like you so much

No one knew what happened on the day Yu Wen Ci left. No one would have thought that a child under ten years old could say such vicious words - towards a dying person.

A cancer that strikes middle-aged and older men has claimed the life of a young woman.

Everyone knew that Yu Wenci had run out of fuel, but no one could bear it when the day came.

No matter how much grief people feel in their hearts, they are already gone, and they can be buried as soon as possible.

What is cremation? Yu Qiyue knew that he wanted to burn his sister-in-law to ashes.

He desperately resisted, but how much power does a child have, what can he decide?The funeral procedures were carried out one by one, regardless of his will.

Yu Wenci is tall in Yu Qiyue's world, even though she is slender.She supported Yu Qiyue's spiritual world and gave him a complete childhood.

But now, how did his tall sister-in-law turn into such a small handful of ashes?

My sister-in-law once said that she hoped that she would be thrown into the sea and be free.Only he knows, but he doesn't want to.He didn't want my sister-in-law to be submerged in the sea.He hoped that she would lie on the ground, so that he would be nostalgic for it.

He stole some of the ashes and hid them on his body.During the burial, everyone cried heart-rendingly, and Zhou Yuelin even cried hoarsely.

But Yu Qiyue didn't cry, he didn't shed a single tear.

Why cry, his sister-in-law is not dead.

From then on, his temperament changed drastically. An immature child started not to eat or drink, and preferred to pick up the blade and slash at himself.

No one knew why, they just thought he couldn't accept the death of the person he loved the most.

Actually it wasn't, he was punishing himself, punishing himself for saying what he shouldn't say, punishing himself for not fulfilling her sister-in-law's last wish even though she knew she wanted to be buried at sea.

He buried the person he loved the most deeply in the ground for his own selfish desire.

"sorry."

The rain was getting heavier and heavier, as if someone in the sky could not stop crying.

Yu Qiyue confessed in front of Wen Ci's tomb, telling the secrets that he had concealed for many years. The guilt was like a sharp knife stabbing into his heart and turning back and forth. After a long time, the sharp knife rusted and turned into a knife cutting flesh, which was even more tormenting.

His cries were extremely depressing, and the sound of rain wafting through the quiet cemetery was extremely miserable.

Yan Yu and Lu Le turned their heads away, unable to bear to listen.

The veins on Yan Sheng's neck were bulging, and he gritted his teeth so as not to shed tears.Yu Qiyue is obviously so timid, he shouldn't have to bear this.

Listening to Yu Qiyue's intermittent words, Zhou Yuelin understood everything, what he was curious about, what my sister-in-law said before she left.

He is so cowardly and kind, how could he be cruel, how could he say such things?Zhou Yuelin clenched his fists, he really wanted to hit him hard in the face so that he could ask how he was able to utter evil words to hurt his dying relatives.

But wasn't his punishment enough?Doesn't he regret not knowing his mistakes?For ten years, thousands of days and nights, he has been carrying heavy shackles for what he said back then.He apologized in the form of self-harm, and longed to be unforgiven.

Zhou Yuelin's face was wet, whether it was rain or tears.

"You said... You said that the destruction of the body is not considered death, and the real death is the one who is forgotten by the last person in the world. I dare not forget you. I miss you all the time, but, but you are obviously dead... ...you clearly—"

It stopped abruptly, except for the sound of rain, the world returned to silence.

"He, he passed out!"

Yan Sheng rushed forward, the water-soaked ground was extremely slippery, he fell heavily on the ground and cut his palm, but he didn't realize it, picked up the fainted Yu Qiyue and ran down the mountain.

The footsteps were chaotic and flustered, but Zhou Yuelin stayed out of it. He knelt in front of Wen Ci's tomb alone, and knocked his head heavily on it.

This is the last hope.

"Sister-in-law, please bless him, I really can't help it," this strong adult man looked helpless like a child, "If he can't get better, I really, really..."

Yu Qiyue developed a high fever when he came back. He was not in good health during this time, and he was so shocked by the rain that he fell ill immediately.

He was also restless in his sleep, babbling repeatedly, saying that he was sorry.He was so guilty, what he said ten years ago made him regret to this day, but he took away the ashes of my sister-in-law. It was really like what he said, "Death will not let her be peaceful".

He knew that he was wrong, and the child's voice sounded in his mind again, cursing him and asking him to return his sister-in-law.

Rationally, he knew that he had to switch back, but emotionally he was reluctant.While feeling angry and shameless for his selfishness, but unable to let go, it's like a mentally ill person pulling himself.

