[Full-time master] Meet Su Muqiu again

One day a few years ago, Ye Xiu met Su Muqiu again for the first time.Everything is perfect as before, Su Muqiu knows what he likes, and he knows even his small movements, nervously touching his pockets.Su Muqiu is younger than he imagined, exactly the same as the year he left.He got up from the bed, glared at Ye Xiu, and said, "You occupy 80.00% of this bed." He knocked on the head of the bed, "Do you know how hard I tried to not kick you off last night?"

Ye Xiu said, "What are you?"

Su Muqiu said, "Su Muqiu."

Ye Xiu thinks I know.But isn't Su Muqiu dead?He was completely dead, completely dead, and he didn't say a word to him.He looked at Su Muqiu's face, the man stared at him in confusion, his eyes were clear, Ye Xiu couldn't say anything.

He said, "Su Muqiu, move to the side, you're going to break my left leg."

Su Muqiu quickly climbed down.Rubbed him for him, and said angrily, "I told you to snatch my bed, you deserve it!"

Ye Xiu said, "That's all you want to tell me?"

"Then what should I say?" Su Muqiu asked.

Ye Xiu didn't speak either.Su Muqiu continued rubbing his legs.Rubbing and rubbing, I felt that I was too cowardly, so I quickly stopped.Sitting next to him, Su Muqiu asked, "Ye Xiu, are you okay?"

"It couldn't be better."

"Ask some weird questions today." Su Muqiu said. "If you have anything, just say it."

"Then I said so?"

"Say it quickly."

"It's not a big deal," Ye Xiu said.

"It's just that I actually like you a lot."

Su Muqiu existed for three months.During this period, Su Mucheng noticed something was wrong.She ran over to ask Ye Xiu, and Ye Xiu said everything.Su Mucheng said, but brother has already...

already dead.

Ye Xiu said.

Su Mucheng said, "Do you think that brother has come up with hallucinations?"

Ye Xiu smiled wryly, "Am I this kind of person?"

Su Mucheng shook her head, "But, why..."

"Maybe it's an illusion?" Ye Xiu said.After getting the answer, I felt a little melancholy. "Why did it suddenly appear at this time?"

Su Mucheng tugged at Ye Xiu's clothes worriedly, "Ye Xiu, Liu Hao has been..."

Ye Xiu shook his head, "Leave them alone."

Later, Su Mucheng became more and more worried about him. She told Ye Xiu that she saw him talking, embracing, and gesticulating into the air.She felt creepy, and she didn't want him to continue like this.

Ye Xiu didn't know what to say for a moment.

Su Mucheng said, brother would not want to see you like this.Ye Xiu, don't do this.

Ye Xiu thought, she seemed to be really scared.Indeed, Ye Xiu had no idea that those days when he was indulging in hallucinations were so inexplicable and weird to others.Su Mucheng saw Ye Xiu fighting with Air at night, and Ye Xiu smiled softly at Blank, saying something she couldn't understand at all.

She went back to the room, hugged her, her brother and Ye Xiu took a group photo, crying and trembling.

Su Mucheng looked at him pleadingly.

Ye Xiu said, "You are right."

No one can live forever in an illusion.So did Ye Xiu.He learned to let go and learn to look forward.When Su Muqiu passed away, Ye Qiu asked him if he wanted to go home.Ye Xiu said, what are you talking about?Nothing is unbearable, just the size of the pain and the amount of effort.

When Ye Xiu held One Autumn Leaf's card in front of Su Muqiu's grave, he said to Su Muqiu, "I will let everyone remember it."

How to get rid of Su Muqiu?

Ye Xiu could only ignore it.Ignore his words, ignore his calling, ignore, ignore everything.When he couldn't help it, Ye Xiu clenched his hands tightly, letting his nails pierce his palm.At certain times, he wakes himself up with pain.

On the second day, Ye Xiu could no longer see Su Muqiu.

