as if poisoned

I've been standing still

but you go farther and farther

A lot of painful things happen all the time

But I can't choose to keep

what should i do dear

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"Brother Ye, nothing will happen to them, right?"

I was very worried and anxious, and I kept asking Brother Ye, but Brother Ye kept comforting me. "It's okay, you are a group of well-behaved children, you have done nothing wrong, God will not punish you."

After hearing these words, I feel more at ease, but I also know that Brother Ye's words are just to give me reassurance.

Not long after we went to that place, that place was bustling with people, as if there were a bunch of people talking about it, I walked over to see it, but I heard, "You better call me that guy Ding Yuzhen, or you will look good."

But the voice that haunted me kept circling in my ears: "It's not up to you whether to hand it over or not. Who is he to you, why should I give it to you?"

Although answering like this is like the behavior of a fart child, the sadness in my heart at that moment made me want to cry, and I don't know why.If someone fights with you and you get hurt, and he says he won’t care about you anymore, but within a few minutes he is sweating profusely and holding a pile of ointment to you, I believe your mood at that time is the same as mine is now it's the same.

Brother Ye rushed out first, "Yo ho, a bunch of kids are doing illegal things here."

The group of people got anxious and hurriedly said: "Do... be your head!"

"Hmm, otherwise, what are you doing here? A group of people are surrounded by two people."

At this time, Li Rong was probably scared, and said, "Let's go." Then he left.

"You don't need to save me with good intentions, we can solve it ourselves." Sheng Jia said.

I squeezed my head so hard that I couldn't think of a single word. The only thing I could think of was two words, "Thank you."

Shengjia looked at me in surprise, not understanding why I said that.

"Thank you for liking me, thank you for encouraging me when I needed it most, and even now for protecting me. I want to say a lot but I can only say thank you. Thank you...friend."

After finishing speaking, the three of them were all stunned, and I smiled and said, "Let's go, it's not safe here."

The four of us left there and all went back to my house.

Sheng Jia took my hand, "Let's talk."

I dodge Sheng Jia's tugging, "No, we have nothing to talk about."

Sheng Jia said in a bad tone, "Don't tell me you want to avoid the fact that it happened?"

"I didn't avoid it, but felt that everything was unnecessary."

"Yuzhi, let's buy tickets for today and go home."

The person who was called was stunned for a moment and said, "Ah, good."

"Ding Yuzhen, from now on you will be you and I will be me." They picked up their backpacks, turned and left.

Sometimes, it must be such an ending, this is the ending, no matter what variables there are.Once it has been decided, it cannot be undone.

☆、Ten years of obsession

Ten years have passed.

Big and small things happened, such as Brother Ye got married.And Ding Yuzhen is the best man.

Brother Ye asked him, "When do you want to have a good life as a partner?"

"I do not know either."

"You stinky bastard, you haven't found one for ten years."

"Hey, Brother Ye, you only got married ten years ago, why should you say me."

He touched the bracelet on his hand, just talking.

It's not that he can't let it go, but that he has become powerless, unable to have so many entanglements and disputes.

In fact, he had already let go of that hug ten years ago.

At this time, the untimely phone rang, and the caller showed 'Mom'.

"Brother Ye, I'll answer the phone."

He turned the phone in Yu Yan's hand to look at it, and when he saw the person on display, his expression became serious, "Remember to speak after your mother, and don't speak too strongly."

Yu Yan smiled, "Have I ever talked to my mother too much?" Brother Ye didn't speak, patted him on the shoulder and walked away.

Press the connect button, "Hello, Mom, what's the matter?"

The other end was silent for a long time before saying, '...I heard that today is your brother Ye's big day, please help me to congratulate him. '

He smiled, "Well, I will."

'Mom, thank you. '

The sudden thank you made her not know how to respond.

"Thank you for not despising me."

'You are my son...'

"Um"

'Empty come back, look, you haven't come back for a long time. '

"Okay, I'll hang up first, I'm still at Brother Ye's wedding."

'goodbye'

"Goodbye"

Five years ago, after he told her mother about that incident in high school, he never went home again, only a greeting during the New Year.

