life last

In the next few days, Lin Yizhi still went out to play with Jiang Zhiyi and the others, but he still went back to his home to sleep.

In a blink of an eye, the Spring Festival holiday has passed, those who should go out to work are gradually leaving, and the shops on the street are gradually opening.Jiang Zixi started school, and Jiang Zixi is now in college.

That day, Jiang Zhiyi told him that he would take him to see the sunrise tomorrow.At night, Jiang Zhiyi slept at Lin Yizhi's house.Lin Yizhi felt that Jiang Zhiyi was a little strange, but the person who usually talked a lot became quiet.

Jiang Zhiyi didn't say a word along the way, and when they reached the top of the mountain, Lin Yizhi and the others took a rest for a while.Finally, when the sun came out, Lin Yizhi heard Jiang Zhiyi's voice, "Yizhi, I'm leaving tomorrow, to France. Maybe I won't be back for many years. You have to take good care of yourself."

Lin Yizhi looked at Jiang Zhiyi who was facing him, opened his mouth but didn't say a word.He couldn't speak, didn't know what to say.Say you don't go?Lin Yizhi couldn't say it, and stayed to watch him die in front of him, Lin Yizhi thought he couldn't do it.

It's better to be like this, it's better for them.They didn't open their mouths to say a word of liking, and they all seemed to know it well.That's it, not bad.Even if Jiang Zhiyi comes back here a few years later, he is no longer here, it doesn't matter.He will watch him from heaven, and he will bless him.

Perhaps it was the atmosphere of parting that infected them, they didn't speak on the way back, Lin Yizhi refused to let Jiang Zhiyi take him home.

At the end of the parting, Lin Yizhi still couldn't hold back, turned around and hugged him fiercely, Jiang Zhiyi hugged him tightly, strangling him so much that his bones ached.

The passing crowd looked at them, or passed by in a hurry, or pointed.Lin Yizhi didn't care, he only knew that this person was leaving, and in the future, no, there would be no future.

"Take care of yourself, Jiang Zhiyi." Let go of him, Lin Yizhi walked forward step by step, without looking back, he was afraid that he would not be able to bear it.

Lin Yizhi didn't go to see Jiang Zhiyi off the next day, parting was sad, and it made people even sadder to miss him.

In the next month, Lin Yizhi did not contact Jiang Zhiyi. Jiang Zhiyi seemed to have a tacit understanding with him, and when Lin Yizhi chose to cut off contact, he quietly followed his will.

This month, Lin Yizhi began to suffer from insomnia at night, his body began to ache, his spirit was very poor, his face was pale and there was not much blood, and there were heavy dark circles under his eyes.

At the beginning, he was relying on sleeping pills to sleep, but the next sleeping pill was no longer effective, so Lin Yizhi increased the dose.As a result, the stomach rejected it, causing it all to be vomited out.Lin Yizhi was lying on the bed, sweating all over his body, unable to move in pain, calling Jiang Zhiyi's name while half unconscious.

When he woke up, Lin Yizhi's mouth was full of bitterness, and there was a sour smell in the room.Lin Yizhi took out the trash, sprayed it with freshener, and then went to wash up.

In the mirror, he had begun to become thinner, his face was like a ghost, and the bones of his cheeks were protruding.Lin Yizhi glanced at it and then stopped, he was afraid.Now it's just the beginning, in the future, he will become more and more ugly, until he becomes neither human nor ghost.

Sitting on the sofa drinking hot milk, Lin Yizhi began to look through Jiang Zhiyi's circle of friends.He already remembered to drink hot milk for himself. Although he suffered from insomnia, Lin Yizhi would still cook for himself seriously. He would take good care of himself and would not let Jiang Zhiyi worry about it.

Stopping his fingers, Jiang Zhiyi will update his circle of friends every day, sometimes it is the scenery he took, and sometimes it is his own photo.Never edit text, just send pictures.But Lin Yizhi still reads it every day.

Today he sent two words: [Missing you] The accompanying picture is a group photo they took when they were traveling at that time. In the photo, Lin Yizhi was hugged by Jiang Zhiyi. After the photo was taken, he turned to look at Jiang Zhiyi, but he did not expect to be photographed by him down.The other one was the one Jiang Zixi took when Jiang Zhiyi was helping him tie the scarf.

