the truth

It's hard for me to communicate the thoughts that I hold

ButtonnightI'mgon'letyouknow

Letmetellthetruth let me tell you the truth

Babyletmetellthetruthyeah baby let me tell the truth

You know what I'm thinkin' you know what I'm thinkin'

Seeitinyoureyes I can see everything in your eyes too

Youhatethatyouwantme the fact you hate is the fact that you want me

"Maybe we both know each other that the root of the problem is not just here. There are too many things that need to be changed. It took me eight years to adjust, and I was originally preparing for a lifetime."

——Arthit

No matter what time it is, the hospital is probably a crowded but unwelcome place.

Naum, wearing big sunglasses, came to the obstetrics and gynecology department on the 4th floor alone. She came to get the obstetric inspection report.The report card showed that she had successfully conceived for 11 weeks, but the doctor was obviously very discerning and did not congratulate her too enthusiastically.Because she doesn't look happy at all.

Naum is an intelligent and excellent woman. She is 32 years old this year. Her beautiful appearance does not give her points in choosing a man, because her experience makes it difficult for her to fall in love with someone wholeheartedly. Things don't mean much to her anymore.

And at this time, she met a man who seemed to be able to change her life, a man who had long been happy.

When she was still studying in the United States, by chance, she met Arthit, who was studying abroad at the time. During those two years, her private life was very chaotic. Her stepfather was an alcoholic, and her mother could not stand it and chose to return to China. Her biological father also died of illness... In the end, she didn't go back to see him for the last time, because she already felt that she had nothing left.

At that time, Arthit, just like his name, was reflected in her life. She knew that he didn't take care of her because of love, because the other party had a gay man who had been in love for several years.Every time I mentioned that person, the tenderness in his eyes made me envious, and over time, it turned into jealousy.

Arthit's overseas assignment was only two years, and he returned to the country only last year.The first person I saw when I came back was Arthit, and of course, his gay man, the man who only appeared in photos and videos before, Kongphop.

A woman's intuition is always a special ability, let alone Naum, she easily discovered the contradiction between Kongphop and Arthit, and she didn't think much about it at that time.Until she found out that the project recommended to her by her doctoral supervisor was actually in the same school as Kongphop. Although this project will not be done for a long time, it is enough for her to understand this man and be attracted to him successfully.

She had a feeling as if she fell in love with this man, which was as dangerous as being targeted by a lion, but full of challenges.

She knew she couldn't, her best friend in Thailand was Arthit, and if she fell in love with his boyfriend, it would be a big joke.So she kept her distance from him.

Until one day, Kongphop took the initiative to invite her.

Only then did she know how much this man she thought she was interested in loves him.

She used to envy and even envy Arthit's deeply nostalgic eyes every time he mentioned Kongphop, that moment can give people warmth, and an excellent and capable man will stare at another man so affectionately, even he will dream back at midnight When I fell asleep calling another man's name.This kind of companionship makes people jealous, and Naum feels that he can't be the one who witnesses other people's happiness.

And when she faced Kongphop alone for the first time, and listened to his gentle and sad tone telling those troubles that might be sweet, her heart became calm unexpectedly.

She found that she had always thought that she was wrong. The man in front of her did have a different attraction to her, but it didn't seem to be love.Just like Arthit's initial attraction to her, what she was obsessed with was not a certain person, but the love between two people.

She will feel sorry for Kongphop's painful expression, and will also be jealous of Arthit's sweet smile. These are not because she is in love with Kongphop, but because she seems to "fall in love" with their love.

She longs for love, from a long time ago, maybe a night when she lost her parents, she yearns for it and resents it at the same time.

"Maybe you should be more confident, Mr. Kongphop." The atmosphere of the bar is to make people frivolous and comfortable, which may be the reason why Kongphop, who has been depressed for too long, chose this place.

"Sometimes, you have to believe in yourself. Maybe you don't even know how deep your love for him is."

"...If you keep silent like this, I'm going home." Naum's beautiful nails scratched the rim of the cup, she figured it out too quickly, maybe because it wasn't true love, at this moment she could face it easily and look straight at it The man who has always been silent.

She changed to a relatively comfortable sitting position, and a man at the next table immediately gave her a provocative look.

"Let's wait a while. He's going to a party tonight. I can't enter the house without the key."

"Oh? You actually have a day without a key, how rare."

"I didn't even bring my wallet, I borrowed it from P'Jane." Kongphop's tone was flat, if it wasn't for the glass of wine that was being poured, Naum probably wouldn't have noticed something wrong with him.

"I don't know exactly what happened between you, but I want to say, Kongphop, as your mutual friend, I have to say responsibly, Nuannuan really loves you, the way he looked at you, mentioned The look on your face, I have known him for so many years, and it has not changed."

Kongphop's drinking capacity is not very good, one shot after another, he has already started to get drunk.

"Of course I know he loves me, and it's because he loves me that I feel wrong."

"Kong, sometimes, I have to admit, your love, your love for each other, is really enviable." Naum picked up the glass in front of him and drank it down, "Okay, let's go home and talk to each other if we have anything to do." It’s best if he made it clear, let’s go here first, I’ll treat you to wine, thank you, Kong.”

