[Soul of Chess] What if

"Because... because you will disappear!"

After hearing this sentence, all the expressions on Zuo Wei's face disappeared in an instant.

Although his eyes were slightly wide open, his pupils were dull, and he looked dazed, as if he didn't respond to Ah Guang's words.

After a while, he looked at Ah Guang in a daze, and said softly as if talking to himself: "Ah Guang... what do you mean by disappearing...?"

His voice sounded very slight, even a little cautious, as if he was worried that everything would be broken due to the slight sound.

Looking at Zuowei in this state, Aguang only felt that his heart seemed to be tightly shrunk together, and the pain was extremely unbearable, and even the tense atmosphere in the venue suddenly made him feel suffocated.

"Feel sorry……"

Although I feel sorry for Taya, it's just... I really can't stay here any longer...

"You win."

After saying this to Taya, he tried his best to escape from the venue.

Just now, as if possessed by a demon, Ah Guang's mind was full of thoughts of wanting to play chess by himself.

In fact he did.

"Sorry, Zoe!"

He said this to Zuo Wei, and then stretched out the hand that was attached to the chess piece to the position he had already considered.

"Sai——!"

At this moment, Ah Guang's mind suddenly echoed his mournful cry.

It was this call that made his movements stop suddenly, as if he had pressed the pause button.

The picture of himself who had appeared in the dream anxiously kept looking for Zuo Wei, and at this moment it appeared in front of Ah Guang's eyes very clearly.

If he insists on playing chess by himself, Zuo Wei will disappear!

This realization made Ah Guang's face turn pale instantly.

After Ah Guang managed to regain his senses, he saw that his right hand holding the chess was hanging above the chessboard!

He just felt suffocated, and then hurriedly withdrew his hand back as if trying to remedy it.It wasn't until he threw the chess piece into the chess jar that Ah Guang felt his heart, which had been beating violently, calm down a little.

However, the grief after Zuo Wei's disappearance has been lingering in Ah Guang's heart, and it can't dissipate.

Aguang originally wanted to continue the game as if nothing had happened.

However, maybe the grief was so strong that his disguise was extremely clumsy, and he couldn't hide it from Zuo Wei at all.

Under Zuo Wei's questioning, A Guang, who was already flustered in his heart, actually revealed the secret he had kept for a long time...

Looking at Zuo Wei who was a little bit out of his mind, Ah Guang was never so angry about his behavior.

Why speak it out?

Why don't you bear it any longer?

Even if you make up a reason, that's fine!

Why speak out? !

why? !

"Little Light?"

Seeing Aguang who suddenly entered the door, Mitsuko's mother was a little surprised: "Didn't you say that you are going to participate in some Go game today? Why are you back so early?"

Ah Guang didn't care about it.He just responded vaguely, and hurried into his room on the second floor.

The moment the door was closed, Ah Guang sat paralyzed on the ground as if he had lost all his strength.

"Ah Guang, I'm sorry..."

When Ah Guang finally calmed down, he saw Zuo Wei kneeling beside him.

Zuo Wei's expression became very calm, and his voice became much calmer, as if he had sorted out his thoughts.

After Ah Guang looked at him, Zuo Wei spoke in a calm tone: "I'm sorry... I suddenly heard the news that I would disappear, and I couldn't accept it for a while, so I lost my composure just now... Then, now Can you tell me what's going on here?"

"I think I have a right to know."

Seeing Ah Guang's silence, Zuo Wei looked into Ah Guang's eyes and said.

Yes, as Zuo Wei said, he has the right to know the truth.

Looking at Zuo Wei's serious and peaceful eyes, Ah Guang sighed softly: "Actually, before I met Zuo Wei you, I had a strange dream..."

Following Ah Guang's narration, the doubts in Zuo Wei's heart were gradually solved.

No wonder Ah Guang suddenly came to the gloomy warehouse of his grandfather's house that day.

No wonder Ah Guang said weird words like "unexpectedly" and "really" after seeing the blood on the chessboard.

It's no wonder that Ah Guang always unconsciously reveals an appearance that he is very familiar with some of his behaviors.

It's no wonder that although A Guang has no interest in Go, he still tries his best to satisfy his desire to play Go.

No wonder Ah Guang is always extraordinarily tolerant of himself. As long as it is a request made by himself, even if he is reluctant, he will eventually compromise.

……

It turned out that Ah Guang had seen him a long time ago, and even knew that he would disappear...

Zuo Wei didn't know what expression to put on would be more appropriate.