With the money he remits to his mother every month, without saying anything or saying anything, time just keeps passing like this, but he is the one who hasn't changed.

☆, last and last

finally!It's over.

Instead, I didn't know what to say when it was over.Let's talk about what happened to me recently.

I started working in April, so it has been almost three months now. I don’t have much work, but it’s hard work. Just work in a restaurant. How can there be a waiter who doesn’t work hard.

Ah, today is August [-]st. On a certain day last month, I was accidentally injured at work, and a large area was scalded. According to the doctor, it was a second-degree burn.You can go to Baidu to find pictures, so I won’t say much here.

Because I was given a vacation, I started to hang out on the Internet. After being known by a few friends, they introduced me to various things and reminded me of various matters.

I am most grateful to Xiao Huan and Moxibustion, I received the things yesterday, thank you very much, thank you for accompanying me on the road.

Thank you friends who have been waiting for the poisoning to end.

Maybe I will change jobs so that I have more time, and I may buy a computer so that I don’t have to borrow my brother or sister’s computer.

To be honest, what I cherish the most about writing articles for so long is the past few years. Your encouragement and giving me a lot of suggestions, I will continue to write and continue what I have insisted on before, but it may be more irregular, thank you.

I want to say a lot before it's over, but I don't know what to say after it's over

The ending of Yu Yan and Shengjia has no ending in the end. This is what I have already decided, and I can't change it. In the final hug, I want them to be together, but this is impossible.Because, their ending is inevitable, and it must be like this.

He loves him, but he doesn't put him in the same position, even mixed with many factors.

Shengjia's setting is to recover quickly, unlike Yu Yan, who hasn't let go of his feelings after ten years.The reason why I didn't write about Shengjia ten years later is that he has already buried the past ten years ago in his heart. Maybe he already has a boyfriend, maybe a girlfriend.But his future must be without him.

Anyway, I have so many Bara, they are destined not to be together.

Anyway, I only write that one be! ! ! ! !When I finished writing, I was about to cry, I was so angry, why did I have to be so cruel, please don’t send me blades, anyway, I don’t look very cruel...

☆, if poisoned

The new article, "Your favorite day of the week", a small sweet article written for poisoning, may be a bit nonsensical, but I hope I can return to my own sweet style.

The premise is that it has nothing to do with poisoning.

It may be bigger or smaller, it all depends on yourself, but it will definitely be more complete. This is a guarantee and a promise

☆、letter1

"After that time"

Ding Yuzhang changed several jobs in the later period, fully displaying his strength in mathematics.Although he never went back to that home.

Later, he met a little sister who had a close relationship with him.

"Sister, you made a mistake in this account. There is an extra zero." The manager said to a younger sister in this way. The younger sister's tone was tense, because he couldn't afford to pay for the lost account.

Ding Yuzhang looked at the manager with a frown, knowing that the younger sister was wrong, but he couldn't help it, and went forward and said to the manager, "Too many? I'll take care of it."

"Yu Yan, you will spoil part-time students like this."

Ding Yuzhen was expressionless, "I've come out about this matter, so that's fine, otherwise I can pay for this bill myself."

The younger sister's frightened expression was slowly calmed down in an instant.When the manager left, the younger sister said thank you to Yu Yan.

"Don't be so careless next time."

The younger sister nodded and stopped talking.

Later, Ding Yuzhen asked the secretary's sister's information, and found out that her sister was actually young, but her grades were not bad, so she was hired as a part-time job.

After all, Yu Yan needs to go abroad occasionally because of the affairs of this company, and even if he comes back, he doesn't need to go back to the company, so he doesn't know how the company is doing now.

The secretary also told Yu Yan that his sister had to go to the other side to work after get off work at [-]:[-] and [-]:[-].

Yu Yan didn't say anything, just took his computer and left.

He appeared again at seven o'clock, watching the younger sister quickly pack up her things and run out.

Then Yu Yan said inexplicably in front of his sister, "Where are you going, I'll see you off."

The younger sister's eyes were a little defensive, which happened to be the right choice for people of that age.

"I heard from Sister Aiwen that you are going to work later, and I will send you off."

"Bad guys don't have bad guys written on their faces."

