Glass man

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"Don't be so troublesome, I won't sit here for long. Why, is she still sleeping?"

Cheng Jiang stood quietly at the entrance, hanging the down jacket she had dragged down in the small closet for her, and heard her continue to say:

"At eight or nine o'clock at the latest, the child must get up, otherwise it will be bad for physical development. Don't take it for granted that the baby will sleep as long as it needs to sleep, do you know? As a parent, you can't always be perfunctory You have to take care of yourself and read more relevant information, understand? You are such an old man, why are you still so immature?"

Cheng Jiang took a few steps back into the living room.

"She's already up, but I asked Ji Qing to take her out. This time you come, I want...to talk to you."

Cheng Yue smiled.

"You want to talk to me? Okay, I probably know what you're going to say. Is it Cheng Yue's business?"

Cheng Jiang nodded.

"Don't tell me you regret it. This kind of thing is not child's play."

"But this is too hasty, too hasty."

Cheng Jiang poured her a cup of black tea, which he brewed after Cynthia and Shen Jiqing left.After drying the tea for a long time, it was no longer hot, so she picked it up and took a sip.

"Don't put me off with childish excuses like time is endless. You're always like: 'It's too fast, don't rush me, don't rush me', as if you think everything will follow you It's like slowing down. I don't want to interfere with you too much. You are always like this, and you can't change it. I didn't say anything to you when you almost couldn't settle down in high school. I didn’t say anything about you, it’s all your own business. This time it’s not your own business, you should think about it, no matter what, the child has already been born and can’t go back. You are going to waste time with me Wait until your daughter's childhood is exhausted, or become more mature and make a rational decision like an adult?"

Cheng Jiang also poured himself a small half cup of tea, but he just stroked the cup with his fingers, and he didn't drink it for a long time.He thought blankly for a moment, then continued to argue in a low voice:

"But I told her yesterday, and she couldn't accept it."

Cheng Yuegu almost sneered.

"That's nice, 'she can't take it'? 'She doesn't want to go'? You're getting older and now you're making decisions based on the words of a two-year-old who doesn't even have a fully developed brain? Such a big kid You know what, don't look at her unhappy now, when she really goes to the United States, she will be able to fully adapt to it in a month at the latest, and she may not want to come back by then. She doesn't understand anything now, which child doesn't like to stay in the United States? At home? Does that allow her to do whatever she wants? As a father, shouldn't you make a correct decision for her and make more plans for her in the future? "

"She will always feel that I don't want her." Cheng Jiang murmured in a low voice.

"Always? Little Jiang, you think too highly of a baby's memory. What can she remember at this age? In the future, she will even forget that she has lived in China, and will she still remember such insignificant details? ?”

Mother's voice softened slightly, and she said:

"I know you can't bear to part with her. After all, you have worked so hard to raise her for two years, but you have to know what is best for her. Do you think I felt good when I came out of Lengwan by myself? Do you think Was it easy for me to make that kind of decision? At that time, I would never see you again after I left! Now that you have come out, I have nothing to say, but you are naturally suitable for the cold bay This kind of atmosphere, if I leave, maybe you can be more independent and live a better life, you see, isn’t it confirmed now? Regardless of how you are now, at least you have made up your mind to come out. Just like me back then, At the critical moment, you have to be hard-hearted, think about it, didn't I also hard-heartedly leave because of you back then?"

After she finished speaking, she carefully observed her son's expression, but found that Cheng Jiang's expression did not relax, and even seemed to be more resistant to the things that had already been decided.She frowned and sighed helplessly:

"Why are you so stubborn this time?"

Cheng Jiang clutched the rim of the cup tightly and looked up at her for a long time.The water in the teacup was already warm, but there seemed to be steam in his eyes, forming a stubborn expression that didn't fit his previous personality.

"...for me? I never thanked you for that."

"I don't need you to thank me, and I don't need you to understand my painstaking efforts."