Su Muqiu just appeared and disappeared suddenly.Ye Xiu lost Su Muqiu for the second time in his life.When Su Muqiu left, he kept calling his name behind his back.

"Ash."

He can't turn back.

"Ash."

He can't turn back.

"Ash."

He pinched his palm.

I don't know how many times I called.Every time Ye Xiu felt that he couldn't stand it and wanted to turn around.Until a certain moment, there was no more sound.When Ye Xiu turned his head, Su Muqiu had disappeared.

There is no more Su Muqiu.

Ye Xiu suddenly felt extremely uncomfortable, wanted to vomit, and wanted to cry.But he couldn't cry, all the sorrow and tears were drained on the day Su Muqiu died.He lay on the table, clutching his stomach.In a trance, he heard another "Axiu." The young man's voice was crisp.Ye Xiu didn't know if it was real or fake.Don't dare to look back.He trembled all over, like crying and laughing.Pulling his hair and talking to himself.

He turned back again.

Where is Su Muqiu?

He still couldn't help it.When Su Muqiu was about to leave for the second time.Ye Xiu knew that he was sitting next to him, so he sat upright like an electric shock.Su Muqiu was thinking about it, Ye Xiu thought, don't talk about it.He is still talking.Ye Xiu thought, enough is enough.

What wrong things did I do in my previous life.God couldn't see it, and sent a monster named Su Muqiu to take him in.He doesn't know what's wrong with him, he knows, he understands, but as long as it is related to Su Muqiu, he is an idiot.An utterly uncontrollable idiot.

Su Muqiu's figure faded away.

A string in my mind was completely broken.

Ye Xiu couldn't help stretching out his hand to grab Su Muqiu, he clenched his hand tightly with all his strength, and mobilized all the muscles he could mobilize.He grabbed Su Muqiu's right arm.Su Muqiu raised his arm, without any resistance, just looked at him like that.Ye Xiu was also dumb for a while, he didn't know what to say.Many times, countless times, that's it.He wanted to say to Su Muqiu, he wanted to say I miss you, he wanted to say I love you, he wanted to say please come back.When he saw Su Muqiu's clear eyes, Ye Xiu lowered his arms and became dumb.

A voice in my heart said, just say it, just say it.Open your mouth, vibrate your vocal cords, and there you go.Another voice said, it takes a lot of courage to speak out.Are you ready?No matter what others think of you in the future, pointing fingers at you, treating you as crazy, you can face it calmly; in the future when Su Muqiu disappears again, can you let it go again; in the future Su Muqiu will still be the same, you still love him, and you don't mind.No matter whether he is born, old, sick or dead, no matter how beautiful, ugly, fat or short, no matter how many conflicts and tortures, you will firmly hold his hand.

Ye Xiu thought, he can.He can take it all.

But he couldn't guarantee everything to fate.

So Ye Xiu could only do this, grab Su Muqiu, as if grabbing everything.I looked at him, but couldn't say anything.

Su Muqiu looked at him quietly.

"Su Muqiu." Ye Xiu finally said, "Don't go."

In the end, he said what he most hoped for.He thought it didn't matter whether the outcome was good or bad.Whether it is blessed or not, whether it is understood or not, it does not matter.He just wanted Su Muqiu to stay.Like all living beings, breathing in the sun and smiling freely and brightly.To be able to play Glory again, to be able to hold up the championship trophy, and to face everyone with a proud smile.

Ye Xiu wanted everyone to know that he was Su Muqiu.It's a genius, it's a ghost, it's a dream.He wanted this man to leave a strong mark.I want to tell everyone that this is Su Muqiu, the sharp gun.The consciousness is amazing, and the marksmanship is absolutely decisive.He can point to that person and say to the visiting reporters, "That person, Su Muqiu, is amazing."

Let him live proudly.

When Su Mucheng came to ask, Ye Xiu told her everything truthfully.Su Mucheng said, are you kidding me?

He doesn't speak.For a long time recently, he could only remain silent when facing Su Mucheng.

