Cupid winks

I said, "I remember."

Mother said: "Of course you will remember! How could you forget?"

She immediately went on to say: "The weather in Orlando is really good. The sky is clear and cloudless every day. The seafood is fresh. The lobster is so big. How much does it cost? It's so cheap. The house and the car are not expensive. New York? The subway is dirty and smelly, it’s messy everywhere, Chicago, it’s too windy, there are so many Chinese in San Francisco, it’s better there, no wonder your aunt doesn’t want to leave after going there, it’s really livable.”

I smoked a cigarette and replied, "Yes, it's really a good place."

My mother asked me: "When should we go again? Let's go and relax. We won't be staying at my aunt's place this time. Let's book a hotel by ourselves."

I said, "Let's wait a while."

My mother suddenly gasped excitedly and said, "Every night there are fireworks in front of that castle! We played for four days, and you have to wait to watch the fireworks every day before you go back. One day when the fireworks were set off, you watched It looked like you fell asleep, you fell asleep lying on your mother's shoulders, and you didn't wake up when the fireworks were so loud."

She laughed.I laughed a couple of times, and said, "Yeah, I fell asleep just like that."

My mother took me, my aunt and my uncle—a tall American with flaxen hair, brown eyes, and gold-rimmed glasses—with their two mixed-race children, a boy, a girl, and a boy. Two years younger than me, the girl sat in the stroller with a pacifier in her mouth the whole time, and we went to Disney World in Orlando together.

The girl stared out at the world through her big brown eyes the whole time.

My aunt and uncle speak English, and my mother also speaks English, speaking with my aunt, my uncle, and me.My mother can also speak Italian and Korean. Italian is very useful when going out for dinner and looking for red wine at home. She will pop up a few words from time to time.But she doesn't speak much Korean, and she only speaks a few words when she has dinner with her father's Korean business associates.Everyone will praise her, Mrs. Ye, she is amazing, she can speak Korean so well.She is very happy to hear these compliments. Sometimes some people will continue to praise her, praise her for her fair skin and good skin, and ask her if she is Korean, and she will be unhappy.Once, I was watching a documentary about North Korea at home. My mother passed by, watched it a few times, and asked me to change the channel. Broken and poor.She said, look at their eyes, they look like they don't have enough to eat, and those who don't have enough to eat are people with no quality.

She thinks the pronunciation of Korean is very bad.

She's biased against many people, many things.

Mother also speaks the Fengshun dialect.In Fengshun's dialect, "like" means "joy".Joy can also be used to describe a happy mood.

My mother is not from Fengshun, her hometown is in a village on the outskirts of Fengshun, and the dialect she speaks is somewhat different from Fengshun's dialect. She calls their hometown dialect "local dialect".She taught me to speak feng shui, we speak at home, she speaks to grandma, and grandma speaks "local dialect" to her.Grandma lives in a big house in her hometown. The building in the Ming Dynasty is very old on the outside and inside.After my mother got married, she only went back to her hometown during the Spring Festival, visiting relatives in the old house and staying there for two nights.My mother never went out with my grandmother.

Mother rarely goes out.

She also has a prejudice against sunlight.She believes that sunlight is the biggest accomplice of the years and the chief culprit of all diseases.She even had to pick and choose when Xiuxiu and I copied the plaster statue of Apollo with the art teacher in the study room at home. In the end, we had to draw Venus with a Broken Arm at her request.She admires this statue sincerely, and she despises Venus with complete arms synthesized by later generations using computer technology.She said: "Incompleteness is beauty, and mystery is beauty. What do these people know?"

Xiuxiu said, your mother is really weird.

I asked, what's weird?

She said that she looked like a woman with bound feet and gold bracelets on her hands who read Duras.

I said, look less at Eileen Chang.

The weather in Orlando is really good, the sun is shining all day long, and my mother played Disney World with us under her parasol, wearing long-sleeved trousers, gloves, sunglasses, and masks.

The little uncle asked the little aunt, is your sister some kind of big shot in China?

My aunt said that my sister is allergic to sunlight.

The little uncle showed a painful look and said, I'm so sorry.

At night, my mother would go to the bathroom to change her clothes. She put away her parasol, took off her long sleeves, and changed her trousers. She put on a floral skirt and high heels. We watched the fireworks together in front of the magic castle. .Mother took my hand, and I felt her hand, not her glove, and I took her hand too.She asked me, why do you like watching fireworks so much?

