[Pride and Prejudice] Becoming Katherine Bennett

While the two were talking, Aunt Gardner pushed the door open and entered.

Just now the butler specifically told her about Mr. Darcy's visit, and the two of them sat alone in the lounge for a long time.After hearing this, Aunt Gardner was quite hesitant, not knowing whether to wait for Catherine to speak out, or to open her mouth to care.She was uncertain about her niece's thoughts, and felt that she would not know when Catherine would speak if she waited like this.

If Catherine was as gentle and cheerful as Jane, then I wouldn't be so worried.But Catherine has a dull personality, she speaks clearly when talking about other people's affairs, but keeps silent about her own affairs, awkward and stubborn.

Aunt Gardner had been looking for opportunities to chat with Catherine about her unrealistic views on marriage.This kind of denial is not contempt. He feels that Catherine is too demanding and encourages her to find someone to marry.What she wanted to say to Catherine was that the idea was contradictory.

You want the other party to understand you, but you don't want to get in touch with the other party, so what should others do?

Aunt Gardner was very optimistic about Mr. Gordon at the beginning, thinking that he was excellent in all aspects, recognized and understood Catherine's career, and cared for her.But Catherine said they were not a match.Aunt Gardner was puzzled and couldn't figure out where the problem was.

After seeing Catherine getting along with Mr. Darcy these two times, she vaguely guessed some answers.

Aunt Gardner, as a person who has experienced it, thinks that her niece's intentions are really obvious. Catherine herself didn't find that she reacted very differently when she talked about Mr. Darcy and when she met him.But whether these two young people can understand like her, she is not fully sure.

After much hesitation, Aunt Gardner decided to have a chat with Catherine.She took the initiative to ask Catherine why Mr. Darcy came home with her.

Catherine hid the matter of Georgiana and Jane, and replied: "Today I went to visit Georgiana. Mr. Darcy came back suddenly when I was a guest. He has been in Losings recently and just returned to London today. Later when I was going home He happened to be going out, and he dropped by with me, so he sent me home."

Aunt Gardner eyed Catherine suspiciously.She felt that this argument was untenable.How can there be such a coincidence in the world?Why did they go home today, and they happened to go out together, and they happened to drop by?If you have to say that this is a coincidence, it is better to explain it as God's will, and it is considered to be the fate of God's gift.

Aunt Gardiner has been sure that Darcy has a soft spot for Catherine.She really wanted to discuss a few words, but she didn't want her niece to think that she interfered too much and was annoying.Aunt Gardner's hesitation showed on her face.

Catherine has been facing her aunt day and night these days, so she can see her troubles.She felt warm and caring for her loved ones, without a trace of disgust.Probably because she was too lacking in love. After Catherine had a family in this life, she didn't even have a day of rebellion.Unlike most teenagers who resent their family's management, she is very willing to accept this kind of care full of family affection.

Even to Mrs. Bennet, she has no big opinion.Although other family members were disgusted with Mrs. Bennet's nagging and screaming, Catherine also thought it was a headache, but thinking that part of these cares came from her mother's love, Catherine was more grateful and tolerant than others.

Catherine reluctantly explained the matter of going home together, but the question of what the two of them talked about in the lounge has not yet been discussed.

After thinking for a few seconds, Catherine decided to tell her two relatives about Mr. Darcy's proposal.

She had great confidence in their character, and knew that neither of them would show it without her permission.At the same time, Catherine also felt that this could no longer be concealed.She had felt that Mr. Darcy had no intention of ending his friendship.He is also very good at hiding, as long as he and her appear on the same occasion again, what kind of mood he has is obvious just by looking at his performance.

He also always does something obvious.For example, today, when they met, he lost his composure and panicked.When she was about to leave, he deliberately went out to take her home again.

In this case, Catherine could explain it once or twice, and she didn't know what to do after so many times.

Catherine deliberately said in a relaxed tone: "I have to admit that there is one thing that I kept hidden in my heart and didn't say it. It's actually not a big deal, at least it doesn't have any impact on our lives. About two weeks ago, Earl Gordon held a ball The day after, Mr Darcy proposed to me, and I said no."

She had done so much to water down the news that her polite remarks were longer than the words to describe it, but her deliberation didn't work.

Aunt Gardner and Jane were dumbfounded and looked at her in disbelief.They never thought that Catherine would say such shocking news in such a calm tone.

"My God Kitty, this is unbelievable! What did I hear? Mr. Darcy confessed to you? You refused him?" Jane was stunned for nearly half a minute before she recovered.

Unlike Elizabeth and Catherine, who were always skeptical, Jane was always kind and gentle, and rarely questioned others, but she could never have imagined this news.

