[Comprehensive fear] Borrow your life

With doubts in her heart, Alice listened to Kaneki Ken tell her own story, but the more she listened, the more something went wrong.

"Why do you tell your own story as if it has nothing to do with you?" That kind of objective narrative without subjective emotions is like a record rather than a memory.Especially for such a big matter as becoming a ghoul, he was able to talk about it in one sentence so calmly.

Kaneki Ken smiled wryly, sighed, and took off the white eye patch that he had been wearing on his left eye, revealing the red pupils inside, the eyes unique to ghouls with black whites.As if to prove that he was once a human being, his characteristics as a ghoul—the kind of eyes that are no different from ordinary people in a normal state, and the eyes that turn red in a combat state are less compared to the two of other ghouls. one.In addition, he has just become a ghoul, and he can't completely control that eye to keep it normal at all times, so he can only wear such an eye patch.Now that he has taken off the blindfold, it means that he has lifted his disguise, and intends to meet Alice frankly.

"Because I'm a ghoul now, no matter whether I accept it or not. And on the way, someone has already told this story for me. Now I feel at ease and calm, because Alice, you are more powerful than I imagined. Believable," he said.

Since he became a ghoul, he has been troubled by two problems: how to face the fact that he has become a ghoul, or what should he do if others find out that he is a ghoul?

So he has been trying desperately to pretend to be a normal human being in front of everyone.Pretend to be very happy in front of your friends and eat portions of human food, and then eat it like tasting delicacies from mountains and seas.

Only ghouls know what kind of torture this is.Except for coffee, human food exudes a strong fishy smell to the ghouls. Even putting it in the mouth is a kind of torture, and eating it makes the mouth feel like vomiting.But Kaneki swallowed it alive, and found an opportunity to spit it out shortly afterwards.Otherwise, this kind of poor-quality food would turn his stomach upside down, causing him unbearable pain.

But he is willing, because only in this way can he pretend to be a human being and maintain this precious friendship with his best friend.He was afraid of letting his friends know that he was a ghoul.

Will the other party accept this and continue to treat him as a friend?Or will they report him and let the CCG people come and kill him?Kaneki Ken sincerely expects this first situation, but absolutely dare not try it.He feared losing this friendship more than he worried about his own life or death.And once he has spoken, there is no turning back.Perhaps he was more afraid of knowing the result than which one the result would be.

And Alice knows that she is a ghoul, and people who have only met two sides are willing to hide this, and are willing to meet her after she is a ghoul.This really moved Kaneki Ken and felt relieved.

In this regard, he brought up the incident on the tram and repeated the words of the middle-aged man without missing a word.He has always been a smart child, and he can always easily remember the contents of the books he has read. It is no problem to remember the short conversations of the middle-aged man. Unfortunately, he has forgotten the appearance of the middle-aged man.

"Sorry, I couldn't remember that person's face." Kaneki Ken apologized for not being able to help Alice.

"No, I'll be depressed if you remember." There are so many middle-aged men in the world, even if Kaneki Ken can tell each other's appearance, I'm afraid he won't be able to find out in the end.However, there are not many middle-aged men who can't remember their appearance at first glance. In Alice's cognition, there is only death.Kaneki Ken couldn't remember but gave her the most accurate information.

Alice smiled and held Kaneki Ken's hand, comforting him like an old friend.She felt like she wanted to do this a long time ago, wanted to see Kaneki Ken, wanted to hold his hand, wanted to do something for him, wanted to feel sorry for him.This kind of relationship is different from the relationship between a man and a woman, it is more like an inexplicable love and pity.

When she saw Kaneki Ken stabbing her arm like that in order to pretend that day, the inexplicable distress made her speechless for a while.

"So, your problem now is to turn back into a human?" Alice sat up straight and asked with some uncertainty.

"Is it possible!" Kaneki Ken suddenly pressed his hand on the table and stretched out eagerly, "Can I really turn back into a human?"

"You... are really different from my brother!" Alice smiled wryly and pressed her forehead, looking distressed, "Even if he knows that he has become a monster, he doesn't want to change back."

"What? He—is he also a ghoul?" Kaneki Ken remembered Alice's younger brother whom he only met once. Although that person was too bloody and frightening when he appeared on the stage, he later behaved like a well-behaved and capable younger brother. Can't relate it to a monster at all.

"No... his situation is a little different from yours." Alice fell into memories.

Unlike Suzune, Alice didn't notice that the man who broke into the coffee shop was more afraid of Lilian than the suitcase.

She just felt uneasy seeing her younger brother carrying the ghoul's arm, and just out of a kind of worry, she asked Lilian about what happened that day, but unexpectedly, she learned something important.

