Reverse Approach

【3】

Liao Nanqing's stalking behavior was caught, he was very embarrassed, he took a step back.He grabbed his school uniform with both hands, not knowing how to put it on.Su Beimo was too tall, almost half a head taller than him.Liao Nanqing felt inferior. It would be great if he could grow taller.

"I'm asking you something." Su Beimo was a little unhappy, and felt that his tone was too fierce, so he slowed down his voice, "You also buy vegetables?"

"Um……"

"He came out empty-handed, and didn't buy what he wanted?" Su Beimo was not sure at first, but now seeing his twisted appearance, he was sure that this kid was following him.But instead of being angry, he smiled, which was really funny, "You want something from me?"

Liao Nanqing stared at the ground, unable to answer for a moment.

The situation was so embarrassing that even Su Beimo felt uncomfortable, stretching his neck and waiting for him to speak for a long time.

Just when Su Beimo wanted to pay his respects to him, Liao Nanqing said in a voice like a mosquito, "Do you cook for yourself?"

Su Beimo didn't expect it to be this sentence, and glanced at the dishes he was carrying: "Occasionally." Su Jing simply didn't come back from working overtime today, and he just received a call.If you eat alone, the dishes are a bit too much.

And the young man in front of him seemed to muster up his courage, and after getting his response, he tried harder to talk: "Then do you live by yourself? What a coincidence, I live by myself too. I just...I live there! Just over there ..." He gestured in a panic, pointing to a place, but he didn't point out the direction at all.

He just wanted to find something to talk about, to talk to Su Beimo.

It's fine to say anything, he hasn't communicated with others normally for too long.

Once a person who is accustomed to isolation meets someone who does not look at him with colored glasses, it is like rain and dew on a dry land, with sweetness in his taste.Su Beimo was the sudden shower this summer. It was refreshing and clean, washing away all the stains, and Liao Nanqing couldn't help but want to get closer.

"Oh, I live with my dad." Su Beimo responded long and hard, and rarely raised the corners of his mouth, "How stupid are you?" Relaxed, it seems to be a joke between friends.

Liao Nanqing blushed behind his ears and scratched the back of his head.

The two walked to the bus station together. In fact, Liao Nanqing didn't need to take the bus to go home. He just wanted to have a few words with Su Beimo.Since he was ten years old, he hasn't had any friends.A loner looks like a different kind, but he doesn't want to be a different kind.

"Aren't you hot?"

What Su Beimo was talking about was the jacket Liao Nanqing was wearing.

"Not hot." Liao Nanqing shook his head, there was faint sweat on his neck, and he used his clothes to cover those embarrassing 'bruises'.

Su Beimo knew it well and didn't expose it.He remembered what Liao Nanqing said just now about living alone, and suddenly asked for no reason: "Do you want to have dinner together?"

"what?"

Su Beimo explained, "Don't you live by yourself, do you want to come to my house for dinner?"

Because of unfamiliarity, Su Beimo regretted it a little. He felt that he was very abrupt.So he didn't think the other party would agree at all, but unexpectedly, Liao Nanqing nodded immediately, his ears turned red, and he could see his nervousness: "Okay."

Su Beimo pulled his backpack and nodded: "Then my house is a bit far away, so I might have to sit at the end."

"Well, excuse me." Liao Nan cleaned up his baggy school uniform, hoping to look decent.

In fact, if there was no such thing as buying cigarettes, Su Beimo thought Liao Nanqing was quite obedient.

Not annoying either.

Two dishes and one soup, a home-cooked dish that is so simple that it cannot be simpler.However, Liao Nanqing ate with gusto. He was a little embarrassed when he added the second bowl of rice, but it was Su Beimo who offered to add it for him.Seeing how delicious the food he ate, Su Beimo ate with his chopsticks in doubt. He was sure that it tasted very ordinary, and no one praised it except Su Jing.

"Is it delicious?"

Liao Nanqing raised his head and said sincerely, "It's delicious."

"Thanks." Su Beimo felt that he was exaggerating, and gave Liao Nanqing a piece of fish belly with chopsticks, "Eat fish."

Liao Nanqing's Adam's apple twitched, looking at the fish belly in the bowl, he couldn't put his mouth down.Su Beimo thought he didn't like it, and was about to say don't eat it, when he heard Liao Nanqing whispered in a particularly moved voice: "I also eat fish belly."

"What?" Su Beimo didn't hear clearly.

Liao Nanqing continued: "My mother remarried, and the fish belly was given to my younger brother." He used to live with his mother, and his stepfather didn't like him, and the people there also regarded him as a foreigner who didn't fit in.Later, his mother asked him to move out, and he returned to live in this town alone.He is not very good at cooking, and eating out is expensive, and his monthly living expenses are stipulated to death.Sometimes Liao Nanqing doesn't have enough money, and even eats instant noodles for many days.

To buy cigarettes now, money is even more insufficient.For half a month, he ate instant noodles.

Therefore, today's home-cooked food is really delicious for him.

"You'll be in your third year of high school after the summer vacation. It's a waste of time to study in high school." Su Beimo remembered the class written on his school card, and calmly gave him the fish belly on the other side, "Eat more fish and you will become smarter. "

Su Beimo didn't believe this, but he didn't know how to respond to Liao Nanqing's exclamation because of his chopstick fish belly.Since he likes to eat fish belly, give him an extra chopstick.Sure enough, Liao Nanqing was moved to tears.

