Cupid winks

My neck, and then around my shoulders.She was sweating, her face and neck were wet, her breathing was heavy, she spoke intermittently: "Shu Xue... Shu Xue... I have to go... I have to go, I have to go... I have to go..."

Just as I was about to ask her where she was going, she let go of me, opened her arms, stood on the sofa again, bowed like a curtain call, and when she raised her head again, she made a grimace: "Of course! My favorite It's still me!"

She looked out, jumped off the sofa, ran into the kitchen, pushed open a door, and ran outside. Outside was the yard, but there was still a light layer of snow covered with cobblestones and lawns, and the dead branches hadn't been pulled out yet. Young shoots, the backyard where the dead leaves have not yet fallen.

Xiuxiu stopped in the yard, took off what she was holding, and threw it out.I think it might be a wedding ring.

Ye Haowen rushed out and shouted: "Zhong Lingxiu! Are you crazy??"

Xiuxiu cheered, jumped up, jumped three feet high, ran, and ran even further.The dog started to bark, and amidst the barks, I gradually lost sight of Xiuxiu.

I also went out, Xiuxiu was swallowed up by the night, her laughter mixed with the barking of the dog.Ye Haowen stood under a dead tree.He didn't go any further.

He won't be chasing any more, he shouldn't be chasing any more.He should understand.

I sat on a wooden bench in the backyard, Ye Haowen turned around, and he began to search on the ground.

He was barefoot, and two slippers were scattered not far away.I got up, walked over to pick it up, patted it, and put it aside.Ye Haowen was still looking for something, in the grass, in the snow, he was getting closer to me, and he put on those slippers.

I look at him and he looks at the ground.Inside the house, his cell phone rang again.I looked at him again, and he looked at the living room.I stopped looking at him and he came over.

I hope he doesn't talk.don't say anything.I don't want him to say I'm sorry, I don't want him to say I love you, I don't want him to say any word.I just want him to be silent, as long as he never lets me know what he thinks about me, what he thinks about me, how he sympathizes with me, and how he evaluates me.I just want him to stand there.

Of course Ye Haowen will not become the person I hope for. Our souls have nothing in common. He doesn't understand me, and I don't understand him.Of course he can talk.He said it.He asked me, "Are you going too?"

Where can I go?I've been through so many places, but I've never been to shore, I've been home, and there's no home to go back to.

I said, "Of course."

I said, "Your phone is ringing."

Ye Haowen said: "Will you and I go to the cafe next to the school, to the library, to the rooftop, to the auditorium? Then we will separate. When someone asks you how many times you have been in love, I became the partner of those times." A fraction."

I said, "Your imagination is really rich, and I am only a fraction of yours."

I laughed and said, "One hundredth."

"It might have been like this." Ye Haowen said.

I laughed harder: "You are really thick-skinned."

He said, "I think of you now when it snows."

"Oh, I'm a quarter," I said. "You answer your phone, it keeps ringing, it's annoying."

"It's annoying to talk to you, you know?"

"I don't want to talk to you either." I said, raising my eyes to look at him, "It must be Sun Yu's call."

Ye Haowen stared at me, without blinking, and said, "Why does your Black King Kong tell everyone that he will take them to Kuala Lumpur? Is Kuala Lumpur a good place? Gold is everywhere, and what comes out of the faucet is gold." Honey?"

I said, "I hate you, you know? I don't count you in my fraction."

He said, "You too. You don't count, you don't count, you don't count in that."

I smoked, and he said: "Xiuxiu said, you have to make it clear, but I can't make it clear, you said I don't owe you, but I just can't help but think that way, I just feel guilty, I just... I have such Is it because I can't like you?"

I said, "Why do I have to be one more? Like it or not, love it or not, such a troublesome thing, you have to count me in?"

He said: "I don't know, I don't know where to classify you. Sun Yu doesn't need to contact me, leave me, Xiuxiu can leave, they can leave me, they can all leave. I don't want you to leave. Also I don't want you to come, I want to find you."

His phone was still ringing.It was so loud that I couldn't think.I went in and picked up Ye Haowen's phone, it wasn't from Sun Yu, it was from Hebin Nursing Home.

Feng Fangfang died.She endured it for two years, suffered a stroke recurrence, and was paralyzed on one side of her body. Only one eye could see people flexibly, looked at me, hated me, and her fingers were as stiff as chicken feet.

I didn't see her for two months and she died.

Ye Haowen came back in, and I gave him the phone.He listened to the phone, spoke, and hung up.I sat on the corner of the sofa and he sat next to me.I looked outside, and the sky was getting bluer and warmer.The white snow reflects the golden light.I pointed to a particularly bright and dazzling place and said, "Is it there?"

