she has two faces

For Xu Deng, the final exam was completely muddled. After handing in the paper, he didn’t know what he had written. The surrounding area was very noisy. Although the holiday was not long, for all the “incarcerated officers” who managed to rest for at least two weeks "It's much better now, and the corridor is very crowded.

Xu Deng returned to the classroom with her pencil bag expressionless. There were still people answering the questions. Jiang Di had also returned and pulled back the table to organize things. Yuan He sat at the front table of them and was following Jiang Di spoke.

Xu Deng glanced at it, patted Jiang Di on the back, and motioned for himself to go in.

Jiang Di pulled up the chair and asked casually, "How did you do in the exam?"

Xu Deng: "That's it."

Her unhappiness was obvious, and even Yuan He could see it, thinking that she was unhappy because she failed the exam, and comforted her very rarely: "It's okay, anyway, the final ranking will not be announced by the whole class."

Normally, Xu Deng would have been surprised by Yuan He's sudden kind words to her, but today she was obviously in a low mood, said thank you feebly, and then carried her schoolbag and prepared to leave.

In the end, because the schoolbag was too big, it got stuck between Jiang Di's chair and the table at the back table. People passed by first, but the bag couldn't do it.

Yuan He: "..."

Jiang Di laughed. She stood up and picked up Xu Deng's schoolbag, "It's so heavy, can you still turn the corner?"

Xu Deng: "You don't need to worry about it."

Her mind was still full of late-night conversations with her parents. Although she knew that she was not important at all, she still felt very sad when she heard it.

During the exam, when I was doing the questions, I was stunned, and I almost didn't even have time to write the English composition.

No one cares about you.

She has emphasized to herself many times, from childhood to adulthood, no matter what kind of place she is in, the two earthy and explosive words of happiness are always far away from her.

But it is still unavoidable to have expectations, being crushed again and again, and sticking out unwillingly, trying to get a little bit of "being cared about".When it was announced that I could go back to my parents, I should be happy, but in fact it was just a feeling a long time ago.

It was a sunny day, the depths of winter had passed, and spring had returned to the earth, and the cols looked less disgusting.

The car drove across the Panshan Highway, went to the county seat, took the high-speed rail, and came to my parents.

Ye Xia picked her up in person that day, her father couldn't leave, and the mother and daughter who get together less and leave more together have nothing to say when they get together so alone, most of them just sit in silence and ask what to eat when it's meal time.

In fact, she really wanted to talk to Ye Xia, but Ye Xia was also very busy, and the phone was always on the phone.

She could tell who it belonged to. There were many things at work, but there was also a call from her sister whom she hadn't seen very often. The mother sitting next to her spoke softly, urging this and that. .

She lowered her head, not daring to look any more. She took a look at her brand new clothes and shoes, but couldn't even call her mother.

The city where my parents live is too big, with high-rise buildings, buses and subways, and the pace of life is a bit scary, which makes her previous hometown seem like a person who has stepped into a coffin can exist.

Both parents were used to her silence, and treated her carefully, like a guest who was about to live in their home for a long time.

The scolding and pampering towards Xu Shu became a high level of material compensation for her, and she also kept her voice low so as not to disturb her politely.

She doesn't want it at all.

But there was nothing to say.

Long years of boring life have silently restrained her, and the vitality lingering deep in her heart is looming, which has become a quick absorption of new things and a negative resistance.

You are so stupid.

she said to herself.

Jiang Di was not hurt by Xu Deng's words, her face had already become a thousand feet thick in so many years of "self-cultivation", and she did not let go, "I don't care, can I ask?"

Yuan He on the one side was startled by Xu Deng's cold words. He thought that Jiang Di would be affected if he was not angry, but he didn't expect that the other party was still smiling.

"Let's talk about it next time," Xu Deng snatched back his schoolbag, "I'm going first."

The girl rushed out with a heavy schoolbag on her back.

Jiang Di licked her lips, and finally turned her head and said, "Xiao He, why don't you go back?"

Yuan He was stunned for a moment, "Haven't we not finished the question yet?"

Jiang Di smiled, "The teacher will send out the answer in the evening, it's okay."

After speaking, she lowered her head and tidied up the examination papers spread out on the table.

Yuan He suddenly asked: "Is Xu Deng always like this?"

"How about it?"

Jiang Di was folding the paper, raised his eyes and asked.

"Just... just a little fierce? No, she's very cold, and she always looks like that when talking to her."

"She is fierce?" Jiang Di shook her head and smiled, "Where, she is very soft-hearted."

"There are many expressions when you are familiar with it."

Jiang Di picked up her schoolbag and patted Yuan He's shoulder, "Then I'll go first, happy summer vacation."

"Have a nice summer vacation."

Yuan He replied, watching Jiang Di hurried out the door.

She always felt that Jiang Di was very kind to Xu Deng, and the expression she said just now was different, with a little helpless pampering.

Xu Deng was on the road riding her heavy car because of the basket, but she didn't want to go home either. Xu Shu had a few days earlier than her on vacation, so she was probably playing computer games at home, and her parents were planning to divorce Xu Shu. I probably don't know yet, but that stinky girl has a long face but no brains, she blares all day long and is so noisy that Xu Deng gets a headache when she thinks about it.

It was still in the evening, and it would be rush hour later, and the road had to be congested again. Xu Deng pulled the car into the KFC on the side of the road, ordered something and sat by the window in a daze.

