become famous

He Xiuyi's whole body trembled violently when he heard the words "it's love". His bones, blood, and flesh were all burning, as if he was about to boil.

All the questions in the past were instantly explained-why Zuo Ran was reluctant to slap his face, why he forced Liu Yangting to be replaced, why he was fighting for the lead role, why he had a reaction when he was filming.

Zuo Ran gently put the tea on the table, leaning against the edge of the table, showing a beautiful curve of the waist: "I saw your first play by accident when I was in my sophomore year, and I really like you The interpretation of the role feels like hitting the heart and lungs."

"Is that play?" He Xiuyi still remembers that at that time, he acted as a "lonely" person.

"That role was very similar to my state at that time. Because of my father's work, I... changed schools twice in six years of elementary school, and three places in six years of middle school. Every time I just made friends, I was forced to make friends with Everyone said goodbye. It resulted in a long period of time where I wasn't interested in socializing with people around me."

"..." He Xiuyi thought: You are still not interested.However, he finally understood the reason for Zuo Ran's character.People who have been migrating all the time usually go to two extremes-either they don't like to connect with people, or they are good at everything.

Zuo Ran continued: "Migrations in the world are all for survival and reproduction, but your performance reveals a poetic and artistic flavor. I still remember that you sang a song in the movie called "Don't Bury Me in the Lonely Plain" "." [Don't bury me in the lonely plain, the young man murmured sadly: I used to dream of sleeping in the church, on the hill near my father. 】

He Xiuyi nodded, "It's from a cowboy song in a certain movie."

Zuo Ran watched that movie many times, and He Xiuyi also kept it in his heart.He wanted to know if He Xiuyi was the same person. He often searched for information, but found nothing, because He Xiuyi was just a newcomer.He tried to get acquainted with each other according to the "Strategy", wrote letters to He Xiuyi, drew pictures for He Xiuyi, and gave He Xiuyi gifts, but he got nothing.

Zuo Ran paused for a moment, and then said very calmly: "In the summer vacation of my junior year, a friend of mine went to Hengdian as an extra performer in 'Experience Life'. Once he said that your crew is also shooting a movie there."

He Xiuyi did the math: "That's my second movie, and it's also my last movie before my comeback." After all, he only filmed two movies in total.

"I don't know what kind of mentality it is, I also ran to the film and television city, was introduced to the group leader by a friend, and then waited to enter your crew to shoot a scene for a day or two, and then I... saw you .”

Zuo Ran still remembered that his first feeling was that he had never seen such a beautiful person—a pair of eyes that were half dreaming and half awake, making people want to kiss them hard.That throbbing is still in my chest.Although it happened many years ago, it was the most important day in Zuo Ran's life. Those memories were scorching hot, as if they were imprinted on the bones with a red-hot iron. And there is a slight blur.

Zuo Ran continued to recall: "You... are very kind to people. It rained that morning, the director asked the regular actors to take shelter from the rain, and the extras braved the rain to film. Later... the rain became heavier and heavier, and you came here with an umbrella , and said to the director, 'Forget it, it's raining so hard, let them hide'. Because of that rain, the filming of the morning scene was not finished, and the crew didn't prepare lunch and water for the extras, and you paid for us out of your own pocket "He also finally knew that He Xiuyi is not the same person as him, He Xiuyi is just very empathetic, so he is born to be a good actor.

He Xiuyi smiled: "There shouldn't be many people, right? I was very poor at the time, and I wasn't willing to spend money."

Zuo Ran didn't answer, but continued to talk: "The lunch box ordered by the regular actors is a different kind, low salt, low sugar, low oil and low fat. At that time, when you saw me opening the box lunch, your eyes were very strange... I asked you to choose This is the first real contact." He Xiuyi was only 22 years old at the time, and he unconsciously showed envy when he saw the high-salt, high-sugar, high-oil, and high-fat boxed lunch, which was very cute in Zuo Ran's eyes, so he handed it After box lunch and chopsticks, ask He Xiuyi to pick some for himself.He Xiuyi couldn't hold back, opened his chopsticks, took a piece of braised pork to his mouth, then, in order not to dirty the other's chopsticks, bared his teeth slightly, bit the end of the braised pork, and snatched it away with his tongue.Zuo Ran looked at He Xiuyi's exposed hard and white teeth, his soft and reddish tongue, his lips stained with oil, and the corners of his mouth lifted up because he succeeded in stealing, and felt again... want to kiss hard.

He Xiuyi said: "I don't remember..."