It turns out that Lilian has been different from ordinary people since she was injected with the T virus and the medicine made with Alice's blood.Just like Alice, he has acquired a mutation, or it should be called an evolution.His hearing, eyesight, and sense of smell have all been strengthened, and his physical fitness is much higher than that of ordinary people, and this evolution seems to be stronger than Alice.

But this evolution did not make Lilian happy, he just really felt that he was different from ordinary people.I am like a monster, sometimes I can crush the cup with a little force, the smell of food hundreds of meters away can be transmitted to his nose, and he can still see people on the street clearly from tens of meters away Small stains on the body.He can even taste what kind of condiments are added to the food.In his sense of taste, the taste of those seasonings has been strengthened several times, so he can't eat things that are particularly strong.

Lillian can be said to wake up and become Superman.He used to be envious of Superman, but now he is not happy at all, and he has no sense of accomplishment that is far stronger than others, the pride of being a higher creature.

He just felt as if he was different from everyone all of a sudden.People in this world were subconsciously divided into two types by him, ordinary people and Lillian Will.The world is also divided into two by him: the world of other people and his own world.

Lilian seemed to be cut off from the world all of a sudden.He knew that this was his own psychological effect, but every time he finally adjusted his mentality, reality began to remind him of his differences.

What made him most sad was that he once almost bit off his fork in front of Alice.In that case, his own sister will definitely see him as a monster. He is afraid of this, and has been pretending to hide it like Kaneki Ken.

But Will is different. He took over the umbrella company just for Lillian.He knew exactly what Lillian would become, and wanted to obtain possible solutions through the Umbrella Company.

"Lilian, the result has been reached now. I just want to ask you one question, do you want to become an ordinary person, or do you want to further evolve?" In fact, he personally hopes that Lilian will further evolve and become stronger.In that case, his son would become a high-level existence and live longer because of it.In the end, however, Will handed over the choice to Lillian.

Lilian, who wanted to turn back into an ordinary person, hesitated at this moment.

During this period of time, Will has been placing him in the Umbrella Company to conduct various experiments, and he is constantly comforting him, explaining everything.

Lilian finally knew how much it cost her to wake up, and how dangerous her situation was: now she only has two lives left.

If he becomes an ordinary person, how long can he live with only two lives?At that time, how much will father and sister have to spend, and how much effort will they spend to save themselves?

In the end, he still dragged everyone down.

He chose to further evolve without hesitation, making himself stronger through the improved body of the T virus, and this strengthening will not bring any side effects.It is not good?

But he couldn't be happy, and he stayed in the umbrella company for various experiments during this time.

Of course, he didn't tell his sister about the mental journey from the beginning to the end. He only said that he was so good that he could not only become a new human being beyond human beings, but also prolong his life.

After finally having time to go out, the first thing he thought of was to see his sister.

But when he arrived at the so-called residence, his sister was not there, so he made that phone call.

What happened next wasn't that complicated.On the way to the coffee shop, Lilian and the search officer suddenly heard someone's screams in a dark alley. Although it was very small, as if someone had covered his mouth, Lilian, who had a keen hearing, heard it.

At that time, the investigator gave him a strange look, and followed him to the source of the sound.

Together, the two saw that at the corner of the dark alley, a man in black was killed by the ghoul that later rushed into the coffee shop.

The investigator immediately used his weapon—the white box that he carried with him.I saw that he pressed the handle of the box and pulled it out.There is something strange like a biological limb attached to the bottom of the handle: a blue strip that looks like a tail, but it is more like the organ of a ghoul that Lilian has seen on some recorded videos—Keiko .

The ghoul was not to be outdone, its eyes turned red, and the clothes on its shoulders were suddenly broken by the protrusions growing on its body.The protrusion quickly took shape, and turned into a helix with its head wrapped around his arm like a spiral and its tail like a knife. This was the ghoul's combat weapon.

When the Investigator's weapon swung at the ghoul, the opponent blocked it with Hezi, and then quickly rushed to the Investigator, stabbing the knife part at the Investigator's shoulder, trying to cut off his arm.

Barely dodging, the Inspector swiftly swings his weapon again, sending him back to attack.

This time, it was blocked by the ghoul again, and the weapon was cut off.The investigator's handle was badly damaged along with his hand.

It was only then that Lilian felt the danger. Before that, he had never imagined that the battle with the ghouls would be like this, that the ghouls would be so strong.

But at this time, the ghoul actually set its target on him: "Hee hee, children's meat is the best. I really have to thank the investigator."

It might be that Lilian looked too harmless, and the investigator had lost his combat effectiveness, so the ghoul put away Kazuko at ease, and grabbed Lilian's arm and was about to bite off his neck.

