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In the end, Han Luo left as planned.When he thought I was still asleep, he left without a word.

Leave without saying goodbye?It seems not.Since I didn't make any comments on your departure from the very beginning, then when you leave, I won't have the slightest objection, let alone obstruct you.I didn't even take the initiative to ask you about the return date, and I didn't expect you to come back again.

Han Luo's departure this time, I clearly know that I will never lose him again, since I lost him at the moment of amnesia or lost him in the conflict with earlier, I will never lose him again.

How can you lose if you never get it?

Even though my heart is clamoring to be close to him, even though my blood has the instinct to love him.

I don't know if that instinct will still exist after the blood is drained.Or in other words, as long as the blood enters the heart that once loved him madly, it will be endowed with the instinct to love him unconditionally.

Perhaps, this instinct will disappear only if the heart stops beating, but then, what's the point?

Han Luo, Han Luo, Han Luo.

The name was shouting frantically in my heart.

Han Luo, Han Luo, Han Luo.

The name I fell in love with deeply in my dream.

Han Luo, Han Luo, Han Luo.

A name that is firmly in my blood.

Han Luo, Han Luo, Han Luo...

At this very moment, the name of the person I am thinking of...

Han Luo, Han Luo, Han Luo...

It's the name that comes to mind when I'm working, it's the name in my head when I'm walking, it's the name in my head when I'm in a bar, and it's still the only name in my mind when I go back to an empty house.

This name is a curse, with the longing, let something germinate in my blood, and then with my blood, grow in my whole body, and slowly spread...

"Xiaofan, do you have any arrangements for getting off work today?" Li Suming carefully sat down next to me.

"Go to the bar to have a look, I haven't been there in two days." While processing today's photos, he replied without raising his head.

"You to Han Luo...you..."

"It's just what you think." Continue to edit the picture, ignoring Li Suming's reaction.

"Xiaofan, don't be willful, I know I was wrong for not telling you everything about Han Luo, but you don't have to express your dissatisfaction like this, right?" Li Suming stood up and turned off my computer excitedly.

"My pictures are not saved. You made the trouble yourself, and you are responsible for it. You fix all my pictures today." He looked up at Li Suming with a smile.

"I'll fix it." Li Suming sat down across from me again, "Xiaofan, we need to talk."

Li Suming sat straight across from me, with a serious expression on his face, as if he would never give up unless he made sense of it.

"Su Ming, I know you really care about me, but I have my own plans, and I have my own worries. I don't blame you for the little things you kept from me, and I don't want to know."

"Xiaofan, have you thought it through? Are you really not concerned about the past?"

"For some things, the past is the past. Besides, the past is just a passerby to me. I rub shoulders with the past, but I don't even look back for a second. I don't want to cling to the past that I don't have. I want to grasp my future."

I can't even see the future.

Li Suming opened his mouth, as if he wanted to say something, but in the end, before he said anything, he lowered his head and sat silently.

I don’t know how long the silence lasted, but just when I thought we were all about to be swallowed by the silence, Li Suming seemed to have decided something, raised his head and smiled and said, “I see. Xiaofan, remember, I’m here and I’ve been wronged , hurt, remember to come to me, I won’t leave, I’m here.”

I looked at him with a smile, my nose was sore, and my heart was warm.

Li Suming, thank you for your support and understanding, thank you for your company, with you, I will be braver.

"Then, let's go, I'll accompany you to the bar." Li Suming started to help me pack my things, "You treat me to a drink today as my reward for never leaving you."

"Okay, I invite you to drink, as a reward for your faithful protection of the Lord." I smiled and looked at the black lines all over Li Suming's face, and turned off the lights and electricity in satisfaction.

"Good evening, lady boss."

"Boss lady"

"Long time no see, lady boss."

"Oh, you've done a good job, you've gotten to be the proprietress." Li Suming joked sourly when the waiter greeted me.

"It's not good, but if you want to come to us to work part-time, I can ask them to take care of you to clean the toilet or something."

"Then I can't thank you enough."

"Hahaha"

Is it my illusion?Suddenly, I feel that the current Li Suming is different from the previous Li Suming.What's different, I can't tell.I just feel that being with him can completely relax, and there is no previous pressure anymore.

This feeling is very good, at least, I like it.

"What would you like, sir?" I walked into the bar, imitating the bartender next to me, and pretended to say to Li Suming.

"My young master and I will come to drink whatever your lady boss comes here." Li Suming also pretended to point fingers at me.

"Sure?"

"Sure!"

Li Suming's determined expression froze completely after seeing the coffee I handed over.

"I'll go, Liao Xiaofan, I'm here at the bar, what the hell are you doing serving coffee for me? You don't want to mess around anymore?" This guy was still playing when he was angry.

"Didn't you say that you want to drink what our proprietress often drinks? Our proprietress can only drink coffee and plain water here, you can choose yourself." Li Suming took the coffee in my hand with a crying face.

"The first time you come to this bar is to drink coffee..."

Li Suming murmured, as if he was talking to me, but also to himself.

I sat down in front of him and started smelling the coffee in my hand.

"You drink coffee just by smelling it. You forget everything, but this habit is still there..."

Li Suming's tone was very low, I don't know if he thought of the past.

"He also has this habit..." Li Suming's tone became sad.

The him in his mouth should be referring to it.He really liked it.

"Hey, I haven't seen Lao Han for a long time. The bar hasn't changed yet, right?" A man in a gray suit next to Li Suming said quietly.

"Lao Han went back recently, and I heard that he went back to get engaged." Another plaid shirt said contemptuously, "It's the woman who often comes to the bar to make trouble."

"You mean, the woman who hit Lao Han's little boyfriend?" Gray suit asked in surprise.

"Well. That's it." Plaid Shirt drank the wine in his hand in one gulp, "Even Lao Han has gone back to live a normal life, we don't know how long we can hold on..."

"Xiaofan, you..."

"Don't look at me like that." I sniffed the coffee in my hand, "I don't know anything." Indeed, I don't know anything.

"Han Luo has been gone for four days..."

"Four days and fourteen hours..." He took a sip of the slightly cold coffee, subtly suppressing the sadness in his eyes.

Four days and fourteen hours, I didn't say goodbye when I left, I didn't contact you after I left, the return date is unknown...

"It's getting late, drink up the coffee in your hand, and I'll take you back."

"Ah."

There was no words all the way, after saying good night downstairs at my house, Li Suming left with anxiety.But I don't know what kind of mood I should take back to my empty, cold home.

Without turning on the light, I just sat on the sofa and looked at the window covered by thick curtains in a daze.

Since the day Han Luo left, I haven't touched the furnishings of the house. Everything is arranged according to his habit, as if he has never left, as if, the next moment he will bring doting Xiao came out of a certain room, put his arms around my waist, and whispered endless love words in my ear.

However, "the next second" seems to be a little far away.

Han Luo, really entered, no, integrated into my life.

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