Zuo Ran continued to recall those events: "In the afternoon, I will perform a blasting scene. When the 'bomb' rang, I was 'dead' on the ground behind. Maybe because I wanted to behave better in front of you, 'Bomb' ' After the sound, I jumped up and fell to the ground. Because I was lying so hard, my hat fell off and I rolled away, which produced a particularly harsh sound in the silent set."

He Xiuyi couldn't help laughing when he heard this.

"You also know that the status of group actors is low. The director told me to get up immediately and start shooting again. Only you came back and asked me if I was okay... and said that the camera can't shoot below the waist, so protect yourself when it lands." He remembered He Xiuyi was smiling at that time, it was very fresh in the air after the rain.At that time, He Xiuyi helped him pick up the hat, and when the backlight came over, there was a rainbow behind him, and his delicate face seemed to glow.At that time, the passing time was as gentle as the fine sand in an hourglass.

"Hey……"

Zuo Ran added: "After that day ended, I mustered up the courage to say a few words to you. You were smoking at the time, but you still chatted with me while smoking."

He Xiuyi said: "I quit smoking." He Xiuyi used to be a heavy smoker and drinker, but after his mother fell ill, he stopped all bad habits in a very hopeless manner.

"At that time, you taught me that you can slow down when you fall down, express yourself more, and win some opportunities for the future."

"..."

"You asked me why I wanted to be a group performer. I lied and said it was a dream, but I was talking about other people's affairs. You taught me how to recommend myself to the directors, and how to prepare various materials."

"..."

"That's when you said: 'You're going to be popular, you're going to be a good actor.'"

He Xiuyi said: "It's obvious, you can turn red just by looking at your face."

Zuo Ran said again: "Finally, before you left, you smiled at me and said: 'I hope to play a hearty rivalry with you in the future, and you must remind me that we have met before.' " Zuo Ran remembered very clearly that when He Xiuyi turned to leave, he waved at him with the hand holding the cigarette. Amidst the smoke and sparks, that person became indistinct.

love at first sight.

He Xiuyi said "goodbye".Zuo Ran looked at He Xiuyi's back, and watched the slightly thin figure under the costume getting farther and smaller, and the strongest feeling in his chest was: we want to meet again.

Zuo Ran was 20 years old at the time, his body was restless, but he felt that most of the people around him were vulgar.In his eyes, meeting people again and again and saying goodbye to people again and again, the world is absurd and absurd.Born in this world, it is vulgar, the only difference is the vulgarity of Yangchun Baixue, or the vulgarity of lower Liba people.In short, the only way to deal with it is indifference, but any response to it is equally vulgar.But He Xiuyi is frank and frank, and has another kind of transparency about people and things, which fascinates Zuo Ran a little.He originally thought that the net hole that he, the insect catcher, was assigned to was surprisingly large—all kinds of creatures came and went, stayed for a while and then found a way to leave. Unexpectedly, there was a beautiful one that surprised everyone. Butterflies came in, fluttered their golden wings, and never flew away.

After a pause, Zuo Ran said again: "I know you're just casually comforting me, but I think...it's an agreement, the only person I have ever made an agreement with. I don't want to disappoint you, isn't it ridiculous? I always think , If you go to work and stop acting, you will be breaking the contract.” He Xiuyi said that he “hopes” to act opposite, but Zuo Ran doesn’t want to “disappoint” He Xiuyi——like someone for the first time, how can he “disappoint” the other party?

"Uh……"

"I studied architecture, but I didn't like it, and I didn't know what to do after graduation. After being a group performer for a month, I found that I really liked acting, but more importantly... so I officially entered the This line." Zuo Ran omitted the middle words.However, because of his good-looking face, he immediately had a very good opportunity to get the male third role directly, without going through the stage of painful struggle.

He Xiuyi's shock was simply indescribable - Zuo Ran, a graduate of science and engineering from a prestigious school, has always had an aura of "student god" around him.He never expected that Zuo Ran entered the entertainment industry for such an extremely secret reason.He felt very "fantasy" - because of "kindness", being liked by others?Now third-rate idol dramas don't perform like this anymore.Even if he is liked because he is "vicious", it is more fashionable.

Over there, Zuo Ran's eyes flickered: "However, soon, you disappeared, disappeared."

He Xiuyi said, "Something happened in my family."

"I have been asking, but there is no news."

"I didn't talk to anyone."

"I've been waiting for you for six years...During those six years, I always dreamed that one day I could play against you. Among them, the most ruthless dream is to play a couple."

"..."

