Star Sea·Light Year

Seeing Meng Tian's emotional breakdown, Wang Ben couldn't help thinking that his decision was right.

Three years ago, when he regained his memory, he tried to say the words of separation, but he still couldn't say it.When he returned to Meng Tian's apartment, Zheng was still waiting on the sofa.

He squinted his eyes and looked at him for a while, then smiled and said, "Mr. Dinosaur is back."

... When he graduated, Meng Tian said that the doll he looked like was a green Tyrannosaurus rex.That doll looked stupid and ugly at first glance, with a bald head, I really don't know what it looks like.

He thought it was a secret between the two of them, but he didn't expect a third person to know.

"Don't look unhappy. He treasures that doll so much. Except for those people who are extremely slow, everyone knows that it must have been given by you. Seeing him play with it, no matter how you look at it, it is regarded as your substitute. Taste it."

... anyone knows?

Wang Ben couldn't help frowning.

"You don't think you're hiding it well, do you?"

He did.

"He himself is a fan of the authorities, and you can't tell that you like him except those around you who you trust." Zheng looked at him with a smile, "Haven't you heard that when you like someone, you will reveal it through your eyes."

No wonder his father knew about it too.

"Did you forget what you promised me earlier?"

Zheng suddenly asked with a cold face.

"Just to talk about this matter." Wang Ben nodded, "Please find a way to make him leave me."

Zheng frowned: "Is this your decision?"

Wang Ben said, "Yes."

Zheng sighed, lay down on the sofa, and smiled distressedly.

"Let's talk about why you can't be with him first. I can't agree with your decision without explaining it clearly."

Wang Ben hesitated for a while, he didn't want others to know about it, but Zheng was the one who knew the entanglement between him and Meng Tian best, and he hoped that he could persuade Meng Tian, ​​so Wang Ben still roughly explained his mother's matter. Say it again.

"...That's it. I can understand it then." Zheng Chang gave him a long look before shaking his head, "Frankly speaking, it is impossible for Meng Tian to give up voluntarily....Before this, I have tried I have been persuaded many times."

Wang Ben looked at him puzzled: "Why?"

"Because he is very persistent in feelings, you should know that he has dated many girls before, right? But others have always left him, and he can't take the initiative to abandon others. ... This has something to do with his past experience. You Do you know about his mother?"

"I heard it was postpartum depression."

He also went to the funeral.

"That's not the truth." Zheng directly denied that statement, "His mother is not mentally normal."

Wang Ben, who heard about this for the first time, stared at Zheng dumbfounded. Meng Tian's mother was a famous daughter. When she left, the newspapers were full of anecdotes and even hypocritical regrets from her. ...but mentally disturbed?

This is why Meng Tian chose the current research direction, right?

He understood why it would be kept under wraps, since leaking it would give their brother a strange reputation.

"Although I don't know the reason, he seems to have been with his mentally ill mother when he was young.... I heard that when she was insane, she would have serious violent tendencies, so..."

So Meng Tian was raped by his mother since he was a child?

Wang Ben didn't want to think this way, because Meng Tian looked normal on the outside, and he didn't seem to be a person with shadows. What's more... If this is really the case, his family should stop it, right?

"It's hard to believe, isn't it? ... If you ever get a chance to see him naked, you'll know I'm telling the truth."

Wang Ben stared at Zheng who was looking at him with a smile.

...meaning he has seen it?

"Haha, he and I are 'frank and honest' friends after all."

Now he has no time to think about how good the relationship between Meng Tian and Zheng is, because this matter is too much beyond his expectation.

"But what does that have to do with what you said?"

If he suffered such treatment, it would be more reasonable for Meng Tian to become unwilling to trust others. ...But this kind of "common sense" is obviously not Meng Tian's character.

"Have you ever heard of Stockholm syndrome?"

Of course he has heard that this is a psychological disease in which the victim of violence develops emotions such as dependence and pity on the victim.

