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An Zichen looked at the girl's pure eyes at a loss and said, "You will find someone who truly loves you. Use your light to find him. After a long time, you will be able to wait for him." I was just talking empty words, saying such great things to a child who was only five or six years old.

The girl seemed a little regretful, probably because she didn't understand, but when An Zichen was about to speak again, the girl said sensiblely: "I'll wait until Brother Zichen."

An Zichen's heart skipped a beat. How could such love words spoken by a child be so cute, but he didn't even dare to think about the three-year start and the maximum death penalty.He thought silently in his heart, kid, this is the first time you see me, why do you say you like me?

But what the girl said next shocked all the adults present, "I know brother Zichen is a good person, and he won't hurt me like my father."

The girl said that her father made her feel very painful. Is it heartache or physical pain?If it was physical pain, after a doctor's examination, no scars were found on his body. If it was heartache, she would not be able to feel this kind of emotion at such a young age.

Next, a few words came to An Zichen's mind, which made him dare not even think about it. I hope this is just his own guess, and everything is over, and the girl will grow up well in this orphanage.

But An Zichen still wondered why the girl was so wary of the children in the first place, his parents must have done something to the girl.An Zichen would never reveal the pain of others, but he felt that understanding this matter would have a great impact on the girl's life, so he decided to take the risk of asking.

"What's wrong with your father?" An Zichen asked as gently as possible, with caution in his tone.

"...He always makes me take off my clothes and lie on the bed. I don't like this." The girl was stunned for a moment before she said, her tone was very soft, but now that the small universe in An Zichen's heart could explode, why would there be such a thing? Kind of father?This kind of person is not even worthy of being a father!It's even worse than a beast!

Similarly, the management aunt was also stunned for a moment, her eyes changed from angry to distressed.This little girl didn't know what she had experienced that made her so cautious about others. She didn't expect the truth to be so unsightly.In the "red, yellow and blue" incident that happened a few years ago, there is a famous sentence in Shakespeare's "The Tempest"-hell is empty, and the devil is in the world. This sentence is very appropriate to describe the current society.An Zichen never imagined that even his biological father might lay hands on his daughter, which is really disgusting.

"From now on here, no one will let you do what you don't want to do, okay?" An Zichen rubbed the girl's hair, his eyes full of distress, I really hope this is just a nightmare, the nightmare will pass, Wake up, the world is still good.

"Yeah." The girl nodded heavily, and said obediently, this kind of appearance made An Zichen feel very distressed.

In the dead of night, An Zichen was still tossing and falling asleep, still thinking about what the girl said at noon, it was really shocking, and that kind of father was really disgusting.

An Zichen couldn't fall asleep just thinking about it. He lay on the mat and turned on the electric fan. From the moment he was quiet, he kept hearing the buzzing of mosquitoes, making it so noisy that people couldn't sleep.The children slept in the special dormitory in the orphanage. They felt very comfortable with the cool air conditioner blowing on them. Several management aunts also lay in another room blowing the fan.

An Zichen couldn't stand the images in his mind and the screaming of the mosquito, so he tiptoedly turned off the electric fan, put on his coat and went out.

This small town is located on a mountain, and the transportation is inconvenient.But when summer is approaching, the natural wind blowing makes people feel very comfortable, and this kind of coolness belongs to nature, which cannot be replaced by fans and air conditioners.The advantage of being on the mountain is that it is very convenient to watch the stars. An Zichen likes to watch the stars very much, but because he lives in the city all year round, he doesn't have much time, and stars are also a very rare thing in the city.

In the city, most of the stars that the children said they saw were just passing by planes. Naturally, An Zichen took advantage of this trip to feel the stars of nature.

He likes watching the stars because of a book he read before - "Night of the Milky Way Railway". The author Kenji Miyazawa compares various stars to various unexpected things. It can be said that the experience of each star It's a Journey, this is also An Zichen's favorite book.

An Zichen sat casually at the entrance of the orphanage, where he could see the stars very clearly.The gate of the orphanage is painted with cartoonish colors. It looks like an ordinary kindergarten. There are also a few toys randomly placed on the open space. The necessary seesaws, slides, wooden horses, etc. are of course not a problem. .

