[SD] Logic of Wild Dogs

About 3 minutes or so, everything returned to calm again.

Qihai opened her eyes and looked around, "It seems to have passed."

"Hmm...um." Mitsui replied vaguely, reluctant to let go.

"Mitsui-kun..." Qihai turned to look at Mitsui, Mitsui's eyes were hidden in the black hair, they were so close, so close...

Boom, boom, boom...

The heartbeat is beating.

Like, like this person.

This feeling is like liking.

Blush slowly climbed up the girl's face, she pushed Mitsui at a loss, "Mitsui-kun... I, I have something to tell you."

[Don't say it. 】

"It's...very, very important."

【Please stop talking...】

Mitsui let go of Qihai in despair, he sat up and stepped back, widening the distance: "Well, tell me."

·

"Thank you, Mitsui-kun, for protecting me. Thank you for giving me medicine." Qihai paused a little shyly, and continued in a low voice, "Thank you for going to and from school with me, thank you for candy, thank you for inviting me to dance, thank you for tutoring me homework……"

She lowered her head and then raised it, looking directly at Mitsui: "Thank you...for being my hero..."

The whole body is filled with the power to love this person, Nanami's eyes are gentle and bright, she wants to confide her love words, she wants to say...

"I like Mitsui-kun." Qihai looked at Mitsui with a smile, as if her whole body was glowing, "I want to know Mitsui-kun because... I like you."

"Because I like you, so... I want to know you." Nanami repeated clumsily, "So, so... Please believe me. Please believe me."

·

There was a surge of joy in his chest, but bitterness came from a deeper place... Mitsui ruffled his long hair dejectedly, he smiled, feeling a little like crying.

This guy... this guy... really lost to her.

Mitsui raised his head and looked back at Qihai: "So, what do you want to know?"

Qi Hai sat upright: "If possible...I want to know everything about Mitsui-kun's past."

"Hehe... everything?" Mitsui looked at Qihai, the girl's eyes were so clear and firm, unwavering.

"What a tough guy... But, if it's you..."

If it's... if it's what you want... I'll tear everything up and give it to you.

·

"Where should I start?" Those... the past that can't be forgotten...

Taking a deep breath, Mitsui pointed to his left knee: "In the beginning, there were two nails driven in by the doctor."

Nanami looked at Mitsui's knee in awe.

"It took me eight weeks to bend my knee to 90 degrees, and I was allowed to slowly move on one leg with a cane. Before that, I couldn't even bend and straighten this leg. Sitting in a wheelchair, or walking slowly with crutches." Mitsui's hand unconsciously caressed his left knee, and quickly withdrew when he came to his senses.

"...do you know what a torn cruciate ligament means?"

Seven Seas shook her head.

"For a basketball player, this is an injury that requires at least six months of rest, and a year and a half for bones and muscles to fully heal."

Mitsui's narration was exceptionally calm, even with a little numb indifference.

"The nails that were driven in before have to be taken out again. For at least a year and a half, strenuous exercise is not allowed. Avoid collisions, keep warm, and prevent damp and cold. A little carelessness may leave old injuries. Once If the wound recurs again, it is likely to cause a complete rupture of the ligament. Even if it is repaired in time, it will be difficult to return to the court..." His black eyes looked at the endless nothingness, "However, in a year and a half, I will be a senior in high school. How much time does the high school sports club have to participate? How far is the Xiangbei basketball team from entering the national competition? I am...I am...the person who wants Xiangbei to dominate the country!"

Mitsui's voice was shattered, and his clenched fist trembled unceasingly.

Who deprived me of my dream, who made me obliterate the light, who taught me to learn to compromise, who made me stop running!

I can't go back...the basketball court...

The sound of hitting the ball echoed hollowly in the chest.

·

Mitsui didn't say any more.Those physical treatments that hurt all over the body sweating once, those massages that make people cry, those repeated muscle rehabilitation in the rehabilitation center, and whenever you want to exert yourself, your left knee A sense of hopelessness.When Mitsui endured all this and desperately wanted to return to the court, Akagi, who used to be unable to even dribble, had grown up like flying......

Mitsui remembered the day when he was finally approved by the doctor to go to the gymnasium to watch the game on crutches.

With joy and difficulty, I moved up the stairs one step at a time, and stepped onto the audience passage on the second floor.

In the magnificent gymnasium, the lights were bright, Akagi was running, and at the moment of beckoning, Kogure passed the ball, and then the orangutan slammed the dunk-the huge cheers shocked the audience!

[Good job!Akagi! 】

【Amazing, Akagi! 】

No one will mention Mitsui Shou again.

I've been left behind by everyone...

The moment he turned around dejectedly, he felt so unwilling in his heart.

Am I weak?Is it because I am not strong enough?I chose to escape... It was my fault!

...I just don't want to be left behind by my teammates, I just want to realize my dream of entering the country, I just...can't wait...so much like basketball ahhhhhhhhhh...so regretful, so regretful!Regretful, there is no way to make a sound! !

I am so...so fond of basketball! ! !