However, Li Lian's strength had already surpassed the scope of human beings after being strengthened during this period of time. He used his greatest strength to grab the arm of the ghoul with a kunko, and then pulled it outward with all his strength.

Like everyone in the Will family, he is a calm person who can not forget to think in times of crisis. He knows that if the ghoul's Hezi is broken, he will basically lose his fighting power and have no way to survive, so he chose This position, even if it can't tear off the Hezi it has put away, can prevent the ghouls from continuing to release Hezi to fight.

The ghoul was taken aback by his sudden action. Seeing that this overbearing human child wanted to pull his arm, he didn't take it seriously at all, and stopped to cast a contemptuous glance at Lillian.

At this very moment, his arms were separated from his body.The pain from the quick tear was not even as great as his shock.

It took him half a second to realize what had happened to him: his body, which was invulnerable to swords and guns and absolutely invulnerable to humans, was torn apart by a human child!

It was too late to be shocked, the ghoul put down the three food items in place, and hurriedly fled for his life.

At this time, his thinking was chaotic, he didn't know what was going on at all, and he didn't know what to do or where to escape.

Coincidentally, the exit of the alley appeared in front of the ghoul, and a man suddenly appeared at the exit, pointing his finger in a direction.

The confused ghoul fled in that direction subconsciously, and finally crashed into the antique coffee shop.

"You know the rest of the matter, but I still have something to tell you, which is probably only I know." Li Lian said here with a very solemn tone, and there was a hint of fear in his tone, "The person pointing the direction It's the one who was bitten to death by the ghoul."

"How is it possible?" Alice directly vetoed it, "The person pointing the direction should be absolutely impossible for people to remember his appearance. How can you know that he looks the same as the previous person?"

Lilian gave Alice a strange look: "How do you know that I can't remember his face? Actually, I identified them based on the necklaces on their necks. You know, my eyesight is not normal now. That’s good. So I went to the alley to have a look, but the man’s body was still there, as if what I saw was a hallucination.”

The memories ended here, and both of them fell into silence.

"Who is that person who can't remember his face?" Jin Muyan finally asked this question. He had a feeling that although it was a young man who pointed in the direction, it was a middle-aged man who reminded him to come to Alice, but in Alice In Liz's eyes, the two were the same, someone she knew.

"I'm not too sure, I just called him the God of Death on my own initiative," Alice pressed her chin and calmly analyzed, "At least one thing is certain, this God of Death really pays special attention to me."

"Ah! Sorry, the topic has gone too far. Anyway, I will help you. Although there is no specific method yet, I think the laboratory will have a way. After all, they seem to be researching ghouls recently." Alice smiled, and finally put her hand on Kaneki Ken's head across the coffee table, and gently touched Kaneki Ken's head, her tone became softer, "I always feel like I wanted to do this a long time ago ..."

"Hey!" Ken Kaneki blushed, "Miss Alice...why?"

"Don't think too much, it's not flirting, I just like you inexplicably," Alice withdrew her hand in embarrassment, and explained with a blushing face, "Ah... It seems that the more you explain, the worse it gets... Anyway, I I appreciate you very much, so you understand."

That kind of inexplicable liking is like seeing a male god on TV for the first time when I was a child, the kind of liking that I can't see the real person through the screen.

"It can be regarded as helping a girl's dream come true, but you used to be her favorite person." Alice suddenly remembered the inexplicable words of the middle-aged man recounted by Kaneki Research Institute, and felt that these words seemed to be quite suitable to describe her satisfaction at the moment feel.But she didn't remember that she had the memory of liking Kaneki Ken.

"Of course, one of the reasons is that I want to change the mainline development of this Japanese world. Although the current plot is completely messed up because of Alice!" The man's second half of the sentence always gave Alice a hint What do you feel.

What the hell are you doing, Reaper?Alice suddenly wants to meet the guy who can never remember his face.It's a pity that this person can pay attention to himself, or influence him indirectly, but he refuses to appear in front of him no matter what.

At this moment, Alice has completely forgotten the original wish that the god of death would never appear in front of her eyes. She just wants to see him with her own eyes.

How much of this mood is for finding out the truth?Maybe it's more of a curiosity about the god of death.If she was killed by the god of death, it would really be curiosity that killed the cat.Even so, she still investigated the god of death without hesitation:

"Dad, can you help me get pictures of people who have been around me during my time in Japan?"

"What? How is this possible."

"Let's negotiate with CCG. They have been monitoring me for so long, and they should have some results." After the glass of the antique coffee shop shattered, Alice stared out of the window for a few seconds, because at that time she saw a person outside the window. People will encounter accidents.In that red field of view, the glowing part in the man's backpack was extremely obvious-it was a small camera for sneaking pictures.

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