Lingge thread

The elevator is directly facing the gate, and the safety stairs are on the left side of the elevator. The door of the safety passage is broken, and it will make a loud noise when it is opened and closed.

Chi Xu's originally smiling expression turned cold the moment he stepped out of the elevator door.

He pushed open the heavy door, caught a glimpse of Zhu Ran when he turned the corner, and glanced at her without giving her a second look.

Chi Xu took the takeaway, gave the deliveryman 50 yuan, and said, "Please buy me two bottles of green tea, and keep the rest for yourself, thank you."

The delivery man glanced at the supermarket less than 500 meters away, and readily agreed.

Chi Xu watched his back gradually go away, and in the corner of his vision, he saw Zhu Ran walking cautiously: "Don't come to me in the future."

As he spoke, he looked directly at Zhu Ran.

It took him all his courage to look directly at her once.

"I'm wrong"

Chi Xu interrupted before the word "le" came out: "Let's go, I don't want to see you. Godfather is coming soon, so leave quickly if you don't want to be beaten up."

There was no emotion in Chi Xu's words, as if the person standing opposite was not the mother who gave birth to him, but a stranger who harmed him.

really hurt him...

Zhu Ran's pupils shrank suddenly when she heard the word "godfather", and fear gradually spread all over her face.

The delivery man came back and looked at the dirty woman strangely.

"Thank you." Chi Xu took the drink in his hand.

"Ah...you're welcome." The delivery man came back to his senses, and left after speaking.

Chi Xu turned around and was about to swipe his card to enter the door.Zhu Ran grabbed Chi Xu's hoodie and begged pitifully: "Xiao Chi, I... I was really wrong... That man is dead, and I lost all my money... money for business..." Zhu Ran sideways Crying and talking excitedly, out of breath, even Chi Xu couldn't breathe for her.

That person died?Chi Xu frowned when he heard this, and his heart was instantly blocked.

He really wanted to ask this mother, who was he?

"He died and you came to me, what do you mean? Let me support you for the rest of your life, let you dangle under my nose, and then every day I will think of how you left me and ran away by yourself?" Chi Xu smiled wryly , "If you had just left with him... No, two years ago, if you came to me, I would love you very much and want to protect you with all my strength."

The conversation turned.

"But, it won't happen now." Chi Xu looked at the woman who was stunned, "I am loved by someone, and I am no longer that Chi Xu who no one cares about and no one loves."

After finishing speaking, he shook off the woman's hand and strode in, leaving behind a lonely figure of the woman, how weak and helpless, much like Chi Xu back then.

It wasn't until Chi Xu got on the elevator that he realized that his body was shaking, sweat had soaked his front, he felt difficult to breathe, blood was boiling in his body, panting Chi Xu leaned against the elevator.

"Why so slow?" When Chi Xu opened the door, he saw Ling Sheng who had already put on his shoes. It seemed that he was worried about him and wanted to go downstairs to find Chi Xu.

"It's okay, just slipped around." Chi Xu felt a little pain in his chest.

Ling Sheng looked at him suspiciously, he didn't know what he saw suddenly, and said in surprise, "Why are you sweating so much?! Ouch! Am I stupid! You are sick and let you go downstairs!"

While speaking, he had already taken the things from Chi Xu's hand, helped him to the bedroom, and let him lie down.

"Wait... wait a minute, I'll change." Chi Xu got up and walked to the closet.

"Lie back!" Ling Sheng yelled, "I'll get it for you. Xu, can you save me some snacks?"

Chi Xu replied seriously: "Success."

He lay back again, waiting for Ling Sheng to help him get his clothes.

Ling Sheng gave him his clothes and went out.

Suddenly there was a tinkling sound in the living room, as if the stainless steel basin was knocked off the ground, and the edge of the basin turned two or three times on the ground before stopping.Hearing this voice, Chi Xu couldn't help sighing.

Has this child really not done any housework......

He changed into his pajamas and went out, only to see Ling Sheng smiled embarrassedly: "I'll clean up later, let's eat first."

Chi Xu didn't say anything, he just finished his meal quietly and didn't speak again.Ling Sheng thought he was tired, so he didn't care too much.

Chi Xu took a bottle of green tea from the coffee table and subconsciously tore off the plastic cover.

"It doesn't matter, I still care about drinking the wrong drink." Ling Sheng clicked his tongue.

Chi Xu froze for a moment, looked down at the plastic skin he had torn off in his hand, then looked up at Ling Sheng's face, and said after a long time, "I'm used to it..."

"Eh?" Chi Xu suddenly thought of something, "Did you hear that?!"

"...Hmm." Ling Sheng felt a little guilty.

"big liar!"

"I was wrong Xu Xu..."

Chi Xu didn't answer, and looked at the time after a while.

"You go to class." Chi Xu said, "I'll rest for another half day, and I'll go tomorrow too."

"You don't want to go tomorrow either, just rest for a few more days. As far as your grades are concerned, the worst is my best." Ling Sheng curled his lips, said goodbye and turned to leave.

As soon as the door was closed tightly, Chi Xu couldn't bear it anymore, ran to the toilet and vomited out what he had just eaten, feeling like his stomach was about to turn over.

"Hello." Chi Xu called Master Hei.

That Hei Ye seemed to be very busy, he answered the phone but did not respond to Chi Xu.