Jane didn't have much contact with Mr. Darcy, and her impression of him still remained in the coldness and arrogance of the other party when they met in Neidfell.He despises them all, and refuses to say much.Jane was not full of resentment like the others, and she thought he was of high birth, and justly so.Therefore, when Catherine said that Elizabeth guessed that Mr. Darcy liked her, Jane also agreed with Catherine's idea that it was impossible.

It now appears that she was deceived by Catherine.Such a gentleman, to love Catherine so much, to propose to her!Catherine also refused!

Jane's eyes were round.

Compared with her, Aunt Gardiner was only momentarily surprised and soon began to regret.She was late in contact with Darcy, and aside from the gossip Wickham said, when she saw Mr. Darcy himself, the latter had already had a deep tenderness for Catherine, and he was polite and kind to them all.

Aunt Gardner thought Darcy, despite his condescension in his tone, was generally polite and polite when he appeared at his house that morning.The Gardners had come into contact with some dignitaries, whose status was far less noble than Mr. Darcy's, and far less approachable than him. She had a very good impression of him.

Aunt Gardner said regretfully, "Why did you refuse? I thought you had a good impression of Mr. Darcy."

Catherine frowned slightly: "Is there?"

"Certainly. When I was a guest at Longbourne, I saw you explain many times to Mr. Darcy and other guests. Don't you realize that everyone stopped talking about that gentleman in front of you afterwards? Elizabeth privately told I said, you trust Darcy very much, and no one wants to cause you any displeasure. After you and Wickham have quarreled, no one talks about it."

If it wasn't for what Aunt Gardner said, Catherine really didn't feel it.Now that I think about it, things are indeed as she said.

But this has nothing to do with love.Catherine couldn't explain to her aunt that Mr. Darcy's character was endorsed by a famous book, and that famous book was romance. Except for the domineering president who forced love, there is no romance book with a bad character.

For this reason, Catherine's trust in Darcy is indeed extraordinary. She tried to explain: "This doesn't explain anything. I think Mr. Walker is also very good. But this good impression is not enough to make me and Mr. Darcy have a good relationship." develop."

Aunt Gardiner said: "Then I don't understand, Kitty. A young single gentleman, handsome, rich, upright, noble-born and learned, you wouldn't want to develop with such a gentleman, then you What do you think?"

"If you have any feelings of disgust with him, or if he has bad conduct, lack of knowledge and you have nothing to talk about, then I can understand your refusal. But you appreciate him very much. Please don't rush to refute. Think carefully before speaking Think, is your appreciation and good impression the same thing?"

certainly…

Catherine opened her mouth slightly, then quickly closed it again.What can she say?Does it mean that Mr. Darcy is not that good, or list out the difference between appreciation and impression one by one?

Catherine stared blankly at her aunt, struggling to think about what the other party said.But the harder she worked, the more chaotic her brain became. At this time, her heart became restless and began to be chaotic. It seemed that there was a juicy water flow in it trying to break through the obstructing stone wall, wanting to rush to the unknown coast.

Appreciation and impression are good, are they different?Catherine recalled carefully.She had a good impression of Bentley, a good impression of Walker, and a good impression of Willard.But she could say a lot about their shortcomings.

But Mr. Darcy was different.She admired him, and couldn't even find anything wrong with him.

why?

After realizing this, Catherine was greatly shaken in her heart.She couldn't think of an answer, and tried hard to control herself not to think about those words.But she couldn't help thinking about it.

She has always been self-aware, knowing that she is seriously lacking in love and insecurity. She is afraid of dodging feelings, worried that the other party is hypocritical, and afraid of being played and abandoned after giving her heart.

But these problems are not a problem for Mr. Darcy.

She knew that he would not.

When he said he loved her, he really loved her. He loved her so much that he couldn't extricate himself.He chooses to hold her hand, and he will go to the end with her.

She believed in him, and only in him.There is no one in the world who can gain such unreserved trust from Catherine, and no one can trust Darcy so thoroughly.

Catherine wanted to defend herself, but the more anxious she became, the more speechless she became.

Aunt Gardner, being a smart one, turned around and said, "Kitty, I must say you're great, you're better than 90.00% of nine young ladies."

"You are ready to be self-reliant and not to marry for the rest of your life, but you have entered a blind spot. You think that you will not have marriage because you can't meet a husband who suits your wishes, but now you have reversed cause and effect, you It seems that I have forgotten the premise, and just remember that I am ready to never marry for the rest of my life."

"I definitely don't think you are a match made in heaven because of Mr. Darcy's wealth. But I think that since you appreciate him, you might as well try to open your heart. You must know that life is a long way, with countless sufferings, and there are people who love each other to accompany you By your side, you will be much happier.”

Aunt Gardner's words were like stones being thrown into the lake one after another, causing ripples in Catherine's heart.After thinking silently for a long time, she said softly: "But he doesn't understand me..."

"How do I get to know you?"

