Changxia Shaoman

He was lying on the bed with his back bent, and suddenly wanted to smoke.Scratching Xie Bei with his foot, the other party looked up from the phone, Xu Zhizhen pouted, "I want candy."

Xie Bei got out of bed with his upper body naked, put on a pair of underwear hastily, and bent over to look for a lollipop at the desk.

Xu Zhizhen looked at his strong and neat back, his slightly upturned buttocks, and his two straight long legs, stepping on the carpet with his bare feet.When the other party turned around, he couldn't help but whistle.

Xie Bei unpacked the lollipop and stuffed it into his mouth, giving him a white look, "Just learn this."

Xu Zhizhen bit the lollipop without saying a word, and just counted for three seconds when Xie Bei started again.

As soon as he put the phone down, Xie Bei frowned and came over to scold him again, "...If you don't learn this, do you think you are worth worrying about? As far as our class is concerned, you can be called a master without me. Where is the worry? If the head of the department finds out, he won’t scold you to death. You are still a proud student. It’s too early to overturn. Our road is so long, don’t rush for a while, go our way, just to play a better role Works. Even if we enter the play, the premise is that we can guarantee that we will definitely come out. You have to have some guarantees. Just barge in like this. I think Bancheng is afraid that it will be your last work. Next Will I have to be in the detention center the next time I see you? Without me, no one from Tao Chuan and Xiao Pan can stop you, and you have the heart to let Mrs. Wu and Uncle Xu see you like this? Make them worry too?"

As soon as Wu Xiufang and the others were mentioned, Xu Zhizhen couldn't help it anymore, lowered his eyes and felt aggrieved, and apologized awkwardly, "I was wrong, I was really wrong, you...don't let them know if it's okay, really. "

Xie Bei grabbed a T-shirt and put it on, and interrogated him seriously, "That's okay, do you dare?"

"Don't dare." He paused, and then added, "I will interpret the role within the scope of my ability, and I won't be so...arrogant and reckless."

"That's fine. If you promise, you have to do it. Do you understand? Put on your clothes and don't catch a cold."

Lie back under the quilt again, Xu Zhizhen lay in Xie Bei's arms, staring at the ceiling wistfully, sucked until there was only a thin stick left, handed it to Xie Bei to throw away, and after a while said, "It's really a bit obsessed. I almost forgot what I thought at the time. I thought this character was very unique, and I really wanted to play him well, but I was worried that I was not good enough to interpret it. Later, when I became thin... after that appearance, I suddenly felt it. Yes, when I look in the mirror, occasionally I will be in a trance, too much like the Bancheng I imagined.

"I just thought, then I must act well. I also think that I have entered the play, and I should be able to act. I was quite successful in the previous role, plus Xiao Pan and Sister Tao, if I am not right, I should pull it off. I'll come back. And... Later, when I saw Chang Yingming and the others, they were also working hard to move forward. Everyone was persevering and trying new opportunities as much as possible. I couldn't help but think, I don't Should have stopped there.

"I'm really not very reconciled, maybe it's because my ambition is too much and my strength is insufficient. I want to act well, and people like me. I don't want to sink into the sea, and I want to share a piece of the pie. Now think about it, really It's... a ghostly obsession."

He sighed deeply, the warm touch on the side of his neck, he held Xie Bei's hand, finally felt a little real.

"I'm actually lucky enough, but I'm not satisfied. In fact, in the past two days, when I think about it, I'm always afraid. I can't even believe that those thoughts came from my head. I obviously... I never cared so much before, But it happened to be what I thought. I thought, is it because of Bancheng, is it because of his dark contradictions that gave birth to my inner thoughts, or is this the real me. I don’t know. But Xie Bei, I really don’t want to leave At this point, I really didn't expect..."

He thought he would shed tears, but no, he was just a little tired, looking dryly at the warm yellow wall lamp.

"I'm so strange."

Xie Bei gently pinched the back of his neck, and only said softly, "Everyone has his dark side, you know, you are already the best person I have ever met. When I first met you, you were smiling every day , I never complained. When I was doing something I liked, the light in my eyes was very attractive. At that time, I thought, I envy you. You never seem to be troubled or hesitated. I have never seen That kind of people."

Xu Zhizhen was amused by him, and muttered softly, "I'm not a god."

Xie Bei continued, "I was also depressed before. For a while, I couldn't get a suitable script. There are only so many roles I can play in TV dramas. Good roles look down on me, and bad scripts can't be accepted. I am alone. People fight alone, obviously debuted as an actor at the beginning, but later it was defined as traffic. I thought at the time, what is wrong, is it because I shouldn’t grow up like this, or my fans shouldn’t have so many , shouldn't they like me? Is it my fault that I have more fans?

"I struggled for a long time, and then I figured it out. Why should I care about those things? Work hard to improve. Even if I don't reach the height I want now, I am still young. Even if I can't reach my goal in this life, I have to let go of it sooner or later. My life is more than that. There are many more worth chasing.

