never far away

For the first time, Lin Wei couldn't face this feeling with a calm attitude. He was already attracted and automatically threw himself into this vortex. He had no choice but to have a passionate entanglement.

"Senior brother Lin, tomorrow...can I go find you again?"

"Well, yes." Lin Wei smiled, "Xiao An, should you change your name?"

"Change...to what?"

"What do you want to call me?"

Lin An thought for a while, as if he had thought of something ulterior, his face blushed, and his tone weakened, "I don't know..."

"Let's call Ah Wei together with Ah Shu."

"it is good!"

The two chatted for more than an hour, covering a wide range of topics, from hobbies to things around them, and there was almost no gap in their coordination.No one was willing to hang up the phone. In the end, it was too late for Lin Wei to check the time, so he finally said good night first.The moment he hung up the phone was still reluctant, his heart was lingering and sweet, he thought about it for a moment before getting up and going back to the ward.

Grandma was already sound asleep, maybe it was the pain in her legs, even though she was asleep, her brows were still deeply frowned.He quietly went to the bathroom to wash up, then turned off the light, and lay down on another bed with all his clothes on.Lying on the bed, he still couldn't fall asleep. He played with his mobile phone for a while, and saw that it was already twelve o'clock before turning it off. He closed his eyes and prepared to fall asleep.

At this time, ravings came from my ears, it was from the grandmother in the next bed.That name was so familiar that even without his efforts to distinguish it, he could tell that grandma was calling him "Xiaoru".

That was the name of grandma's only daughter, who was also Lin Wei's mother.

The joyful and relaxed mood dissipated, and the memories settled in the deepest part of his heart gushed out. In the quiet and dark ward, Lin Wei restrainedly clenched his fists, but he still couldn't resist the hatred gradually filling his eyes and chest.There seemed to be large expanses of blood flowers blooming in front of him, and the blood flowed through his meridians, burning with scorching heat.

The scenes that I have never seen with my own eyes are played automatically as if engraved in my mind, the tears on the face of the gentle woman, the determination to jump down from the [-]th floor, and the blood splashed when it landed.

Every scene made the hatred in his heart worse, but there was no way to vent it.

Lin Wei was brought up by his grandparents.He actually has a father and grandparents, they are very rich, very very rich, and they live in a big villa with a housekeeper, a driver, a gardener, a chef, and a very large garden ,swimming pool.However, there are only grandpa and grandma in my grandmother's house, and they live in an old house with two bedrooms and one living room divided into units, and the furniture is half-new and not old.

When he was a child, he went back to the house of the big villa several times. At that time, he was still young, and everything was novel, and there were beautiful clothes, delicious cakes, and all kinds of toys. It was like a fantasy world to him. like the castle.When he returned to his grandmother's house, there was a big gap, and he was not even happy.

At that time, grandma looked at him with sadness in her eyes, and she shed tears when she looked at him.Lin Wei panicked, and hurriedly wiped her tears, "Grandma, I won't go anymore, and I don't want any new toys either. Don't cry."

Grandma hugged him and cried, and sighed for a long time, "Weiwei, that place looks glamorous, but it cannibalize people."

Lin Wei is still young, so she doesn't understand why castles can eat people.At night, grandma hugged him to coax him to sleep, patted his back and softly sang that only a mother is good in the world. Lin Wei asked, "Grandma, where is my mother?" Grandma looked at him without answering, her eyes were filled with daze.

"Why do other children have mothers, but I don't?" Xiao Linwei pouted, "The other children in kindergarten are all picked up by their mothers."

"Does Weiwei not like grandma picking her up?"

Xiao Linwei shook his head, quickly hooked his hands around grandma's neck and acted like a baby, "I like grandma, but I also want to have a mother. Where is my mother? Why doesn't she come to see me? Dad comes to see me every year .”

Grandma's complexion changed, and she seemed to be ten years older in an instant. She stroked the hair on top of Lin Wei's head with her palm, and sighed, "We Weiwei also has a mother."

