Cupid winks

Without waiting for him to speak, I knelt down on the ground first, kowtowed three times, rubbed my eyes and started crying: "Chen Yun knows it's wrong, Chen Yun knows it's wrong."

I hurriedly took out the ten yuan note, handed it to He Yin with both hands, and said sobbingly: "Master, it's all here. If you want to beat and scold, you can beat and scold. If Chen Yun hasn't been repaired, you still have to do it." Only by being beaten and scolded, and by suffering, can..."

I can still make it up, but at this time I have to ask He Yin to make it up, so I looked up at He Yin, he took the ten yuan and stuffed it into his pocket, shaking his head and muttering something.

"We do not practice Buddhism to become a master, but to correct the fruit, and to be worthy of ourselves, Chen Yun, do you understand?"

I nodded repeatedly.That night I ran back to Nowhere, lit a candle, and counted my private money.Four tens plus one fifty-cent coin, three ten-cent coins, these four coins knocked the soles of my feet into blisters.I slept with the money in my arms. At that time, I wanted to use the money to go back to Spring City, go back to my parents, and go back to school.I can pay for my own tuition, I can pay for my own food and accommodation, I just want to live with my parents.

I was half asleep when I heard footsteps and woke up immediately. The candle was still burning. I picked up the candlestick and looked into the cave.

Mo Xuyou is a cave, and the name was given by the senior.

The night of the seventh day when my parents sent me to Yunyuan Temple—I was starving me for three days because of fighting with the mortals. On the day I was released, I ran away from the temple.I plunged into the back mountain and lost my way in a blink of an eye. There was heavy rain, lightning and thunder. I was terrified. I finally found a cave and hid in it.I was tired, hungry, and sleepy, and I hadn't put on my shoes yet, and my foot was scratched by stones and wood, and it hurt badly.I miss my dad, I miss my mom, I shed tears when I think about it, I even miss that bad blood clam and that bad liquor.

I do not understand.Am I not the hard-won treasure of my parents? Then why do they want me to suffer so much?

Brother found me in the cave.Brother lost one of his shoes, and his gray robe was torn. He wiped my face and feet, and said, "Xiaobao, you can run far enough."

I burst into tears.Brother took a flashlight, took pictures everywhere, took out a package of biscuits from his arms, the package was soaked, I snatched it, opened it and ate it.The brother said, eat slowly, don't choke.

He pats me on the back lightly.

I nodded and swallowed hard, tried hard to eat.After eating, I looked at the empty packing bag and started crying again.

"Brother! I have nothing left for you!" I cried.

The senior brother laughed, and half of his face with a birthmark was hidden in the shadows.He didn't speak, he touched the ground, found a stone, first scratched the ground, and then scratched the wall of the cave.Brothers draw pictures on the mountain wall.While painting, he said: "It's not that your parents don't want you, they will come to see you and pick you up."

I said, "But I don't want to wait for them to come. I'm so afraid of waiting. I'm afraid I won't be able to wait."

The senior brother stopped talking, he was very serious when he drew the picture, he drew and drew, I looked and looked, and saw some signs, I shouted, shook the senior brother's arm and said, "It's my dad!"

The brother smiled and nodded.He continued to draw, I watched eagerly, waited, I saw he drew my dad, my mom, and my little me, I waited until he drew my dad, my mom, one side, one holding the other holding my hands.I was very happy, but after being happy for a while, I became even more wronged. I hugged my knees and looked at the mural and sniffed.

The brother said: "This is also a lesson in practice. All kinds of things in the mortal world are all past events, and they are all unfounded."

"Xiaobao." Senior brother called me, in the temple, only he would call me Xiaobao.

I looked at him, and the brother said: "One day you will say goodbye to your father and mother, the people you cherish. You are now preparing for this farewell course. When the real farewell comes, you will do well." get ready."

I shook my head and I said, "I don't understand. I don't understand."

I said, "I don't want to be separated from them."

I looked at the mural again, and when I saw my brother, his face became a bit annoying. I didn't want to look at him anymore, so I moved to the side and sat leaning against a big rock.

The brother said: "Let's just call this place Mo Xu, okay? If you get bored in the future, if you get bored with the master, or with the senior brother, you can come here and sit."

I said, "I'm not bothering you."

I said, "I don't know how to practice, and I don't want to practice."

I said, "I want to eat roast chicken." I touched my feet and said, "I want to wear my duckling socks."

Brother came over and stroked my hair, my neck, and my feet.His hands were on my shoulders.My clothes were soaked and stuck to my skin, and the warmth of my senior brother's palms stuck to my clothes, so they also stuck to my skin.

The brother said: "Xiao Bao, it's a good thing to have someone to say goodbye to, but there is no one to say goodbye to, brother."

