Cupid winks

, Bodhisattva.

Namo Amitabha.

In the afternoon, I went back to the dormitory, stood in the kitchen for a while, looked outside for a while, but there was no sign of Xiuxiu, so I sat down in the living room, plugged in the charger for my mobile phone, and sat until the evening.The sun was setting, and it was dark in the blink of an eye.It is said that although Apollo is the god of the sun, another god is in charge of the sunrise and sunset.I forgot his name.Xiuxiu must know.She knew the names and features of so many gods, and when she saw a white arm, she knew it was Hera's arm, and when she saw a pair of sad eyes, she knew it belonged to Leto.I went to bed and lay down for a while, but couldn't fall asleep, so I went straight to come back.

It was just after six o'clock, and someone took my order.The guest came in, not tall, wearing a peaked cap, a mask, sunglasses to protect his eyes, and a long coat, wrapped airtightly, which is what a regular guest would do when he comes again.Not surprised, I spread a towel on the massage table and asked, "Do you want to take a shower first?"

The guest didn't answer, so I looked back at him. The guest was still standing behind the door. He took off his hat, glasses, and mask.It's her, not him.This guest is Xiuxiu.

I turned on all the lights in the room and said, "Let Ye Haowen come and pick you up."

Xiuxiu squeezed her hat and mask and said, "Don't contact him, I'm running away from home now."

I find it funny: "Protest him fooling around outside?"

She shook her head.She looked at me, big eyes, long eyelashes, small face, pointed chin, watery eyes, cute and pitiful.I sighed, a very long and heavy sigh, I didn't even think that I would make such a sound, I patted my chest, suppressed my shock, and said, "Did you come to see me for something?"

Xiuxiu said: "You said I was fine, but you still told me you were sorry, I know you meant it sincerely."

"Shuxue." She called my name and cried, "I'm sorry."

It's been a long time since no one said sorry to me, so I took out a few tissues and handed them to her, and asked, "Should I find a friend to pick you up?"

Xiuxiu didn't want tissues, she wiped her eyes with the back of her hand, and said with a bit of resentment: "I didn't want to cry, but when I opened my mouth, I cried before I could say all that I wanted to say. When women cry, others say If you don't take it seriously, you think she is trying to gain sympathy and pretend to be pitiful."

I said, "If you can't control your tears, it means you are showing your true feelings, you still have feelings, and you are not some walking dead."

I stuffed the tissue into her hand, Xiuxiu took the tissue and pressed it viciously against her eyes, saying viciously, "I'm going to cut off the lacrimal gland, it should have been done long ago, once and for all."

I laughed: "Let's wait for you to develop this business. It must be very profitable. No one will shed tears, no one will feel sorry for themselves, and no one will feel embarrassed because they don't know what to say to comfort them. It is mutually beneficial."

Xiuxiu glared at me and said angrily, "Isn't this good? This way the society will be more harmonious, and how many emotional disputes will be reduced!"

I suggested again: "Then ask Sun Yu to pick you up?"

Xiuxiu became impatient: "Why do you keep driving me away?" She sat down on the massage table, her tears stopped, she clutched a tissue and spoke forcefully, the veins on her neck and forehead burst out: " It’s true that I don’t have any friends, what I told you is true! I didn’t lie to you, I just concealed part of the truth.”

I rubbed my temples, my head ached, and I said, "Have you had dinner? Shall we go get something to eat?"

She moved her lips, but her expression was relaxed, but two lines of hot tears slid down her face again, she wiped her face and eyes indiscriminately, and said in a nasal voice: "Don't drive me away."

I was helpless: "It's too inappropriate for you to come here," I said, "And I really broke up with Ye Haowen, we have nothing to do, I..."

Xiuxiu interrupted me: "I don't want a divorce, I want to sue him, and I want you to testify in court."

My head hurt even more, Xiuxiu said: "He rarely maintains such a long relationship with one person, I just want to see what kind of person he is."

I laughed, and laughed from the bottom of my heart: "Ye Haowen said that your relationship is complicated. From what you said, it is quite complicated."

Xiuxiu nodded, stayed silent for a moment, looked at me, and asked, "You know he likes Sun Yu, right?"

I completely surrendered to their complicated relationship, I sat next to Xiuxiu, lit a cigarette, Xiuxiu took it to smoke, and I lit another.We smoked and she leaned against me, talking to me.

"Ye Haowen has been spoiled. He has had whatever he wanted since he was a child, so once there is something he can't get or wants, he will never forget it."

I replied: "Who is not? What is not available is precious."

Xiuxiu was disgusted: "I'm telling you seriously, don't recite the lyrics!"

