police!don't run!

It was past eleven o'clock in the evening when we returned to China. Jian Zhou was woken up halfway through his sleep on the plane. He had no energy and followed behind Shen Jun with a yawn.

Shen Jun, who was walking in front, stopped suddenly. Jian Zhou was dazed and didn't realize it. He bumped his head on Shen Jun's back, grabbed his waist, rubbed his eyes and asked, "What's wrong?"

"...It seems to be your parents." Shen Jun quickly moved a little distance away from Jian Zhou, pointing to the distance.

Looking at Shen Jun's fingertips, he saw two familiar figures. His mother was frowning and looking around, her anxious eyes fell on the crowd. Jian Zhou was stunned. He remembered going abroad. When I told Li Jianguo about this before, I only mentioned that I would come back tonight, but didn't say the specific time.

Jian Zhou never thought that someone would pick him up at the airport, let alone his mother.

Thinking of the previous quarrel, Jian Zhou's heart tightened, and he fell heavily. In a daze, his mother had already looked towards this side, and hurried over.

Jian Zhou subconsciously turned his head to avoid Jian Ning's gaze, the quarrel more than half a month ago was still vivid in his memory, his mind was blank for a moment, he didn't know how to face it, he just took a step back in a panic, and hid behind Shen Jun .

Jian Ning froze suddenly. She looked at Jian Zhou who was dodging after seeing her, and Jian Zhou who hid behind others with a nervous expression. Small boat."

Jian Zhou's heart softened, he sighed, walked up to Jian Ning, and said softly, "Mom, I'm sorry, it was me before..."

"It's not you, it's not your fault, Xiao Zhou, it was my mother who made a mistake before, and it was my mother who was sorry for you." Jian Ning hugged Jian Zhou with tears in her eyes, "Mom shouldn't disbelieve you, shouldn't hit you, I'm sorry."

Jian Zhou didn't know how to react for a moment, the sudden hug didn't make him feel warm, on the contrary, it felt strange and bitter.

Cracks and estrangements cannot be repaired after all.

What he once longed for when he was a child, the care and closeness from his mother, now that he has got it, it seems to be meaningless.

Jian Zhou wanted to break free from this hug, but when he sensed his intention, Jian Ning hugged him even tighter, and even her voice was tinged with tears, "Xiaozhou, it's mom's fault, can you forgive mom once?"

"Mom, I never blamed you." Jian Zhou lowered his eyes and patted Jian Ning's back, "I just..."

When he was a child, he occasionally envied those children who were accompanied by their parents, and occasionally wondered what it felt like to be held in the hands of their parents, and occasionally had unrealistic fantasies and extravagant expectations.

I hope that the mother who is busy with life all day can set aside a little time to accompany herself.

He just... didn't know who to blame, the father he had never met?Blame the neighbors who are always pointing fingers at them?The classmate who laughed at him as an illegitimate child?Or did he blame his own birth for a mistake?

But at least, he will never blame his mother, not a mother who tried her best to support a family.

Jian Zhou gently pushed Jian Ning away, pulled out a shallow smile, and said in a sincere and calm tone, "Mom, I never blamed you, thank you for giving birth to me."

Jian Ning holds Jian Zhou's hand. She doesn't remember when she started to look up at the little child in her memory. Her Jian Zhou has grown up unconsciously. During those absent times, I grew up quietly, bumpily and stubbornly.

She realized in a trance that Jian Zhou's calmness may not be a kind of relief, but that he no longer needs it, and he finally gave up.

No expectations, no more disappointments.

"Xiao Zhou, let's, let's go home first." Jian Ning clenched his hand, but Jian Zhou stood where he was, neither breaking free nor moving.

Jian Zhou doesn't want to go home.

Li Jianguo looked at the mother and son helplessly, and wanted to smooth things over, but saw Shen Jun coming over to say hello to Jian Ning in a timely manner, then handed the suitcase to Jian Zhou, and said with a smile, "Follow me quickly." Parents, go home, children, it's getting late."

Jian Zhou frowned and looked at Shen Jun, stalemate for a moment, then took his suitcase, "...Call me when you get home."

Li Jianguo suddenly became one head and two big. Afraid that Jian Ning would see something, he quickly patted Jian Zhou and pushed him forward, "What are you calling? He is so old and can he lose it? Go away, go back Home."

It was a long drive home, Jian Zhou and his mother sat in the back seat, the atmosphere was unusually quiet, only the music sang tirelessly.

Li Jianguo hummed a few words along with the music, and asked Jian Zhou, "Xiao Zhou, went out to be crazy for half a month, did you have a good time?"

"Hmm." Jian Zhou leaned his head against the car window, looking at the fast-moving scenery outside, feeling a little drowsy.

"Your mother wanted to apologize to you a long time ago. I didn't expect you to go out for so long. No, as soon as you heard that you were coming back, she dragged me to the airport and ran to the airport. You are in a hurry." Li Jianguo said in a joking tone, "You two are almost done. Don't be so awkward, it makes me feel uncomfortable. There is no overnight feud between mother and son. Hurry up and shake hands and make peace, ok?"

