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Li Shangshui didn't feel that something was wrong until he was lying shoulder to shoulder with Ren Yang under the quilt—this person was not his grandma, and there was an inexplicable ambiguous relationship between the two of them, but now he unexpectedly agreed to Ren Yang's suggestion!

The quilt is very warm, the quilt has the fragrance of the laundry detergent that Ren Yang often uses, and the scorching temperature from Ren Yang's right shoulder can be felt on the left shoulder.Li Shangshui was a little flustered, but Ren Yang didn't speak at this time, and the atmosphere was even weirder.He quietly moved two centimeters towards the edge of the bed, no longer had any physical contact with Ren Yang, and then pulled up the quilt to cover the gap between their shoulders.

Ren Yang said abruptly: "I feel... a little hot."

Li Shangshui: "?"

"Although I have a fever now, the two men still have enough firepower to sleep together. With two quilts, I will definitely die of heat when I fall asleep. Why don't you remove one bed."

Li Shangshui didn't speak, lay down and felt for a few seconds, and felt that what Ren Yang said was true, so he got up and took his quilt over.Ren Yang breathed a sigh of relief: "It's much more relaxed, it's so relaxed and warm."

Li Shangshui remained silent and kept a distance from Ren Yang. If he wasn't afraid of the wind, he would have wanted to sleep with his back to Ren Yang, which was simply too embarrassing!Ren Yang said casually, "Ah Shui, I'm going to bed, good night."

"……OK, good night."

Even if Ren Yang was burning, he could still feel Li Shangshui's nervousness. He even felt a little happy for his nervousness, because it meant that Li Shangshui could face up to the relationship between the two that was different from ordinary friendship. At least, Li Shangshui was not like himself. As he said, he was just a good friend.

But Li Shangshui pretended to be deaf and dumb.

However, this is not important, Ren Yang needs more time to understand him, slowly melt him, and finally open the door of his heart.After thinking about it, Ren Yang happily... fell asleep.

However, Li Shangshui couldn't sleep.He was very distressed and didn't understand how he and Ren Yang got to this point.From the day he met Ren Yang, his world seemed to have been reshaped, subverting his past life, meeting all kinds of people, and strange things, which made him from the initial surprise and inferiority to the current familiarity and inferiority , Ren Yang has always been involved.

He has gratitude, respect, and liking for Ren Yang, but he doesn't know if he has the kind of liking that Ren Yang said.But if Ren Yang disappeared from his life, he would be very reluctant, yes, just reluctant, so, do you like it?he does not know……

After thinking about it, Li Shangshui struggled... and fell asleep.

Li Shangshui had a very shameless dream—in the dream, he secretly kissed Ren Yang while he was asleep, and when he was about to stick out his tongue to lick his dry lips, Ren Yang opened his eyes without warning— — Then Li Shangshui was startled awake.

What frightened him even more was that Ren Yang lay on the pillow and looked sideways at him!He closed his eyes and opened them again, confirming that this was not a dream, and then slowly slowed down his violently beating heart.

"Did you have a nightmare?" Maybe it was because he was in a good mood last night, Ren Yang's sleep quality was surprisingly good, and he woke up earlier than usual.After waking up, he saw the person who was thinking about him sleeping next to him, and his heart was immediately filled with great happiness. After Li Shangshui woke up, he saw himself as if he had seen a ghost. Could it be that his face was so haggard that he could not be seen?

"Yeah." Li Shangshui looked away and realized that he was too close to Ren Yang, so he moved towards the bed.Then he paused, put his hand on Ren Yang's forehead, and asked, "Is the fever gone?"

Ren Yang's eyes darkened, and then he said with a pun: "Retire! Ah Shui medicine cured my illness, I slept soundly last night!"

When Li Shangshui heard him talk about his sleep last night, he couldn't help but think of that dream again, his face flushed, and he said anxiously: "I'll go down and find the thermometer, you can lie down for a while."

Ren Yang: "Officer, you slept in the slave's house for a night, are you going to abandon the slave's house?"

Li Shangshui's head was full of black lines: "...Ren Yang, you are enough!"

"Hahahaha," Ren Sansui laughed out loud, "Ah Shui, you really don't have a sense of humor, don't you know how to pick up the joke?"

Li Shangshui: "..."

Afterwards, although Ren Yang's body temperature fluctuated, it was not a serious problem.And one day later, after Xu Ruxin finished the exam, he couldn't wait to take Ren Yang home. Before leaving, he told Li Shangshui to remember to log on to WeChat. train.The school stopped heating, and the restaurant was basically deserted. Li Shangshui had nothing to do, so he got on the bus home the next day.

Ren Yang asked him why he didn't take the train, and he could only smile helplessly. Since his hometown is remote, there is naturally no train.Even the bus, there are only two trips a day, and the morning trip must arrive at the station before 7 o'clock, otherwise you will miss it.

So on the morning when Li Shangshui went back, it was still dark when he set off from school.He was walking on the quiet campus with his suitcase, only the loud noise of the suitcase being dragged on the ground could be heard; there were only one or two passengers like him driving on the morning bus, and the dim lights on the side of the road stood dutifully on the ground. There watched him go away.

"Close to the hometown", Li Shangshui skimmed this idiom every time he saw it in the book, but this time he really tasted it.But this "timidity" is not that he is afraid of right and wrong, but that he is afraid of right and wrong.He thought, when he came out of that small mountain village, he thought that if he didn't have to come back, then he would never want to come back.As much love as grandma gave him, so much evil was given to him by the people there.Now that he goes back, how will the people there treat him?