An Zichen didn't like smoking to relieve his worries, so he just sat on the swing and looked up at the twinkling stars in the sky.The stars are very beautiful, and the light they emit is as beautiful as gems. Perhaps there are many things that only look beautiful on the surface, such as stars. In the eyes of those astronomers, they are just ordinary small stones That's all, won't you lose your innocence and romance?Another example is what happened today. If the girl didn't tell her, maybe people would never know that a lively and cheerful girl would have such a past.

"I knew you would come here." A familiar voice sounded, very close to me.An Zichen saw the figure and face of that person through the starlight, it was Su Xuanwen.

"That's right, Fang Chen probably told you again." An Zichen smiled wryly, complaining about Fang Chen's big mouth in his heart.

"No, it was your eyes that told me." Su Xuanwen raised the corners of his mouth slightly, but he didn't smile.

"Hmm, since you said that, I can't help it." An Zichen shrugged, then looked at Xing Xing and ignored Su Xuanwen.

Unexpectedly, Su Xuanwen came to accompany him specially. He sat on the swing beside him as if he wanted to have a long talk with him, but Su Xuanwen didn't speak for a long time, and An Zichen's curiosity swelled instead.

He couldn't help asking: "Why did you come here?"

"The reason is the same as yours." Su Xuanwen said slowly, as if he was already ready to answer this question.

An Zichen was speechless, but having one more person by his side made him somewhat restrained.

"I know you're worried about that. You know, there's always black and white. Just like why does this star look so bright? It's because of the black sky against it."

Unexpectedly, when Su Xuanwen opened his mouth, it was not chicken soup but sex, but An Zichen had to admit that this feeling was very bad.An Zicheng didn't care whether Su Xuanwen saw it or not, so he nodded his head in agreement, and suddenly felt that Su Xuanwen and Fang Chen had a special resemblance, that is, what they said would always be poisonous chicken soup. I remember Fang Chen told him last time , he can never please everyone.

"This kind of thing is more common in areas with backward education. Those fathers who have not received professional education or have been influenced by local gangsters will be less clean. They are not even ready to be fathers, and they have already given birth to fathers." Come down kid."

"I used to be stupid, and I even wanted to help those who were affected by pedantic ideas with my own strength, but after a long time, I found that this is impossible. It is better to educate those children to be kind."

An Zichen felt that Su Xuanwen said more tonight than in the past when they were together. An Zichen didn't know how to open his mouth. He was afraid that Su Xuanwen would have a different experience when he was a child. If he touched the soft spot in his heart, The consequences could be disastrous.

"Actually, I've always thought that people are inherently good. There is no such thing as bad, but the degree of goodness is different." An Zichen said optimistically, wanting to dismiss Su Xuanwen's negative thoughts.In fact, this is not a negative thought, it’s just that if you look at it too clearly and realistically, it will lack some illusions.

Su Xuanwen smiled and said nothing, and said after a while: "I used to have a classmate with depression, who didn't come to school all the year round, and I just had a normal relationship with me. But one day he suddenly told me that he was too tired to live. , nobody understood him, and he didn't want to explain. He ended up drowning in a pond on the way home from school."

When he said the last sentence, Su Xuanwen's eyes became stern and serious. At that time, he had never felt the darkness of society so close to him.So when he saw An Zichen's live broadcast for the first time, he felt that he was an angel who had never experienced the ups and downs of life.This kind of purity made him very jealous, but it also made him want to protect it for a long time.

"I'm sorry." An Zichen suddenly felt guilty, bringing up such unpleasant memories of Su Xuanwen. No matter who it is, it will be uncomfortable when this kind of thing happens when he is very close to him.

"Suddenly remembered that you haven't given me a reply yet." Su Xuanwen changed the subject in order to lighten the atmosphere, and said with a smile, but the words were unclear. What kind of question did Su Xuanwen want to answer? ?

"I confessed my love to you twice, but you ran away." Su Xuanwen looked directly at An Zichen at this moment, and An Zichen felt a little dangerous.Sure enough, when we were alone with him, we would always discuss this issue.

At this time, the answer to that question was impossible to escape. An Zichen stammered and said, "I...not sure, I think... I should like you." They really should have an answer.

After saying this, An Zichen blushed immediately, and his eyes kept dodging. At this moment, Su Xuanwen's eyes seemed to be shining like stars, making it hard to escape.

"You are so cute, like a little angel." Su Xuanwen said lightly, but his tone could tell that he was extremely affectionate. An Zicheng really wanted to get into a hole in the ground right now.