This place is too big, many locals can't find it, and they have to rely on mobile phone maps, and the chance to meet acquaintances is extremely rare, but Xu Deng can always meet Chen Qianzhan.

She stayed in a daze for only a few minutes before her eyes fell on a man and a woman who were chattering in front of the traffic light.

Chen Qianzhan's little boyfriend is actually a little taller than Chen Qianzhan, but the girl looks taller, and she doesn't look much different. On the contrary, Chen Qianzhan is more eye-catching. She wears a navel dress and low-waisted pants. It's very different.

Probably a quarrel.

Xu Deng watched the boy named Gao Yan stepping on the zebra crossing angrily and ran away when the light was green, while Chen Qianzhan stood there for a long time, and finally turned his head and walked to this side.

When the other party entered KFC, Xu Deng also kept staring at him.

There were not many people, so I saw it at a glance. Chen Qianzhan came over with a cup of pink Coke, and gave Xu Deng a yo.

Xu Deng: "What a coincidence."

Chen Qianzhan: "Yeah, is it lively and fun?"

It was only when she sat in this position that she realized that she could directly see the "scene of the incident" between her and Gao Yan.

Xu Deng wasn't embarrassed at all, "It's quite interesting."

Chen Qianzhan smiled, "You are also interesting, sitting here with such a big schoolbag, eating French fries and watching the fun."

"It's a holiday, I need more books."

Xu Deng bit a packet of ketchup and said vaguely.

"Is your boyfriend angry?"

Chen Qianzhan sighed, "He said he wanted to elope with me, but I refused."

Seriously, Xu Deng still doubted the authenticity.

"it is true."

The woman with a butterfly tattoo on her wrist brushed her pitifully short hair, "Little guy is not yet an adult, if you leave with me, I'm afraid I'll be jailed."

She shook the drink in her hand, the pink liquid in it was very pretty, "Besides, I'm jobless and homeless, where can I go?"

"Jiang Di said you are rich."

The girl said crisply.

Chen Qianzhan was stunned, and finally laughed out loud, "Did she say that?"

"Wow, she actually said that about me. It seems that I am really rich."

Xu Deng ate French fries with a click, and listened to Chen Qianzhan's gossip about Jiang Di.

"Her family has money, okay? What do I have? It all depends on my mother."

"But she is the most miserable person for a rich person, because she is unhappy," Chen Qianzhan reached out to take a French fries from Xu Deng's plate, and saw the girl frowned, "Are you so stingy?"

Xu Deng: "There's no more sauce."

"I don't eat ketchup, it's too sweet."

Chen Qianzhan was relieved to hear that Xu Deng felt that this girl was too upright and too playful.

"I know she's not happy."

"She told you?"

Chen Qianzhan raised his eyebrows.

"I can see it." Xu Deng ate tomato sauce. She didn't like it for a long time. She didn't have the opportunity to eat it before. Now she eats French fries and takes five or six packs. She won't give up until her breath is sweet.

"She smiles fake."

"Yeah, she's a dummy."

……

Jiang Di, who was discussed, has already arrived at home, and she is still facing Ms. Xu Aijing's relentless gesticulation, throwing the tablet and almost hitting her head, her tone is so cold that you will be frozen into ice cubes, "See for yourself Look, if you have a vacation, you can hire more tutors, and you will be the best in this grade, or you won't be able to."

"When will I be the best?" Jiang Di sat on the sofa, glanced at it, finally threw the tablet and stood up, "I don't want to make up."

"You eat and use mine now, you have no right not to listen to me."

Xu Aijing was reprimanded by Jiang Guangye for Jiang Di's running away from home last time, but she was still bitter about it. Her dissatisfaction reappeared and became an unreasonable frame, wishing to frame Jiang Di to death.

Jiang Di: "Then I don't eat it, I don't need it, so I don't have to listen."

"Hehe." The woman sneered, "You were born by me, how can you pay this back?"

Jiang Di was originally angry because he was escorted to meet a friend of Xu Aijing's after school, but now he was even more angry, and the thoughtful thoughts of many nights before were left behind, and he grabbed the fruit knife on the table. Said: "You asked me to return it to you, how about it, cut the flesh or let the blood out?"

She stretched out her wrist, put the hand holding the knife against it, and walked to Xu Aijing's side, "Are you coming or am I?"

At this moment, she has completely taken off the covering on her body, and the ferocity covered by gentleness comes out from under the skin, even the eyes are desperate.

"Anyway, you tried it yourself, don't regret it this time!"

The scar on her outstretched left wrist is especially present. Even though it has faded a lot over the years, it will still not become smooth, delicate and undamaged skin.

Xu Aijing was taken aback by her sudden ferocity, and when she heard her words, she suddenly couldn't stand still. She looked at Jiang Di's movements, and suddenly remembered her own crazy appearance back then, and thought of the little girl's thin and thin The wrist, and the blood that flowed out from the cut blood vessel.

It was gurgling, and it couldn't be stopped.

At first it was pleasure, and then it was fear.

By now, it has turned into fear.

The little girl who reached her knees in the past has grown up, and she will no longer softly cry "Mom, I hurt", nor will she cry for her father to come back.

So many years of time have been soaked in the blood of that year, and it has become a deformed fruit.

She was shaking all over.

Jiang Di smiled, took her hand and pinched it to his left wrist.

She hugged the woman she hated so much from behind. After many years, their postures seemed to be reversed. She stuck to her mother's ear and said word by word: "I just want my dad to know that he was not The accident was your fault."

"My mother wants me dead."

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