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Chapter 15 Sad but not sad

Ah Jing arrived at the hotel alone today. She walked casually in the hotel room, looking at the details in circles.Looking around, I only found that it has the same layout and order of items as other standard hotel rooms.Those she and Yun Duo almost do not touch.Only the big bed in the middle is the place where they stay the longest every time they come here, but unfortunately it is the same as the other double beds here, the pillows, quilts, sheets, and cushions are all the same, there is no difference.She felt a little lost.She ran her hands over the surfaces of the furniture, the DVD player and the stereo, trying to imprint something in her mind.

She also thought about asking Yun Duo whether to go with her or not; or to go to the city where she practiced; if they were together, what would they look like in the future; How much, would Yunduo want to raise a dog or a cat, or maybe she liked children and wanted to have children by herself; it would be even better if they could go out together several times a year.But she couldn't think anymore, and her head was dizzy, and she found that there was a key problem that she had completely bypassed.

That is, does Yun Duo love her?

Yun Duo, do you believe in love?

She couldn't answer for Yun Duo.

Yun Duo also arrived at this time, and had already come in and closed the door.I saw that she didn't look at Ah Jing at first, but turned her head and looked at the hotel room carefully like Ah Jing before.She didn't look at it for a long time, and then she turned her eyes to Ah Jing in front of her.Ah Jing was still wearing a printed pleated skirt, with her hair up, light makeup, and a little blush this time on her cheeks.

Ah Jing also saw the clouds in front of her.Yun Duo wore a thin blue suspender skirt today, the same color as the water in the swimming pool that Ah Jing likes, and a pair of silver lady sandals on her feet, which were still flat.

They approached each other, stretched out their hands, hugged each other, and were speechless.

"I'm going to change careers and not be a teacher. I will also leave the city."

"I also want to go to another place for an internship."

"Don't you like being a teacher very much? If you don't do it, will you be unhappy?"

"My enthusiasm for the profession of teachers has changed a little bit today. If I don't do it anymore, I won't be reluctant. Moreover, my heart of being serious about work will not change. Even if I go to other professions, I can give myself Find fun."

"I think you can do what you say."

"I will divorce Zhixiang."

"Today, let's repeat the look of the first time, shall we?"

"it is good."

Ah Jing hugged Yun Duo in her arms, and Yun Duo's face was pressed against her heart. Would she want to tell Yun Duo about her agreement with Zhixiang, the agreement to break the marriage relationship by having a child.If Yun Duo found out, would she stay by her side soft-heartedly and accompany her with her.Or sympathize with her and are willing to try a long-term relationship with her.She wondered how long that time would be, a few years, a year, a month, a week, a fleeting thought.She also thought that they would not be accepted by their parents, but they could work independently, and there would be no absolute relationship.They can have each other and friends, and Yun Duo won't feel isolated.Or is she just going to tell her parents that she wants to stay single just like herself.She also felt that the less she told her story, the more Yun Duo would lose interest in her because of this.If for Yun Duo the sense of vitality brought by fresh stimulation is necessary in life, then the two of them are not the same way at all. The Yun Duo she sees at this moment may hope to be with her is the beach built by herself. The bunker, just wait for the wind to blow and the sun to shine, and everything will disappear.And the biggest difference between me and Yun Duo is that I believe that there is a bright lighthouse ahead, and I have been walking on the road.Yun Duo is a big child, surrounded by her small circle of life, and the scenery she can see for a while is limited, so she thought that there is no other place in this world.She only cares about immersing herself in the garden for a while and does not go out. How long will she have to wait for her? Will she be able to wait in the end.Now that I have a choice, are I sure I want to wait for her?

"Let me help you take a bath."

"Why do you want to do this?"

"Because I want to wash you clean and get rid of the smell of perfume on my body, so that I can remember your own smell."

"Okay. I want you to give me a bath."

Ah Jing and Yun Duo stood naked under the shower together, Ah Jing closed her eyes, and Yun Duo stood in front of her to help her take a bath.Yun Duo stood behind Ah Jing again, buried her nose on her shoulder and sniffed, and found that although the scent of perfume had been washed away, there was a scent of bath liquid.She raised one of Ah Jing's arms and buried herself in licking her armpits. Feeling unsatisfied, she finally squatted down and squeezed into her legs, sticking out her tongue.

Ah Jing felt dizzy in her brain, one leg rested on Yun Duo's shoulder, and the other leg felt unable to stand on the ground.She supported the wall with one hand, and grabbed the hair at the back of Yun Duo's head with the other. She felt a strong sense of shock being transmitted from the core of her whole body upwards, and she also felt that her heart had opened a path for it. Now that The feeling has reached the mouth of the throat, and she is about to speak out along with the sound she is about to make.

"Yun Duo, if you have problems in your life, remember to look back, and you may find new feelings that are beneficial to you."

"I don't understand your words now, but I promise you will write them down."

Ah Jing watched as Yun Duo got into a taxi and left.The taxi carrying Yun Duo quickly sent her into the sea of ​​traffic.Ah Jing also got into the car, turned the key, and set off immediately.

In the end, Ah Jing couldn't say anything to persuade Yun Duo to stay, and she didn't even ask her if she could think about it for a while.Because she admitted to herself that if Yun Duo had that consciousness, she would have done something about it early in the morning, and she wouldn't put a lot of things in her stomach like she did.She tried her best now, but she could only find a way out for herself in the future.She wasn't sure if that was where Cloud would be in her uncertain future.

She watched Yun Duo leave with tears in her eyes, feeling sad but not hurt in her heart.

She gave Yun Duo a choice and gave herself freedom.