I smiled and squinted at her, and she raised her eyelids slightly to look at me. We looked at each other for a few seconds, and both of us laughed out loud.She leaned closer and tighter to me, and put an arm around one of my arms, but she didn't speak.After sitting in silence for a while, after smoking half a cigarette, Xiuxiu spoke again: "Actually, you two are quite alike."

I said, "Why didn't I realize that your myopia is so deep?"

Xiuxiu giggled, "Crazy." She patted the back of my hand, took two puffs of cigarettes, and said, "Do you know why he married me?"

"Of course it's because he likes you." I said.This is also Ye Haowen's answer.

Xiuxiu responded, then cleared her throat, and said, "One day, I asked him why no matter how much a man says he loves you, how much he likes you, how much he considers you, how much he understands you, but on the bed, you don't want to , he can no longer understand, he thinks that you are teasing him, that you are playing some kind of show of refusal, and he thinks he can do anything to you. I asked him, is love necessarily To be associated with sex, sex itself is out of the need for reproduction, if there is only love without sex, can we become more advanced people?" Xiuxiu chuckled, "Maybe because I cried while talking , He said to me, you are fine. He said the same thing as you. I said, don't talk about the scene, and he asked me if I would like to marry him. "

Having said this, Xiuxiu stopped.I asked, "Did your ex-boyfriends watch too many Japanese romantic action movies?"

Xiuxiu sighed, gently, a wisp of smoke drifted to me with her sigh.Her hair brushes against my neck, and she smells of jasmine mixed with citrus and clove.I couldn't help sniffing a few more times.Xiuxiu continued: "Ye Haowen and I are childhood sweethearts, do you know that we feel like family members? Originally, a husband and wife would become family members after getting along for a long time. We skipped many years, many adjustments, and many steps." , directly entered an ultimate state of marriage. I understood this matter very well, but because he didn't understand, I was confused by him. I said I wanted to change the environment, and I came to Rongshi during the summer vacation of junior high school After a while, he liked this place very much, so he said he wanted to come here. He changed his job without saying a word, and moved here with me. His mother quarreled with him for a long time. She watched Ye Haowen very closely, as if she was afraid that she would He seemed to be lost in the blink of an eye. Ye Haowen wanted to go to Europe to study at university, but she refused. And it's still very cold, the curtains at home are tightly drawn, his mother is afraid of getting sunburned, during the day, no matter which room he goes to, the servant will immediately pull up the curtains. I said that I don't want children in the future, it's Ye Hao Wen went to talk to his mother, but his mother called me and recommended some professional surrogacy for me, which made me feel dizzy."

I said, "Their home should have a smart butler that can control the curtains with a mobile phone."

Xiuxiu laughed: "Why are you worrying about them!" After laughing enough, she sighed again, and continued to talk about Ye Haowen, "I said I wanted a studio, so he bought it for me. I want to eat blueberry pie , I don’t think the food here is delicious, he looks for friends, finds pastry chefs, asks him to come over to open a shop, he helps with promotion, marketing... He has been with me for too long, I am too dependent on him, you know? This sense of dependence seriously hindered my judgment. I mistakenly thought that there was really any love between us. I thought Sun Yu was his favorite man, and I was his favorite woman. It's ridiculous, I mean I am ridiculous, he is pitiful."

I said, "Then I also want to experience the pitifulness of being served by servants, living in a big house, driving a BMW, and wearing a Rolex."

Xiuxiu laughed tremblingly, so I said, "I know, we want to be more advanced people."

She asked me, "Then do you know what is the biggest challenge to be a more advanced person?"

"Resist the temptation of desire."

Xiuxiu said: "It's inertia!"

"As for Ye Haowen, since he was a child, he only went to one shopping mall to buy clothes and shoes. He thought he loved the taste of this shopping mall. In fact, going to that shopping mall was just his habit. Of course, he was also so puzzled. He He also tried other shopping malls, but unfortunately none of them appealed to his liking, so he believed that the shopping mall he had been going to since childhood was his favorite. "Xiuxiu raised her eyes to look at me, with many wrinkles on her forehead," I like to drink orange juice since I was a child. I have tried other drinks, but I think they are not as good as orange juice. As time goes by, I don’t want to try anything else. I order orange juice everywhere. When I drink orange juice, I think of orange juice. , but one day, someone gave me a glass of sparkling water, and I love sparkling water now.”

I scratched the bridge of my nose: "People, drinks, and shopping malls are still not the same."

Xiuxiu raised the corners of her mouth and said, "Even if Sun Yu is engaged to another man, he won't look too much at it."