Cheng Jiang's eyes narrowed slightly, and without waiting for her response, he continued:

"I don't care what pains you have, and I don't care what you think of your own choice. But I... I have always hated you."

"You hate me? You—"

"I'm not a two-year-old kid, I was back then. You could have told me in advance, given me a chance, let me try, so that even if I can't pass the interview, I have worked hard. But you didn't, mother, You waited until it was too late to tell me you were leaving, leaving me alone in Cold Bay. From beginning to end, you gave me no choice. Shouldn't I?"

"As I said, it's because you are suitable to stay in Cold Bay. Although you are not young, I am the person who knows you best, and I know what is right."

"What's right? What kind of person is right for Cold Bay? You said it: Nowhere in the world does Cold Bay offer tranquility and basic needs for all, but that's about it. It guarantees its inhabitants Can live normally and equally, but it does not guarantee anything else, and all those left behind are willing to live without waves for the rest of their lives. This is what you use to coax me. You know you have always been coaxing me. How , Coaxed to the end, did you even believe it yourself? You don’t know what Cold Bay is like? You don’t want to live paralyzed, and you are willing to fight at all costs, even if you don’t know what it is like after you leave Cold Bay. How to live and what to do. That's how you are, and I don't blame you. But why didn't you ever think that I could be like this?"

"But you and I—"

"In Cold Bay, a loser will always be a loser. That's what you think of me, don't you, Mom? You say I'm weak, you say I'm not aggressive, you say I'm Unintegrated, it's you. I know you're right, I know you're just saying what you see, but was I really born this way? Why didn't I go to college, Mom, why didn't I? It was you who said I couldn't do anything well, so I just went to learn English. It was you who reminded me over and over how out of place I would be in college, since I was in junior high school - you were in control of me. We used to This pattern has been lived for so long that we take it for granted. Mom, everything I did, and everything I did before you left me, was not at your beck and call .Every idea of ​​mine is established after your processing, because you are always the right person, as long as I have a different opinion from you, your answer will always be 'impossible'. As long as I do not meet Your thoughts matter, and your response is always to correct me. It took you 17 years to teach me one thing: one of us will always be wrong, and that person will never be you."

"Why do you feel that way?"

Uncharacteristically, Cheng Jiang interrupted her again.

"You said I was irresponsible, that I was selfish and willful, and you were right. But didn't you, mother! When you left me in Cold Bay to fend for myself, did you think about what would happen to me after? How do you know? ——You—what qualifications do you have to accuse me and tell me what to do? You think that I am suitable to live in Cold Bay, find a stable job, and be in a stable partner. You want to use these ten words to summarize my life? You have a rough idea of ​​my life, you think you're right, you think you're all for me, but it never occurred to you that I'm an independent thinker like you, and I make my own decisions You don't know that once I'm gone, I have to survive in another way. You only see me out of your expectation, you don't see what I went through before I decided to leave Cold Bay, you never think that my heart will There was any pain and struggle, and you never thought my pain was as real as yours...you don't understand!"

Cheng Yuegu's ten fingers slid onto the table and pressed tightly on the table, as if trying to suppress something.Cheng Jiang had lost control, his voice fluctuated from high to low, and the voice of frustration began to become very obvious, and the sound broke several times, like strings being cut by a knife.

"I hate you so much, because you... make me feel that I am your burden. You never feel that you are wrong, but you make me feel that I have become that unbearable, and even when you leave me, I am all alone Man's fault. I blame you for abandoning me after discovering my flaws, and never trying to help me change. You don't believe that I will grow up, you want me to stay where you think I should be, You want me to be safe and secure at the bottom of the well forever and I'd rather never see the sky. You never know how much I hate myself for being weak and incompetent for staying where I am because I'm never worth it Leave the people I want to stay. I hate you for letting me become a weed that no one wants, a parasite, a puppet doll that needs to be pulled on a string. You abandoned me after you made me feel like I deserved it, you Think I should be content, but you don't know...you don't know..."

