he is little sun

Now that the wheat field is gone, the two of them don't plan to just go back. They walked aimlessly along the country road. The night was dim, the lights at the intersection sprinkled the ground golden, there was a summer breeze blowing, and there were sounds of children playing in the distance. sound.

Xiao Xu and Lin Fangfang walked side by side, feeling the fresh air in the countryside and enjoying this pleasant time.

"When I was young, my parents would bring me back once a year," Xiao Xu said slowly after a long time, immersed in the memories. Don’t care about me anymore, you will be scolded when you go home.”

Lin Fangfang listened quietly to Xiao Xu's memories, Xiao Xu must have been alive back then, lively and playful like all the children, but unfortunately, Lin Fangfang had no chance to see him again.

"Once, I played wildly and fell into the pond. When I got home, my body was covered in mud, wet like a drowned chicken, and I fell ill because of it," Xiao Xu slowly smiled. Come on, "My mother is angry and distressed, and she won't let me go to the pond to play in the future."

Lin Fangfang couldn't imagine what the naughty Xiao Xu was like, he smiled and said, "You used to be more playful than me."

No matter how playful he is, he will never play in the pond.

Xiao Xu turned his face to look at Lin Fangfang, with a real smile on his face, "Yeah, my parents have worried a lot about this."

This was the time when Lin Fangfang met Xiao Xu, and Xiao Xu talked about his parents the most. He couldn't help wondering if Xiao Xu really let go of his heart when he said these words.

Xiao Xu saw through the doubts in Lin Fangfang's eyes at a glance, and he slowly smiled, "You must be wondering why I haven't come back for so many years."

Lin Fangfang nodded.

The corners of Xiao Xu's lips were drawn down. In the night, his eyes seemed to carry the moonlight in the sky, and the bright and bright reflection reflected Lin Fangfang. He said softly, "Actually, I'm a coward." He looked at Lin Fangfang revealed his heart, "I don't want to come back alone, I'm afraid to face the sky full of memories by myself. Over the years, I have asked myself again and again whether I have let go, but I can't find it myself. An answer. But if you want to ask me now, I can tell you with certainty that I have let go and let go. I can’t always keep myself locked in a dead end. After so many years, I should have come out.”

Lin Fangfang's heart fluctuated. He had been praying that one day Xiao Xu could tell himself what he was thinking in his heart, but now, what he hoped for was right in front of him. How could he not be excited? At the same time, he felt very happy, he seemed I saw that the Xiao Xu portrayed by Xiao Xu had returned - he was no longer withdrawn, indifferent, and repulsed by others.

This is Xiao Xu with flesh and blood.

Lin Fangfang choked up a little, "Xiao Xu..."

"Fang Fang," Xiao Xu pursed his lips and smiled, "I want to thank you for pulling me out of the abyss when I gave up on myself, to feel the original beauty in this world. Thank you for being with me all these years. by my side."

As he spoke, he leaned over and kissed Lin Fangfang's smooth forehead.

Lin Fangfang sniffed, smiled and said with tears in his eyes, "Then just treat me better in the future, and you should repay me."

Xiao Xu pinched his face, he thought, such a person is worth all his efforts to treat.

The night was fine, and the conversation between the two became farther and farther away.

The moment the two walked into the house talking and laughing, Zhang Xi was sitting on the sofa eating melon seeds. Seeing the two coming in, he narrowed his eyes, "Who couldn't tell just now?"

The two of them were still holding each other's hands. They didn't expect to be caught straight. Lin Fangfang quickly let go of Xiao Xu's hands and said, "My hands don't itch anymore. Brother Zhang, there are so many mosquitos outside. It's my hand."

"Really?" Zhang Xi's eyes shifted from Lin Fangfang to Xiao Xu, "Are you still helping each other scratch it?"

Xiao Xu hummed calmly.

Lin Fangfang's heart was beating wildly, and he didn't dare to look into Zhang Xi's eyes.

There was a few seconds of awkward silence in the living room, but fortunately Zhang Xi skipped the subject, "I brought you a midnight snack in the kitchen."

Lin Fangfang was eager to leave as soon as possible, so he responded and turned to the kitchen. Xiao Xu also wanted to follow. At this time, Zhang Xi called him softly, with questioning eyes, "You two?"

Xiao Xu glanced at the kitchen and said calmly, "Uncle, I'll explain this to you when I get back."

Zhang Xi let him off for the time being because of the word uncle, "Let's go and have supper."

Lin Fangfang shrank his head like a turtle in the kitchen. Seeing Xiao Xu approaching, he hurriedly asked, "What are you talking about with Brother Zhang?"

"No," Xiao Xu smiled, "He told us not to eat too much, and we won't be able to sleep later."

Lin Fangfang said in doubt.

Xiao Xu didn't speak any more, and there was some emotion hidden in his eyes. He actually didn't want Zhang Xi to know about him and Lin Fangfang so quickly. After all, the two of them were still young. The love affair is too hidden. In his opinion, this is a matter between two people. They are happy, and it is useless for anyone to object.

