sad love

The author has something to say: we are not tired, what is tired is only time!Oh, this is a kind of self-deprecation.How tired is the eternal time?

On the evening of the second day after receiving the wages, the motor broke down (maybe it was the result of time to breathe, and it was time to lose the voice.) The workers left work early to rest.

"How about Brother Wang going to town?"

"Okay, let's go to town for a drink. Damn, I haven't had a drink for three months. That kind of craving is like not touching a woman in a year!" I came to Meiyu's prefabricated house, "How about Meiyu going to town for a walk? "

"Next time, I have some reports to do." I walked out of the prefabricated house dejectedly, walked into the tent with my head down, took off my dirty work clothes, put on a white T-shirt I hadn't worn for a long time, and put on another A sky blue long-sleeved shirt, and finally put on washed white jeans and white sneakers.

Brother Wang and I squeezed into the bus and drove towards the city center. The roadside was still surrounded by buildings piled with reinforced concrete. The neon lights adorning the floors spoke of the prosperity of the times.

The streets were crowded, with men and women shouting loudly.The young men with leather bags on their shoulders walked past me. They wore suits and ties, and polished leather shoes. They looked like salesmen with tired faces.A young woman carrying a bag, wearing high heels, with her chest upright, her smile buried under too much makeup.If there are not many people in the street, they really want to lie down and rest.

Times are advancing, technology is developing, and people should live comfortably.But... this is a difficult time to read.

"Let's go to the one in front." Brother Wang and I walked into the bar, the lights inside were dim, and the DJ dance music was shaking our hearts.I have always disliked fast-paced music, but at this moment I accepted her generously. I really don't know whether it is my nerve short-circuit or feeling numb.I ordered a dozen Romances.

"Come on, drink a bottle first." Brother Wang picked up a bottle of wine and opened the iron cover with his teeth and handed it to me.I was a little uneasy after a bottle of wine, and I felt like I wanted to fight.I looked around for someone I could hit or who could hit me.drink!God is still very understanding.A man and a woman sat in the row behind us, and their intimate movements stimulated my nerves.I turned my head and said to Brother Wang, "Brother Wang, do you want to watch a play?"

"what?"

"No, you pretended to be drunk and gave me a light push." ​​Brother Wang reluctantly cooperated with a light push, and I fell down and touched the table in the back with my hand, and the wine glass on the table was knocked over.The boy's interest was disturbed by me, he immediately stood up and slapped the table and shouted: "What are you doing, brat?"

"Nothing, just carelessness."

"Fucking courteous death!"

damn it!I was waiting for his words.I pushed him, and the boy pushed back, and we fought.After working on the construction site for a month, I felt that there was endless energy in my hands, so I gave that kid a hard lesson.In the end, Brother Wang pulled me apart.

"Forget it, the rich can afford it, but we the poor can't afford it." The battle was fought very happily, and the price was the loss of 300 yuan for me to accompany the bar.

I found out later that I lost my job because of this fight, and fortunately, I was liberated by it and gained a new life.It's really a misfortune and a blessing, and a blessing and a misfortune.

"Brat, don't let me meet you." Brother Wang and I walked to the door and heard the brat shout.I turned and walked up to the kid, who backed away like a frightened duck. "Boy, see clearly, next time I see you, I will recognize your grandpa!"

Still according to the route when he came, he took the last train and drove to the suburbs.

"Actually, you should be patient just now, you have to bear with everything when you come out to mess around."

"I know, but there are too many uneasy factors dissolved in my blood, and I couldn't control myself at all at that time."

"The rich men nowadays, the farther you can avoid them, the better." I nodded and fell into deep thought.Brother Wang is 30 years old, as old as a tiger and as courageous as a mouse, why is he so cautious when speaking.As the years passed, I realized the true meaning of fear.Those who are afraid are the most real beings in the universe.God endows us with life, we should love life and experience the miracles brought by life.

Back at the construction site, I passed Meiyu's studio, the lights inside were still on, so I knocked on the door and walked in.

"Aren't you done yet?"

"Just finished working and getting ready to go home."

"Where do you live? I'll see you off."

"It's not far from here, about 15 minutes by bicycle."

I was riding a bicycle with Mei Yu on the uneven road in the suburbs, and she hugged me tightly with both hands.Hugging is a very familiar thing in memory, even if the people and backgrounds are different at this moment.She used to be a college girlfriend, riding a bicycle on a fresh and quiet campus; now she is a colleague, the road is bumpy, there is no romance and passion, just a need and a real memory.

The former girlfriend was called Sophie, and we were all in love with each other crazily.I swear, she promises with her body.After graduation, Old Man Time tore our story apart. The beginning and climax of the story disappeared without a trace, leaving only a blank ending that invaded my dreams all the time.After contacting her several times, she asked me if I still remembered the promise I made to her, and I told her in a trembling voice: Yes, but I just didn’t dare to stick to it.There was a burst of laughter on the other end of the phone, the kind of laughter filled with a kind of fear that I couldn't understand.From her incoherent words, I learned about her situation. She was a secretary for a boss.In the end, they often blessed each other with a kind of words that both felt very hypocritical.

"Turn left," Mei Yu's words interrupted my thoughts.I slowed down and turned left to the downstairs of a dilapidated apartment building.

"Thank you for sending me off, go up and sit down?"

"It's too late, next time."

"Well, you can go back on my bicycle."

"You don't have to walk to work tomorrow"

"No, I can be a bus driver."

"Go to bed early." I got on the bike and rushed into the night.

Today is the 28th day of working on the construction site. For three consecutive nights, I rode my bicycle to send Meiyu home.We talked a lot about age, habits and hobbies, and work perception.I know she was a year younger than me and dropped out of college sophomore year.I didn't ask about the reasons, but I could faintly feel the painful experience hidden behind her.

"Thank you for taking me home, can you sit up for a while?" I nodded and followed her into the corridor.Entering the room, she turned on the light.

"Sit whatever you want, I'm going to take a shower." He said as he walked into the bathroom, and soon there was the sound of water dripping.I sat quietly, looking around the room with light blue wallpaper and a few books on the table in front of the window.I walked over and opened the top book, and saw on the title page of the book: Mistakes have been made, there is no need to cry, always find a way to make up for the lack of self; because there are always many beautiful things in life meet.I continued to read, and the door of the bathroom creaked, and Mei Yu came out, her wet hair scattered behind her.

"Still charging?"

"It's about redeeming yourself, no! It should be washing yourself out."

"Washing? I don't understand."

"I used to have too many stains on me, and now I want to save myself in this way. I was taken care of in my sophomore year, and I finally realized it after the heartache. I had no face to face my classmates and dropped out of school. After a period of hard work Drifting, I came to this city. This is my story, how about it, am I very cheap?" Facing Mei Yu's frank gaze, I was a little shocked.

"There is no distinction between humble and noble, just like you said: the mistake has been made, there is no need to cry, always find a way to make up for the lack of self; because there are always many beautiful encounters in life. In fact, everyone The heart of the world is a history of humiliation, the key depends on how we read it."

"However, women's interpretation is different from men's. Many experiences are dark clouds that women will never get rid of."

"No, you are a very strong girl."

"Can I hear your story?"

I talked about college life, why I came to this big city, and how I had a hard time beating a brat the other day.The two of us talked very happily, and we were still full of enthusiasm until one o'clock in the morning.

"Look! We got too excited and forgot to check the time. I should go."

"Now the door on the construction site is locked, if you can, you can stay here, it's considered to be with me." We had sex that night.