you are the sugar of my life

Life is like chess, even if you make this move well, you still don’t know how to take the next step; if you win this step, you think you have won the whole situation, but in the end, you may still lose.

"I was just a little incompetent and made her suffer." When Tianjun locked the demon's heart with the demon chain, Lin Musen thought of what he had said to himself, but now these words are worse than the demon chain. It was still heart-burning, making his heart ache.He always thought that he was strong enough, these days, he worked hard, in the human race, he could give Ran Ran enough safety and happiness, but in the end he still let others take her away from her side.

Lin Musen looked at the man who had beaten him defenseless with only three or four strokes. He was majestic and domineering. He was indeed a great king. However, he was more like a king who came from hell. He didn't see sentient beings in his eyes. , no blood, but a cold sword, anyone who looks at him will be shocked by him, or even stabbed by him. "He's not just arrogant." Lin Musen regretted why he only understood him now, "He simply doesn't bother to be admired throughout his life." Yes, since he endured the torment of the [-]th floor of hell, he has understood: his life He does not need to be blessed by others, and his death does not require others to mourn.It's just that he still wants all living beings to surrender at his feet, and no one understands the powerless pain of being slaughtered better than him.

Lin Musen shed sad tears, raised his head, and said with the last bit of arrogance and difficulty: "Ran Ran loves me, even if I'm really as cheap as an ant, she still loves me."

Tianjun ignored him and told Bingying: "Bring him back to his original form and plant it in his yard." Hmph, don't I know her temperament?

Lin Musen endured the pain and wanted to keep Tianjun to have a good talk, but he fell down as soon as he took a step, and he shouted with all his strength: "Ji Kuang, she is not your Yao Xiran, please let her go. I beg you ! Don't hurt her again in this life."

Bingying looked at Tianjun who was going away, and admired him again in his heart, this ruthlessness was really beautiful.He also looked at Lin Musen lying on the ground, his chest was pierced by a fire-colored iron chain, his clothes were soaked in blood, he looked very pitiful.She raised her sleeves, raised his chin with her middle finger, and said, "Let her go? Lin Musen, you still don't understand who is harming her? Well! We haven't been looking for you for a few months because we want to Let Ran Ran relax his vigilance. Do you think she really has a chance to be a human being? There are only three lives, and her three lives have long been used up. In order to keep her alive, Tianjun worked hard to make her a demon. You probably don’t know yet , she can be a demon, but it was all discussed with Tianjun." Bingying looked at the surprised Lin Musen, disdainful, and shook his face, and said: "You shouldn't be a human in the first place, really. If it weren't for you, Tianjun and Ran Ran would have spent the full moon." Suddenly, he grabbed Lin Musen's hair, pulled his head up forcefully, and said bitterly, "Ran Ran wouldn't have suffered so much!"

"Husband" Ran Ran tried her best and finally called out. She saw her husband was beaten to a bloody mess, but the closer she got, the farther away he was from her. She couldn't make a sound when she called out.Ran Ran rubbed the sweat on her forehead, only to realize that she was dreaming. Looking at the environment in front of her, she became even more uneasy.She was in the train, "How come?" Ran Ran walked to the window and saw the vast Gobi desert outside, her eyes were blurred, she wiped her eyes vigorously, and when she looked again, it was still the desert, and her eyes blurred instantly.

The cat looked at Ran Ran who was crying and breathless on the bed, and felt distressed, but he didn't know how to comfort her, so he just watched silently.It happened so suddenly.In the first summer vacation in his life, he could have gone abroad with his husband, and he could have gone out to see the world.It's just that the scene at the airport happened so fast that he didn't recall it until now.They waited quietly at the airport for the time. When the boarding time came, when the minute hand reached twelve o'clock, time stopped and everything around them stopped moving.He felt a blast of cold air from the icy hell, and when he turned his head, he saw Lin Musen lying on the ground after being beaten, Ran Ran fainted in Suya's arms, he didn't know what happened behind.Then he and Ran Ran got on the train.You don't need to think about it, that tree spirit who is usually proud will definitely be bullied miserably by Tianjun.It's just that they don't know whether they are alive or dead now, and what will Ran Ran do if they die.

I don't know how long it took, but the end of the train play arrived.Ran Ran's face was covered with tears, and she sat on the ground motionless.The cat jumped from the bed in front of her and said, "Caterpillar, we've arrived, let's get off the train!"

Ran Ran didn't seem to hear, the cat knew she was sad, so she stopped talking.Finally, when the conductor cleaned up, Ran Ran was driven off.

