like you so much

"Pancreatic cancer has not yet found the cause of the disease. It is closely related to your living habits. Do you work and rest..."

"Yu Qiyue!" Yan Cheng watched helplessly as Yu Qiyue's face suddenly turned pale, and then he couldn't stand as if his bones had been pulled out.

Yu Qiyue was hugged by Yan Sheng in time to prevent him from falling down. I saw bead-sized beads of sweat slipping from his forehead drop by drop, and one drop was precariously hanging on his eyelashes, and finally fell into the air and shattered on the wooden road .

"I..." The image of my sister-in-law's abdominal pain rolling over and over in my mind, the scene is too clear to be covered in dust after so many years, "My stomach hurts so much, Yan Sheng..."

Yan Sheng picked up Yu Qiyue, who was convulsed by the pain, and rushed towards the ward.

The bright sun above his head made his eyes hurt, Yu Qiyue squinted to look at the sun, his consciousness gradually became chaotic, it turned out that my sister was in such pain at that time.

"No lesions were found in the abdomen, and the patient's vital signs are good."

"Impossible, he's in such pain, how could he not be sick?"

Wang Xueling covered her face and sobbed, "Hey, what's the matter with him, I don't care who he likes, men or women, as long as he is good, as long as he is good!"

"What are you talking about now?" Yu Ting sighed.

Zhou Yuelin faintly had a strange guess, and he didn't even have time to grab its tail before this thought flashed by.

"Now only a comprehensive and systematic examination can be done to find the cause, and the patient's family members should do a good job in emotional counseling."

Yu Qiyue curled up on the hospital bed and was fast asleep. Zhou Yuelin inexplicably felt that this sleeping position looked familiar, but he couldn't remember it clearly because it had been too long.

Yan Sheng sat on Yu Qiyue's bedside and gently smoothed his eyebrows, Zhou Yuelin looked away when he saw this.

When Qi Yue woke up, the doctor gave him a whole body examination, from CT to MRI to color Doppler ultrasound.After completing this series of inspections, everyone from the dean to the attending physician to directors, big and small, and Zhou Yuelin and Yu Ting surrounded the office.

"no problem."

"The patient did have an abdominal pain reaction. During the rounds this morning, the patient's stomach was as hard as an iron plate, very similar to the typical symptoms of acute pancreatitis 'plate-shaped abdomen'."

As soon as these words came out, the faces of several people changed suddenly.

All the worries and apprehensions turned into a more intense attack at this moment and broke Wang Xueling's inner defense. As a theater actor, she cared most about her image and fell to the ground and cried out heartbreakingly, "What the hell did you do— —”

Zhou Yuelin pushed away the shocked doctors, and rushed into Yu Qiyue's ward. At this time, Yu Qiyue's symptoms were relieved, and he was half leaning on the pillow to drink water.Zhou Yuelin walked up to him and couldn't help but lift up his clothes and put his palms on his abdomen—a piece of softness.

Yan Sheng grabbed him, "What are you doing?"

Zhou Yuelin ignored him, and looked directly into Qiyue's eyes, "Where is your pain, pancreas?"

Pain slowly crawled out of Yu Qiyue's blank eyes, and the abdomen of his subordinates gradually became stiff.

Sure enough.

In the dog days, Zhou Yuelin felt as if he had fallen into an ice cellar, as if all the bones in his body were "clicking" and breathing cold air.No wonder no symptoms could be found after so many tests, how could it be possible to find out, Yu Qiyue is not sick at all.The so-called abdominal pain and "slab belly" are all his subjective assumptions. He imposed the torment and pain of the dead on himself.

Has his mind become deranged to this extent?Zhou Yuelin looked at the knife marks that fell off and turned white on his stomach. What made him pick up the knife again?

If there is a disease, it can be cured anyway, how to cure heart disease?Where is the heart medicine?

incurable disease.

Wang Xueling understood everything when she heard the word "pancreas", which is why she wailed so tragically.

It was Yu Qiyue's pain in his ear, and Zhou Yuelin closed his eyes in despair.

This is not a mental illness, but a mental disability, which cannot be cured.

Yu Qiyue returned home from the hospital. All his physical indicators were within the normal range, and the abdominal pain from time to time could not be cured at all.Abdominal pain varies in time and degree, whether self-harm distracts attention because of excessive pain-uncertain.

In the hot summer vacation, many people still have cold winter in their hearts.

Yan Sheng came in and out of Qiyue's house frequently, and he and Wang Xueling got along very well, changing tricks to replenish Yu Qiyue's body, otherwise he would be so skinny now that he was in pain and couldn't drink any water. .

After the meeting, Zhou Yuelin joined Yan Yu and Lu Le, and they drove to Yu Qiyue's house.

Lu Le drove the car and asked, "What's wrong with my brother, I went to the hospital to see if he is recovering well?"

Sitting on the co-pilot, Zhou Yuelin frowned and said, "He is now in the same condition as when he was a child, even worse than then."

"Oh," Yan Yu sat behind and sighed, "what's all this?"

