lifelong waiting

Fan Xiaoyi has never mentioned his family in front of others. In fact, there is nothing to say. His parents are ordinary company employees, and their living standards are considered well-to-do families. The seemingly ordinary family of three, It was the nightmare that Fan Xiaoyi had always wanted to escape from.

Fan Xiaoyi's father is a very honest person, works conscientiously in the company, commutes on time, does not have the bad habit of drinking and gambling, and treats himself very well.Fan Xiaoyi's mother is a particularly strong person, or to put it bluntly, it would be more appropriate to say that she is a vain and controlling person.Every time her father came back a little later, she had to ask for a long time, and she treated herself too. She had to decide what school she went to, even what clothes she wore every day, and what kind of friends she made.When I was young, I was ignorant, so I didn’t have any opinions, but as I grew up, Fan Xiaoyi began to feel that this kind of family relationship was unhealthy, but my father was always silent, and my character was very cowardly, so although I really wanted to resist , But every time he came to a critical moment, he still obediently listened to his mother.

It wasn't until my mother discovered my diary when I was about to graduate. In fact, I didn't have the habit of writing a diary, because after being with Gu Feng, I wanted to record the details of the two of them, and it can be used as a memory when I grow old.

Fan Xiaoyi was terrified when he was discovered, but he still pretended to calm down.Sure enough, her mother asked her to sever ties with Gu Feng, Fan Xiaoyi rejected her mother for the first time, saying that she would definitely be with Gu Feng.But Jiang is still old and hot, and realized that Gu Feng is Fan Xiaoyi's weakness, and her mother said that if she didn't sever ties with Gu Feng, she would go to the school and tell the leader that Gu Feng bullied Fan Xiaoyi at school, and she would also find Gu Feng's parents to demand compensation .

Fan Xiaoyi immediately panicked after hearing what his mother said. He didn't want Gu Feng to suffer any harm because of himself, and he believed that his mother would definitely do what he said. He had no choice but to agree to his mother's request.

After returning to school, Fan Xiaoyi made up his mind to break up with Gu Feng. Seeing Gu Feng's surprised and sad appearance, Fan Xiaoyi felt very sad, but this might be the end of the two of them, and he was not worthy of happiness. .Gu Feng asked him the reason for breaking up, and Fan Xiaoyi could only use the reason that he was about to graduate and the two of them would go their separate ways to prevaricate him.

Gu Feng obviously didn't believe him, so he hugged him and kissed him, confirming the existence of the other party with kisses, from forehead to eyes to collarbone to thigh root, Gu Feng said "I love you" over and over again, Fan Xiaoyi endured it for a long time before he stopped He told the truth, and did not refuse anything Gu Feng did to him that night.

Waking up in the morning and looking at the messy room and Gu Feng who was still sleeping soundly, enduring the aches all over his body, he didn't even have time to take a shower and get dressed before he quietly left. He didn't dare to look at Gu Feng again, he was afraid that he couldn't help it Just stayed by his side.

After leaving, Fan Xiaoyi came to City B to look for a job, but he hadn't found a job yet, so he fainted and was hospitalized, but the result of the examination revealed that he was pregnant, which made Fan Xiaoyi unacceptable, but when he thought that this was the only connection he had with Gu Feng Still, the child was born naturally.

After hearing that Fan Xiaoyi had a child, Fan Xiaoyi's mother didn't react much, maybe it was because she was no longer with Gu Feng.In the past two years, it was the mother who helped her to take care of the child, and Fan Xiaoyi was busy working to earn money for milk powder for the child.Because she has been busy with work, Fan Xiaoyi did not pay special attention to her mother's education for Xiao Yuer.One night, Fan Xiaoyi got off work early, saw his mother and Xiao Yuer eating, went back to the bedroom to change clothes, and suddenly heard Xiao Yuer crying, Fan Xiaoyi who ran out saw Xiao Yuer crying loudly , the mother insisted on feeding the little fish, and said while feeding, why are you so disobedient?Look at how well-behaved your father was when he was a child, he was not picky eaters at all, he ate everything I gave him, why are you so picky eaters, why are you so disobedient to adults.

As my mother's words poured into my brain, my childhood memories also emerged one after another. The scene where my mother insisted on eating a certain dish because I didn't like it became clearer and clearer, but I could only eat it obediently. Sometimes he has to hold back tears to eat up when he is full. He suddenly finds that he has grown up so much, but his children are still going through this kind of education. Is it like a vicious circle that can never be changed?This is his only child and also Gu Feng's flesh and blood, he has no reason to suffer the pain he has experienced.

Perhaps because of the courage his son gave him, Fan Xiaoyi loudly stopped his mother's behavior, and refused her mother to continue to take care of Xiao Yu'er, and let her go back to her hometown.After that, he began to personally take charge of Xiao Yuer's education. Although it was a bit hard work, Fan Xiaoyi still felt it was worth it to educate Xiao Yuer well.

As Xiao Yu'er started to go to school, she would often ask her some weird questions, and even asked where his mother had been. Fan Xiaoyi didn't answer immediately at that time, and decided to tell Xiao Yu'er the truth after several days of deliberation. Xiao Yu'er quickly accepted, which made Fan Xiaoyi feel relieved.But after that, Fan Xiaoyi started to make a fuss about looking for Gu Feng. At first, Fan Xiaoyi was a little hesitant. After all, he dumped Gu Feng back then, so he must hate himself very much.But Zhu Xiaoyuer couldn't help talking about it, and he missed Gu Feng very much, so Fan Xiaoyi mustered up the courage to come to City A to find Gu Feng, but he didn't expect everything to go so smoothly. people get back together.

These years of growth have made Fan Xiaoyi grow a lot, and he will bravely face the ups and downs with Gu Feng in the future. He wants to use his actual actions to prove that he is no longer the cowardly and inferior self he used to be.He wants to thank Gu Feng, it is Gu Feng who let him find the meaning and direction of life, and he will also be the unique little sun that belongs to Gu Feng in the future.

The author has something to say: coming to the end of the article, this is the first time to write an article, it is very short, there are many shortcomings, and you need to continue to learn.As a novice on the website, I don’t know that 5 words are enough, and there will be a new work in the future. I hope this work will improve.