Xiao Linwei's eyes lit up, "Really?"

"Really, it's just...she went to a far away place, and it will be a long, long time before Wei Wei can see her."

"Why did it take so long? Doesn't she know that Weiwei misses her?" Xiao Linwei couldn't figure it out, he thought maybe his mother didn't come to see him because he didn't do well enough.When he looked up, he saw his grandmother shed a lot of tears again, and some of the hot liquid got into his clothes and landed on the delicate skin.

He didn't understand sadness yet, but he also cried because of emotion.

A little older, he dug out a photo album from the interlayer of grandma's closet.After opening it, a gentle and beautiful face appeared in front of his eyes. After careful inspection, he found that the eyes were very similar to him, the nose was very similar to him, and the mouth was also very similar to him.He knew that the woman in the photo should be his mother.

The album is full of photos of his mother, from 0 years old to adulthood, some are single photos, some are group photos with grandparents, and there are many photos of a woman holding a baby, from various angles kiss teasing scene.The woman at this time is not as youthful as before, her clothes are not fashionable, there is no trace of make-up on her face, and her figure is still plump, but she is more beautiful than ever. Her love and concern for the baby on her face, The shots were all captured and filmed.

After Lin Wei finished reading it, he felt happy. It turned out that he really had a mother, and his mother seemed to love him very much, but where did she go?

When he put the photo album back, he saw several folded newspapers on the mezzanine, wondering why grandma and the others hid ordinary newspapers so deep, picked them up and flipped through them, then froze.

There was a page on the top that published the news that Mrs. Lin of the Centec Group committed suicide and fell from the building.The article said that Lin Xian cheated on his beloved wife during her pregnancy, and the third child came to her when she was pregnant. As a result, Mrs. Lin jumped off the [-]th floor and died on the spot just a hundred days after giving birth.There are three photos in the newspaper, one is the wedding photo of Lin Xian and Chen Ru, one is the big head of Xiaosan, and the other is much blurred, it is a woman lying on the ground, her limbs are bent in a twisted posture, There was a large dark red bloodstain under her body.

Lin Wei thought that this was a photo of his mother after her death, and for a moment her breath became short of breath, and she couldn't breathe.His whole body was cold, he fell to the ground, and read the news from beginning to end word by word again.Every time he read a word, his heart felt as if he had been scratched by a knife. In the end, he stared at the three photos, his chest was shaking violently, his throat was dry, but tears could not fall.

I used to have a mother too.

he thinks.

It's just that my mother was killed.

She didn't come to see me, not because she didn't want to, but because she couldn't see it anymore.

The sweet smiling face of the mother in the wedding photo and the tragic appearance lying on the ground next to her are the most incompatible contrast, and it also seems like a great irony.

Hatred took root in the soil of his heart, and he calmly took the newspaper and photo album outside the house, waiting for his grandparents to come back, and listening to them tell him the exact story and answer.

The story of the incident was not much different from what was reported in the newspapers. Lin Xian and Chen Ru were in a free relationship, and the two joined hands to start a business, taking the company's development to a higher level.After Chen Ru became pregnant, Lin Xian and his secretary had an affair. When Lin Wei was more than three months old, the secretary showed Chen Ru the bed photos and the pregnancy test results in front of Chen Ru, wanting to be promoted. Heartbroken, Chen Ru climbed up to the top floor and jumped down. .

After that, Lin Xian took a sum of money to give the secretary an abortion, then broke off contact with her, and went to have a knot tied, ensuring that he would only have Lin's only son in the future, and his property would only be passed on to Lin Wei.The grandparents lost their beloved daughter, and they didn't care much about money. The only request was that they would raise Lin Wei. The Lin family's grandparents disagreed, but Lin Xian unexpectedly agreed.

Grandma hugged him and cried and finished everything. Lin Wei didn't cry. He was still thinking about the mother in the photo, the smiling mother, the gentle mother, and the kissing his mother.Unwillingness and pain were mixed to water the hatred in his heart. He hated Lin Xian, and also hated that mistress named Lin Hui.