The string finally broke because it couldn't support it.Cheng Jiang looked across in despair, at the woman with blue eyes.Mom, Cynthia, Evelyn, everything that bears the brand of Lengwan... I don't know if it's the people he loves or hates, the people who abandoned him or was abandoned by him, or a combination of them, intertwined into a... A knot that he could not escape in his entire life.

He finally burst into tears.

"...I tried my best but I could only live without dignity, inferior and weak all my life, always living in your shadow, always casting your shadow on everything. Every moment... afraid of being abandoned again .”

The author has something to say: In fact, in retrospect, "The Glass Man" is actually a novel that is not close to life (?), probably a little more dramatic.

For example, the long dialogue between Cheng Jiang and Cheng Yuegu, no one would speak like this in reality...

Thanks for reading patiently, bow~

☆、chapter66

After a cathartic confession, the things that gushed out of Cheng Jiang's heart disappeared.Only some leftover, scattered dirty blood was left, oozing out little by little, and it was about to flow away.Cheng Yue was uncharacteristically slow to answer the call. For a while, Cheng Jiang could only hear Cheng Jiang's rapid sobbing and gradually calming breath in the living room.

After a while, he reached for the cup in front of him, and slowly drank the tea in it in one gulp.

He drank the last drop of cold tea, and instead of putting down the cup, he lifted it slightly up again, just enough to cover one eye.He looked at Cheng Yuegu's face through the transparent and thick bottom of the cup, and found that her eyes in his eyes were changing back to their true colors.

Cheng Jiang put down his teacup.

The teapot was insulated, so he picked it up, and filled her with the old quilt in silence.This action is actually meaningless, because she hasn't drunk much tea since she came in, and the cup is almost full.Then he refilled his quilt with tea, and his movements became more natural.

He continued to sip his tea, and finally he was able to move his eyes away from the table, looking at Cheng Yuegu's face with the remaining warmth of courage that had just burst out.

But Cheng Yuegu was looking at the table instead.

I don't know if it was a psychological effect, Cheng Jiang felt that she looked a little dazed.He felt a little worried, because he had never talked to her like this before, and he was worried that she would not be able to accept it; he was also a little guilty, because what he just said had been deformed due to being suppressed for too long, and some of it was actually unfair; finally And a little bit of fear, not knowing if this conversation would deliver the final coup de grace to their already precarious mother-son relationship.

He wanted to say sorry to her, that I didn't mean to say that, but he couldn't.Because among all his mixed emotions, there is no regret alone.

Cheng Yuegu finally withdrew his eyes from the table.

For the first time in his life, Cheng Jiang felt that she was hesitant, and that she was just a fragile, ordinary woman who was over forty years old.He hated, feared and hated her always strong appearance deep in his heart, but when she really shed that unattainable outer skin, he couldn't bear it.

He watched his hand slide across the table like a reptile, and silently held Cheng Yue's hand that was still pressed on the table.She wore several rings on her slender fingers, none of which were bright red or green, except for a diamond ring, which were all plain rings, all stuck in Cheng Jiang's palm.

Cheng Yuegu finally spoke:

"I understand what you mean."

Cheng Jiang didn't answer, she paused, and then said:

"But I actually... I... I love you."

"I know." Cheng Jiang said.

She starts to cry.

After Cheng Yuegu's mood stabilized, Cheng Jiang refilled her tea, because she drank all the tea without knowing it.

It seemed that she had just gotten off the cable car to a valley that neither of them were used to. At this time, she took another car up the mountain, but the speed was not fast, and she was barely back halfway up the mountain.

This height is just right.

"You were actually a bit crazy when you were just born," she said. "We lived in the theater dormitory when you were one and a half years old. During the day, I sometimes let other staff take you, and then you have a ride. I know how to watch their plays. You get overly excited when you watch a play. I was a little postpartum mentally weak at that time, and I couldn’t stand that. Besides, I think their performances are messy, so I forbid them to take you to see them again. .I took you with me, so I put you in the drawer of my counting table. At first you didn’t adapt, and kept crying, but I didn’t care, and then you got used to it.”

