like you so much

"Cut a little more here on the ears."

Yu Qiyue swaggered through the market with a strangely shaped short hair, and under the leadership of Yan Sheng and Zhou Yuelin, he found a barber shop nearby.

Yan Xiahan stayed on Yu Wenci's grave, saying that he had something to say to her.Several parents left after finishing their work.

During the haircutting process, Yu Qiyue didn't even open his eyes. The little part of hair that Zhou Yuelin cut off from the ponytail was simply horrible, and only Yu Qiyue with his looks dared to be so presumptuous.

"It's finished, let's take a look."

Yu Qiyue opened one eye and avoided himself in the mirror to see Yan Sheng's reaction before he dared to open his eyes completely.

"This is... me?" He stood up as if he didn't know himself and approached the mirror.

The boy in the mirror has short black hair that is thin and shredded. The hair is close to the ears, so soft that one wants to reach out and touch it.

His round eyes are like a curious kitten without blinking, and the face that he has seen for more than ten years is a bit strange after cutting off his long hair.

Yan Sheng looked at his frontal face in the mirror in amazement and at the side face in front of him. He never knew that a change of hairstyle would make such a big difference to a person.

His dark gray eyes are inexplicably brighter, and the gloom that seemed to exist in the past has been swept away. Those eyes are as bright as if they have been washed, and even the end of the eyes is elongated and curved.

"This is...me?" He heard Yu Qiyue murmur, "This is me!"

Yu Qiyue didn't care about the barber's strange gaze, and almost turned around to look at them, "This is me! This is me!"

Zhou Yuelin's unlit cigarette was shocked, and he pretended to be indifferent, "It's you, stupid."

Yan Sheng looked at him and showed his white teeth in a smile, "It's pretty, it's so pretty."

"It turns out that short hair is so easy," Yu Qiyue stretched out his hand and brushed his hair into a mess, looking at the mirror and said, "I'm not like a girl anymore, I'm just myself."

Zhou Yuelin's face froze, and then the corners of his mouth slowly raised. It's great, I lost myself for ten years and finally found it again.

Yu Qiyue is like a bird flying out of the cage, the joy of regaining freedom enveloped him, he walked out of the barber shop wishing to share his happiness with every passerby.

The street lamps started from him and turned on one by one until they spread to the whole street, and they were not as bright as the fire that ignited in his heart.

"Go slowly, look at the car," Yan Sheng grabbed him, "I almost got hit just now."

Yu Qiyue smiled and said, "Isn't there still you?"

Zhou Yuelin watched the two talking and laughing from behind, and his eyes couldn't help but also tinged with a smile.He and Yu Qiyue will stop here.

"Brother," Yu Qiyue looked back at him, "follow me quickly."

Zhou Yuelin stood still, "I'm leaving."

The smile on Yu Qiyue's face did not fade, "Where are you going?"

"go home."

These two words are very common, but Yu Qiyue heard something unusual.

He turned around and his smile faded away, "What do you mean?"

Yan Sheng looked at Zhou Yuelin without knowing why.

"There should be a little distance between us. Originally, you could live a more independent and free life. I spoiled you because of my willful behavior all these years."

"No... no."

Zhou Yuelin lowered his head and took out the cigarette case. Although it was summer, his hands kept shaking as if he was suffering from a cold. He took out a cigarette and thought that Yu Qiyue didn't like the smell of cigarettes and stuffed it in.

"My sister told me to take good care of you when she was leaving, but I didn't. I know," Zhou Yuelin interrupted him, "You must think that I have fulfilled my duty as a brother. I thought so too, but I was wrong. , I just paid too much attention to you and protected you too well, but I didn't teach you how to grow into a man."

"Sister-in-law always told us that we don't need to be obedient or sensible as long as we live a happy life, but I have always told you to be good and obey my orders. Everyone is very malleable, but I ruined your life."

"Brother!" Yu Qiyue's eyes were red, "I would not be able to survive without you, and I am only with you."

Zhou Yuelin smiled, but it was more of a sigh than a smile, "I am also in pain when my sister is gone, I might not be able to live without you, why didn't you support me?"

Yan Sheng vaguely felt that this would be a parting.

There were people coming and going on the street, the three of them were like three stones in a stream, and the flow of people passed around them, but they remained motionless.

"You must have noticed that I am alienating you during this time. In fact, I should have done this long ago. I have been stubbornly refusing to let go so that you have no way to grow."

Tears welled up in Yu Qiyue's eyes, "We, aren't we all right, why are we doing this?"

"You have your own life after all, Yan Sheng is very good, I believe you will go further, instead of being stuck in this corner by me."

"It doesn't conflict..."

"Yu Qiyue, I'm not pushing you to Yan Sheng, let alone transferring my role to Yan Sheng. I hope that you will not depend on anyone in the future and become a completely independent individual, a healthy person."

"I am already! I am not the same as before!"

