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Ren Yang was woken up by the phone, and while he was groping, someone handed the phone in front of him, and he tried to open his eyes, it was Li Shangshui.Dazed, he smiled and said, "Ah Shui, good morning."

Li Shangshui smiled at him, then frowned and got up and lay down on another bed to read.He had been so presumptuous last night, and now his body was taking revenge, he could barely sit down.

Ren Yang answered the phone, only to hear a child's voice over there say: "Hey, brother, mom wants you to go home and play with me."

Ren Yang closed his eyes and fooled Ren Ren: "Brother is studying at school, be good, and bring you cakes when you go back to summer vacation."

Ren Ren's favorite snack is cake, but Ren's mother has always strictly controlled it, and it is usually not available except for Ren Yang to buy it for her.Hearing his brother's promise, Ren Yi immediately said obediently: "Okay!"

After hanging up the phone, Ren Yang also woke up, laying down and reminiscing about what happened last night, his heart was as sweet as honey.Turning my head to see that Li Shangshui was able to get up early to read a book, and seeing his posture, I couldn't help but understand a little bit.So he also lay down beside him, walked his left hand along his waistline, and whispered, "Does it still hurt? Do you want me to buy some medicine?"

Hearing what he said so bluntly, Li Shangshui unconsciously started to have a fever, and without looking up at him, he just said calmly, "It's okay."

"Ah Shui," Ren Yang rubbed his hands on his neck, "Ah Shui, I will definitely not be so reckless in the future."

Last night, both of them were inexperienced. Although they knew they had to protect Li Shangshui from pain, in the end Ren Yang still rushed by instinct, and Li Shangshui probably didn't feel much benefit.

Li Shangshui still looked down at the book without answering.

"Or, you can fuck me tonight," Ren Yang said without hesitation, "I don't care, as long as Ah Shui is happy."

Li Shangshui waved Ren Yang's dishonest hand away unbearably, and said, "Aren't you going to wash?"

Ren Yang quickly pecked him on the face, turned over and went to the bathroom to wash up.

The two originally planned to climb Zhushan Mountain today. Before leaving, Ren Yang repeatedly said that considering Li Shangshui's physical condition, he would mention tomorrow's itinerary today and go climbing tomorrow, but was refuted by Li Shangshui with a black face.

Therefore, Ren Yang dutifully carried all the climbing supplies on his shoulders, and asked Li Shangshui to take a rest after walking for a while, for fear that he would feel unwell.He didn't come down from the mountain until after six o'clock in the afternoon, and Ren Yang didn't let Li Shangshui go out at night, and let him stay in the hotel after dinner.

Li Shangshui was also happy and at ease, sitting for a while, standing for a while, lying down for a while, using all kinds of positions to finish reading the book he brought.Ren Yang just nestled in the armchair and played games the whole time. When he was tired, he lay down on the table to draw pictures. The atmosphere was harmonious.

Before going to bed, Ren Yang said that he would never touch Li Shangshui, but just stretched out his arms and hugged him—after all, he hugged him tightly.

"Ah Shui, I'll just walk around here tomorrow, and I'll take the train back in the afternoon." There seemed to be a lot of reluctance in his tone, "When I go back to school, I can't hug you like I am now, and I can't... That sort of thing."

Li Shangshui: "...can you have more serious things in your mind?"

Ren Yang buried his face in the hollow of his shoulder, and said in a muffled voice, "I just want to get close to you, without delaying serious business."

Li Shangshui turned to face him, and suddenly asked him: "Ren Yang, have I not told you about my family?"

Ren Yang thought about it, it seemed like this, he only heard him talk about his hometown, but never his family.Reaching out to touch his ear, he said, "I haven't said much, I just remember that you have a sister."

"Forget it, I'll talk to you later when I have a chance. Now, sleep." Li Shangshui suddenly didn't want to talk anymore.Seeing Ren Yang chatting with his sister in the morning, such an ordinary scene, made him feel a little envious.But to bring up the topic, he didn't want to think about those bad people and things that would spoil the current atmosphere.

Ren Yang kissed his lips, and said vaguely: "Okay, you can say it when you want."

When he got up early the next day, Ren Yang really dragged Li Shangshui around the map, calling it Caifeng.Li Shangshui found that Ren Yang chose to walk in secluded alleys, and the alleys were full of ordinary locals, and sometimes old people gathered together.

Sometimes you can meet a small teahouse with customers sitting in twos and threes, and the middle-aged boss is sitting behind the counter doing his own thing without paying attention; or you can see a freshly decorated flower shop surrounded by young shopkeepers. Linen apron, busily tending flowers and plants... Everything here is very slow, like the book says that the years are quiet and good.

Ren Yang said: "Actually, my dream is to be rich, and to live in such a quiet place, where there is no noise, no disputes with the world."

Li Shangshui pondered for a while, but he had no idea. His only dream was to escape from that place, as long as he came out.Hearing Ren Yang say that he has to wait until he has money to live such a life, he couldn't help laughing: "How much money do you have to earn to be able to do it?"

While he was talking, Ren Yang gave him a pull, motioning to step aside, and an electric car came from behind.Li Shangshui turned his face to the side and saw a woman out of the corner of his eye, so he didn't pay much attention.

The man disappeared after turning a corner on his bicycle, but returned after a while.After seeing her face clearly, Li Shangshui subconsciously wanted to pull Ren Yang to turn around.