Yu Yan smiled, this sister is really interesting.It feels a bit the same as him at that time, but different, this sister still has her own hope in her eyes.

In the end, my sister got in the car.

"Actually, what's your name?" Ding Yuzhang asked his sister's name in order not to embarrass the atmosphere.

"Tian Chen"

"how old are you?"

"15"

"15??" Yu Zhan was shocked.

"Yes, turn right ahead."

"Oh"

Really ask what, answer what.

"Wait what job are you doing?"

"Home bar."

"? Then make a small bar??"

Tian Chen smiled, "I didn't appear on stage, wearing a mask, and mostly in the kitchen."

"Why make yourself so tired?"

My sister didn't speak this time. Everyone has things they don't want to say.So he quickly stopped asking the question.

"have you eaten?"

"Wait for something to eat over there."

He suddenly remembered that he had candy in his car, so he brought some to her, "Do you like candy?"

He took it and said thank you.

"You are a little girl, why don't you stay at home well, don't you feel tired when you come out to work at such a young age?"

"tired."

"Then why are you still working?"

"Because I like basketball."

"A girl who likes basketball?"

"Can't it, the women's basketball team is also very good!"

"Yes, yes, little boy."

"What time are you waiting to get off work?"

"Take it easy if you are busy. If you are not busy, it will be past twelve o'clock. Go straight ahead and turn left at the second traffic light."

Yu Yan noticed that there were many small scars on his fingers, which were not very conspicuous, but together they were inexplicably strange.Not many little girls have so many strange scars on their hands.

"Then what time do you get up every day?"

"Five o'clock. It will be earlier because of the need to practice."

Yu Yan thought about it, tomorrow is the weekend, so what? "Practice on weekends?"

"On weekends, practice at six o'clock, tutoring at twelve o'clock, and then practice again."

"...is it going to be here?" Yu Yan, who has been away from school for a long time, silently recalled his previous experience. He didn't want to recall it during that time, but felt that this sister was inexplicably similar to him, and found himself in this sister. shadow.

"Wait, let me take you back, it's always not safe to go back by yourself." Yu Yan said.Because there was someone who would go back with him before, but now that person has passed more than ten years, and I can hardly remember his face.

"No, don't bother, I went back with my other sister." It's already very embarrassing to be sent here once, but it's even more unclear if I have to send it a second time.

"I'll send you back with that sister. There is no difference between two girls and one girl." He said forcefully, without any intention, after all, this era is no longer safe.

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This is a side story. I didn’t have any emotions with the little girl. Yu Yan just found his own sympathy with his younger sister. It’s just a bit of his own sadness. After all, I like writing more than telling, so I want to write it out. .

I hope that Yu Yan will be fine now, that he will find his right partner, and that I can sincerely bless him when he gets married.

☆、letter2

"Is it too late to worry?"

In the next month, they got to know each other very well, but Tian Chen didn't talk too much about himself.Usually he asked a question and he said a question, or he just smiled and joked.

He knew that Tian Chen had a very good boy friend named Peng Kai. When Tian Chen's house was transparent to him, this boy was the first to stand up to help Tian Chen and always encouraged him.

He has never met Peng Kai, but according to Tian Chen, Peng Kai is a pig, and they have known each other for a long time, even Peng Kai taught him how to play basketball.

Once, Yu Yan asked Tian Chen why you played basketball so well.

But Tian Chen said, "Actually, it's not because I play basketball well, but because I worked hard. That's what he got."

Yu Yan feels that Tian Chen is sometimes very mature, but at certain times he is very childish, for example, he likes to eat candy, because in the past few years Yu Yan has become addicted to cigarettes, after seeing Tian Chen cough like When he was about to die, he stopped smoking in front of her. He didn't want a girl to cough and faint like this.So Tian Chen later gave him candy when he could see that he wanted to smoke.

Yu Yan's heart is very gentle, but he doesn't know how to explain it, and he doesn't know how to express it. Maybe there are too few people around him who let him express it, but at certain times, he will automatically show his tenderness.

"Peng Kai picked you up today?"

Tian Chen instantly said happily, "Yes!"