Wang Ben looked at Zheng in puzzlement. What he meant was that Meng Tian might have such a sick mentality?

"He was only three years old when his mother fell ill, and he stayed with her until he was eight years old when his mother passed away.... At that time he was too young, and the perpetrator was his mother, and this would happen The illness is simply normal. And... I heard that his mother committed suicide when she was slightly conscious because she almost beat him to death that time.... So I think your indifferent attitude made him more Deep in it. If you really date, maybe he will be disappointed because he thinks it is not in line with expectations. At that time, if you break up again, maybe he will forget it."

Hearing what Zheng said, Wang Ben frowned.So is he trying to say that Meng Tian's obsession with him has nothing to do with him, but is caused by this morbid psychology?

Of course, that statement offended him.

In this relationship, is he the identity of the perpetrator?Wang Ben pursed his lips and clasped his hands together. If he had been treated this way, he would indeed feel unbearable.

No, normal people would get out of this hopeless relationship as soon as possible, instead of waiting persistently like him.

...But no matter what the emotion is, it is "real" to the human brain.

That's why it's so hard to "wake up" from a relationship that doesn't look normal to the outsider.Maybe one day he will say that he was stupid at that time, but deep down, it is difficult for him to deny that the feeling is real.

But this is different from them.

"I don't think so." Wang Ben sighed a long time, "Because he has an evasive personality, so I think even if it looks like Stockholm syndrome to outsiders, it must be just his disguise. ...... only see this side Most of them can’t understand it, but if I know the cause and effect of his mother’s illness, I think I can understand it.”

"Do you think so?"

"Yes. Because of the unequal status between the perpetrator and the perpetrator under the condition of this morbid psychology, that is to say, the perpetrator is in a state of isolation and helplessness, so the perpetrator will be treated' Enhui' is so obsessed with it that he has a psychological deviation. But if his mother really loves him and tortures him just because he cannot control himself when he is sick, then it is reasonable for Meng Tian to sympathize with his mother. Even if he really So there's a different understanding of emotion than normal people, but that has nothing to do with Stockholm syndrome."

"...do you think so because of a reluctance to accept that his feelings for you may be due to Stockholm syndrome?"

Wang Ben was silent for a while, then frowned and said, "It's a lie to say that I don't have any such thoughts. I don't agree with this statement, partly because I don't want to agree that this is the essence of the relationship between me and him."

Zheng also frowned and thought about it. After a while, he smiled and said, "Maybe you know him better than I do."

To clarify this matter, one must find out about Meng Tian's mother.

Wang Ben couldn't help but feel a little funny that he obviously wanted to separate, but Meng Tian's past was involved again.He originally planned to contact his uncle who was quite well connected in the information department, but after thinking twice, he decided to ask Meng Tian's grandfather himself.

He couldn't quite understand why this old man who loved his grandson so much turned a blind eye to what happened to Meng Tian?There must be a reason they don't know.

Meng Tian's grandfather, Meng Ao, is a big shot in the industry, and he is highly respected.In Wang Ben's family, apart from the patriarch who will inherit the family business, many members of the family left this road and took root in other industries. The reason why the Meng family has today's status is precisely because of this old man.When Wang Ben saw this person honored as "Bai Lao", he was walking in the courtyard of his home, and he remembered that Meng Tian's younger brother Meng Yi was accompanying him.

"Are you Tian's friend? Sit freely." The white-haired old man seemed to always have such a smiling face.

Wang Ben bent down respectfully and stretched out his hand: "Hello, my name is Wang Ben."

"Oh...it's his son. It seems that I've seen you before."

"Well, at Meng Tian's mother's funeral."

Bai Lao laughed a few times, "Well, are you here because of her?"

"what?"

Wang Ben was taken aback.

"Haha, although Tian doesn't want to go home, we have always paid attention to his affairs."

Seeing Bai Lao's sharp eyes, Wang Ben couldn't help thinking that he might already know about them.