"Li Shangshui?" That person was Li Shangying.

Li Shangshui stopped and looked at her without speaking.

Ren Yang said, "Ah Shui, do you know each other?"

Li Shangshui still didn't move. He couldn't understand that it was the first time he went out to play, and he could meet someone he didn't really want to meet.Also, they never asked which city Li Shangying lived in.

Ren Yang looked back and forth between the two of them a few times, and the more he looked at them, the more he felt that there were similarities in their appearance. Thinking of a possibility, his back couldn't help sweating—is this Ah Shui's sister?So caught off guard to meet the parents?But why does it feel that the two of them are not like ordinary relatives?

"Ah Shui," he said very winkingly, "Why don't I go to the front and call me when you're better." After speaking, he nodded to Li Shangying, who also twitched at him.

Li Shangshui said, "You are right here!"

Ren Yang: "..."

Well, then try to reduce the sense of existence.

"Why are you here?" The siblings asked at the same time, and were taken aback at the same time.

Li Shangshui really wanted to calm down, conflictedly wanting Ren Yang to leave, but also wanting him to stay by his side.He gritted his teeth and said, "It's a holiday. I'm here to play for two days. This is my roommate, Ren Yang." This should be a normal conversation, right?

Ren Yang nodded and greeted Li Shangying helplessly.

"This is my sister, Li Shangying." He told Ren Yang again.

Ren Yang: "Hi sister!"

Li Shangying still pulled the corner of her mouth at him.

"Do you just live here? If there is nothing else, I will leave first." Li Shangshui said.

"Li Shangshui, do I have any grudges against you?" Li Shangying really didn't know what to do with him. If you meet your younger brother by chance in a different place, you should hug each other in surprise under normal circumstances. Although they have no feelings for each other, they don't look like enemies. Is it the same as seeing each other?

Li Shangshui muttered for a while, looked at Ren Yang, and said nothing.

"Forget it, do you want to come to my house for lunch? I'm here to buy vegetables." Li Shangying said generously.

Ren Yang was the first to answer: "Okay, okay, we just don't know where to eat? Then I will trouble my sister."

Li Shangshui still didn't speak, but he didn't express any objection either, which was regarded as tacit consent.Ren Yang breathed a sigh of relief. Although Li Shangshui would have conflicts with him in the future, he really didn't want to see the siblings confront each other now, not to mention that the older sister didn't look like a bad person who bullied the younger brother.

Li Shangying just smiled and said: "Then you go to my house and wait, I will come back after buying vegetables. Go along this alley, turn left at the first intersection, and see the house number. No. 37 is my house. Note Are you staying?"

Ren Yang nodded: "Sister, you go first."

Li Shangying didn't see her and rode away from other places.

Ren Yang looked at the disappearing electric car, and immediately confessed: "Ah Shui, your sister looks as good-looking as you when she smiles, haha."

Li Shangshui looked at him expressionlessly and said nothing.

"Then let's wait at her door first?" Ren Yang asked cautiously.

Li Shangshui nodded, and followed him to Li Shangying's house.He really has no enmity with her, but he met her suddenly without any preparation, and let Ren Yang see the indifferent relationship between them. He couldn't accept it for a while, although he had planned to tell Ren Yanghe his family situation .

Besides, it is not certain who is in her family.

"Ren Yang," Li Shangshui said in a deep voice, "I'm not very close to her. She doesn't come home very often, so I don't know where she is. My family... has a special situation, and I will tell you."

Seeing that there was no one around, Ren Yang stretched out his arms and hugged him, "Ah Shui can say it whenever he wants, we are not acting in a TV series, no evil mother-in-law will give you a card because of your family, Said to leave my precious son quickly."

Li Shangshui twitched his mouth in response to his cold joke: "Then I would rather your mother give me a huge amount of money, so that I can dump you and live a good life without disputes."

Ren Yang smiled: "Even if you sell her son, you can't sell it for so much money. Really, Ah Shui, don't worry about it, I will treat you well."

"I'll be nice to you."

Li Shangshui admitted that he almost wanted to cry because of this sentence.

"My family's situation is very simple. My father was an alcoholic and violent at home, but he rarely dared to beat me. He hasn't beaten me since I was ten years old. When I was young, I was protected by my grandmother." Li Shangshui found that once he said it, no matter how miserable he was, he would become Insignificant, "Mother is mentally handicapped, and now her whereabouts are unknown. My grandma is fine, but she is too old and in poor health. Li Shangying, my sister, has been out for almost ten years and rarely comes home, so..."

Ren Yang couldn't help reaching out to hold Li Shangshui's hand, he didn't care whether he would be seen or not.

Li Shangshui let him hold it, smiled, and said, "Look, that's it. In fact, I understand Li Shangying quite well. The family is not normal, and her father is patriarchal. She is not allowed to go to school and married. She can only steal Come out, if it were me, I might be more extreme."

Ren Yang didn't speak, but kept stroking the back of Li Shangshui's hand with his thumb to let him know he was listening.In fact, the suffering that one person bears can never be felt by another person unless he experiences it himself.And when a person chooses to confide, he does not want to seek help from the other party, he just needs others to listen.

Some things just need to be said.

The hard part is, I'm afraid I won't be able to speak out.