Yu Qiyue didn't want to wake up, she didn't dare to face Zhou Yuelin, let alone face Yan Xiahan, she liked her sister-in-law so much, if she knew what she did back then, she might hate him to death.

But having a fever is not a serious illness, and he will wake up eventually.

Yan Sheng received a message from Xu Yuze again. Both Fu Guanyu and Zhang Yi thought that it was Xu Yuze's whistleblowing that made them fail, so after the exposure, they all insisted that Xu Yuze had paid attention, but in the end they couldn't produce any substantive evidence. not punished by law.

But to him, Yan Sheng's indifference was more serious than any punishment.

Yan Sheng can no longer face this neighbor who accompanied him in childhood, and cannot forgive.In fact, this reunion with Yan Sheng already felt that Xu Yuze was different from before, but the common topic between them was those things in the past, but the nostalgia had nothing to do with the present, so he didn't care.

Unexpectedly, he would harm Qi Yue like this.

Yan Sheng saw the message he sent.

"You were hurt so badly by him at the time. I just wanted to teach him a lesson. Who knew it would become like this now. Take a step back and say that I was doing it for your own good. Is a lover more important than a friend?"

Yu Qiyue is not his lover, they are equal lovers, in Xu Yuze's mouth, it seems that Yu Qiyue will always be attached to him.Is Yu Qiyue more important than Xu Yuze?Yu Qiyue is more important than himself.

Yan Sheng deleted the text message and, as always, did not reply.

The phone vibrated again, Yan Sheng was a little irritable, but when he lowered his head, the caller ID showed Wang Xueling.

Yu Qiyue woke up.

He was too thin, Yan Sheng rushed to his house and opened the bedroom door with only one thought.He just lay flat on the bed, the thin blanket covering his body barely rose or fell.

Yu Qiyue didn't look back when he heard a voice at the door.

Wang Xueling held his arm and said anxiously in a low voice, "I woke up and didn't say anything for a long time. I called Yuelin and he refused to answer. He insisted on taking Xiaoguai there. What should I do now?"

Yan Sheng patted her hand, "Don't worry, I'll go and have a look."

He closed the door and walked up to Yu Qiyue, those beautiful eyes lost their spirit, leaving nothing but emptiness.

Yan Sheng touched his forehead, "The fever is gone."

Yu Qiyue blinked slowly and did not speak.

There was a rustling sound in the quiet room, Yan Sheng took off his clothes and lay down.

Since that night, the rainstorm has been raining non-stop. Although it is summer, the temperature is as low as late autumn. When Yan Sheng touched Yu Qiyue's hand, it was really cold.

He gently kissed Yu Qiyue's side face, without any sensuality, "I'm very warm, do you want to hug me?"

Yu Qiyue didn't move at all, he was like a lifeless dummy with eyes open but no emotion.

Yan Sheng didn't urge him, just clung to him quietly, transferring his heat to him.

After an unknown period of time, Yu Qiyue turned sideways and buried himself in Yan Sheng's arms. The skin in his hands was hot and warm. Yu Qiyue was naturally afraid of the cold, and he was extremely attached to such a temperature.

"I'm a vicious person, is this still worthy of your liking?"

Yu Qiyue's voice came from Yan Sheng's chest, trembling imperceptibly.

"You're not," Yan Sheng kissed the top of his hair, "If you were really vicious, you wouldn't be tortured by those words back then, and you regret it too, don't you?"

"Also, I like you, I have always liked you, don't doubt."

Yan Sheng felt the arms holding his waist tighten suddenly, and then some warm liquid spilled on his chest.

"But, she wants to be buried at sea. She told me that, not only did I not help her finish it, but I even stole her ashes. Yan Sheng...I wish I could kill myself, but I have no face to see her."

"You were so young at the time, even if you said it, adults would not believe you, not to mention most people would not accept sea burial, even if they believed you, they would not listen to you."

The traditional Chinese concept is to rest in the soil and rest in peace. Yu Wenci's idea was only mentioned in the chat with Yu Qiyue, and she didn't mention it at all in the last time before her death, and it can't even be counted as her last wish.Besides, ten years ago, just like what Yan Sheng said, how could everyone listen to a child and do something so contrary to worldly concepts.

Yan Sheng patted his back lightly, like coaxing a child, "You are very tired, go to sleep, I will be by your side."

Yu Qiyue had just woken up but was extremely exhausted, so he leaned into his arms and slowly closed his eyes.