Brother turned his face to look at me slightly, the birthmark on his side seemed to be burning.I put my head down.Brother is an orphan.He was thrown at the gate of Yunyuan Temple.

I said: "Brother, if you are tired of master, drawing pictures, or being a wooden man, you can come here and sit."

The senior brother laughed twice and said, "Xiao Bao, let's sleep for a while."

He turned off the flashlight.I leaned on my brother to sleep.I feel that he is rubbing my ankle and gently pressing my calf, which is very comfortable and relaxing.I couldn't help but get closer to him.

I was only ten years old that year, and I didn't understand anything.What can I understand?

I feel that my brother is very good, and I want to be close to people who treat me well.Who wouldn't?Who doesn't want to be regarded as a treasure, to be praised, to be spoiled, I have been praised for ten years, my heart and my heart are flying high, I fly to the sky, once I fall into the mud, I meet my senior brother , I thought, he might be the one who came to fish me out of the quagmire, maybe he was the one who wanted to take me back to heaven.Senior brother really dotes on me and spoils me. He knows that I can’t eat enough, so he saves his millet pumpkin porridge and steamed bun rolls for me. He does physical work, and he also has chocolate biscuits to eat. With just one look, I followed him to the small courtyard where he and Uncle Yang had an extra meal.The senior brother and the senior uncle live alone in the yard, and they sleep in the same room. There are three other rooms in the yard, one of which houses a finished wooden Buddha, which is half as tall as me and as big as the palm of the senior brother. , the ones as small as my thumb shell are waiting to be painted; one is full of painted Buddha statues, waiting to bask in the sun, the mountains are cloudy and rainy, and there are very few outright sunny days. People will come to help move out the Buddha statues in this room to dry. After the Buddha statues have been moved, the Buddha is kind-eyed, smiling and enjoying the sun. The monk took the lead in chanting, and everyone followed suit. I secretly looked at my senior brother and secretly drew pictures on the monk's robe. I wanted to be picked up by my senior brother to learn carpentry, so that I could enter and leave his small courtyard openly, without being confused by the world. Tell me not to work in the fields, not to pick up poop for the goats, and to clean up the sheep house. I have to pass the No. 1 exam in the drawing class to be qualified, but I don’t have much talent for drawing, so As soon as I have free time, I paint, Buddha, and brother; there is a room in the courtyard where a lot of wax and wooden stumps are placed. The brother said that it is to prepare more heads for Guanyin with a hundred heads in the future. Yes, someone sent the best sandalwood and boxwood wood to the temple, and they were all stored in that room.

They also piled a lot of wood in the yard, which is slightly inferior to that in the house. In rainy weather, small pieces of wood are moved into the house, and large pieces have to be wrapped with three layers of tarpaulin. .The three rooms are always stocked with black charcoal and some round stone balls.These things absorb moisture.The room where the brother and the others sleep is always stocked with incense. I don’t know what kind of incense. It burns in a bronze censer. The incense is changed frequently. In summer, it’s like green grass. The spirit is uplifting, and there is a sweet smell in autumn. It may also be because every autumn, I will roast chestnuts in the senior courtyard, and the flesh of chestnuts is sweet.The chestnut tree in the back mountain bears wild fruits, and I can pick up a big bag every time I go back. My brother uses scissors to cut open the thorny shell of the chestnuts. I light a fire and throw them into the fire, listening to them crackle and explode, grin smile at me.

winter……

I'm not often in the temple in winter.

Monk Heyin said that I am cute, and when winter comes, it is easy for people to get over it, and it is easy to die in winter. He asked me to go down the mountain with a few masters who are good at playing, playing, and singing. People do funerals.Among the monks who send people to die, there is a cute young monk who seems to be able to earn more money.At first I was unwilling, I didn't want to go down the mountain, I hadn't eaten enough chestnuts, I was still waiting for the sweet potatoes in the winter field to ripen, and I ate roasted sweet potatoes with my senior and uncle Yang.I went to talk to Monk Heyin in his room and said, "Master, there are exams for drawing class and scripture recitation class."

Monk He Yin waved his hand, "I'll give it to you."

I said: "I don't want to pass, I want to take the No.1 exam."

Monk He Yin said: "Chen Yun, fighting for fame and gain goes against the original intention of practice."

I said, "Great Master, many monks in the Buddhist scriptures are debating the scriptures, and they must compete for superiority and inferiority. Isn't that just fighting for fame?"

He Yin said: "That is to fight for the name of the Buddha, for the sake of Buddhism, for the sake of the Buddha."

I said, "Master, if you pass the No. 1 exam in the drawing class, you can learn carpentry. I want to learn carpentry. I want to carve Buddha's good looks for everyone to see, and also make some contributions to the Buddha group."

He Yin looked at me, I looked at him,