Catherine was questioned again.Yes, how to calculate it.He already knew her indifference, knew that she would hate people, knew that she longed for freedom and respect, and went a step further today, deeply aware of her lack of kindness and "vicious" mind.

She also wondered how he knew her?

Another issue seems to be more important than this.He understands that she is not a kind and delicate lady, does he still like her?Has there been a hasty change of heart?

Catherine said: "I think now he knows me a little bit, and knows that I'm very different from what he thinks. I'm not sure if he..." still likes me.

If not, that's perfectly normal.If you will...

Catherine was almost suffocated by the thought.

If so, what should she do?

Coming out of Mr. Gardiner's house, Darcy stood on the steps, not moving for a long time.The golden sunlight shone directly on his eyes from the front, Darcy closed his eyes slightly, and opened them again until the violent turmoil in his heart calmed down a little.

He stepped on the horse, looked at the gate of Mr. Gardner's house, and thought over and over again in his mind how the lovely girl flushed with shyness after showing fierceness.After staring for a long time, Darcy reluctantly withdrew his gaze and rode away.

Darcy went to Bentley's place.

His arrival surprised Bentley, and Bentley said enthusiastically and puzzled, "Darcy, why are you here?"

"I have something to tell you."

The two went to the study.As soon as they sat down, Darcy began to talk to Bingley about Jane.

Under the deliberate avoidance of sisters Bingley and Darcy, Bingley hadn't heard the name of his sweetheart for a long time, and at first hearing it, he couldn't help feeling flustered.Bingley knew before that he loved Jane deeply, but after parting, he realized that this love was deeper than he thought.He couldn't forget Jane at all, her sight and voice haunted him.

But they all said she didn't love him.Although he didn't believe it, he didn't want to get used to it. Later, when even Darcy persuaded him so, he also believed that those loves were all his own sentimentality.

Now Darcy was going to talk to him about Jane?

Darcy didn't tell Bentley what Elizabeth and Catherine said.In fact, from their words, he had heard that Jane also loved Bingley deeply, and he didn't want to use these words to disturb Bingley's heart, but there was one thing he felt he had to say: "Jane Bennett has been in London for more than a month. "

"What?" Bentley was taken aback.

Darcy told him that Jane had been in London about a week after they came to London.His words surprised Bentley, followed by joy, but soon began to be annoyed, and he realized that something was wrong, and asked Darcy: "When did you know?"

Darcy did not hesitate, and told the truth to his friend: "I beg your forgiveness. I knew it at the time, but I didn't tell you, and I didn't let others tell you."

"Darcy!" Bingley had never felt so angry. "How can you do this? You know I love her Jane, and you all say she doesn't love me, but this time you are all wrong! She came to London as soon as I arrived." Now, doesn't that explain her intentions? Why do you hide such an important matter? "

"I'm sorry, Charles. I can't judge whether she loves you or not. But her family will shame you, and I used to be conceited and thought it was for your own good. It's just that some recent events have made me understand our relationship." No matter how good it is, I shouldn't make decisions for you, I'm not qualified. How this matter develops is up to you to choose. "

Bentley was furious, as he had never been before with Darcy.Darcy's successive apologies made him less angry, but he didn't forgive Darcy, and he didn't even want to send him off.

Darcy left with guilt, and the moon was already in the sky when he got home.He dismounted and saw Georgiana come out to meet him.

Georgiana walked so fast that her face was red and her breath was uneven: "Brother, you are back."

"Yes." Darcy said softly.

Georgiana pinched the hem of her skirt uneasily. She really wanted to ask her brother if she had been with Catherine for so long, but she was too embarrassed to ask. She just looked at him expectantly and timidly.

Infinite pity welled up in Darcy's heart.He knew her very well, guessed her unspoken words, and whispered softly: "After seeing off Miss Catherine, I sat at her house for a while. Then I went to Bingley's house and came back so late."

"Oh." Georgiana responded obediently.

She was a little disappointed that her brother wasn't staying with Catherine.

Looking at her innocent expression, Darcy felt even more fond of his sister in his heart.

Darcy moved his lips, his thoughts were like catkins flying in the wind, and he couldn't help thinking of Catherine.

As for that scum of Wickham, he had never mentioned anything to Georgiana since it happened, nor had he ever asked her whether she agreed with the result.

If Catherine was here, she would definitely chat with Georgiana gently, open her heart, ask her true thoughts, appease her fears in the bottom of her heart, and give her sister enough comfort and support.

After hesitating for a moment, Darcy only said, "Georgiana, do you like Catherine?"

Georgiana didn't understand the question, but nodded seriously.She clicked so fast and so hard that Darcy couldn't help raising the corners of her mouth and rubbing her sister's hair.

He didn't speak, and let the shining moonlight scattered on the ground silently cover all the scenery and objects, as well as the deep and rich love in the hazy mist.

Shallow water is noisy, deep water is silent.