We go out and find that highlight.After searching for it for a short time, Ye Haowen found it. It was indeed a ring, like the wedding ring that Xiuxiu always wears.Ye Haowen wiped off the snow on it and handed it to me.Xiuxiu's fingers are slender, and my left little finger can barely fit it on.I lit a cigarette, Ye Haowen also lit a cigarette, we stood where we found the ring and smoked.The sun was out, but it was still cold, and I said, "That's how the little match girl froze to death."

Ye Haowen first laughed, then cursed.I smiled and cursed too.

According to the rules of the financial market, people who died in the family have to be taken home for seven days, and then cremated and buried after the first seven days.I have the key to Feng Fangfang's house, and after discussing it with Ye Haowen, I will go back to Feng Fangfang's house to clean up, buy some silver ingots and incense candles, and decorate the altar.I also bought a stainless steel basin and some chicken, duck and fish as offerings.For the portrait of Feng Fangfang, I used her image in a family portrait hanging on the living room wall of her home.In that photo, she is still young, smiling happily, Yin Liangyu may only be in her teens.I took this photo and searched for a long time before I found a video store, scanned the photo, cut out the picture, and enlarged her appearance.

When I was laying out the offerings on the altar, the person responsible for the funeral service came. It was a middle-aged man named Tian Fuhai. Sweeping the room, he said, "I don't want these chickens, ducks and fish meat, I don't want them."

I took chicken, duck and fish into the kitchen.Tian Fuhai said, "Is there any wine?"

I said, "Only cooking wine for cooking."

"Also."

I poured a glass and he said, "That's too much."

I was going to pour some, but he hurriedly persuaded me, saying, "No, no, this wine can't be poured, you drink some."

I drank some, and he asked again, "Is there any glutinous rice?"

I shook my head and said, "I'll go out and buy later."

He said: "Well, no hurry, no hurry, did the monk find it?"

I nodded. The monk was found by Xiaobao. Xiaobao used to eat fast in the temple of his hometown for several years. There seems to be a huge human network between temples. He is no longer a monk, but he knows all the monks everywhere. Some.According to the rules of the financial market, when a person dies, for the first seven days, he must find a monk to do Buddhist rituals for seven days.

Tian Fuhai lit a cigarette, pointed to the altar, and said, "Find a cushion and put it here."

I found a sofa cushion and put it where he pointed.He said, "Go down there on your knees."

I knelt in front of the altar, on the mat, and Tian Fuhai stood smoking, and asked me: "Cigarettes, red envelopes, do you have them? If you want to give to the monk, prepare them in advance."

I pointed to my knee and asked, "Can I stand up now?"

Tian Fuhai smiled: "Of course! He hasn't come back yet."

I said, "It's my first time doing this, I don't understand anything, I'm afraid I'll break the rules."

Tian Fuhai said: "Chinese people have the most rules for funerals." He smoked.

I looked at him, and he smiled: "No taboo, no taboo!"

I sat on the ground, lit a cigarette, and smoked.

Ten minutes later, Ye Haowen came, followed by a funeral director. Tian Fuhai's colleague, also surnamed Tian, ​​was called Tian Xiaobing. He introduced that he and Tian Fuhai were cousins. They used to do coffin business in their hometown. For a few years, I followed my cousin to Rongshi to do funerals, and he haunted major hospitals and nursing homes all year round. They also have their own huge network of people. During the time when Feng Fangfang was transported into the house and the location was arranged, Tian Xiaobing received no less than five people. A phone call, and the other end of the phone is either Aunt Li or Aunt Zhang, who is dying of cerebral edema, or a pregnant woman with dystocia, killing two people.There was no small coffin ready-made, so Tian Xiaobing talked on the phone in dialect.

Tian Fuhai and Ye Haowen entertained a group of workers—Feng Fangfang lived in her husband’s house without an elevator, she lived on the top floor, and the plastic coffins and corpses were all carried up by people. pack of cigarettes.He brought a lot of cigarettes and put a lot of red envelopes in his trouser pockets. I went out to buy glutinous rice and bought two more cigarettes along the way.Back at Feng's house, Tian Fuhai came to ask me something again, asking me: "Who will accompany you today?"

I said: "I will."

I saw Ye Haowen, he was sealing money into a red envelope.I said, "He's going to work."

Tian Fuhai asked: "Just you two? Are there any other relatives? Are you on the way?"

Xiaobao was indeed on his way, and Manager Fan also said he was coming.I said, "On the way."

"Incense can't be broken, you know that?" Tian Fuhai said, pointing to the incense candles on the altar.

I nodded, and he added, "The tinfoil should also keep burning."

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