"I said I would stop looking for a psychiatrist..."

"Hush—" Lu Le whispered, "Old Zhou fell asleep."

Yan Yu poked his head and saw that Zhou Yuelin had just fallen asleep with his hands on the center of his brows.

"He's too tired. The company and his family are running around. Let him sleep for a while."

Zhou Yuelin soon fell into a deep sleep.

He has been very nervous recently, and Yu Qiyue's "disease" is like a bomb that may explode at any time.Even in his sleep, Yu Qiyue was still there.

In the dream, Yu Qiyue gently stroked the collarbone, [Brother, do you know what is installed here? ]

[I don't want to know anymore. ]

[You think, you always think,] A weird smile appeared on Yu Qiyue's face, and Zhou Yuelin could see it clearly in the dark, [This is my sister's ashes. On me, almost ten years. ]

In the dream, my voice trembled badly, [You are lying. ]

[You know,] Yu Qiyue seemed to be relieved. This secret accumulated in his heart day after day and twisted his soul. Hell, tortured and never reborn forever. ]

[enough!No, that's not the case. ]

[Why don't you scold me?You should scold me, you should hit me, why am I not punished for my wrongdoing? ] Yu Qiyue waved his arms frantically and smashed the window behind him.

The two-storey small villa rose up from the ground, suddenly becoming ten thousand feet tall.

Yu Qiyue didn't know when he stood on the windowsill and showed a sweet smile, [I'm going to find her, she will punish me. ]

After saying that, he opened his arms and flew down, falling straight down like a bird with its wings broken.

"Yu Qiyue—"

Zhou Yuelin woke up suddenly. He subconsciously wanted to stand up, but his head hit the roof of the car with a bang.

The other two people in the car froze as if they had been hit by acupuncture points.

Yan Yu was the first to react, "What's wrong?"

The air conditioner in the car was turned on very low, but Zhou Yuelin was still sweating. He casually grabbed a few pieces of paper from the car and rubbed them on his head, only to notice that the car had stopped.

"When did you arrive?"

Lu Le said, "It didn't take long, we still wanted to call you or not, you woke up by yourself."

Zhou Yuelin leaned his head back on the seat

Knowing what he was thinking, he got out of the car without saying a word for a long while.

Yan Yu and Lu Le looked at each other blankly.

Yan Sheng boiled the porridge, thought for a while and added some minced meat.

When he was a child, his parents were busy with work and had no time to take care of the two brothers. The nanny he hired had a bad character and stole things from the house.So three meals a day can only be eaten outside, and the two of them can't bear it after a long time. They have everything at home, and they thought about cooking at home, so they lighted up Yan Sheng's cooking skills, Wang Xueling It was the first time I saw him cooking skillfully, and I was amazed.

Since Yan Sheng came, even the cooking aunt can only help him.In fact, Yan Sheng doesn't like cooking very much. On the one hand, he is afraid that Yu Qiyue won't be able to eat well. On the other hand, Yu Qiyue's illness has no way to deal with it. He is extremely anxious when he is free, so he can only find something to divert his attention. .

He originally thought that he would finally be able to watch the clouds and see the moon, but he didn't expect Yu Qiyue to have such a situation again. He guessed countless times what happened to him when he was a child, and he also asked Qiyue openly and secretly, but as long as When he asked about the past, Yu Qiyue felt abdominal pain like a conditioned reflex.

Auntie's voice sounded at the door, "Yue Lin is here, go fast and fast."

It was only when Yan Sheng's fingertips hurt that he realized that his hand had been cut.

"Where's Yu Qiyue?"

Yan Sheng casually put his hand under the water, walked out of the kitchen and said, "Upstairs."

Seeing that he was numb here, Zhou Yuelin nodded casually and walked up.

The relationship between the two of them is not as tense as it was some time ago, but it is not as harmonious as it was at first.

Yan Yu and Lu Le walked behind Zhou Yuelin, Yan Sheng asked Yan Yu, "Why are you here?"

"I still want to say why are you here again? Do you regard this as your own home?"

"A lot of nonsense."

"Who cares about you? We're here to see my brother. Lu Le, let's go."

Seeing that they had all gone up, Yan Sheng was not in the mood to cook, so he asked his aunt to prepare the rest of the dishes and he followed.

When Zhou Yuelin opened the door and walked into Yu Qiyue's room, he was sitting on the window sill with his back to the door and his legs hanging in the air.

This scene coincidentally overlapped with Zhou Yuelin's dream just now. The long-term anxiety and irritability overwhelmed the tight string in his heart, and he broke out instantly.

Zhou Yuelin strode forward and grabbed Yu Qiyue roughly, "Get down!"

Frightened and dragged by him, Yu Qiyue fell to the ground and looked at him inexplicably.

"What are you doing sitting on it?! I'm asking you what the hell are you doing sitting on it!" Zhou Yuelin never swears at him, but he has almost lost his mind now.

Yan Sheng heard the quarrel upstairs and hurried up.