·

Lost basketball days, boring people want to go crazy.Lying in bed every day, the room is full of traces of the past.

Those dazzling, never-to-be-returned days... Glory and victory, partners and themselves, laughter, self-confidence in striving for dreams... are slowly obliterated, and everything is shattered.

Putting away the certificates and photos, tearing up all the posters, the room became empty overnight, and my mother erased all traces of the past.However, this kind of careful consideration made him feel even more ashamed!

Irreparable, gradually becoming depressed.He was injured and admitted to the hospital shortly after entering high school. When he returned, he had missed the opportunity to establish a relationship with his class.I didn't want to be sympathized with, so I cut off all contact with my old friends.Drifting alone on the edge of the crowd, Mitsui Shou, who lost his basketball, is like a prisoner in heavy shackles.The invisible cage is locked tightly, isolating the whole world.

Only resentment remains!Condolences secretly like a trapped beast...

Often want to destroy, often fight.For a little thing, a big fight.

With bare hands and wounds all over his body, he still fought back beyond his control!What is physical pain?I know what hurts more!I know what hurts more!

……

"I haven't played basketball since then."

Mitsui is just such a bland summary.He even tried to laugh a little, but it didn't work.

"I no longer play basketball, but hang out with Tetsuo and the others. I met Tokuro, and then, as you know... dawdling around every day, fighting and so on..."

Nanami reached out to shake Mitsui's hand, but was avoided.

"In the past two years, I probably won't be able to make it. But that guy Akagi, can you trust it? It's just a longer patience to come back in the third grade... In fact, it's not like I haven't thought about it."

However, the Xiangbei basketball team is still an underdog.

Mikichi Moto, Kentaro Seki, Tazo... The basketball players from Takeishi Junior High who followed Mitsui to join the basketball team all retired for various reasons.After the defeat in the county competition, the veteran third-year players also withdrew and graduated.Not to mention the low level of the remaining Xiangbei basketball team, the relationship between the players is not close.Finally, a relatively capable Miyagi joined, but because of his arrogant personality, he offended everyone everywhere.The overall level of Xiangbei cannot be played well at all, and the entire team lacks cohesion.

Every time the game is a big loss!

That fellow Akagi... said he wants to dominate the country, but give me a good job!

hateful!If only I were here...

But it's too late, it's impossible, so what if we go back?

"You asked me if I like basketball..." Mitsui tried hard to hold back the tide in his eyes, "Actually, I don't know either. I want it too much, but I can't touch it... I have lost it for too long, waited too long It's been too long, I've endured it for too long!"

"Mitsui..." Qihai's tears kept falling, "Mitsui-kun..."

"Heh...I already, can't tell whether I like...or hate it."

Whenever the old wound in his knee ached, a ghostly sense of desperation hovered up his left knee, suffocating him.

Mitsui lowered his head and looked at his left knee: "Because of this wound, my 15-year-old spent half of my time in the hospital and rehabilitation room."

Qihai choked up: "Mitsui...kun..."

"Although I have put so much effort into rehabilitation, it still doesn't work." Mitsui pressed his fist on the tatami mat until his knuckles turned white. Sometimes I will subconsciously protect this leg...so, I can't even fight."

Mitsui took a deep breath: "I am often beaten up, and I always have to rely on Tetsuo and Tokuro to help me avenge."

Seeing Qihai's expression, Mitsui smiled: "Don't be like this. Sorry, I made you uncomfortable."

Qihai shook her head vigorously.

Mitsui turned his head away: "Anyway, I'm just that useless. I'm not a hero at all..."

As if wanting to use up all his strength, facing Nanami Xuexue with his back, Mitsui Shou said word by word: "The basketball team or something, I can't go back."

Mitsui had to work very hard to make his voice less trembling.

"With such an injury, such a knee, such a me, I can't go back."

I used to be so stubborn, so proud, so hard-working and persistent, and refused to admit defeat... In the end, I didn't hit my head badly... Hehe, the sky was also low, and I had to bow my head... This world has taught me a lot.It's just that the moment I understood it was really... unforgettable.

Mitsui's hand subconsciously covered his left knee, then he slowly grasped it, made a fist, and beat down hard!

"No! It will be fine!"

Nanami grabbed Mitsui's hand: "Your injury will heal! Didn't you say it will take at least a year and a half?! Maybe it's not time yet!"

Mitsui bent the corner of his mouth as if crying: "Well, yes. Maybe it's not the time yet."

Qihai nodded hard: "It's not time yet. So, it will get better."

Mitsui nodded: "Well, maybe it will get better...but I can't go back."

"How could it be...?" Qihai stared blankly at Mitsui pulling out her hand bit by bit, slowly but resolutely.

"I've made myself too dirty." Mitsui smiled sadly, "I'm stuck in the mud."

I've been stuck in a quagmire, unable to extricate myself.I am like this, covered in filth... How can I still set foot on the sacred basketball court, how can I still face my former teammates...

"You said...the Mitsui-senpai who likes to play basketball." Mitsui smiled sadly, with tears in his eyes, "That Mitsui-senpai...is no longer here."

