string sound dream lovesickness

Ah Qing, the only thing I can do today is to look at you like this, how I hate myself for being so incompetent.

Ah Qing, I hate myself as much as I love you.

I am not afraid of life, because at least I know that you are still living in a certain corner of the world. When the longing is overflowing and unstoppable, I can go to your side regardless of everything, even if I just hide in the corner. sneak a glance at your face.

Even if you hate me or hate me, it’s okay if you don’t want to see me and don’t want to talk to me, as long as you exist in this world alive and well, I’m not afraid of those days that are so long that seem to have no end, I’m not afraid of those days Every morning without you alone.No matter how the world changes, as long as you still exist, I am not afraid of anything.

I'm just afraid that it's a farewell, I'm afraid that I still have so many unspoken feelings that I haven't let you know, I'm afraid that I haven't had time to love you well, I'm afraid that I won't be able to wake up one morning I can't remember your face, your smile, the upward curvature of your mouth and the shallow fine lines at the corners of your eyes.

Ah...it turns out that just thinking about it makes people sad and painful.It makes me wish I could sleep in a dream from now on, without waking up and facing it, just being a coward.

Do you know that I am afraid that one day I will never find you again in this world, even if I miss you and think of going crazy, there is nowhere I can find you.I am afraid that no one will remember you anymore, I am afraid that our memories will not even be remembered by me in the end.If even I can't remember you in this world, who else can still think of you, and who you used to be?

I'm afraid, really afraid.I would rather you and I never meet each other, as long as we are safe in a corner of the world, I can have the courage to miss you and miss you.

As long as you're alive, please, just be alive!Even if my heart is crushed into dust and thrown in the mud, I am willing.I am willing to be trampled and trampled into the abyss day and night, I am willing to do anything.As long as you're alive, as long as you're alive, as long as you're alive...

Mo Qingxian, Qingxian...

my sweetheart.