The warm light in the room hit Liao Nanqing's furry head, stuffed with food like a timid hamster, Su Beimo couldn't help but want to touch his head.

But Su Beimo held back, this action was very strange.

Liao Nanqing was a boy, and so was Su Beimo.He shouldn't touch his head, nor is he his elder.

By the time Liao Nanqing ate his second bowl of rice contentedly and got up to help Su Beimo clean up the dishes, it was almost 06:30.Su Beimo held the key in his hand, and planned to send Liao Nanqing to the station first, but the other party seemed hesitant, slow and unwilling to move.

After a while he tentatively said, "Can I leave at seven o'clock?"

"It's relatively remote here, and there is no last bus at seven o'clock."

"So..." Liao Nanqing reluctantly walked to the entrance to change his shoes, frustrated, "Don't see me off, I remember the way to the station."

But Su Beimo still put on his shoes, Liao Nanqing was secretly happy.

There were already many people walking in the neighborhood with fans outside. They walked very slowly, like taking a walk after dinner.After walking a few steps, Su Beimo suddenly sighed and asked him, "Have they been bullying you like this?"

Liao Nanqing was in a good mood at first, but when he mentioned this, his face sank again.

Pursing his lips, he quickened his pace and walked in front of Su Beimo.He seems to be avoiding a problem, because he has never been able to find a solution to this problem.

He is helpless.

Su Beimo stopped asking and sent Liao Nanqing to the station.Before the car came, the two sat on the bench without saying a word, neither talking to each other.In the end, Liao Nanqing couldn't bear to speak first, and he said, "My name is Liao Nanqing."

Su Beimo thought to himself, I know: "My name is Su Beimo." He described it word by word, "Su in Suzhou, Bei in the north, and ink is the ink of ink."

"Liao is the prefix of Guang..."

"I know." Su Beimo interrupted him, pointing to his school badge, "It's written on it."

Liao Nanqing was stunned for a while, then scratched his messy hair blown by the evening wind, and smiled embarrassedly.His coat exuded a sour smell of sweat, Liao Nanqing moved it to the side wisely.

His palms were a little sweaty, and amidst silence, Liao Nanqing glanced at Su Beimo's face from time to time.Su Beimo sat leaning back, the uncle seemed to be crossing his legs, put his hands in his trouser pockets, and turned his head to meet Liao Nanqing's gaze.Liao Nanqing was so frightened that he immediately hid in his shell like a turtle, and asked in a panic.

"I...will I still be able to come?"

"Huh?" Su Beimo came to his senses, "Can I eat, yes."

The corners of Liao Nanqing's lips were raised, and he smiled restrainedly.

"Eat a meal to make you happy like this?" Su Beimo turned his face away, the corner of his mouth was dimly illuminated by the light, and the upward arc was like a dream.

Liao Nanqing peeked cautiously, cautiously and sincerely: "Your cooking is really delicious."

"Your flattery is really nice too."

"..."

"Don't flatter me, just come if you want to eat, but I'm really not very good at cooking."

But Su Beimo didn't know that Liao Nanqing hadn't eaten a decent home-cooked meal since he transferred from school last semester.The divorce of his parents caused Liao Nan to lose the warmth of his family early on. He remarried with his mother and went to another place, living a life of being dependent on others.The stepfather was an alcoholic and disliked him very much.

When he was a child, he was very scared and begged his mother for protection.

When he gets older, he will know that he does not belong to that family, and his mother is no longer his own mother.

What mother wants to protect more is the newborn brother, not him who belongs to the shame and old times.

Liao Nanqing has been an 'orphan' since he was ten years old.

The stepfather only loves his own son, and Liao Nanqing is worthless in his eyes.In the end, in order to let him leave that home, Liao Nanqing's mother asked him to transfer to the small town where he used to live, and live in a narrow house left by his grandmother.

But all the pain started from this small town.

Father's imprisonment, mother's remarriage, neighbors' criticism.

He was so much rumored, but he didn't know where to go.

The environment he was in was harsh to him, and no one treated him better.But as long as there is such a person, a corner of the curtain will be lifted for the people locked in the cage.Then, no matter how closed people are, they will also seek light.This is an animal instinct, a yearning for survival.

Liao Nanqing lived in a house with two bedrooms and one living room, which contained childhood memories.

The ceiling fan above the head, the gray and yellow walls, the potted orchids on the cabinet, the silent snowflake screen on the TV, the mustard fried meat and cold beer on the dinner table in summer.

But now, when Liao Nanqing came home, it was pitch black and there was nothing.

He didn't even turn on the light, he took off his shoes, staggered, and fell headfirst on the sofa.The dry smell of the fabric was old and familiar, and the sweat from his forehead rubbed onto it, spreading out wetly.

In the quiet room, only the sound of his gentle breathing could be heard, and the sound of ticking in the pool came late.

It was the water droplets accumulated in the faucet, which fell into a bowl of instant noodles that hadn't been cleaned.The street lamps coming in through the windows are weak, but they can reflect the waves on the water.

A second is fleeting.

Liao Nanqing got up, turned on the light, and washed all the dishes and chopsticks piled up in the sink.He was sweating and clean, took off his coat and threw it into the laundry tub.The water heater in the bathroom has started to work, and Liao Nanqing is ready to take a good bath.

Because tomorrow, he will go to find Su Beimo.

The author has something to say

The perspective of writing this time has changed, I don’t know if I can control it well.

If I can't control it well, I can't do anything with myself, just keep working hard!