As soon as Li Jianguo finished speaking, the car became quiet again.

Li Jianguo was silent for a long while, stroked his forehead and said, "...you two are really a real mother and son."

Jian Zhou closed his eyes, feeling a little bored in his heart. Every time he touched these things, he felt very tired. The feeling of exhaustion and powerlessness spread from the inside out, like pushing a person who had finally swam ashore back into the water alive , breathless.

He is not good at dealing with interpersonal relationships, he doesn't know how to reconcile with his mother, and he doesn't know how to piece together the falsehood that has been torn apart.

The quarrel has already been fought, the hurtful words have been said, and he is no longer the perfect and well-behaved child in his mother's heart... It's good, anyway, he doesn't want to continue pretending.

The phone vibrated in his pocket, Jian Zhou took it out to look at it, it was a message from Shen Jun.

[Little friend, are you secretly crying, do you want to be hugged by your brother? 】

There was a hint of warmth in Jian Zhou's eyes, he lowered his head, and sent an emoji of 'begging for a hug', and couldn't help evoking an imperceptible smile.

Shen Jun replied immediately.

[Okay, hug. 】

I have never seen such an insincere hug, Jian Zhou complained in his heart with disgust, but the smile on his face deepened, and even his eyes were slightly bent, looking silly.

Jian Ning stared blankly, she had never seen Jian Zhou with such a smile.

In my impression, Jian Zhou seldom smiles, even if he does, it's just a restrained, polite smile, not from the heart.

It turns out that her Jian Zhou looks so pretty when she smiles.

Jian Ning always thought that the indifference and alienation in Jian Zhou's eyes were due to his nature, but at this moment she realized that her son had never really smiled or been really happy in front of him.

What a mess she is as a mother!

Guilt flooded Jian Ning like a flood. She didn't speak all the way, for fear that the smile on Jian Zhou's face would disappear if she opened her mouth.

It wasn't until Jian Zhou wanted to go back to the room to sleep that Jian Ning stopped him and asked, "Xiao Zhou, Mom wants to show you something, can you come here?"

Jian Zhou nodded and followed her to the study.

Jian Ning squatted in front of the bookcase, took out a locked iron box from inside, and put it carefully on the table. Jian Zhou saw his mother's precious face, thinking that there was something fragile inside, but after opening it, it was Only some yellowed paper and old photos were found inside.

"These are your father's relics." Jian Ning's hand gently caressed the photos in the box, her voice was very low, "Xiao Zhou, I never thought that you would hate your father, he... didn't know your existence at that time, I didn't know until I died, even I only found out that I was pregnant with you after he left, I was the one who was incompetent, so you can blame me as much as you want, can you not blame him?"

Jian Ning said: "Your father lived an upright life. He is a hero admired by others. He should not be resented by his son."

Jian Zhou didn't understand the meaning of his mother's entanglement with these things, resisted the urge to push the door and leave, and said perfunctorily, "I didn't hate him."

"Actually, your father is very similar to you. He always has too many worries. I dare not admit that I like him. I have been chasing him for a long time, and he still talks to me about the stupidity of 'since I have a family, it is difficult to make a family'." Talk." Jian Ning seemed to have not heard Jian Zhou's words, and she talked to herself. When she recalled these things, a gentle look that Jian Zhou was not familiar with appeared on her face, and some girlishness was also dyed in her eyes. Sentimental love, "I have been stalking for a long time, lying to him that it's okay, saying that I just want him to look good, find a good-looking partner to live with, and if he dies, I'll just find someone more handsome than him and remarry gone."

"Actually, I lied. I really loved her at the time, and I couldn't live without him." Jian Ning covered her eyes to cover the tears that kept falling, "I cut my wrist and committed suicide, and I was sent to the hospital to find out that there was something wrong with her." You, Xiaozhou, without you, I would have died long ago."

"How could I not look forward to your birth? I thought at the time that you must be a gift from heaven, an angel descending to the world." Jian Ning said, "I admit that you were probably born because of your father. Or maybe it was to keep me alive, but when I saw you for the first time, when you grabbed my fingers with your little hands, all my thoughts were on you."

Jian Zhou took a deep breath, clenched his hand hanging by his side tightly into a fist, he didn't know how to describe the chaotic emotions in his heart at the moment, but he knew that he didn't let go.

The already chaotic emotions were completely entangled into an insoluble knot.

It has been 17 years, although Jian Zhou has been refusing to admit it, but he really has been resenting his 'irresponsible' father in his heart.

But now, her mother was crying and telling him that what he thought was 'irresponsibility' was a misunderstanding and that he hated the wrong person.

Why didn't you say it earlier?Why didn't you say it earlier!

Jian Zhou doesn't know what his resentment over the past ten years is?

He was so aggrieved that he wanted to yell and vent, but he wanted to laugh inappropriately.

he thinks.

Yes, you are all pitiful, you are all wronged, you all have such and such reasons, what about me, what did I do wrong, I was born without a father's surname, and was pointed out as an illegitimate child when I was born, and was ridiculed by my classmates It's called... called 'little bastard'.