The Mitsui Shou you once liked is dead.The current Mitsui Wild Dog... is just... a lost dog.

Mitsui turned his head and looked out the window, the sky was dark and gloomy.

"Ah...it's really strange to think about it...how, how...became like this?"

Who can give me back my healthy 15 years old, who can give me back...the days that should have been glorious...

Damn it, damn it...

Crying...so embarrassing...

so ugly...

·

Qihai couldn't say a word of comfort.

Facing Mitsui Hisashi like this, Nanami Xuexue couldn't say a word.

Language is too weak.In the face of such facts, nothing can be changed.

Qihai's tears kept falling.

Mitsui still turned his back to Qihai, and smiled self-deprecatingly: "Actually, you are right...I am a cowardly stray dog...Weak, timid, just thinking of escaping...How can a wild dog be a hero? ? I have long been defeated by this world, and a small injury can make me crippled."

Let a proud person show his weakness, let a person who calls for victory tell his failure, let a person who never gives up admit his evasion—— Nanami Xue finally understands her own cruelty.

Mitsui raised his face and looked at the sky: "I'm a lost dog, so...don't worry about me anymore."

No, it's not...it's not like that... Qihai silently shook her head with tears in her eyes.

"Thank you... for telling me you like it." Mitsui stood up slowly, "Unfortunately, I have nothing to give you, and I don't want to owe you like this anymore... Please leave me alone."

Nanami suddenly reached out and grabbed the corner of Mitsui's clothes.

please...please...please don't be like this...please don't...

"Let go...don't pity me..."

"I don't want to be pitied by you." Mitsui sighed lightly and long, "This is... the only bit of self-esteem left by Mitsui Wild Dog."

The corner of the clothes in his hand was torn apart little by little, and finally there was nothing.

Qihai looked at Mitsui's back in a daze, and walked out step by step without looking back.

I don't want to just let him go out of his own world just like this... But, the voice seemed to be stuck in his throat, but he couldn't come out.

Tears wiped off and poured out, wiped off and poured out again, and when I walked out of the room, I saw that there was no one in the courtyard in the cold winter.

Qi Haixue stood there blankly, she took two steps forward, and then retreated in frustration.

"Mitsui-kun... Mitsui-kun..."

Qi Haixue suddenly trembled uncontrollably, she knew she was about to lose.

Although, maybe she never got it, but she understands that this is lost.

"So it turned out to be such a pain..."

Qi Haixue knelt on the ground, feeling that something was torn in her chest.

……

Mitsui Shou went straight out of Nanami House without looking back, because he himself couldn't stop the tears streaming down his face.

After walking a long way from the street, Mitsui wiped his eyes indiscriminately.He took out the phone and dialed the number skillfully.

"Hello? Tetsuo, it's me...well, take me in for a night."

The moment he hung up the phone, something cold fell down and gently brushed his face wrinkled by the cold wind.

Mitsui raised his head stupidly.

"Ah...it's snowing..."

On December 21, the first snow of this winter fell in Kanagawa.

The author has something to say: Put the original composition version of "Until the End of the World", students who want to listen can click on it.

metropolis ni servant wa mou one person

Wandering alone in the metropolis

投げ舍てられた空间のようだ

like an empty beer can that gets thrown away

mutual understanding

If you have to explore everything about each other

Love na ら ば い っ そ forever に sleep ろ う か.

If it's called love, it's better to sleep forever

The world が end わるまでは穿れる事もない I won't be parted from you until the end of the world

そお想っていた千千の夜と

Countless nights I wish like this

戻らない时だけかHe Guhuiいては

Why is the time that never comes back so dazzling

やつれ切った心までも壊す.

The one that was finally severed broke my heart

はかなき想い.このTragedyNight

With vague thoughts, on this tragic night

そして人はanswerえを求めて

And people are always looking for superficial answers,

かげかえのない何かを失う

As a result, an irreplaceable treasure is lost

*たらけの街じゃnight skyの

In this street full of *

stardust も servant を friend wo せ nai

Even the stars in the night sky have abandoned us

Before the end of the world に闻かせておくれよ Please listen to me before the end of the world

満开の花がlike合いのCatastrophe

Blooming flowers are destroyed overnight, how apt is this analogy

who も か 望 み な が ら forever を letter じ nai

Everyone is full of expectations, but they don't believe in eternity

なのにきっと明日を梦ててる

But I must also dream of tomorrow

はかなき日々とこのTragedyNight recalls this tragic night of empty days

The end of the world わるまでは从れる事もないWe won't be apart until the end of the world

そお想っていた千千の夜と

Countless nights I wish like this

戻らない时だけかHe Guhuiいては

Why is the time that never comes back so dazzling

やつれ切ったいまても壊す...

The past that was finally suspended breaks my heart

はかなき想い.このTragedyNight

Empty hearts drift through this tragic night

Finally, put the author's scum hand-painted, Mitsui gently looks at the snow picture.

Goodnight everybody.