[Soul of Chess] What if

"For some reason, there is always a feeling of a little relief..."

"what?"

Suddenly hearing Zuo Wei say such a sentence softly with emotion, Ah Guang couldn't react for a while.

"Because, what Ah Guang just said, I really disappeared one day after I told Ah Guang that I was about to disappear..." At this point, Zuo Wei's face showed a trace of With a shallow smile, "This shows that if I am really going to disappear, I will be aware of it before then."

"It turned out that I didn't disappear suddenly without knowing it... After realizing this, I felt a sense of relief in my heart. :)"

"..."

Ah Guang opened his mouth, but he didn't know what to say would be more appropriate.

Seeing Ah Guang's worried expression, Zuo Wei continued to say softly: "Although, after learning the news that I will disappear suddenly, it is impossible for me not to feel uncomfortable... But I still have to thank Ah Guang. Thank you for choosing to tell me this without reservation. Really appreciate you..."

"Zuowei..."

"I'm sorry... I spoke so harshly before..." Zuo Wei looked at A Guang apologetically.

Suddenly being treated so slightly formally by Zuo Wei, Ah Guang was a little at a loss: "No...it's nothing... Zuo Wei, you don't have to be so polite..."

"Zuo Wei, are you... okay now?" A Guang paused, and then whispered to himself, "Do you... have any complaints against me?"

"Actually, there is a little bit. After all, if you didn't say it, maybe I can continue to play chess without any worries..."

Zuo Wei's answer made Ah Guang's already drooping head sink even more.

"However, I'm still very happy that Aguang finally chose to tell me all this." Looking at Aguang's eyes full of surprise, Zuo Wei's expression became extremely soft, "Because, happy things are good, sad things Anyway, I really don't want Ah Guang to hide anything from me."

Thinking of how Zuo Wei questioned himself before, Ah Guang couldn't help asking: "Why... Zuo Wei, why do you care so much about my concealment?"

Zuo looked away slightly.

He sighed softly, and then answered Aguang's question: "Because...if I had paid more attention to Tora Ciro back then, maybe Tora Ciro would not have..."

"Didn't Tiger Cilang die because he contracted a disease when he went to the epidemic area to take care of his sick disciples?" A Guang asked in surprise.

"Even so, it's just that I can't forgive myself no matter what... I have always been by Torajiro's side, but at that time, I was only thinking about playing chess, playing chess, playing chess, and never giving to Tiger Ciro. Cilang cared enough..." Zuo Wei frowned, and his voice was full of self-blame, "He must have been very sad after his mother passed away, but he pretended to be nothing, and continued on. Arranged the game for me as always. And I really thought he let go...the result..."

"If I could have paid more attention to Tora Ciro...if I could have noticed the pain in Tora Ciro's heart earlier...if I had noticed the abnormality in Tora Ciro's body earlier...Maybe, Tora Ciro would have I won't die young...all of this is my fault...it's all my fault..."

"not like this!"

Ah Guang almost shouted out.

"Although I don't know much about Torano, I think the reason why he did this may be because Zuo is very important to Torano."

Zuo Wei raised his head and looked at A Guang with some astonishment.

"He is obviously full of pain, but he still continues to arrange games for Zuo Wei as if nothing had happened, because he doesn't want Zuo Wei to worry about you for him! He hopes that you can continue to play chess without any worries, so That's why I hid everything from Zuowei. I think Torano should be like this. Because... because I also have such thoughts..."

"Ah Guang..."

"Unfortunately, you will be infected with the disease. Perhaps even Torano himself did not expect it. I think he hopes that you can always be happy, and he must not want to see you like this. So, all this is not It's not your fault, Zuo Wei!" Ah Guang's eyes glistened with tears.

Zuo Wei stared blankly at Ah Guang, and after a while, he said softly, "Ah Guang...thank you..."

"It's great, Torano is so considerate of you... Come to think of it, you should never have any unpleasantness... Unlike me..." Aguang murmured somewhat self-deprecatingly.

"No, actually there was."

Zuo Wei was silent for a moment, then spoke softly.

"Eh?"

"Remember what I said about Torano dropping the cup on purpose?"

Aang nodded slightly.

"Tora Ciro used such a clever strategy to enable his teacher to escape defeat, and also allowed the Honinbo family to retain the throne of the celebrity chess house. As a disciple of the Honinbo family, his original intention for doing so is understandable. It's just that ...This kind of behavior is extremely unfair to Xiuhe's opponent Huanan Yinshuo." Zuowei explained slowly.

"Although after that incident, I did not quarrel with Torajiro. However, there was a grudge in my heart. He also noticed this. After returning home for the second time, he returned to Edo. On the way, he deliberately stayed in Osaka for several months, and successfully arranged a match between me and Huanan Yinshuo."

"Is it the time when the 'Red Ears' occurred?"

"Exactly." Zuowei nodded affirmatively, "Torajiro said that what happened last time was because of his eagerness to win. He also realizes that doing so is very unfair to his opponent. This time he hopes I can play in place of Hidekazu and defend the chess place for the Honinbo family."

"After three games with Huan'an, we finally reconciled."