For a moment, Naum who said this wanted to applaud himself. He used to be really stupid. If he knew that he had taken a detour, he should have come out with Kongphop alone earlier. Sure enough, he needs to be alone to judge whether he intends to or not. And that way she can wake up earlier and start the next one.

But it's not too late, at least she wasn't so confused as to interfere with these two people, otherwise she would lose her closest friend in Thailand.

of course,

If there is no later incident.

"Aritih, Aritih?" The man who didn't answer for a long time looked tired, and his reaction was a little sluggish due to hangover, not to mention that his stomach was still aching because he hadn't eaten breakfast.

Night got up and walked behind Arthit, his tall body could almost cover the man under him, but even at such a close distance, the man still didn't respond.

Until he put his nose close to the other's ear...

"Hey!" The scorching breath stimulated the pinnae, and the stress response made Arthit lift his legs unconsciously.

"You are finally willing to return to your soul, Nuan Nuan." Night has a pure oriental face, but he is tall. Even Arthit will feel oppressed by the height of 190.

"How many times have you told me not to get so close to me, Night." The recovered man couldn't help complaining.

"Oh, because you ignore me no matter what I call you, I can't help it." The man named Night waved his hands and smiled, "Your fake boss has already approved it. He said that he planned to give you a vacation after the case was successful." Yes, it’s not included in the annual leave!”

"Well, thank you, I've worked hard for you during this time, I'll go back first."

"Eh? Where are you going? Can I come too?"

"You're with me? Don't be kidding, work hard, Mr. Night." Arthit pressed his forehead wearily, "I'm not feeling well, go back first, don't bother me if you have anything to do."

"But I also asked for leave." Night resumed his serious look, still looking a little serious, "Just now, when I went to help you find the boss."

"Can't I go upstairs, Nuan Nuan?" The driver Night, who was a free labor force, began to bargain.

"No, you can drive the car away if you want, I..."

"Then next week when you come to work, I just come to pick you up!" Night interrupted Arthit, and opened the car door presumptuously, "Okay, see you on Monday, honey."

"As a Chinese, you are really not reserved at all. I am better than you." Arihit shook his head with some amusement, and got out of the car.

"Oh, Nuan Nuan, you are wrong, we Chinese are called friendly, familiarity is my personal trait haha."

"Uh uh, hurry up, I'm going upstairs."

"Wait for Nuan Nuan," Night reopened the car door, a serious face with a deliberately ingratiating smile looking a little funny.

"You know I'll be there whenever you need me," he said.

Arthit turned around when the car drove far, far away.

In fact, he probably heard other people say things like just now, but those were all love words that were ignorant when he was young, and he couldn't remember if he said too much.

Sure enough, some words can only be impressive if they fit the situation.

After a heavy rain, the air is very fresh, the cool wind dissipates the heat and humidity, and there is even a glow in the evening. Arthit is wearing a well-tailored suit and his hair is neatly combed. out of place.

The closer you get to Bangkok University, the more youthful boys and girls in school uniforms around you... Why did Arthit take a taxi here on purpose even though he was already at the door of his house, and he was so exhausted? He couldn't figure out why, maybe, It's just because he hasn't calmed down and walked like this for a long, long time.

Yes, he needs a walk like this.

"It seems that this week's rain is coming to an end." Someone passed by and said such a sentence.

"But the sunny weather doesn't change anything, does it?" Arthit actually likes to talk to himself. Many times, he can talk to one person for a whole day, and then that person just leans aside and listens quietly, or Doing his own thing, because he knows in his heart that what he needs is not a response, but just companionship.

Later, he became more and more busy, and he had no time to talk to himself. He even preferred to stay without saying a word when he returned home, because he would always feel tired.

What was Kongphop doing at those times?He seemed to be the same as before, sitting aside, where he could see, or quietly doing his own thing, or quietly looking at himself.

He always likes to look at himself, so long that he is used to it.

Time is really a terrible thing, it can make people forgetful, smooth the edges and corners of those once unforgettable love, and then become smooth and elusive.

However, those loves that thought they had dissipated in the years are not gone, but merged.

Merging with time, merging with life, and then going deep into the flesh and blood, becoming a part of a person.

Everyone needs this part, and it wasn't too late for Arthit to understand this truth, so he thought that time wasn't lost between them.

But now, this part left his body, and it was torn from his body alive.He is unwilling to let go, so he can only try to maintain a clear consciousness, and remember with deep feelings, the pain when love left him, and the suffocation when Kongphop left him.

"It may never be a sunny day," he thought to himself.

The reflection of the setting sun was reflected on this weird man in a formal suit. The orange-gold layer was very suitable for his fair skin and somewhat lonely profile.

The second-year photography students of Bangkok University have just left school because the weather turned fine and they made up for homework. As an outstanding young photographer with aspirations, he will always find some different scenery. For example, this one standing on the roadside immersed in A man from another world.

"Hey, what are you shooting, Win!" The friends were confused because of the person who stopped suddenly.

"Hush! Look over there," the boy called Win by his friends pointed to the distance,

"Good-looking and strange men are actually very common, because every day, there will be people who are troubled by different things, suffer, and feel disheartened. However, he seems to be different." After recording the moment I wanted , Win answered the friends like this, and then left first.

It's just that he didn't finish what he said. For example, he seemed to know that different person.