Yu Yan frowned, "Are you really not boyfriend and girlfriend?"

Chang Tian Chen laughed, "That's not true, it happened 800 years ago."

"...Many times, there are many changes."

Yes, it is true that there are many changes in many cases, and people are caught off guard and have no time to change or grasp.

In the few years he has known Tian Chen, he has changed many jobs, and gradually understands why Tian Chen is so evasive and dodges his eyes every time he talks about home.

Because his family doesn't care much about him at all.His parents didn't even know that Tian Chen won the prize.The extra trophies at home thought they belonged to his older brothers and sisters.

This is what Yu Yan found out later, from Peng Kai's mouth.

In the past few years, they gradually got to know each other. Yu Yan also told him about the relationship with Shengjia. Tian Chen had his own ideas and gave Yu Yan a lot of explanations.

But he didn't show any panic or avoidance towards Yu Yan.This made him feel that the times are different now.

It was also later that Tian Chen was able to slowly let go of his heart like Peng Kai, and he even asked Yu Yan to be his parent to go to the parent meeting, which made him a little dumbfounded.

One morning when Tian Chen went to play, he had a car accident. Just as he was about to walk to the practice field, he was directly hit by a small and medium-sized van driving drunk while walking on the side of the road, causing his kneecap to be shattered, but that The driver hit and ran, and he was taken to the hospital by a later motorcycle driver.

Since he was still conscious, he could still dial the number. Tian Chen first dialed his mother's mobile phone number.But the fuck didn't connect.It made Tian Chen a little disheartened.

Several calls to his family did not go through.

So the motorcycle driver first called the hospital for emergency measures.At this time, Tian Chen's tears kept flowing, he didn't know who to call and which adult would help him.

So he pressed Yu Yan's number.

"Hello? Chenchen? Why are you calling at this time?"

Tian Chen cried, "Brother Yu Yan, I'm in so much pain!"

The motorcycle driver wanted to cry when he saw the expression of a little girl in Tian Chen. After all, he had been watching Tian Chen on the phone, but he couldn't get through.

Seeing him crying like this, he probably thought of someone in his family.

Yu Yan was startled, and hurriedly asked where Tian Chen was. The motorcycle driver asked Tian Chen to give him the phone so that it would be clearer for him.

When the driver was talking to Yu Yang, Tian Chen's heart was empty. He didn't know what he could do, because he might not be able to do his favorite sports now.

His grades are only above average now, because his grades in basketball have become below average, which made his parents dislike him even more, so he remembered that his parents were going to accompany his sister to choose a school today.

It turned out that his mother didn't answer the phone because of his sister. Why couldn't he be as good as his sister?

Yu Yan came in a hurry, his clothes were messed up, his face was covered with stubble, he looked like he came in a hurry.

The first thing he said to Tian Chen when he rushed over was, "Don't be afraid, I'm here."

He was also very depressed psychologically, and he didn't know what to do. After all, such a thing had never happened to anyone around him and caught him off guard.

It also made him very distressed. A girl who was still in her youth lost her vitality just like this.

☆、letter3

"There is another kind of temper called anger"

Tian Chen stopped crying and shouting at this time, he accepted many appearances given to him by fate, he was a prisoner bound by fate.Can't escape, can't get out.

The motorcycle driver saw that someone was coming to accompany him, so he walked away.

Tian Chen is going to have an emergency operation now, but he can't do anything before his parents show up. After all, without his parents showing up for the operation, the hospital will be responsible for the accident.

So the doctor told Yu Zhan what the motorcycle driver told him that his parents didn't answer the phone just now, and hoped that Yu Zhan would let Tian Chen decide whether to decide to have the operation by himself or wait for his parents to do the operation.

Moreover, Tian Chen, who has undergone surgery, will not be able to do strenuous exercise in the future.

Of course, basketball can't be played either.

Yu Yan couldn't bear to talk to Tian Chen about such things, after all, such things are very cruel.

He knew that Tian Chen used to drag Peng Kai to practice pitching every morning in order to practice.Even the excitement when Tian Chen said they had a chance to win the championship.And when he was chosen as the captain, although his tone was unhappy, it can be seen from his expression that he is actually very happy.

