Prisoner's Dilemma

It was the next morning when Han Shaojun woke up. He stared at the ceiling for a long time before realizing that he was lying on Ding Muyan's bed.

"I'm really sorry, I fell asleep for some reason yesterday, didn't I bother you?" Han Shaojun said apologetically.

"We've been friends for so many years, what does it matter if I take you in for a night?"

Ding Muyan prepared a combination of Chinese and Western breakfast, a bowl of light vegetable porridge, a pickled cucumber pickled by himself, and two slices of white sliced ​​bread.

After waking up from sleep, Han Shaojun was in high spirits in the true sense, and even his mood became exceptionally good. He took a sip of porridge and smiled: "You are really virtuous, to be honest, I still can't believe that you can cook. "

"Is it difficult?" Ding Muyan said lightly, "For me, there is not much difference between cooking and surgery. I enjoy picking a piece of meat off the bone, cutting it into thin pieces of uniform size, and then putting it on the table. Into the oil pan, the high temperature denatures the protein, dissolves the fat, and contracts the muscle tissue.”

"Can you stop being perverted?" Han Shaojun was disgusted and funny.

Ding Muyan also smiled: "Ordinary home cooking is very easy, it's just that you don't want to learn it."

"Speaking of which, Jiang Chen's craftsmanship is also good. It really surprised me. I remember one time..." Han Shaojun stopped talking halfway through his speech. Most of the time, his brain is out of control, and he doesn't know why he thought of Jiang Chen. Chen thought of a table of dishes he had cooked, but when he thought about it, his mood, which was still light just now, suddenly became heavy.

"Eat it, remember to take medicine after eating, don't mess around again." Ding Muyan pushed the pickled cucumber in front of him.

Han Shaojun raised his spirits again: "You are too strict, I just forgot, there is no intention of not eating."

"If you take medicine, people will chase you to feed you. Do you think you are still a child? I have told you many times about the harm of not taking medicine on time. Don't take the doctor's words as a deaf ear."

"Don't argue with a madman."

Ding Muyan frowned tightly, with a murderous look on his face full of abstinence: "Let me tell you again, mental illness is a very normal disease, and it is a pathological change just like a cold and fever. You are also a highly educated person. Can you not be so narrow-minded? You can’t understand the disease correctly yourself, so how can others help you?”

Hearing Ding Muyan's words became more and more serious, Han Shaojun quickly confessed: "I made a mistake, I will do my own self-criticism, Doctor Ding calm down."

Ding Muyan also felt that the topic was too dull, so he changed his tone and said: "You are a stubborn person, and your good temper is actually an illusion, and you are very stubborn in your bones. If you don't say anything else, just talk about Jiang Chen , you can bear to bully you for so many years, what do you like about him? He is also a brother, why don't you like Xiao Jin?"

Han Shaojun just took a mouthful of porridge and almost spit out from choking. He quickly took out a tissue to cover his mouth, and managed to catch his breath: "Ahem, what are you talking about? Xiao Jin? Don't be joking, although Jiang Chen is often not very good, but he is always better than Xiao Jin."

"At least Xiao Jin has more brains than Jiang Chen."

"You don't know Xiao Jin, he is very bad. He is my brother, and I will work hard for him if anything happens to him, but he is only suitable for being a brother, not a lover. If I like him , That’s jumping into the fire pit.”

"Really?" Ding Muyan doubted.

"Xiao Jin belongs to the kind of person who shouts to be civilized and polite when fighting, and then beats people behind his back until his own mother doesn't even know him."

It was not difficult for Ding Muyan to imagine this scene, but he didn't take it seriously, and didn't care too much, so he changed the subject lightly: "Let's eat."

After breakfast, Ding Muyan packed the bowls and chopsticks into the sink to wash. Through the kitchen window, he saw Jiang Chen's car parked downstairs, and Jiang Chen was anxiously circling beside the car.

In fact, Jiang Chen came two hours ago, but he didn't go upstairs, he just sat in the car and waited. He was really tired, so he got out of the car to move his hands and feet.

In the early morning, he was afraid that Han Shaojun was still sleeping, so he didn't dare to rush to the door to make people unhappy, but he didn't feel at ease if he didn't come, in case Han Shaojun left by himself, in case Ding Muyan wanted to do something ulterior to Han Shaojun...