Jian Zhou bit his lower lip tightly, afraid that he would accidentally say what was in his heart, but he couldn't help asking in the end, "A hero? Can't even protect his own family, is he considered a hero?"

"Xiaozhou, you are too young, you don't understand the meaning of home, a small home is a home, a country is also a home, it depends on what you think." Jian Ning rubbed Jian Zhou's hair, and took out a letter from the iron box To him, "This is your father's suicide note. Do you know when it was written? It was his first day in the job."

Jian Ning rummaged through the box, found another police card and handed it to him, "There is also your father's police card, with the blood type printed on it, for the convenience of rescue."

Jian Zhou's hand trembled slightly, he inevitably thought of Shen Jun, and panicked for a moment.

He suddenly realized that he had never faced up to Shen Jun's profession - the police.

Policemen are policemen too!

Shen Jun is also a policeman!

With such a lesson from his parents, he must be crazy to dare to like the police!

"When he chose this profession, he knew that he would die every day, but he still became a policeman without hesitation." Jian Ning's voice was still knocking on his fragile nerves, "Whether your father died in the line of duty or not, since he When he chose this profession, he was already a hero, and they used their flesh and blood to maintain the peace of our big family..."

Jian Zhou's heart was in a mess, but a clear idea popped out suddenly, Shen Jun had lied.

He remembered asking Shen Jun why he became a policeman. At that time, Shen Jun said that he was given priority in admission by the police academy and was forced by his father to go to the police academy. He also said that he chose a policeman with the lowest risk factor because he was afraid of death.

Liar!

Even a policeman is in great danger. He is a rich second generation, how could his parents force him to choose a career as a policeman?

fraud!

Jian Zhou thought bitterly, it's all because he said it was so easy at the time, so he always let himself ignore the fact that he is also engaged in a very dangerous job!

A profession that makes Jian Zhou feel insecure the most.

When Jian Zhou came out of the study, he was in a daze. He didn't listen to what Jian Ning said later. The things about his parents were enough to bother him, and now he had to add Shen Jun.

Did he do something to offend the police in his previous life, so he got into a fight with the police in this life?

By the way...Yang Yi, the Yang Yi who brought him out of his psychological shadow is also a policeman.

... He really did something wrong to the police in his previous life!

His mouth was full of bloody smell, Jian Zhou bit his lower lip at some point, he wiped the blood not paying attention, the pain didn't even bring him back to his senses, and he walked into the room with his head sullen , and finally knocked hard on the door frame.

Jian Zhou closed the door, squatted on the ground with his forehead covered, and after a while, he breathed a sigh of relief, feeling that the chaotic emotions in his heart had calmed down a little.

Fortunately, he is a human being. If it were a puffer fish, it would probably have exploded by now.

Jian Zhou fell headlong into the soft bed, took out his mobile phone and called Shen Jun, and asked sullenly, "Didn't I ask you to call me when you get home?"

Shen Jun's voice was very innocent, "I'm not home yet."

"Not home?" Jian Zhou looked at the time and asked strangely, "Where did you go?"

Shen Jun smiled, "Guess, there will be a prize for guessing right."

"How do I know." Jian Zhou was annoyed in his heart, and said impatiently, "Anyway, it can't be at my house... You, can't you?"

Jian Zhou jumped out of bed suddenly, opened the curtains, and looked outside with some expectation, but there was no one outside the floor-to-ceiling windows. He lowered his eyes to cover the disappointment in his eyes, and asked, "Where are you?"

Shen Jun's voice was still smiling, "Do you want to hug me?"

Jian Zhou stared at the floor-to-ceiling windows angrily, "No."

Jian Zhou was about to close the curtains, but a few familiar dog barks sounded in the distance, and a group of golden shadows rushed towards him quickly, hitting the floor-to-ceiling windows with a 'boom'.

His silly milk tea!

"Wow!" Milk Tea arched the glass with its head, and after finding that the arch could not move, it began to paw with its claws again, staring at Jian Zhou with watery round eyes.

As soon as Jian Zhou opened the floor-to-ceiling windows, it jumped into Jian Zhou's arms excitedly, rubbing back and forth affectionately.

"I just guessed that you would like milk tea, so I brought it back for you." Shen Jun walked over behind the milk tea and smiled at Jian Zhou.

It was still pitch black outside the window, but in a daze, Jian Zhou seemed to see the dawning sun.

He blinked, walked up to Shen Jun, and said, "Wrong guess."

I didn't miss milk tea, I just missed you a little bit.

"However, there is a reward for guessing wrong." Jian Zhou opened his arms to Shen Jun, and seeing that he didn't react for a while, he rushed over to hug him, softened his voice and whispered in Shen Jun's ear, "Brother police, hug him!" one."

Jian Zhou couldn't help laughing at himself, wondering if it would be useful to think so much, and when he saw Shen Jun, he forgot all about it.

Who cares, whether the police or not, if he likes it, it's his!The police can't run away either!