"I've been waiting for you for six years...even I can't take it anymore...so, when I accepted the script of "Family"... I recommended it to Director Li... like your Liu Yangting." I like it, so I took it, but...he really misses it too much.

"Zuo Ran..."

Zuo Ran said to himself: "I thought you would never appear again... So I couldn't help but think that the strongest feelings in my life probably have nowhere to go. But with him who is a bit like you... ...to act in a play together, maybe we can realize the dream...to one in a million."

He Xiuyi couldn't believe it.

"Xiu Yi," Zuo Ran said in a hoarse voice, "You are not his substitute, he is your substitute."

In the first, second, and third years, Zuo Ran felt that the feeling was like a person singing a love song in a silent night, and there was still some sweetness in the loneliness.But in the fourth and fifth years, Zuo Ran gradually felt that with the passage of time, the possibility of getting back together became more and more remote.He seemed to be holding a dilapidated skin bag, listening to the water drop by drop, and hurriedly used his palms to catch and block it, but nothing remained, and he seemed to have fallen off a cliff, struggling in mid-air, what? I can't catch it, but I can't fall to the ground. I only have strong anxiety and panic in my heart.

The only two movies He Xiuyi participated in, he has watched them hundreds of times, so that he can tell how each scene of He Xiuyi appeared in a few minutes and a few seconds - what is the action like, what is the expression like Yes, and I can recite every line.The more carefully he looked at it, the more he liked it.Zuo Ran also kept all the news about He Xiuyi, and also felt that this person was really something he should never forget.He also often drove around the streets of He Xiuyi's hometown when he was not acting, hoping to meet again inadvertently, but every time he was disappointed.

For the entire six years, there was not a day when he did not think of He Xiuyi.In fact, the so-called "near despair" is not heart-piercing, but a very ordinary and ordinary loneliness.He sometimes dreams that He Xiuyi "comes back". Every time he wakes up from the dream, he has to be in a trance for several minutes before he can put on his clothes and get up to start "his day".Later, even though he knew it was a dream, he longed to follow the trail of the person he liked at night.

Therefore, when he saw He Xiuyi appearing on the set as a "naked substitute", his mood was indescribable.Those things that weighed heavily on the tip of his heart in the past seemed to suddenly sprout wings, and finally flew away happily.

However, he is a very professional actor, and he cannot force the chief director to change actors.All he could do was to accept the large-scale sex scenes that he didn't accept at the beginning—the passionate scenes in "Family", which weren't so many originally.

In the reading room of Zuo Ran's home, the fragrance of wood and books slowly diffuses.Time seemed to be frozen, and every second passed slowly.The light in the room is like something that can flow gently like ocean waves, flowing over He Xiuyi's body, gently embracing him in it, and the tiny dust dancing in the light is also like an elf jumping with the wind.

"Zuo Ran..." He Xiuyi didn't dare to look into Zuo Ran's eyes, "I'm sorry, I didn't know you had such thoughts..."

"Now you know."

"I... never thought... to associate with you..."

"I can think about it later."

He Xiuyi didn't know how to refuse - this kind of love was too heavy to be taken lightly.As a natural gay, he will be tempted when he is "triggered" by the other party.However, his reaction is only the same as that of any man and woman facing Zuo Yingdi, far from love.Accepting it in a muddle under such circumstances is a desecration of that strong feeling.He didn't want his half-baked soul to be wrapped up indiscriminately by his body when he had intercourse with the other party - a lifetime is so long, if there is no firm determination and confidence, it will not be able to go to the end.

After a while, he opened his mouth: "Zuo Ran, I'm sorry..."

"Don't talk." Zuo Ran suddenly stretched out his hand, and gently pressed his index and middle fingers on He Xiuyi's lips, "Hang me up."

"..."

"If you can't accept it, hang me. It's the same for me." Or, hanging is better... because he can't fall in love with anyone else.

"Zuo Ran..."

"It's easier now." Zuo Ran's tone is still unhurried, like a volcano, with a calm surface, but hundreds of meters below, there is the hottest magma surging, "I don't need to deliberately create Some ambiguity, explicit hints, while worrying that it will be too explicit and scare you." When He Xiuyi was acting as a substitute, because the two should "just met", Zuo Ran never dared to show anything, only the first day he couldn't help it, A hickey was left on the base of the thigh.Later, when the other party officially joined the film crew, Zuo Ran tried to tease and hint at the other party from time to time, hoping that He Xiuyi would have some romantic thoughts. At the same time, he tried hard to suppress the most real thoughts, because he was afraid that once the gate was opened, his crazy thoughts would pour down. Emotions will overwhelm all the ambiguity that is in the haze.