"Please tell me about his mother."

He didn't run away, but looked straight into Bai Lao's eyes and said sincerely.

"...That's fine." Bai Lao also sat on a chair in the garden. Unlike Wang Ben's garden-style home, Meng's home is in the style of a manor.Meng Yi brought some black tea, then hurried away.

"He didn't really want to hear about his mother... Her story was too heavy for his brother and our family. Although she was declared to be suffering from postpartum depression, in reality she might be schizophrenic She is my good friend's daughter, Tian's personality is very similar to her, she is very cheerful and innocent, in a certain part of her delusion, Wu Ai seems to be a man."

"Delusional?"

"Yes. Her mother was once expelled from her family because she gave birth to a child whose hair color was completely different from that of her parents, so she was suspected of adultery with others, but in fact, heredity is not certain. Later, her father It was found that her family had this kind of evidence of red-haired blood several generations ago, but it gradually turned into brown hair.... Now that the accuracy rate of paternity testing is very high, there will be no more such encounters with her But at that time, this incident was almost devastating to her mother. Being forced to divorce, bearing the notoriety of adultery, and even being despised by their own family, their mother and son seemed to have passed a very gloomy time at that time Time, when her father found her, she was dressed in rags like a little beggar on the street."

Bai Lao was silent for a while, shook his head, and sighed: "The amazing thing is, when their father and daughter meet again, no one will doubt their relationship, because she looks very similar to their father....After that She is, as others know, a fine woman."

Wang Ben was a little puzzled: "I read the information about his mother's family before, and the inheritance of the red hair gene is very obvious."

"...that was a fact her father fabricated to protect her. The information you saw had nothing to do with her. After she was brought back, her name and origin were completely changed, and her identity became an illegitimate child. But because she Her father never remarried, nor did she have any other children at all, so as an illegitimate child, she is still the only young lady in the family."

What Bai Lao said was almost subversive to Wang Ben, because it was completely different from what he had learned in the past.He didn't know which one was the truth.

Perhaps seeing his doubts, Bai Lao smiled wryly a few times.

"It's hard to believe, isn't it... I should be the only one who knows about this. Even Wu doesn't know about her past. But if you don't know about it, you won't understand why she There is a near-perfect mother in the delusional personality. The red-haired ancestry can be traced back to the Celtic race, so when she was the perfect mother, she taught Tim the harp, which is a traditional Celtic instrument. … Before her illness, no one knew that she actually knew this instrument, and after her illness, she refused all modern appliances, not even electric lights, and switched to candlesticks for lighting.  …even wearing old-fashioned long dresses , with ribbons for hair..."

...This point explains why he would wear that kind of clothes when he first met Meng Tian.

"Because of her traumatic childhood, a good mother to her is a traditional woman of ancient blood who maintains good habits and cares for her children, even keeping silent about her husband's infidelity ... The man she fantasized about was actually the doctor who treated her and was their mutual friend. ... At that time, a young man named Li Mu was treated unfairly because of his love for men. The repressed emotions in her delusional Wu were born out of this incident."

Wang Ben also knew about Li Mu.After he regained his memory, he asked him if he regretted his original choice, but the man with a leisurely smile from time to time only said one sentence: "Do you think I look regretful?"

——It's really not like it.

Li Mu is no longer engaged in his former job, but has embarked on a completely different path. He who has stayed in that small pastry shop knows best that it is a very happy shop, and he believes that leaving there All kinds of pastries will also bring little happy moments to the diners.

"And, in her delusion, her own image is the perfect mother, and Tian is her past. That's why she always makes Tian wear girl's clothes, and completely trains him as a girl. … This is the angelic side of her delusional personality. Similarly, there is another layer of negative personality, which is a black personality that completely hates reality, as if it wants to destroy everything around it. But in fact... this side is The first to appear is also the essential side.”

Bai Lao's expression became serious.