The weather is very good, the sky of Kashgar is blue and clear, dotted with a few clouds, no matter how sad a person is, as long as he looks up, squints his eyes, he enjoys it very much, coupled with the local characteristic buildings, look at the beauties of the Uighur nationality, listen to Listening to their language makes it even more like a beautiful place and all the sadness dissipates.However, Ran Ran didn't have time to look up, and didn't care to listen.She opened the suitcase and turned it upside down, except for clothes or clothes.The cat silently put the clothes she dug out back into the box, and said to Ran Ran: "I don't have any money, and I don't have a mobile phone."

Ran Ran held back her tears and asked, "Where are we now?"

"Kashgar"

"You know the way back to Beijing, show me the way." Saying that, he dropped the messy suitcase and stood up, about to leave.The cat bit her trouser leg, saw that she had stopped, jumped in front of her and said, "I don't know the way, and I don't know how far it is, how do you go back, do you want to go back?"

Ran Ran answered "yes" with blank eyes

"You are crazy, are you going faster or the train is faster? The train will take three or four days, how long do you think it will take you to walk back? There is nothing, and you plan to beg all the way back?" The cat gritted its teeth, raised its tail, and meowed shouted at Ran Ran.

Enduring tears finally burst down the embankment.Ran Ran covered her face with her hands, squatted on the ground, the cat's front paws were on her knees, and its head rubbed against Ran Ran's head, comfortingly said: "There is still me,"'" First find a job around here, get One month's salary, we'll go back, it's faster than you walking back. Caterpillar, cheer up."

Upon hearing this, Ran Ran wiped away her tears, packed her luggage, and went to find a job near the station.I asked three or four companies, and they all said that they don’t want short-term, and finally stayed in a small restaurant. The owner is a middle-aged couple from Sichuan. They also left home early to work to earn money. To earn some money for traveling back to Beijing, I promised Ran Ran to work in the store for a month and gave Ran Ran [-] as salary.

Ran Ran's personality is gentle and quiet, honest, and has a very good appearance, but she doesn't have a bit of obsession. The beauty is ordinary, and the ordinary is refined.On the first day, Ran Ran understood the entire workflow and was able to do it with ease.The boss was even more satisfied with her. When they sat down for dinner at night, Ran Ran changed her situation slightly, and told them everything that wasn't outrageous.Asked if she had a place to live, Ran Ran thought that she couldn't bother them any more, and they didn't feel at ease if they went by themselves, so they lied that they had some money and could rent a cheaper house.The cat was eating the leftover fish from the customer under the table. When Ran Ran said this, she meowed at Ran Ran, "What are you crazy about?" Ran Ran smiled and ignored him.

After getting off work at 09:30 in the evening, Ran Ran dragged her luggage to the station, and the cat chattered beside her: "I'm a cat, it doesn't matter if I sleep outside, you are a human, and you are a girl, resting on the street Aren't you afraid that people will bully you?"

Ran Ran looked at the front firmly and said: "No one can bully me, and there is not you?" Then she looked up at the sky and said: "The moonlight is beautiful today!"

Following her, the cats looked up at the bright moon and said, "It's really good." Then they stopped talking, one person and one cat, and walked slowly to the station.It was impossible to enter the station at this time, so Ran Ran found a cleaner place outside, put down her luggage, and sat down against the wall.

Looking at the moon slowly, I suddenly feel that it is very comfortable to be in a daze quietly in this empty place with the cool wind blowing.It's been a long time since I looked at the moon quietly like this.A long time ago, at that time, the human race was not like this.They often stare at the moon in a daze after sunset, say something irrelevant, drink tea, weave with Sister Yishui, and listen to the stories of the older generation.There is no hustle and bustle, no bright lights, an oil lamp is bright, the surroundings are dark, and there is vitality in the silence.The happiest moment of the day is the period from sunset to falling asleep.

The cat looked at the smirking Ran Ran and asked, "What are you thinking?"

"The past, very ordinary but very happy past."

"What you think about the past is useless for the present."

Ran Ran was silent for a while, and said: "The past is beautiful! When you are alone, the past is the story of the storyteller. It sounds very exciting, and you can forget loneliness, sentimentality, and boredom, and you won't feel that life is boring."

The cat looked at her, seeming to understand her feelings a little bit, "It must be missing him, you are thinking about him."

Ran Ran closed her eyes and didn't answer him.

In Beijing, there was an unknown tree in Ran Ran’s home. A birdcage made of iron was hung on the tree, and a chickadee with a tuft of red hair on its head was locked in it, sleeping peacefully.This once warm and happy place is very quiet and desolate today. The branches are swaying in the night wind, and the leaves are rubbing against each other to make a rustling sound, as if someone is whispering:

"Are you ok?"

"Where are you!"