"It's better than before, but it's still a long way off. At least you're crying every now and then."

Yu Qiyue quickly sucked his nose.

"Yan Sheng." Zhou Yuelin called him to stop.

"You and Yu Qiyue should be on good terms in the future, his child's temper will gradually heal, don't bully him..." Yan Sheng listened carefully to Zhou Yuelin's advice, he thought Zhou Yuelin would say next, 'If you want to bully him, I will definitely I will settle accounts with you." Who knew he paused and said to Qi Yue, "If Yan Sheng bullies you, I believe you will be able to deal with it yourself."

Yu Qiyue trembled, "Brother, you don't want me anymore?"

Zhou Yuelin raised his hand as if he wanted to pat him on the head, but dropped it again, "I will always be your brother, but there must be a suitable distance."

"It's too far, it's too far..." Yu Qiyue doesn't expect too much, as long as he is now, don't go any further.

"Not far," Zhou Yuelin shrank his shoulders as if he was afraid of the cold. The weather was so hot, "Study hard, go to a good university, and Yan Sheng has to work hard...I'm leaving."

After he finished speaking, he turned around and hurriedly got into the crowd as if he was escaping from something.

"Brother...Brother! Brother!"

Yu Qiyue's shout sounded behind him, and Zhou Yuelin told himself not to look back.

"elder brother--!!"

This sound was heart-piercing, and Zhou Yuelin suddenly turned his head with the dull impact.

Yu Qiyue's calf was cut with a long cut by the iron piece protruding from the trash can, and blood flowed all over his leg.

"I..." Yu Qiyue, who has always been several times more sensitive to pain than ordinary people, held back tears and forced a flattering smile, "I'm not afraid of pain, I didn't cry, you see, I've grown up."

Zhou Yuelin's shoulders trembled violently, and he couldn't help but took a few steps forward. When he saw Yan Sheng beside Yu Qiyue, he suddenly realized that even if he was injured, someone would help him.

He tore off the reluctance in his heart, turned around again, and walked quickly into the crowd with a resolute attitude. This time, no matter how much Yu Qiyue shouted, he didn't look back.

Yu Qiyue roared desperately, crying blood with the words "Brother", which attracted countless passers-by to watch, but they didn't call Zhou Yuelin back.

Yan Sheng stopped him firmly, if Yu Qiyue was allowed to catch up, all the efforts Zhou Yuelin had put in would be in vain.

Zhou Yuelin's figure was gradually submerged in the sea of ​​people, and Yu Qiyue called "Brother" for the last time, but he could no longer make any sound from his throat.

He remembered Zhou Yuelin's words, and he didn't shed a single tear from the beginning to the end.

What is the so-called distance?Yu Qiyue fell tired in Yan Sheng's arms, looked at the footsteps coming and going around, thought for a long time, and he understood.

Zhou Yuelin will always be his elder brother, but he will never taste the bowl of porridge that Zhou Yuelin bought for him after driving more than ten kilometers.

The wind whizzed by his ears, and Zhou Yuelin stopped until his lungs throbbed.

Too tired. He worked overtime every night until the early morning for a project for more than a month, which was not as tiring as one ten-thousandth of this.

He was sitting in a dusty corner of the city in a neat suit, and everyone passing by noticed him, but he didn't care.

After all, he has come to this step, he was going to take his time, like boiling a frog in warm water, and slowly distance himself from Yu Qiyue.But it's too uncomfortable, it's a long-term torture, it's not as good as a knife.

It's just a pain, Yu Qiyue will get better and better in the future, he should be happy for Yu Qiyue, but his selfishness is extremely painful.

Is Yu Qiyue just a younger brother to him?of course not.

He grew up with Yu Qiyue and spent the darkest time together.Others' adolescence is restlessness, rebellion, love, and growth, but his adolescence has only three words - Yu Qiyue.

During his adolescence, his mind was focused on this weak little brother every day. Did his brother eat well today?Will you harm yourself?

He devoted too much attention and emotion to Qiyue, at first it was just to fulfill Yu Wenci's dying entrustment, but day after day it became a habit and the desire to control permeated the flesh and blood.

Others say that Yu Qiyue is too dependent on him, but isn't he?Why doesn't he depend on Qi Yue?

All his plans for the future included Yu Qiyue, but now he wants to shave Yu Qiyue out.

Yu Qiyue has long been a part of his life and life, but now he wants to gouge out a piece of his heart, gouge out his childhood and youth, gouge out his deepest obsession for more than 20 years, gouge out the four corners of his life three thirds.

The flow of people became less and less, and Zhou Yuelin held down his trembling hands and took out the cigarette case until the street was empty.He turned the gear with all his strength, and the blue flame in the darkness lit the smoke.

The flame was burning the pipe, and Zhou Yuelin held it in front of his chest. Suddenly, a bean-sized drop of water happened to hit that spark from top to bottom.

The night was dark, the sky was full of stars, and there was no rain.