"Zhu Ran is back." When the sound came out, Master Hei was stunned for a while, and then the noise gradually faded away. With a bang, Master Hei closed the door and fell silent.

"...Have you talked?"

"Yeah." Chi Xu was still as calm as ever, but now he could say a word less, and felt like he should vomit again after talking too much.

Master Hei felt that Chi Xu's condition was not very good: "I'll go there right away!"

……

"...So she wants money now?" Master Hei asked sullenly.

"She wants me to forgive her, and live with her as if nothing happened..." Chi Xu paused, "Be my mother."

Zhu Ran was originally Chi Xu's mother, but now that these words came out of his mouth, Master Hei got goose bumps.

The room fell silent.

"Then...you mean..." Master Hei said.

"I don't know." Chi Xu said, "I'm very confused, entangled, and... uncomfortable."

Chi Xu didn't want to feel uncomfortable because of Zhu Ran, it wasn't worth it.

"Hmm..." Chi Xu said with difficulty, "I might relapse again..."

"What!" Master Hei stood up abruptly, staring at him with wide eyes.

Master Hei looked at the child in front of him. Chi Xu was very rational and smart, and would not do meaningless things. For him, the most important thing in life was to keep himself alive.

Yes, simply to live.This is the main reason why Chi Xu gradually recovered from severe depression and did not commit suicide.Now, it has relapsed again, Master Hei doesn't know if the underage child in front of him can survive it again.

"Yan..." Master Hei's voice went hoarse for a moment, then he cleared his throat, "Is it serious? What did the doctor say?"

"Didn't go to the hospital." Chi Xu pinched the center of his brows, pursed his mouth into a straight line, "I don't want to go..."

The treatment of depression is not enough to go once or twice. Go at least three times a week, and talk for about two or three hours at a time.Leaving aside the fact that he is a senior high school student with a lot of pressure to study, there is also Ling Sheng.If you go to the hospital, once or twice is okay, if you go too much, Ling Sheng will definitely find out, when he knows that he is a bad guy, he may hurt others and himself at any time, will he leave himself?I still have to drag him, and spend most of my energy on treating Chi Xu because I am worried about him.

These are all late worries.

It wasn't that Chi Xu had no confidence in Ling Sheng, but he had no confidence in himself. He was afraid that there would be a gap between him and Ling Sheng, even if it was just a little bit, the tight string in Chi Xu's heart would be broken, completely broken.

"Buy some fluoxetine and send it to me tomorrow." Chi Xu buried his face in his hands and rubbed it vigorously.

Then he comforted himself: "It will be fine, it will be fine..."

Master Hei hesitated to speak, and finally sat down with a sigh.

The next day, Chi Xu didn't go to school, so Ling Sheng called to ask a few words of concern.

"Eat on time, eat the cold spirit half an hour after eating, remember, don't eat it immediately after half an hour. Also, I read the weather forecast recently, it said that it has been raining for the past few days, and I am at home Pay attention to safety, close the windows tightly, don't catch cold... I told my mother to see you tonight, oh yes..."

"Don't come." Chi Xu interrupted him, and repeated again, "It's rainy and slippery, don't come. I'm going to school tomorrow."

Now that Chi Xu's situation is unstable, he must make himself a positive and healthy person in front of Ling Sheng.

Chi Xu's refusal made Ling Sheng stunned. He didn't know what to say for a while, and finally held back: "Are you really okay?"

"It's okay." Chi Xu was very tired, physically and mentally exhausted.

When the class bell rang, Ling Sheng swallowed back the question he wanted to ask: "Pay attention to your body."

"Okay." Chi Xu replied hoarsely, and hung up the phone.

Chi Xu dragged his tired feet to the bathtub, watching the water gradually fill up the bathtub, the heat enveloped the entire bathroom, the mirror was covered with mist, and Chi Xu's vision became blurred.

He tested the temperature of the water and lay down in it.Slowly slide down the back, immerse your head in the water, and let yourself go.

Until the moment before he was about to suffocate, he suddenly sat up.He gasped heavily, letting the water itch on his face.

Chi Xu realized later that he almost drowned just now! !

He suddenly grabbed the medicine beside him and swallowed it without drinking water.

After he calmed down, he dried himself, got dressed, picked up the tablet and played Lianliankan.

I used to play Lianliankan when I was emotionally unstable. This method was very effective for Chi Xu. Later, my condition gradually improved, and I habitually regarded it as a recreational game.

"Chi Xu is here. Your papers are all in the belly of your desk. Fill them up slowly when they are full." Bei Lulu saw Chi Xu going upstairs on his way to the office to deliver his homework, and smiled. Say hello, a little weird smile.

Chi Xu nodded, and soon walked to the classroom of Class [-], Senior Three, and saw Ling Sheng, who was lying on the table writing something through the glass, looking listless.

While drinking water, He Xuan saw Chi Xu at the window and choked.

"Ahem...Wen Ruanli!!" He Xuan shouted.

"Why are you calling me!! You must be sick!" Ling Sheng shouted tremblingly when he was shouted.

"The one from your family is here!!" He Xuan pointed at the window excitedly.

The whole class turned their heads at the same time, looked towards the window, and showed expressions of looking at the national treasure the moment they saw Chi Xu.

Chi Xu: "………………"

What are you looking at me for...