Yu Yan walked back to his bed and cried.Two tears fell.Tian Chen saw it but he didn't point it out.

He just saw Yu Yan talking to the doctor, and he asked Yu Yan, "Does the doctor have anything to say?"

In fact, Tian Chen can be very strong.In fact, he has everything but seems to have nothing. He has to earn what he wants, but he has parents but is like an orphan. He can be brilliant, but he makes himself like an orphan.No, it was made like an orphan.

Yu Yan said calmly, "The doctor said that he hopes you can undergo surgery as soon as possible."

"Then do it."

Tian Chen thought about it and said this.

After all, whether he does it or not, he feels low in his heart, and he knows the end, because his feet are gradually losing feeling.

"...It's okay." He had never encountered such a thing, so he didn't know how to comfort him and could only say that it was okay.

"Then I'll go talk to the doctor. I'll buy some supplies for you by the way." Tian Chen nodded and stopped talking.

After Yu Yan left, he silently shed tears.I don't know why, the tears flowed down by myself, and I couldn't stop even if I wanted to.

The doctor came in directly and told Tian Chen that the time was scheduled to be 5 minutes later and that he would be anesthetized first, hoping that he would feel better.The doctor has also seen a lot of life and death, and has seen all kinds of things, but he can't help but feel sad when he sees such a young person.He couldn't help shaking his head.

The nurse first came in to give him anesthesia. Although it was anesthesia, he was still awake in some parts at the beginning, and his fingers could still move. He tightly grabbed the white bed sheet of the hospital, and the white sheet pulled wrinkles on it for him. , I can see how unwilling the person who dragged him is.

Originally, he could wait until graduation and be directly selected into the sports school to continue studying what he likes, as if he was also recommended, but now many things are disillusioned because of the car accident.

A car accident is a terrible thing.

And he ran to buy things for a girl to be hospitalized. He didn't know what was needed for hospitalization. He just went to Xiaochao who was near the hospital and bought a lot of things.When paying, the cashier aunt looked at Yu Yan thoughtfully.Yu Yan didn't care if he looked embarrassed, he was afraid that he wouldn't be able to see him when he woke up.

At night, Tian Chen woke up leisurely, and according to the doctor's order, he gave Tian Chen some water to drink.

And Tian Chen's parents just arrived.

"Is this how you leave your daughter in a car accident and go have a good time?"

"We don't care about your business with our daughter, and haven't we come here!" Tian Chen's parents said this to Yu Zun without shame, making Yu Zun explode like that.

"If you don't want a daughter, don't give birth to him. Do you know what awards he has won and what he likes to eat? Do you know what he likes to do! You don't know! You don't know anything! Tian Chen works so hard, you even the tiny I don't even give him the approval, are you parents!"

Tian Chen's parents wanted to refute but didn't know what to say, "Our daughter has to choose a school..."

It made Yu Yan explode, "Okay! You really don't want Tian Chen to cut him off and let him be raised by me. Do you know that because yours didn't answer the phone, he didn't want to have the operation, and he almost fell into a critical condition. I won’t be able to walk anymore! He likes basketball so much, he goes to practice every morning, do you know that because of your preference, your daughter almost lost what she had left!”

Tian's father and Tian's mother didn't want to refute this time, but they couldn't refute at all.

No one went forward to talk to Yu Zhan, because the parents simply owed scolding.And the doctors and nurses here also know that the little sister who was sent to the hospital this morning contacted her parents first, but they couldn't.

"Brother Yu Yan, stop arguing with them, I want to sleep."

After hearing what he said, Yu Yan slowly calmed down his anger.Turning back, Hetian's father and mother said with gloomy eyes, "I hope you will cherish this time, because being able to come back this time does not mean that you will be able to come back next time.

What else can he say.Because of Tian Chen's pity and weakness, did he allow such a person to hurt himself again and again?

He felt sorry for Tian Chen, at least he was loved by his parents and had a happy family.

But Tian Chen's father doesn't love him, and his mother doesn't love him, probably before he was born or had memories.But after remembering, I don't remember such a thing at all.Moreover, he has always been introverted, and he is considered a defect, so what can be changed.