"I don't even remember these things," Cheng Jiang said.

"Of course you don't remember, you are too young. But when you are three years old, you are different from before. I don't know how to describe this. It is that you suddenly have no needs. It is not autistic, but You just like to be alone. Once I asked a backstage prop man to look after you, but you didn't make a sound. After the show, he actually forgot you on the dressing table and found it when he returned after the lights were turned off. I I was afraid that you would have a psychological shadow, but you didn't react like this, as if you just slept in the dressing room. Later, I slowly realized that you are a bit at the mercy of others, and you don't care no matter what. You When I was young, I thought you were easy to take care of, and you could do what I said, but when you grew up—no, when you were five years old, I tried to leave the country for the first time. You are over three years old, so I have to give you an interview. In fact, they are quite tolerant of children, as long as the adults pass the interview and the child clearly expresses their desire to leave, they will give it. You may not have any impression of this, right?"

Cheng Jiang subconsciously wanted to nod, halfway through the nod, and then reacted, keeping his head down, and slowly came back from the side after a while.

"But you didn't seem to understand anything at that time. No matter what they asked you, you turned your head to look at me, and you shrank back no matter how they guided you... I was so angry at the time, I felt that three years old was underestimated, and seven years old Look at the old man, you will never get out for the rest of your life. But you were only five years old at that time, and I have never been able to get around this bend."

Cheng Jiang lowered his eyes, "Yes."

"I know that I am a person with a strong desire to control, including now. Only then can I feel that everything is on the right track, but I can't do it every time. And you are too obedient to me, Xiao Jiang. You never There is no rebellious period like other children, no matter what, as long as I follow my own ideas and be tough, any position you have will collapse. You just mentioned this, and you are right. Subconsciously, I just think of you as mine Doll. When you grow up and grow up a little bit, I will start to be afraid: without me, you have no opinion at all. But I can't control myself to decide everything about you in more detail, because you won't Go against me. I thought: What has become of my child? That’s when I started thinking about leaving. I thought you’d be able to get back on track if I left, but I didn’t expect…”

Cheng Jiang didn't know what to say, but she paused sadly, and continued by herself:

"Everything is impossible for anyone. But I don't always understand this, so every time something doesn't meet my vision, I will open up some other way to escape from it. I can't let it go. My parents were satisfied with me, so they left completely and never went back for decades. When I tried to look for it a few years ago, there was no news at all. Fortunately, they still have two children after me. I found You... your father is cowardly and incompetent, he only knows how to compromise, but he dare not fight for the identity I should have for me, and he refuses to marry me, so he takes the initiative to leave him and fly away, pretending that I am an independent woman in the new era. I can't let you When I grow up to be the perfect child in my mind, I will deliberately stop changing you, and instead just try to fulfill my responsibilities, and then turn to pursue the life I want. Xiao Jiang, I said you were born weak because of myself Afraid. One of us is truly weak, and I can't admit it's me."

Cheng Yuegu's eyeshadow couldn't cover up the fine lines around her eyes.She sealed her son into her past and stepped off the plane alone, a woman who was no longer young—she was 37; she was only 37.

"I don't know exactly what I look like to you, but I'm not a good woman, never have been. I'm selfish, stupid, strong, ambitious, and will do anything to achieve what I have a chance to achieve .When I left Lengwan alone, I didn’t have any great skills. I had nothing but ambition and a pretty face. But then I accidentally met Shen Ziwei. He is almost 20 years older than me. His wife is still alive, but he is rich, powerful, and has a little interest in me. I found out what he likes, and tried my best to package myself as the kind of woman he likes. I tried my best to sit in this position, and then climbed up step by step with his hand, and now I am here. Even as a dodder, I always try my best to make everything go according to my ideas as much as possible. That's who I am."