Seeing Zhou Yuelin's expression of wanting to skin him, Yu Qiyue was completely shocked, he didn't know why he was sitting there, he didn't realize until his brother came in.

Zhou Yuelin saw the bottle from the open collar of his pajamas, he was so angry that he calmed down, "This is my sister's ashes, isn't it?"

Yan Sheng arrived one step earlier than Yan Yu and Lu Le, he pushed them away and rushed into the room, "Yu Qiyue!"

Zhou Yuelin paused every word, "I ask you if you are or if you are not."

Yu Qiyue seemed to have suddenly lost his ability to speak, and his whole body was shaking, as if Zhou Yuelin asked something that made him terrified.

"Don't force him!" Yan Sheng hugged Yu Qiyue who was trembling on the ground and said angrily.

The answer is already there.

Yan Yu and Lu Le didn't dare to step forward and stood at the door at a loss, "What's the matter, this is it, let's talk about it if you have something to say."

Zhou Yuelin suddenly laughed, and that laughter contained extinguished anger and unbelievable lamentation, which sounded very strange.

The so-called truth was torn apart and spread out in front of him. He suddenly felt that all this was so absurd. He should be angry that his younger brother dared to steal his sister-in-law's ashes and hide it on his body.

But isn't Yu Qiyue himself guilty?His timid younger brother has kept this secret for nearly ten years.How did he survive these ten years?Isn't he afraid?In the house of his hometown, he had nightmares every night and was unwilling to tell. How much suffering did he suffer?

Is there any way in this world to make his younger brother return to normal and no longer be tortured by hysteria, if there is, Zhou Yuelin is willing to sacrifice his life.

Have.

A thought crashed into Zhou Yuelin's brain, and he made a decision within a second. This is a dangerous way. If it works, then Yu Qiyue's life will reappear. If it doesn't work...is there any worse situation than now?

Seeing Zhou Yuelin's eyes suddenly brighten, Yu Qiyue shrank back a little into Yan Sheng's arms.

Zhou Yuelin pulled him up, "Let's go."

Yu Qiyue was dragged a few steps by him in a daze, and a warning signal in his heart made him stop. He wanted to pull his hand out, but Zhou Yuelin pulled it too tightly.

Yan Sheng pressed Zhou Yuelin and frowned, "Where are you going?"

"If you want him to be like this for the rest of his life, stop me." Zhou Yuelin said coldly.

Yan Sheng let go of his palms, "What do you mean?"

Zhou Yuelin didn't bother to explain to him at all, the two who broke through the blocked door dragged Yu Qiyue downstairs.

"I, I won't go!" Yu Qiyue held onto the railing with one hand, his expression extremely conflicted.

"Pull him away!"

Yan Yu and Lu Le subconsciously obeyed Zhou Yuelin's instructions, and went forward to break Yu Qiyue's hand.

"Don't touch him!" Yan Sheng rushed up to push them away, he looked at Zhou Yuelin, "What are you going to do?"

"I want to save him. If even this method doesn't work, then he will just wait to be tortured to death by this damn disease."

Yu Qiyue desperately shook his head and pleaded, "I won't go, Yan Sheng, I won't go..."

A bit of hesitation flashed in Yan Sheng's eyes.

"I have a stomachache, no, I can't go."

Yan Sheng's short and dense eyelashes touched, and he made a choice.

The slender fingers were forcibly pulled away from the railing, Yu Qiyue dared not believe it, "Even you want to force me?"

Yan Sheng forcefully pulled his last finger away, he cared so much about Yu Qiyue's feelings, but he couldn't seem to hear Yu Qiyue's screams of pain now.

Zhou Yuelin picked up Yu Qiyue and rushed downstairs.

Yan Yu was surprised by Yan Sheng's determination, but saw that his fingers hanging by his side were trembling. He stepped forward to support Yan Sheng's back, and his clothes were soaked with sweat.

As soon as they arrived at the door, the door opened from the outside. Wang Xueling looked at Zhou Yuelin hugging the struggling Yu Qiyue, and said angrily, "What are you doing? Your brother..."

Yu Qiyue let out a heart-piercing scream, "Mom—help me quickly, I don't want to go!"

"Put him down!"

Zhou Yuelin dodged to avoid Wang Xueling's tugging, "It's because we used to spoil him that he became like this. No one can stop me today!"

Wang Xueling's expression froze for a moment, and she relaxed a little, "What are you going to do?"

"You don't want him to be like this all his life, just stay at home and don't ask anything."

Zhou Yuelin pushed Yu Qiyue to the back seat, Yan Sheng took him and hugged him tightly, Yu Qiyue struggled too hard, as if this was a prison car that was going to take him to the execution ground.

"What's the use of your hands?!" Zhou Yuelin sat in the driver's seat and yelled at Yan Yu in the back seat.

Yan Yu hurriedly held down Yu Qiyue's thumping leg.

The car is like a knife tearing through the thick night, turning into a ray of light and flying forward.

The scenery along the road became more and more familiar, Yu Qiyue saw it when he was sleepwalking.