"The reason for the appearance is the birth of Yi. Yi is also a child who looks completely different from his parents. He is more similar to me, and he is also a child of atavism. Therefore, it completely aroused her negative memories about her mother. Postpartum emotional problems are more prone to problems, and it is a time of vulnerability. But at that time, no one paid enough attention until she showed the first act of destruction... She scolded Wu, saying that he didn't believe her, and that she hated him , Blame him for letting her fall into an unfortunate life. But that time was not very serious, she just tore up some of their past group photos. "

Wang Ben listened intently, Bai Lao sighed leisurely, and said: "...at that time, Tian heard the movement and walked in, calling her 'Mom', and immediately 'woke up' her from the edge of emotional collapse. The second layer of personality also appeared. This is why she is very attached to Tian. If she tries to take Tian away, she will fall into a completely crazy mood. Her two personalities alternate, which is very painful for Tian. Torture, we also thought about taking Tian away, but he himself will eventually go back."

"Stockholm syndrome..."

Hearing what he said, Bai Lao laughed: "No, that's not the case. I think Tian is very precocious, so he understands the pain in his mother's heart, so he chooses to stay. But...he thinks The situation is that my father really loves a man, that's why my mother is so sad. So he has resentment towards his father... But I hope no one will explain this to him. Because people who know everything The truth may not lead to happiness. Sometimes, lies are also a kind of protection. Just like children raised by wolves, although to wolves, their actions are only induced by hormones, but to children, this feeling is It seems to be true... then take it as true."

"Understand?"

"Actually, maybe the cheerful side is not the real her. Do you know Freud's theory of two instincts?"

"Life instinct and death instinct?"

"Yes, but actually saying 'instinct' doesn't quite fit his original definition, maybe it's more appropriate to say 'drive' or 'impulse'. Because this is not 'instinct', but an endogenous force. Although this theory is not clinically recognized in the academic circle, no one can directly say that these two kinds of "forces" do not exist at all. Using this theory can sometimes explain some difficult-to-understand situations more reasonably. Psychology...For example, in order to get rid of the dark life in the past, conceal the dark side of one's personality, and show the character traits that everyone loves, this can be regarded as the result of "survival". But just like energy is conserved in nature, The same is true for human emotions, bad emotions will not disappear out of thin air if they are not eliminated, they just accumulate somewhere, waiting for the opportunity to erupt.”

Death-drive is the belief that human beings have the instinct of destruction and aggression.Violence to outsiders is self-harming to oneself.The history of endless wars in human history is considered to be the most intuitive manifestation of this instinct.

"To some extent, the dark side may represent a truer self. So no matter how good and happy her life these years may seem on the surface, in fact, for her, the trauma of childhood cannot be healed, and The attitude of her father’s concealment made her subconsciously think that the past would not be accepted. This is where the psychological trauma is terrible, and it is difficult for outsiders to see this clearly. Empathy is actually just a false comfort to them. It is very difficult for people to accept a dark past, but it must be done. It is human nature to avoid pain, but at the same time, it will continue to repeat this pain in other forms. Free yourself, and it may eventually develop into a pathology."

After leaving Meng's house, Wang Ben took a deep breath.

Some of the facts he heard were too astonishing.Perhaps the only thing to be thankful for is that Bai Lao thinks that Meng Tian is not a patient of Stockholm syndrome, but Wang Ben understands that this experience will definitely leave traces in Meng Tian's heart, and it is even more worrying to never show any clues.Bai Lao mentioned that when he saw his mother's body, they were all horrified by his calm performance, and his reluctance to attend the funeral made them unable to tell whether he didn't want to face the reality, or because he couldn't forgive his mother...

"He's sad, I think. No matter who she is in other people's eyes, to him, she is his mother, that's all."

"...Really? Although I don't know the reason, but before she left, she seemed to have changed back to who she used to be. In her suicide note, she did not confuse her identity with Tian. Even with such extreme methods, she The fact that I love my children has never changed."