you are the sugar of my life

"I saw a saying: Human beings are inherently mortal, or they are heavier than Mount Tai, or lighter than a feather. Look at you, when you die, there is not even a corpse. It has been five years, and who still remembers you."

The cemetery in the early morning was extraordinarily quiet, the drizzle fell gently into the soil, quiet and gentle, like the person's longing was shallow but continuous, bit by bit but heavy.He stroked the photo on the stele. After many years, when he thought of her past with him, his eyes still turned red.

"I went to him, the one you love the most, he got married and had a daughter a year ago. He doesn't remember you, you know? He doesn't remember you at all from the day you left, so You said how worthy your death is, you told me that the reason why you are persistent is because he loves you as much, and it is worth doing all the stupid things for him; now?"

Emotions are like wine, the more you drink, the more you get drunk, the more you think about it, the stronger it becomes.Tears whisper about missing, wailing is crying for others, most of them are calm and weeping for themselves.

"Actually, I think that sentence is wrong. Isn't a person a piece of loess after death? What's the difference? Even if many people remember it, it doesn't matter if you can't be happy when you are alive. It’s useless, right.” He wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes, stood up and said, “Caterpillar, I decided to give up, I don’t want to be you, I wasted my whole life for others, and finally watched him get married and have children. I don’t want Play, I, Lin Chen, without him, I still have music, friends, and myself, I can still live happily. Caterpillar, really, I really miss you."

Turning around, it was very heavy. If she was here, she could still say a few words, hug, and even laugh.There is no weight on his body, but his feet are heavy, the road is still far away, but his steps are slow. In the distance, who else can make him speed up; in the distance, what else can make him hurry.Best friends buried behind themselves, favorite lovers, oh!Not even lovers.I do like music, I do have friends, but they are insignificant.

A zither sounded, and he quickly took out his mobile phone. His gloomy mood melted away like snow meeting fire.The hand that clicked "Connect" trembled slightly, and the brief silence in his ears cooled down his excitement.The other party didn't speak for a long time, and he didn't say anything, what else, what he wanted to say, after so many years, the other party didn't listen to a word.He thought: It's time to let go, be more straightforward, decisive, quicker, and more aggressive.Hang up, put it back in your pocket, all in one go.He walked out quickly, and said aggrievedly in his heart: Do you think I really can't let it go? I take myself too seriously. If it wasn't because you raised me, I would be close to you. From now on, you Don't even think about seeing me.The more I think about it, the more wind blows under my feet.

Suddenly, he stopped.Princess Iron Fan's Feng met the God-fixing Bead.The person whom he misses every day is standing beside his car, wearing a black suit, holding a black umbrella, and his eyes are calm and majestic.They just looked at each other like this, he stayed where he was, surprised why he was here, complained about his attire, and thought of his decision just now, immediately glared at him bitterly to see what he wanted.

Unexpectedly, he came over so naturally, walked in front of him, looked at him and said, "No matter how important she is, she must pay attention to her body. Even if it is light rain, it won't do if she gets wet for a long time." Lin Chen said again I froze once, is this caring?I heard him say: "Help me hold the umbrella." Lin Chen held the umbrella and watched him take off his clothes and put it on his body.He took the umbrella again, held Lin Chen's hand and said, "Let's go back." So gentle, when he pulled Lin Chen to leave, Lin Chen didn't move.He said: "I...want to spend the rest of my life with you, and my parents agreed. Are you willing to marry me?" Lin Chen lowered his head like a person sinking into the deep sea. It's like the sound of rescue at sea.With the last of his strength, he struggled upstream until he saw the rescuer.Tears flowed like water, in a hurry, unable to speak, he hugged Lin Chen into his arms with the arm holding the umbrella, and said softly, "I'm sorry for making you wait so long." At this moment, Lin Chen felt His gentleness is still the same as before, holding him in his arms, silent and silent, but very happy.

At this moment, Lin Chen was content again, and even the departure of the caterpillar was not so sad.

"Cat, life is short. In the first ten years, I was in a daze, and I couldn't control myself when I was happy or sad; in the past few decades, I was dizzy and unable to make a difference; only in the intervening decades, I was sad or happy, sweet or sweet. Suffering can still be determined by oneself, but death is unknown. So they are always trying to find their own value and the meaning of existence. In the final analysis, they just want more people to affirm that’s all. People all over the world affirm, but some people only need one person to affirm. His eyes can contain everything in the world; his words can be worth a thousand words; his smile can surpass the beauty of the world."

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I was so excited to finally write what I wanted.