Seeing Ah Guang's sudden realization, Zuo Wei continued to say gently: "So, everything will not be as I imagined. If you don't say it, you can't know the truth based on your own guess."

"So, when he played chess with Taya before, Aguang really wanted to play chess by himself, right?"

Facing Zuo Wei's eyes that seemed to see through everything, Ah Guang had no choice but to admit: "...Yes..."

"Then, from now on, I will leave all the matches with Taya to Ah Guang." Zuowei said with a curved eyebrow.

"But...but if it was me, Zuo you would disappear!"

Seeing Ah Guang's anxious expression, Zuo Wei sighed lightly, and then said seriously: "Ah Guang, those are just your speculations."

"But..." Ah Guang eagerly wanted to explain, but Zuo Wei stopped him.

"I don't think I will disappear because I can't play chess." After Zuo Wei said this sentence a little seriously, his tone became extremely soft, "I feel that Aguang likes to play chess and wants to play chess by himself. At that time, there was only joy in my heart, and there was no loss. This is true. That feeling, as if something I have always liked has been recognized by others, and my heart is full of joy."

"It's impossible for me like this to disappear in disappointment because I found myself unable to play chess. Therefore, there should be other reasons for my disappearance." Zuo Wei said with certainty.

"Then why..."

Zuo Wei understood what A Guang wanted to ask.He thought for a while, and then looked at Ah Guang seriously: "Although I am not very clear, why the one in Ah Guang's dream disappeared without a word to Ah Guang. However, I promise Ah Guang that if that day really comes, I will definitely say goodbye to Ah Guang."

As he said that, a gentle yet firm smile floated on Zuo Wei's face: "So, Ah Guang, just go ahead and do it."

"It's just... I don't really know if I like Go. Besides, I wanted to learn to play Go at first, but I just wanted to catch up with Taya..." Aguang's voice was very soft.

Those low whispers seemed to dissipate from the air.

"I don't know if I like Go?" Zuo Wei thought for a while, "Although in my opinion, whenever Aguang succeeds with his own strength, you really feel happy in your heart."

Looking at Ah Guang's slightly confused eyes, Zuo Wei continued: "Ah Guang, think about it carefully, was your heart filled with joy when you successfully answered that question on the school celebration?"

"……Um."

"In Boss Xiu's chess club, every time a guest comes to play against Ah Guang, even though he sometimes loses, Ah Guang is still very happy, right?"

"……Yes."

"After Ah Guang defeated Grandpa with his own strength, Ah Guang is also in a very happy mood, isn't he?"

"That's right..."

"During this process, did Aguang ever think of chasing Taya?"

Ah Guang thought about it seriously, then shook his head.

"So, Aguang no longer just plays chess just to catch up with Taya. Because Aguang has already fallen in love with Go without knowing it!"

"Is it like this?" Ah Guang opened his eyes wide in disbelief.

"Yes." Zuo Wei's eyes were full of smiles.

"Although Aguang himself hasn't noticed it yet, it doesn't matter. Maybe it's because this kind of liking is not strong enough." Zuowei looked at Aguang softly, "I know, Aguang has always been a sensible person. He is a good and considerate boy. However, Ah Guang always thinks too much unconsciously, so that he thinks things too complicated."

"Ah Guang, don't think too much, just listen to your heart and do it bravely. Whether you like it or not, just do it boldly and try. In the process, maybe Ah Guang will know that he has always been I've been looking for an answer."

Looking at Ah Guang's eyes that seemed to be shining with countless hopes after hearing his words, Zuo Wei said with a smile on his face.

"Well... Ah Guang has almost learned the basics of Go from Teacher Bai Chuan now. Why don't you try to become a college student?" Zuowei thought more and more that this is a good way, and even his tone was a little slightly Shang Yang, "Aren't there many children who aim to be professional chess players? Maybe with them, Ah Guang can find the answer faster!"

Regarding this, Ah Guang was a little hesitant: "But... I heard that the college entrance examination is very difficult..."

"Don't worry about whether you can pass the exam. If you don't try everything, you will never know the answer. Didn't Aguang bravely apply for the Aquaman? Show the courage at that time!" Zuo Wei said On the side, he secretly encouraged Ah Guang.

"Okay. I'll try it out."

Ah Guang took a deep breath, then looked at Zuo Wei seriously, and said sincerely, "Thank you, Zuo Wei."

Zuowei just smiled and looked back at Aguang.

"Aguang."

After a short pause, Zuo Wei suddenly called Ah Guang softly.

Hearing Zuo Wei's slightly serious tone, Ah Guang looked at Zuo Wei suspiciously.

"In the days to come, please continue to take care of me." Zuo Wei said with a solemn expression.

"Why are you suddenly so serious..."

Seeing this, Ah Guang was a little flustered at first.After he remembered what Zuo Wei was alluding to, he responded seriously like an oath: "Yes. Zuo Wei, please continue to take care of me."

The author has something to say:

According to the previous consultation, Ah Guang is going to enter the college student path~(*^_^*)

Of course, Zuowei's appearances will also increase.

After all, Zuowei really hoped that he could leave traces of his existence.