☆、letter4

"In this world, there is nothing you can regret. 』

Later, Tian Chen was slowly recovering. During the two or three months, it was really painful. His feet could not match his body and his thoughts, which made it very difficult to walk.Fortunately, Tian Chen had been exercising before, so the foundation remained.So after the difficult period passed, it was very convenient.

During this period, Tian Chen kept writing a lot of things, not about himself, but about others, about the world, which also contained a lot of darkness.But he also has very warm things, such as Yu Yan's every move.

In fact, she really thinks that Yu Yan is the best person in the world. After all, he and her have no reason to help him like this. Although she knows that Yu Yan may have her own reasons, she still feels that Yu Yan is really soft.

He was thinking that if he really had such a brother, he would really be able to accept it.Don't have such a cold family, as long as there is someone who loves and understands himself, it will be fine.Even if there is no family, it is not bad to have such a person.

By the way, besides Yu Yang, there is also Peng Kai.

Could it be that he is destined to be closer to people who are not related by blood than those who are related by blood?

Tian Chen has known Peng Kai since he was very young, but at that time, he only knew him, and he was not very familiar with him. I remember that once, because his parents opposed his painting, he had a big fight for a while, and then there was another time Tossing and turning, crying loudly in a nearby park early in the morning, was seen by Peng Kai. At that time, Peng Kai was growing up, so he liked basketball.

He held the basketball and asked Tian Chen, "Will you play a game?"

So Tian Chen complied. Although he lost completely in the end, he began to be more interested in basketball.Later, he could even decide his own life because of basketball.But on the road of liking basketball, he never gave up the various interests he liked.

He is very grateful that Peng Kai will always show up when he needs it most, and give him a helping hand, like her exclusive Doraemon.

But fate always plays tricks on people, when Tian Chen's car accident happened just when he was recovering from depression.Peng Kai also had a car accident, and fate seemed to be playing a joke on the world, which caught people off guard.

But unfortunately, he didn't have a chance to fight, but was directly given up.

Maybe his life was revenged on the people around him. For some reason, he felt abandoned by the world.Time really doesn't like him.Keep people around who don't like him and who he doesn't like either.

And the person you like will eventually leave you.Still in this way.

Tian Chen did not attend Peng Kai's funeral.

It was Yu Yang who attended instead.Of course Yu Yan also knew Peng Kai's mother.After he got acquainted with Tian Chen, the second kid he got acquainted with was Peng Kai.

He is a very sunny person and takes good care of others. Even though he looks carefree on the outside, he still has a soft look in his heart.Maybe he wanted a younger sister very much, so he gave Tian Chen all his brother-sister love.

However, such a lovely boy just left.

When I was only 18 years old in my life.

He still has a lot of dreams, and a lot of happiness, and he never even said goodbye.He didn't know how depressing and terrifying it would be without him in Tian Chen's world.

On the day of his funeral, it was raining all the time, and Yu Yan knew that it was the weather that Peng Kai and Tian Chen hated the most.

Once it was raining, he took Tian Chen and Peng Kai with him, and they both said at the same time, "It's raining again, it's so fucking annoying."

Yu Yan smiled and said nothing.Patronizing to listen to the two of them chatting.

"Yes, you can practice when it rains."

"Silly x There is something called an indoor gymnasium in this world."

"No, I have to save money, I can't go to such an expensive place."

"Silly x, I'll go, you follow me."

"Hey hey! You big fool x"

So rainy days don't seem to be so annoying anymore.

But now it still seems to be the same sticky, which makes people helpless and annoying.

On that day, it also rained in Tian Chen's room.

If there is anything in time, I must say to you, thank you, but it may be too late, because you are no longer here.

Remember, many times because of our delay, we cannot speak out, but often when we want to speak, it is too late.

No matter what it is because it is too late, anyway, what you want to say or do, in the end, you have to hide it in your heart because the other party has left.

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The main writer of Tian Chen's short episode, probably, it's over here, I really can't write any more.When Peng Kai passed away, it felt like he was really lost.Unbearable.

[The characters in this article are all pseudonyms, any similarity is purely coincidental. 】