I nodded and didn't speak.

The mother asked again, do you want my mother to hug me?She glanced at the place where my aunt was standing, and I looked over carefully. My aunt was holding the daughter, and the little uncle was holding the boy. The boy looked up at the fireworks with his neck up.

I didn't speak.The mother smiled and said, "Really, I am still so clingy to my mother at such an age!"

She said coquettishly: "Okay, okay."

She spoke so loudly that my aunt turned to look at us.My mother picked me up, and I put my arms around her neck. I whispered to my mother: "Mom, I am too heavy, and you will be very tired."

Mother said: "Mom is not tired. Mom likes to hug you. I am your mother."

I hugged my mother's neck tightly, and her hand was on my back.

My aunt squinted at us.She smiled at me.She rubbed her daughter's back lightly.

The little girl fell asleep on her shoulder.

The fireworks exploded one after another, and the flames reflected on the faces of all the people looking up at the night sky in the dark.Everyone's face was red.I turned my back and leaned my head against my mother's neck.I saw the little girl's eyes closed. She was in a deep sleep, and my aunt held her tightly. The posture of my aunt never changed, as if she was afraid that she would fall, or that changing her movements would wake her up.I also hurriedly closed my eyes.

I asked, "Auntie, how are you?"

The mother suddenly turned up the volume: "Of course, how could it be bad?"

But my mother's voice recovered immediately, and said calmly: "Maybe I will come back to visit the grave at the end of the year."

"Isn't the tomb-sweeping done during Qingming?"

My mother said: "People now take American passports, of course they follow the American habit, and they can do whatever they want."

I said, "Would you like to come over as a family?"

Mother said: "Yes, a big family."

The mother added: "Eric is younger than you and already has two children."

I said, "Yeah, I have two kids."

Mother sighed.I said: "Go to bed early, or you will miss the beauty sleep time."

My mother asked me, "Do you think I'm old?"

Her voice was cold.I said, "The last time we went out to eat with Xiuxiu, didn't we all think you were cousins?"

Mother smiled: "Am I a cousin or a cousin?"

I smiled and said, "Cousin, of course it is my cousin."

My mother was still laughing, and I was smoking and flicking ash.

On the way from the castle to the Disney exit, there were too many people, and we got separated from my aunt and the others.My mother asked me: "Can't you walk by yourself? Do you know that it's very tiring to hold you? How old are you and you still need someone to hold you?"

She asked me: "Why don't you grow up? Why are you so clingy?"

I said, "I'm sorry."

She said, "Don't cry."

She said: "Mom is reasoning with you. Do you know that when you grow up, when you are tired, there will be no one to hug you anytime and anywhere, and you can find someone to rely on. No one will come and talk to you. Reason, there is no reason to talk about in the world of adults."

I nodded and I said, "I see. I'm sorry."

At night, I couldn't sleep and sat on the toilet in the toilet.Mother knocked on the door and asked, "Are you in?"

I said, "I'll be right out."

"Can Mom come in?" she asked.

"Can you open the door for Mom?" she asked.

I went and opened the door for her, and she stood in the doorway, in her pajamas, knelt down and hugged me.I was so small, she had to kneel down to hold me.She hugged me, touched the back of my head, and spoke to me softly.

"Are you mad at mom?"

I shook my head and said, "I didn't."

I can't be mad at her.I can't hate her, because she is my mother, she loves me, everything she does, every word and deed is out of maternal love.There is no mother who does not love her child.Therefore, a child should not be angry with his mother, and a child should not hate his mother.Absolutely not.

She took me back to my room to sleep, we turned on the bedside light, an adult and a child squeezed into a single bed.My mother told me stories.

long long ago……

I don't remember the content of that story.I remember my aunt came to see my mother, they sat on the edge of the bed and talked, their arms were close to each other, very intimate, and they spoke English.

My aunt smiled and stroked my hair, and said, "You still tell him stories? I don't have the energy anymore. Raising a child is really terrible."

Mother smiled, very sweetly.

Mother said: "I don't know who you learned your glibness from, did you learn it from your father?"

I smiled.My mother said: "I sorted out the things at home today and sorted out an old photo of you. It was not Halloween at that time. Isn't there a haunted house like that near my aunt's house? You go in and play. You are so brave. The other children are so scared." Whoa, whoa, who came out with a sad face, you didn't, you even took a photo with the mummy at the door."

I said, "How do I remember being a vampire?"

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