Yan standing at the door of the bookstore, put down his book and walked towards him, Mu Mu also followed Xu Zhou.

"When did you return to China?" Xu Zhou asked in surprise.

"Just a few days ago, I came to see how you are doing, and I am relieved to see that you are doing well." Qiu Yan said.

"Fine. How are you?"

"It's pretty good, but I was urged by my parents to find a partner, so I fled back to the country." Qiu Yan said helplessly.

"Do you want to go out for a walk?" Xu Zhou asked Qiu Yan.

"Let's go, I haven't been to City Z yet."

Xu Zhou closed the bookstore, took Mu Mu, and went out with Qiu Yan.

The days to come are still long, Xu Zhou knows that he will meet all kinds of people, warm or cold, but those people are not his Yang Shan, he feels really lucky, in his In his lifetime, he met the warm Yang Shan.

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It will be over tomorrow, and there will be another ending tomorrow〒_〒