However, Xiao Xu looked at Lin Fangfang who was seriously eating supper without any trace—Lin Fangfang was different from him, and now his relatives were only Zhang Xi, he had no burden, but Lin Fangfang had a family have concerns.

If he is not firm enough or strong enough, it will be difficult for the two of them to go on.

Xiao Xu stroked his palm secretly, his eyes darkened a bit.

Three days passed quickly, and the few of them packed up and went back to the city.

Before leaving, Lin Fangfang asked Xiao Xu if he could come next year, Xiao Xu looked at him in silence for a few seconds, "I will bring you here every year from now on."

It was convenient for Lin Fang to know that this trip finally made Xiao Xu completely relieved.

Back home, Lin Fangfang stayed at home for a few days, and when he had nothing to do, he went to Chen Shi's house for a walk, or called Xiao Xu to talk about something, and lived a comfortable and carefree life.

Naturally, he didn't know that Xiao Xu was being questioned by Zhang Xi at home when he was at ease.

Xiao's house was quiet, even the two cats, Tiantian and Yuanyuan, knew that the atmosphere was not right, and spontaneously shrank to the corner to look at the two men standing in the living room.

When Zhang Xi sent Xiao Xu here, Xiao Xu couldn't even reach his shoulders. A few years later, Xiao Xu was already as tall as him. Standing in front of him, he could no longer be treated as a child. In fact, Zhang Xi never regarded Xiao Xu as a child. As a nephew, he had so many things on his mind that Zhang Xi couldn't see through them.

The two sat in the living room for a long time, Zhang Xi finally couldn't bear to ask, "What's the matter with you and Fang Fang?"

Xiao Xu knew that this day would come sooner or later. What he accepted now was only Zhang Xi's questioning alone. In the future, he would also bear the different voices. Don't talk about it.

He was silent for a few seconds, "Just as you imagined."

Zhang Xi frowned tightly, "Speak clearly."

He was still hazy until now, Zhang Xi just felt that Xiao Xu, a nephew, was too different from Lin Fangfang, so different that he couldn't help but think of certain aspects.

Xiao Xu's voice resounded, "The two of us are in a relationship."

Zhang Xi was dazed for a while, then suddenly stood up, "Do you know what you're talking about?"

Xiao Xu was still sitting, looking up at Zhang Xi fearlessly, "I know exactly what I'm talking about and what I'm doing. I like Fang Fang, that's all."

"Aren't you crazy?" Zhang Xi felt his temples twitch. It's one thing to guess, but it's another thing to hear Xiao Xu admit it himself, "What's the matter with you two, two men, falling in love? "

Xiao Xu smiled, "Why can't two men fall in love?"

The withdrawn Xiao Xu seemed to be released again. When he said this, his expression was calm, even a little sarcastic.

Zhang Xi was furious, "What kind of attitude do you have, Xiao Xu, you, your parents left early, you are only my uncle, I can't let you go the wrong way."

"What is wrong way?" Xiao Xu was a little impatient because of his words.

"Anyway, the two of you just can't do it," Zhang Xi strongly objected, taking a deep breath, "Xiao Xu, I can understand that Fang Fang was by your side when you were most sad, you will inevitably have different feelings for him, But you can’t say that you like him because of this, you have to distinguish these two kinds of likes, don’t be fooled by the illusion.”

Xiao Xu looked at Zhang Xi without speaking, and his expression was approaching indifference. He was like this, and only in front of Lin Fang would he have a superfluous expression. Even Zhang Xi, he seldom gave any response.

Zhang Xiyu said earnestly, "You are still young and don't understand what liking is. When you grow up and think about it, you will know how ridiculous your actions are now. Xiao Xu, listen to uncle and don't make mistakes."

Xiao Xu stood up, but his tone was cold, "Uncle, we are not children anymore, I have a very clear distinction between liking, I like Lin Fangfang, just like you like your aunt, I want to go with him It’s useless to stop anyone.”

Zhang Xi was so angry that blue veins appeared on his forehead, he almost shouted, "You let me face your parents like this?"

He did not hesitate to move out Xiao Xu's dead parents.

Sure enough, Xiao Xu's face became extremely ugly, and after a long while, he said word by word, "If my parents were alive, they would also want me to be happy."

Zhang Xi was so angry that he couldn't speak, grabbed Xiao Xu by the collar, gritted his teeth and said, "You fucking..."

"Uncle," Xiao Xu sighed, "you are my only family member in this world. I don't want to conflict with you, but I will not back down on this matter. I hope you can understand me."

Zhang Xi cursed, "I understand your shit."

He clenched his fists tightly, but he couldn't hit Xiao Xu. He angrily pushed Xiao Xu away, not wanting to see his nephew again, angrily kicked over the trash can in the living room, and slammed the door with his shoes on.

Xiao Xu sat wearily in the living room, rubbing the sore brows, the air was so oppressive that he couldn't help but take a few deep breaths, he leaned his neck on the sofa and stared at the white ceiling - Lin Fangfang once said That's right, this road is really difficult to walk.

The author has something to say:

Alright, we have to face it bravely together

This is just a small checkpoint, Brother Zhang is still very good~