"..." The contact again and again passed He Xiuyi's eyes.

"I won't force you to do anything—I can even pretend I never loved you, or, never met you."

"No need." He Xiuyi could only keep repeating: "I'm sorry...I'm sorry..."

"Xiu Yi," Zuo Ran stood up straight, "You were absent from the previous six birthdays. This year...can you give me a hug as a gift?"

"...Okay." There was no way to say no to this kind of request.He Xiuyi walked up to Zuo Ran, and gently hugged him with open arms.Once again, he felt the frantic rhythm of Zuo Ran's heart beating violently, as if he could burn himself even through his clothes.

Zuo Ran hugged He Xiuyi's waist tightly.Other than that, nothing was touched.

He Xiuyi still couldn't believe it.

Zuo Yingdi, since six or seven years ago, he-

There was some commotion in He Xiuyi's heart.Something echoes hysterically and wants to rush out, it's hard to tell whether it's shock, panic, or something else.Complex and different emotions are entangled together, noisy.While peeping diligently, He Xiuyi closed his eyes in disgust, and told himself that he couldn't think about it anymore—the more he thought about it, the more chaotic his heart became.

"What's wrong?" Zuo Ran asked after letting go of He Xiuyi.

"I'm thinking about my feelings... making sure I didn't do anything wrong just now."

"Don't think too much." Zuo Ran said, "If you like me like I do, you will definitely know that you want to be with me."

"Ah."

"Don't mention it," Zuo Ran seemed really unwilling to put pressure on the other party, "have some tea."

"it is good."

"Yes, I just heard that director Li Chaoyin introduced to You Yushi the play directed by Dou Funao... I didn't pass the audition, it's too bad."

"It's yellow?" He Xiuyi was a little unwilling to believe it, "You Yushi's acting skills are so good, why didn't he ever pass?" He Xiuyi believed that God rewards hard work.You Yushi was so eye-catching when he debuted. After years of almost rigid hard work, he should be able to stand at the top even more.

"Yeah, look at the group."

He Xiuyi hurriedly clicked on WeChat and found that everyone was discussing this matter.

Dou Funao's play has just officially announced the male lead - he is... an actor with very, very, very, very average acting skills, but has recently become quite popular.

Because of his average looks, average body, and average acting skills, that actor has been unable to get ahead for many years and has been tepid. In the past few years, he also participated in two or three online dramas and major online movies.However, at the beginning of last year, the actor participated in a variety show, and the show became popular. He has a high IQ and EQ, is very likable, never recruits gangsters, and has an interesting personality. Famous quotes", and it appears very powerful in the game session, there is always a kingly aura, the popularity soars suddenly, and there are many fans.He also joined several variety shows of provincial satellite TV while it was hot, and his name immediately became popular all over the country. He is a very typical "variety show cafe".After he became popular, film appointments came one after another, and he had a good vision, and the few movies and TV series he starred in were all well-received and well-received.

Zuo Ran said: "Director Li Chaoyin strongly promoted You Yushi. In the end...Director Dou Funao told Director Li Chaoyin bluntly that You Yushi's appeal is not enough."

"..."

"Actually..." Zuo Ran hesitated to speak, "You Yushi, it's actually really hard to get a male lead. He has a bad reputation and always wears a big 'degenerate' hat on his head. Today, I'm afraid no film studio would dare to let him carry the box office. At this point, fate has really played tricks on him." In fact, Yu Shi is not the only one who has been teased.

He Xiuyi sighed: "You Zi used to have a lot of fans."

Zuo Ran had been in the entertainment industry for a long time, so he shook his head.

Where are there any real "die-hard fans".When the popularity is high, there will be more and more fans. Once it is down, the fans will disappear in an instant, and it is difficult for a few to make a sound.Pink and black come and go.No matter how much of a fan or black person's life he once occupied, no matter how strong that love or hate was, he was just a passer-by in the end.

Unlike most celebrities, Zuo Ran doesn't care about "fans" - as long as he is "strong", there will always be "fans".

He Xiuyi understood that what Zuo Ran said was correct, but he admired You Yushi very much, and couldn't bear to see him struggling all the time, but he couldn't help him either.

In the haze, He Xiuyi couldn't help but ponder - what would he be like without Zuo Ran?

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Small theater: The 20-year-old actor seven years ago: Xiu Yi is cute and misses every day.