Lin Yizhi looked at the two photos, his eyes slowly turned red, and tears flowed down from his eyes and dripped on the phone.

With tears in his eyes, Lin Yizhi called Jiang Zhiyi, and the call was connected without any pause.

They didn't speak, but they could hear each other's breathing.After a long time, Lin Yizhi finally said in a hoarse voice: "Jiang Zhiyi, I miss you very much." This sentence was like a switch, and Lin Yizhi burst into tears, "Jiang Zhiyi, I really miss you."

Lin Yizhi didn't know when he hung up the phone, he only knew that he couldn't hold back, couldn't hold back the phone call, couldn't hold back the vented longing.

Lying on the bed at night, Lin Yizhi still couldn't hold back, looking at the photos Jiang Zhiyi took for him before, Jiang Zhiyi's photos, crying again.

Half asleep and half awake, Lin Yizhi heard someone knocking on the door, Jiang Zhiyi called him outside, Lin Yizhi sat up from the bed suddenly, there was really someone knocking on the door, and the caller ID on the phone was Jiang Zhiyi.Jiang Zhiyi?Lin Yizhi didn't care about putting on his shoes, rushed out of the room and opened the door.

Before he could see clearly, Lin Yizhi was hugged into his arms with such strength that Lin Yizhi felt pain, but it was real.It was really Jiang Zhiyi, Lin Yizhi burst into tears.

Jiang Zhiyi closed the door and carried Lin Yizhi back to the room.Tucking him under the quilt, all the heat from Lin Yizhi's body was taken away, and his feet were also very cold.

But he didn't care, he looked at Jiang Zhiyi, afraid that this was just a dream he had.Jiang Zhiyi has also lost a lot of weight this month, and his complexion is very bad. When I hugged him just now, I could feel that he had lost a lot of weight.

"Why are you back?" Lin Yizhi touched his face, feeling very cold, he pulled Jiang Zhiyi to bed, and Lin Yizhi leaned into his arms.

"You said you miss me very much. Why did you lose so much weight? You didn't listen to my advice and take good care of yourself, and even cried." Jiang Zhiyi hugged Lin Yizhi tightly, kissed the top of his hair, and kissed his red and swollen eyes.Touching his cheek, full of distress.

I said I missed you, and you came back?Come back overnight?So tired, so silly.Lin Yizhi felt distressed.

"Yizhi, I'm sorry, I lied to you." After a while, Jiang Zhiyi spoke hoarsely.

"It's okay." No matter what you lied to me, as long as you are still by my side, I will forgive you.

"Yizhi, I'm sorry, I have leukemia, only a few months left, I'm sorry, I don't want you to be sad, I don't want you to watch me die, that's why I went to France."

Lin Yizhi looked up in shock, what did he hear?leukemia?How many months?Everything sounds so unreal.

"Yizhi, do you know? When I first met you, you were defending your client in court. Maybe you didn't realize how charming you are when you are serious. Later, I went to see a few more I like you more every time I see you in a public court case. It's just that you haven't paid attention to me once."

"I didn't expect to meet you in the tour group. At that time, I only had half a year left. I just wanted to go out for a walk. I really didn't expect to meet you. You don't know how happy I was. You don't know You had a stomachache in the middle of the night, how anxious I was, how scared I was. Seeing your weak and painful appearance, I felt so helpless and distressed."

"I know, I shouldn't provoke you. However, I still selfishly want you to like me. After I die, you can think of me occasionally. Am I bad?"

"I told my parents and my sister that you exist, and I will take you home, and I want you to be part of our family out of selfishness."

"However, I didn't have the courage to let you watch me die, so I ran away cowardly, but during that month, I missed you every day, but I didn't dare to call you to tell you. I didn't know until you called me You have suffered more pain than me. Yizhi, it was not my intention to bring you pain, but I really love you."

Lin Yizhi listened to Jiang Zhiyi's words, and it turned out that it was not his unrequited love.They both thought it was for the other's good, but they didn't know that both were gritted their teeth and endured the pain.Silly and cute.

Lin Yizhi raised his head and leaned close to Jiang Zhiyi's ear,

"Let me tell you a secret, I have advanced gastric cancer."