After learning everything, he was a little surprised at first.

Because he could never have imagined that there would really be such a prophetic dream, and all his experiences had been written long ago, including the ending of his disappearance...

Then he couldn't help complaining a little bit to Ah Guang.

Why do you say that I will disappear...

If Ah Guang hadn't said it, he wouldn't have known about it, and his mood wouldn't have become so sad...

He even looked forward to going back in time until he didn't know all this, so that he could continue to play chess carefree, instead of being so anxious now, always feeling that he would disappear in the next moment...

Besides, he was a little disappointed with Ah Guang.

It turns out that all your tolerance and compromise are nothing more than sympathy for you knowing that I will eventually disappear...

Of course, Zuo Wei knew very well that his complaints and disappointment towards A Guang were just venting his anger.

After all, everything is arranged by the gods.

One day, he will also know the fact that he will eventually disappear.

Ah Guang just knew the future in advance under the arrangement of the gods, that's all.

And Ah Guang didn't just sympathize with himself.

Perhaps there was indeed an element of sympathy at the beginning, but afterwards, Aguang's kindness, pity, care, connivance, and concern for himself were all true.

The bond between Ah Guang and himself is really deepening day by day.

Ah Guang is real...

I am really deepening my relationship with an existence that I know will eventually disappear day by day...

In the end... what kind of mood is he getting along with himself?

When I think about it this way, I feel very unbearable.

Ah Guang...

It must be painful too...

Zuo Wei couldn't help turning his head slightly, and looked at A Guang with a complicated expression on his face.

In fact, he was too greedy.

When he stepped into the Uji River thousands of years ago, Zuowei never imagined that he would stay in the world for such a long time.

At first, he was just looking forward to the next game.

Maybe it was because my obsession was too strong, so the gods allowed me to attach my soul to the chessboard.

Then, I met Torario.During the days around Hujiro, I played chess every day, every day, and played more than one game.

Then, I met Ah Guang again...

If the ultimate disappearance is one's own destiny, there seems to be no choice but to accept it.

Because, this is something that cannot be violated.

After all, it is already a gift from the gods to meet Tiger Ciro and Hikari.

Apart from being grateful, I can't expect too much...

Although, I am so unwilling to be separated from Ah Guang...

like back then...

I also don't want to be separated from Tiger Ciro.

Unfortunately……

However, after learning that he would disappear, apart from reluctance, there was more panic.

Because, in history, there is no self-existence...

He was afraid that he would just disappear without a sound.

I am afraid that all people will completely forget myself.

He didn't want to pass by silently like a breeze when people didn't notice...

He wants to leave traces of his existence in this world.

He wants the world to know that in this world, there used to be a chess player named Fujiwara Sakai...

After listening to his narration, Zuo Wei kept silent, not knowing what he was thinking.

Looking at the silent Zuo Wei, Ah Guang's heart was full of remorse.

He wanted to speak out to break the suffocating atmosphere of silence.

However, he was also afraid of hearing Zuo Wei say something that he couldn't bear...

No, maybe Zuo would not say why.

Zuo must be very disappointed in himself now...

He probably won't want to care about himself anymore...

"Ah Guang..."

At this moment, he heard Zuowei's soft voice.

Ah Guang raised his head in disbelief and stared blankly at Zuowei.

He has so many things he wants to say to Zuo Wei...

He wondered if Zuo Wei was okay now?

Wondering if Zuo Wei is blaming himself?

I wonder if Zuo Wei is still willing to pay attention to himself?

want to know...

"Zoe for you..."

However, as soon as he opened his mouth, he stopped.

All the words seemed to be stuck in my throat, and I couldn't get them out...

Zuo Wei showed a comforting smile, and then asked softly: "Ah Guang, when did I disappear? Before I disappeared, did I reach the state of supernatural powers? Can you tell me? "

Ah Guang was stunned for a moment, and after trying to think about it, he said very ashamedly: "I'm sorry, Zuo Wei. I don't know..."

"Not only do I not know when you disappeared, but I also don't know whether you reached the state of supernatural powers before you disappeared... I just remember that one day, you suddenly told me that you were about to disappear. In this One day after that, I really will never see you again... I have searched many, many places, but I can't find you anywhere..."

Hearing Ah Guang's voice full of self-blame, Zuo Wei said sadly: "Is that so..."

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Writing abuse makes me almost depressed... (╥╯^╰╥)

Just this abuse, I will definitely not abuse it again in the future, um.