He couldn't be magnanimous enough to forgive those people, let alone deal with their curious looks and gossip as if nothing had happened.

Originally, I got up early in the morning and should catch up on a nap in the car, but Li Shangshui couldn't fall asleep no matter what.The car was speeding on the highway, and he just stared at the rapidly reversing scenery outside the window in a daze.

When the car arrived at the county seat, Li Shangshui numbly took his luggage and found a van to go back to the village. The driver was an uncle in his 40s, wearing gray cotton clothes, with rough and dark skin. Seeing him carrying the luggage, he took the initiative to help him move to the back In the carriage, he asked in his native dialect: "The young man is going to college and going home for the holidays?"

"Yes." Li Shangshui still had a repulsive mentality towards the people in his hometown, and he didn't want to talk too much.

The driver didn't care about his indifference, and said with a smile: "My son is in the third year of high school this year, and he will take the college entrance examination next year. His grades can be ranked in the top [-] in his school, so he should be able to enter the university. After all, it's not in vain for me and his mother to spend so many years. It's been hard work. Oh, boy, what college did you go to?"

Being able to drive a van to drive passengers in the county town, his family background is naturally much better than Li Shangshui's. Rich and promising children are these people's bargaining chips.Li Shangshui had no intention of chatting, so he just said indifferently when he got in the car, "It's just an ordinary university. Master, when are you leaving?"

"Walk around again, and I'll leave when I get on three people. Before the year, there are many people entering the city, so don't worry." The driver drove around in the crowded small town.

Li Shangshui didn't answer, he sat in the passenger seat in a daze, thought for a while, took out the earphones that Ren Yang bought for him before, and began to isolate the world.The van is a seven-seater, with a small space, and there is a strong smell, like the smell of gasoline, and it seems that it has not been cleaned for a long time, and there is a strange smell left by the guests going up and down.Li Shangshui suddenly felt nauseous, and wished he could immediately find a mask to wear.

The county town is still the one he is familiar with, with dilapidated and nondescript buildings, narrow streets, various folk stalls on both sides of the road, garbage all over the ground and no one to take care of it, passers-by in bloated clothes, bargaining and buying new year's goods...except The seasons are different, not a little different from when he left.

Sure enough, as the driver said, three people got on the street after turning one street, and brought two more people with him when he returned to the original road. The driver was satisfied and drove towards Muchang Village where Li Shangshui was located.

Leaving the bustling urban area, the car entered a narrower road with mountains beside it, and occasionally passed a town where merchants gathered.Passengers get on and off the way, and when there are the most people, the driver asks a child to squeeze into the co-pilot with Li Shangshui. No matter how reluctant Li Shangshui is, he has to endure it—more people and fewer cars, just for convenience.

He has long been used to the ups and downs of the way home, and he had to walk once a month in high school.If city dwellers take this kind of road by car, they will definitely be scared to death. There are many steep and winding roads, and the ups and downs are like a roller coaster.But the magic is that there are very few accidents here, and the driving skills of these drivers are also unusually superb.

The driver only stops on the main road and will not deliver him to his door.When he arrived at the fork in the road home, Li Shangshui got out of the car to pick up his luggage, paid the fare, and then, still without taking off his earphones, he pulled the suitcase and walked towards home.Here, even if you cover your head, you can be recognized as a child, and the people on the side of the road always like to sit at the door of the house and comment on the passers-by, even though they are all acquaintances.

Here, the length of the family cannot escape the eyes and mouths of the neighbors. Every family is the talk of others, and they are also talking about others.

Li Shangshui didn't look sideways, immersed in the music in the earphones, he couldn't hear the sound of the suitcase on the sandy road.

But those people can hear.They stopped what they were doing, stopped gossip, and looked at Li Shangshui, but no one yelled at him, "Are you back?"

Li Shangshui suddenly thought of Qin Luofu with bitterness and joy. This red carpet-like treatment was comparable to that stunning beauty.He smiled wryly, if he told Ren Yang about this matter, Ren Yang would definitely laugh his ass off.

He turned onto a more secluded path, pulled off his earphones, and the world was temporarily clean.

In the small village in winter, except for the dark mountains in the distance, there is only ash on the field, a piece of gray. If it catches up with the cloudy sky, the perception will be even worse, which will only add to the gloomy atmosphere in vain.

Li Shangshui sighed, he had thought more than once, why do New Years have to be spent in winter, which season is not good in spring, summer and autumn, but winter?He didn't want to come back in winter, but he had no choice.

After walking for 2 minutes, Li Shangshui's earthy "home" is in front of him.All the families in the village with a little extra money lived in brick buildings, but he and the other two extremely poor households still had old adobe houses, which were dilapidated.When he was a child, whenever there was a strong wind and heavy rain, Li Shangshui was afraid that the house would be blown down by the wind and washed away by the rain. After all, this was his last shelter.When I grow up, I no longer worry about it. I don't believe that the house is strong, but I feel that if I die in a natural disaster like this, it seems to be a good destination.

God failed to fulfill his wish, but he still lived to this day.

When Li Shangshui walked into the small courtyard, he didn't see his grandma or that person, but he still said loudly as he always did every time he came home from the monthly vacation, "Grandma, I'm back."

The author has something to say:

Writing about Li Shangshui's homecoming is very depressing. You have to believe that such a village really exists in this world.