She deliberately said it lightly, but it was an unbelievable shock to Cheng Jiang.He was a little uncertain what Cheng Yuegu was trying to express when he said such words, so when his mother smiled indifferently, he could only say:

"I thought you would marry him because you loved him."

"I love him? I can't tell, maybe I do have that kind of meaning, but I'm not a little girl. I don't believe in the idea that love comes first. I don't have any opinions on my current life, and there are not so many people in the world. Questions that can be answered at a glance, many things have been run-in. Marrying an old man who is about the same age as you and me for money and status, how immoral. Interrupting his wife before he died Going in, that's even more of a racist behavior. But what is right and what is wrong? I have reached this point, and there is no way out. No matter how much I hate myself, I can only live indifferently. I have always Tell yourself and you that everyone who stays in Cold Bay is a loser. In fact, it is just to motivate myself. Whether to stay in Cold Bay is actually just a choice of different people. Do you think you are really a failure? Xiao Jiang, you just...need more time, it's just that your growth trajectory is a little different from other children."

Cheng Jiang's fingers stroked the handle of the transparent glass little by little.Several times he wanted to say something again, but Cheng Yuegu spoke faster and faster:

"When I said you shouldn't come out or something, I didn't mean it. I was just scared because I made a mental preparation six years ago that I would never see you, but it was broken. I was too far away from you." Far away, I don’t know what your specific life is like, and I can’t plan everything like before, so I feel that everything is beyond my control. So I want to take your daughter to me, so..."

Probably because he had said too much before, Cheng Jiang stopped talking too much at this time.

They seem to have returned to the way they got along many years ago, but there is a slight difference: suddenly, he is no longer the character who is dominated and suppressed, but a listener.Just a listener.

"It took me a long time to get my life on the right track, and I made a detailed plan for my future, without you. So after you came back, I was just blindly flustered that everything didn't go according to my plan, and I didn't know what I would do in the future. How to face you, I can only pretend that we got along with each other in the past, and even get worse, but I shouldn't do that. When I ran away from home, I didn't think about what would happen to me in the future; when I boarded the plane, I didn't think about it What will happen in the future; when I left Cold Bay, I don't know what will happen to me. Even if I didn't know, I've been here for so many years, and it's so ridiculous that I just messed up now. Since you came back, I've been neurotic I really want to tell you how to live like you were a child. But what qualifications am I to instruct you? Besides, just two years ago, I thought I was looking at you when I looked back through the window of the long-distance car last glance. But I just finally figured it out, and I thought..."

Mother and son look at each other across the table.

Like countless family times when he was a child, she talked on and on while he listened; like she looked out of the glass window of a long-distance car and watched the person standing under the license plate for the last time, with facial features almost identical to hers. child's eyes.

She left heartlessly, but recalled and missed over and over again, until an overseas phone call came, with fear on one side and joy on the other.

she says:

"Maybe all I need to do is just be grateful for what I've lost and found."

The author has something to say: Thank you for reading patiently, bow~

☆、chapter67

He walked her to the door and watched her get into the driver's seat.

"I'll go back tonight to cancel the visa appointment," Cheng Yuegu rolled down the car window, "it's very convenient. Then I may have to follow Shen Ziwei to his branch to deal with some things, and I will go back a year ago."

"I'll call you." Cheng Jiang replied.

She smiled.

"Goodbye, Xiao Jiang."

"Goodbye, Mom."

She rolled back the window and started the engine.

Cheng Jiang watched as her car drove a certain distance, turned a corner, and disappeared from his sight.He stood there watching for a while, and suddenly saw two shadows, one big and one small, appearing from the corner of another fork, the big one was like a high oval, and the small one was like a small ball.When the two shadows walked to the intersection, they suddenly stopped moving.The ellipse lowered, and when it stood up again, the ball had disappeared from his feet, and a head popped out at the upper right of the ellipse.