This kind of hatred constitutes another side of him. The gentleness when facing irrelevant people does not affect the hatred when facing Lin Xian.Since then, he has never called that man Dad, and only called him Mr. Lin when he met him. When the man heard this address for the first time, he was stunned for a long time, and the light in his eyes dimmed bit by bit. Show sadness.

Lin Wei only felt happy. The missing mother's love made him extremely yearn for it. There was no cure for this yearning, because his mother would never appear in this world again, so he could only hate the person who made his mother disappear.

Memories are like needles, the needle tip is thin and small, but it hurts wherever it is stuck.Lin Wei had never loved anyone very deeply, so she couldn't understand whether her mother decided to jump with deep despair or a momentary impulse.True love is still too far away for him, and his feelings for Lin An are still far away, so he can't understand the feeling that if he loses, he can't live.

He also regretted that the influence of his existence was too small to resolve his mother's sadness at that time, making her resolutely abandon everything and choose to die.

I spent the whole night in the muddle of imagination and dreams, but it was a little different from the past. In the past, it was completely black, but now there is a touch of color dotted in it.

Lin An was so excited that he almost stayed up all night, and when it was daylight, he got up from the bed.After washing up, I went to the kitchen to cook porridge and soup. I was very busy.He has been cooking by himself since he was a child, and his cooking skills are not bad. The porridge he cooks is fragrant and glutinous, which makes people have an appetite after seeing it.He packed the porridge and soup into food boxes separately, locked the door and went downstairs to ride his bicycle to the hospital.

When he arrived at the hospital, it was just after seven o'clock. He went upstairs, hesitant to call Lin Wei so early, and walked to the front of the ward dawdly, and found that the door was open, he couldn't help but heaved a sigh of relief.

Lin Wei wasn't inside, but his grandmother and grandfather were, and the two old people were having breakfast.When grandma saw him, she was taken aback for a moment, and soon smiled, "Xiao An, are you here so early?"

Lin An blushed and nodded, "Good morning, grandma. This is grandpa, right? Hello."

Grandpa was a little surprised. Grandma introduced that this was Weiwei's classmate, so he nodded in response.Grandma saw the food box in his hand and asked with a smile, "What delicious food did you bring?"

"I made some porridge and soup, grandma, you can try it."

"No, you can eat it with Weiwei, I'm just full." Grandma wiped the corners of her mouth with a tissue, "Weiwei went for a run in the park behind, she should be back later, just sit and wait. "

Grandpa took a chair and put it in front of him, Lin An thanked him, and sat down somewhat restrainedly.Grandpa Lin Wei was not very talkative, and he didn't have a smile on his face, so Lin An felt a little apprehensive, thinking that he was not likable.Grandma seemed to see what he was thinking, and said with a smile, "Don't be afraid, his grandfather has such a temperament, he doesn't like to talk or laugh, and it's not aimed at you." She sighed, "Especially after our daughter passed away, He is even less talkative, except that he is gentler with Weiwei."

Grandpa turned cold, "Why are you bringing this up?"

Grandma smiled wryly, and her tone was sad, "I miss my daughter, can't I mention it?" Tears glistened in the corners of her eyes, she reached out to wipe them away, and then forced a smile, "I'm sorry Xiao An, I made you laugh. Alas, I'm getting old. It's easy to think about the past, our family Weiwei is also a poor one, he has no mother since he was a child, and he was always clamoring for a mother when he was a child, crying so sadly."

Lin An opened his eyes wide. Hearing these words, he couldn't help feeling sour when he thought that such a gentle Senior Brother Lin had such a sad experience.There was a moment of silence in the ward. After a long time, grandma adjusted her mood and smiled again, "Xiao An, I can't tell from your face that you are a child who has already gone to college. I thought you were several years younger than Wei Wei, but it turned out to be only one year younger. What month were you born?"

"April."

Grandma let out a "huh", "That's not even a year younger, Weiwei was born at the end of June." Her cloudy eyes looked confused, and she didn't know what she was thinking.