Su Mucheng burst into tears suddenly.While crying, she said that she was very afraid, especially afraid that someone would think that there was something wrong with Ye Xiu.Especially afraid that Ye Xiu would continue.It shouldn't be.

Ye Xiu said, this is wrong.

Su Mucheng squatted down slowly.He covered his mouth, trying not to sob.She said, "I miss my brother too much, but no one can live in a hallucination forever. No one will."

Ye Xiu thought, this world is so disgusting.It will always give you two choices, either choose A or choose B, and will never give you an option in the middle.Because it likes to see people struggling at both ends, Ye Xiu thinks you really succeeded.

He knows what to do.But he can't.

He could do it once, but the world likes to test him again and again.

A or B?he asked himself.

A feeling of tearing.

"Ye Xiu." Su Mucheng said.

"That person is dead. My brother is dead. Su Muqiu is dead." She said to him, her hair was messed up on the back of her head, and the tears were still wet.How can this still be the goddess of the alliance?At this time, she is more like a fragile doll, a little girl on the verge of collapse.

"Brother, Su Muqiu is dead!"

"I know."

"Then why do you..."

"Knowing and doing are not the same thing." Ye Xiu said.

"I know more about Su Muqiu's death than anyone else. I went to see the scene of the car accident, waited in the hospital, filled out the death report, and bought the tombstone. He was buried in Nanshan and died at the age of eighteen. But it doesn't matter, because I love him. Everyone says that if a person's love is not reciprocated for a long time, he will be tired, burnt out, hateful and mean. I know waiting for someone who will never give you back, It’s an endlessly painful thing. But it doesn’t matter, because I love him. What people may think of me. Stubborn, prejudiced, horny, extreme. Don’t follow the crowd, don’t go with the crowd, and criticize me as a freak behind my back. No relationship, because I love him. If a person is full of love for another person, no matter how many hardships, he is also full of strength." Ye Xiu said, "I know that it is absurd to let other people's will become my own will. But for me, whenever I find Su Muqiu's clues from Jun Moxiao and One Autumn Leaf's account card; whenever I make them shine on the stage of glory, I am very excited. I try my best not to indulge in illusions and lose direction , I told myself that this is all an illusion. But just thinking that Su Muqiu is still here, alive, and breathing air. This alone can make me ecstatic. I don’t know how to love someone reasonably. Because in In my opinion, love is irrational."

"Also. Mucheng. You don't have to worry about me." Ye Xiu said.

Su Mucheng raised her head.She looked at him confused and bewildered.

Ye Xiu didn't look at her, his eyes were far away.He was looking at Su Muqiu, who was standing behind Mucheng.Su Muqiu standing by the table.Just like the first time we met, a clean person with a white shirt and soft hair.There is the gentleness of the sun jumping.

Su Muqiu's figure was very faint, and it was getting fainter.

It was already difficult for Ye Xiu to see the man's face clearly.But he knew that Su Muqiu was looking at him, looking at him tenderly.He complained that Ye Xiu made Mucheng cry, and he stroked Mucheng's hair and said don't cry.

Su Mucheng didn't know.

Ye Xiu knew.

Su Muqiu loves them forever.

He loves Su Mucheng.The most precious sister in the world.

He loves Ye Xiu.Just like Ye Xiu.

One day in November, Ye Xiu lost Su Muqiu for the third time.

The difference was that he told Su Muqiu what he had never been able to say to him in his life.

The author has something to say: - The 13th paragraph from the bottom (the one where Ye Xiu talks too long) is actually a parody of a very classic passage in Maugham's "The Veil".

- This article itself is intended as a series of psychological activities

Seems like the cart has been turned upside down...

- I didn’t write Su Mucheng (I apologize to Mucheng’s fans here) because I was trying to finish this article, her thoughts, emotions and objections didn’t have a process, so some people may think her fierce objection is a bit inexplicable.

- And there are too many psychological descriptions, and some people who have different views on them may feel that they are serious ooc...

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- But I still hope you like it.