At the same time, a line was erected from the other side of the high oval - it was Shen Jiqing who also saw him and was waving at him.

When Cheng Jiang came out to see off Cheng Yuegu, he just put on a coat in a hurry over the sweater of the home clothes, and didn't even fasten the buttons. After standing for a while, he felt a little chilly.

But he didn't move, still standing under the window, watching the two shapes transform into concrete human shapes.After he took his daughter from Shen Jiqing, they went home together.

Cheng Jiang still got up in the middle of the night and sat there for a while, not knowing where to go.

He had a dream, and when he woke up, his face was full of tears for some reason.

Cheng Jiang leaned against the head of the bed, staring quietly at the curtain that blocked the moonlight for a while, feeling his body became very light, as if a knot had been untied, or a knot that should not have been in his place had been taken away up.This seemed to be closely related to the dream that he couldn't remember clearly, but he had a vague feeling that the dream would come back one day in the future.

He suddenly felt thirsty, so he got up slowly and went downstairs to the living room.

In order not to wake others up, the footsteps were light.But when he went downstairs, Shen Jiqing woke up immediately without knowing why, and followed him, standing behind him hesitantly.

"I'm awake." He said with a smile, "Come down and drink some water."

Under Shen Jiqing's gaze, Cheng Jiang found his usual cup from the closet, and poured a small half of mineral water to drink.He took two sips, paused, and suddenly said:

"I want to go out now and take a look at the red wall in the community."

"What are you going to see?"

"Just..." Cheng Jiang lowered his eyes and looked at him again, "I can't tell. I'll just take a look and be back soon. I haven't had a chance to go up and see it yet."

Shen Jiqing had just been standing, but now she was also sitting on a chair in the living room.

"Are you back yet?" he asked.

Cheng Jiang looked at him in surprise, not understanding what he meant.

"If I don't come back, where else can I go?" After finishing speaking, he understood again, "If you are worried, just go with me. Just stay for a while."

At two o'clock at night, the community was quiet and there was no one there.They walked out the door wearing down jackets over their pajamas and walked towards the place where the red wall was.The moon hangs high in the sky, and the light makes the red wall below look extraordinarily tall, majestic and beautiful.

They walked up the dusty stairs and sat down at the top.

Cheng Jiang looked intently at the wall next to him.

The walls are clad with old red bricks, some of which are cracked.He stroked them with his fingers, with a strange expression on his face that Shen Jiqing couldn't understand.

He put his hand on a red brick below, leaned over it and said in a low voice:

"When I was in Cold Bay, there was a wall like this by the sea. No, it's not a wall, it's a promenade. I sometimes go into it, but I haven't been there a few times. But I just dreamed about it. To that wall. And smoke, a lot of smoke, torn people, relief... a lot of smoke. Weeds, tombstones, fallen walls, I looked down from the sea. Cynthia said to me: You have Redemption, you were brave. And that Cold Bay cultural legend, 'I shall be born again'..."

He turned his face, his eyes gleaming in the streaming moonlight.Shen Jiqing's heart moved, and she couldn't help leaning over to look at the wall.Cheng Jiang also said:

"Have you ever felt this way? Sitting here, I am terribly cold all over, but feel very comfortable in my heart."

They sat high on the top step of the red wall, seeing everything they could see clearly under the moonlight.In the distance, there is a group of bushes with flourishing branches and leaves, and birds are resting above them, like fruits forgotten by winter.The moon was bright and the wind was clear, Shen Jiqing tried to look down on the artificial lake from where they were sitting, but the lake was too far away from them, so it was futile after all.

"...Yes." He replied softly.

They still caught up with the last small performance of the deduction, and the three of them went to see it together.

Because Cheng Jiang is regarded as a "planning staff", so after arriving early, he was able to go to the basement to say hello to everyone, and take a look at the male and female leading actors who he had never seen before in makeup and costumes.The person in charge of this part is Lin Suimeng. She is an abstract artist, and she is bolder in makeup and costumes, which is very original.