"However, for the career I love, I think it's better to do my best, so I worked hard to film, and I was admitted to Chinese opera to study acting. I hope that I can play more roles that I want to play in the future, and be recognized by more people, and I will not let them like me." My people are disappointed."

Xie Bei turned his head, looked into his eyes, and said, "Just like you, you also want to do better for what you love, but some things are not good enough. But I am by your side, and I will always support you, I will help you. I have encountered more than you, and I have encountered everything you have encountered. I will teach you how to get up and move forward. I believe that you will always reach the goal in your heart, and you will also There are more people who like you like I like you. You have to believe in yourself and me, how can my vision be bad?"

"You always deserve the best."

Xu Zhizhen stared at him blankly, the young man combined perseverance and tenderness, not only the support of his lover, but also the firmness and pride of fighting side by side.

After a long time, he nodded vigorously, then raised his head and kissed her.

The predicament in front of him was basically solved, and the remaining problems before the soles of his feet were a bit tricky.

Xu Zhizhen looked at the time, it was getting close, so he ordered a takeaway, and a big barbecue was delivered to the room, Xie Bei held his nose and avoided it with difficulty, discussing with him what to say about them.

"Xiao Pan has already seen it. I don't know if she has told Tao Chuan. I probably believe that she hasn't said it yet. Your situation is still unstable, and she is also very close to you. I think she is really worried about you. Wait. Before the filming starts tomorrow, you have to make an agreement with her first, lest she worry about it."

Xu Zhizhen nodded, biting the skewers with worry, "I'll go to Sister Tao first when I get up together, I have to admit my mistake, after all, it's my problem. Xiao Pan, then I have to ask her what she thinks, I'm really afraid that she will be scared... She eats other people's melons on the Internet every day happily, but she never thought that there are such fresh melons around her... Absolutely."

Xie Bei tried to change the subject, "So, have you figured out what to do?"

"I'm going to see what Xiao Pan thinks. If she resists and thinks she can't accept it, I must let her calm down and accept it first, at least calm her down first. If she doesn't want to do it, she can't expose my affairs when she goes out. ... If she intends to do so, I must tell Sister Tao directly, and she has to figure out how to deal with it. If she can accept it, then I have to see what she wants. If she is willing to help me keep it safe, then I can leave it for now. Tell Sister Tao, tell her now that I am too passive, it is not a last resort, I don't want us to be disturbed. If you don't want to... then let's talk about it, we have to face it sooner or later, it's just a matter of timing."

Xie Bei hesitated for a while, "That's fine, that's it. On my side, Brother Nian doesn't have much influence on me, so I won't interfere much on your side. If you need help, come to me at any time."

"Nonsense, you still don't come to help me, is it my boyfriend?"

Xie Bei laughed helplessly, covered his nose and ran back to the bed to lie down.

"I'm leaving tomorrow afternoon. The reason for asking for leave is because of an accident at home. If I don't go back, I'm afraid it will be affected. Brother Nian, I didn't explain it. I think it will be too bad if I go back."

"Okay, I don't have to worry about it. I should go home and stay for a while after the film is finished. I'll come and play with you when I'm in a good mood."

Xie Bei couldn't hold back his sigh again, Xu Zhizhen interjected before he frowned, "Don't scold me, you just said that you believe me and support me, and you won't in the future, I'm stupid for a while, I can still be stupid every day Well, I've figured it out, don't worry about it."

He endured it, clenched his fist and let it go, frowned and lowered it, and finally he couldn't hold back, "You fucking go open the window, the smell is too strong..."

Xu Zhizhen burst out laughing.

Tao Chuan was more worried about him than he imagined, but he didn't dare to talk to him casually, fearing that his own reasons would affect his recovery, so he anxiously chatted with people he knew in the industry. I can't help but see him.Said that she asked Xiao Pan who delivered the food every day how he was, but Xiao Pan also hesitated and didn't know. She was worried that the situation would get worse, but Xiao Pan stopped her and said that it is better not to disturb, Brother Xu will definitely be able to leave from.She couldn't help but want to ask if she should consult a professional for advice, and wait for him to get through the past few days and leave the customs to see that his condition is obviously better before he breathes a sigh of relief.

Xu Zhizhen didn't care about that much, and talked with her for two hours before it was over, his mouth was dry, and he went to find Xiao Pan as soon as he left the room, and made an appointment to meet in his room.

Xiao Pan clutched his heart and came to the room. As soon as he entered the door, he saw Xie Bei nodding at her with a stern face, and let her in sideways. The door closed with a bang, and Xu Zhizhen smiled at him amiably.However, his image is not good now, he hasn't completely gained weight, and he hasn't completely come out of the shadow of Bancheng.

Xiao Pan shivered, if it wasn't for Xie Bei, she would have almost rushed out the door.

Fortunately, there was Xie Bei, who let out a helpless laugh above her head, walked over and patted Xu Zhizhen on the head, sat down, and reprimanded him, "Is it okay to smile normally, it scares the little girl."

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It's a little late, I'm so busy today that I'm dizzy and I've been bouncing on the bus for hours

There is a high probability that I will take the second exam tomorrow and it will not be updated on Thursday.