She let the lead actor who played the corpse man wear his normal makeup, but the exposed neck, face and hands were painted blue-gray, and she dressed him in a dress that combines American country style and modern technology. He is wearing a gray cloth striped coat with a normal plaid shirt inside.

"Because he was put together." Lin Suimeng explained, "You can't guarantee that every piece fits perfectly, there will always be a little lumpy part, and we show it with clothing."

In contrast, the lead actress You Lulu's dress is much more normal.

Even though Cheng Jiang didn't quite understand why she had to dress like a gypsy, he didn't ask too much, because Lin Suimeng quickly noticed Cynthia who came in with him, and let out an exaggerated scream. After 1 minute, the little girl was surrounded by several big girls, except Luan Yu.

She always seemed a little out of touch.

Cynthia also seemed taken aback at first, but the young aunts were very friendly and she recovered quickly.It's just that the girls chattered around her several times, but she just kept her eyes open and said nothing.

"She can talk, but it's the first time I've seen her, and she's a little shy."

He stumbled to explain.When the girls start sweetly saying "beautiful baby," he starts to feel uncomfortable again, not knowing where he should be in the house.

Shen Jiqing did not come in, and waited in the living room with several other audience members, and was received by Lin Suimeng who had returned to the ground; Looking at them with cheeks on their cheeks, mint-colored eyeshadow was sprinkled around their big eyes, which seemed a bit green at first glance.There was a stool next to her, so Cheng Jiang walked over to sit down and greeted her.

"Hello," he said.Voices and music were mixed in the room, so he wasn't sure if Luan Yu also answered, but he saw her lips move.

When Cheng Jiang was a child, he belonged to the kind of child who would never speak when no one talked to him, and he didn't like talking to others at all.This characteristic has gradually changed with age and experience, but if he is put together with someone who hardly speaks at all—such as Luan Yu—he will feel the discomfort he felt when he was a child again.

He didn't speak, and Luan Yu didn't speak; but neither of them spoke, and there was an indescribable embarrassment.

But he had already sat down, and it would be impolite to stand up and walk away rashly.In addition, Luan Yu's character traits seemed a little familiar to him.He couldn't remember where this sense of familiarity came from, but he still tried to talk to Luan Yu with difficulty.

"Tell me, how many people will come to see it today?"

Luan Yu's lips opened and closed for a while, and Cheng Jiang had to move closer to hear her repeated answer clearly:

"Maybe there are about ten."

Before Cheng Jiang spoke, he was still thinking: If Luan Yu clearly expresses that he doesn't want to talk to him, he will immediately shut up and find something else to do.But although Luan Yu had difficulty expressing himself, he did not resist talking, so they sat there and had a hard time asking and answering.

If we do not record other difficulties in listening and speaking during this period, their dialogue is roughly as follows:

"Is it so little?"

"It's quite a small number, but it's the same number these few times. These two rows of chairs can seat so many people."

"Do you come here every time?"

"I come here every time."

"You come here every time you rehearse, don't you?"

"Ah."

Cheng Jiang found that Luan Yu was a little distracted when he was speaking, and his eyes were looking in the direction near the stage.Reminiscent of her similar actions before, he felt that she was looking at You Lulu.

"You and that girl named You Lulu are very good friends, right?"

"Yes, Sister Lulu has known me for more than ten years."

"That's really been a long time."

"We were neighbors when we were kids and then we went to dance school together."

"What dance are you dancing?"

"I learned classical dance, but I can dance any other dance. As long as you know the name, I can dance well. Except for the local indigenous dances on the Pacific islands, I have no place to learn those."

Cheng Jiang thought it was remarkable for her to say such a sentence in such a volume, so he glanced at her in surprise.

"I don't have any good skills. The only thing I can do is dance. Sister Lulu thinks I'm not good, so she often takes me out to play.