Jiang Chen checked the time countless times, nine o'clock sharp, this time is just right for picking up people, if it is earlier, it will be suspected of disturbing people, if it is later, it will appear insincere, but the hour is too deliberate, it is still not appropriate .So Jiang Chen stared at the second hand and turned it three times, and rushed upstairs at [-]:[-].

Ding Muyan saw Jiang Chen enter the building, cleaned the last bowl, wiped his hands, and the doorbell rang.

"I'm here to pick up Shaojun." Jiang Chen tried his best to show an indifferent attitude, but he couldn't help but cast his eyes inside. Fortunately, Ding Muyan's house is not big, so he could see Han Shaojun in the living room at a glance.

Ding Muyan looked cold: "I discussed it with Shao Jun. He still needs a professional person to take care of him, so he will stay at my house for a few days. You go back. When he recovers, I will send him home. Don't bother you."

Does this mean to stay permanently?How can this work!Jiang Chen's eyes suddenly widened.

"Okay, stop teasing him." Han Shaojun appeared behind Ding Muyan, "It's almost time for me to leave, I'm sorry to trouble you last night."

Jiang Chen's face instantly turned from anger to joy, and he turned sideways to make way for the passage.

"Okay then." Ding Muyan didn't force it, "Pay attention to your body, if there is anything wrong, you can come to me."

Jiang Chen sent the man into the car, opened the door for him, and fastened his seat belt for him. His heart was filled with joy, because Han Shaojun not only left with him, but also got into his car.

It seems like it's been a lifetime for two people to be alone together, Jiang Chen enjoys this rare getting along, even zero communication can satisfy his impoverished heart.

Han Shaojun kept looking at the scenery outside, and reflected Jiang Chen's face from time to time peeping at him from the glass window: "Mu Yan is very busy and hard at work, I left with you because I didn't want to affect him."

Jiang Chen smiled wryly: "Can't you make me happy for a while? Just for a while."

"I'm afraid you misunderstood."

"I know what you want to say, and I'm afraid I'll get carried away. In fact, my requirements are not that high now. If you are willing to take my car, I'm very satisfied."

Han Shaojun didn't refute anything, he didn't want to give Jiang Chen too much hope, and he didn't want to deliberately utter bad words.

Jiang Chen wanted to chat with him about something, even if it was good to talk about the weather, but he never opened his mouth, because in the past, every topic he thought of would become an awkward conversation.He suddenly found it so difficult to communicate with Han Shaojun. When Han Shaojun closed the door that was open to him, he couldn't even find a window.

Back in the community, Jiang Chen stopped at the door of his house.

Han Shaojun glanced at him puzzled, didn't ask any further questions, and planned to get out of the car and go home on his own.

"Shaojun, I'll show you something." Jiang Chen pulled Han Shaojun.

Han Shaojun didn't know what tricks Jiang Chen was playing, and looked at him hesitantly.

"I... I've been working on it for a long time... You must go and see..." Jiang Chen had a look of shyness on his face. It was an expectation that couldn't be hidden, as if it was buried in the ground. Thousands of rare treasures are waiting to be seen again.

"Just for a while, it will be fine soon." Jiang Chen could not help but drag Han Shaojun back home.

The cream bag meowed and wrapped itself around his feet as usual, but he didn't even have time to care about the kitten, and led him straight into the study.

There is a square table in the middle of the study, covered with a piece of velvet, mysteriously covering the things on the table.

"what?"

"See for yourself, you will definitely like it!" Jiang Chen's face was flushed, and he had carefully prepared for this moment for a long time.

Han Shaojun lifted a corner of the velvet and saw a piece of gun-grey, and as he moved, the velvet slipped to the ground.

Placed on the table is a fully assembled model of the Millennium Falcon. The smoky gray model has been sprayed with a layer of varnish, and under the action of light, it has a metallic luster. The huge model is meticulous, and the mighty and solemn atmosphere is mixed with The precipitation of history has a suffocating sadness.

After more than ten years, the spaceship model was finally assembled.This model is as troubled as his feelings. First, it was buried for ten years, and then it was destroyed and discarded when it finally saw the light of day. Now, it is finally fully presented in front of your eyes, as if everything it has experienced is nothing more than An inconspicuous scratch on its case.For a moment, Han Shaojun's heart seemed to be hit, as if time went back to his boyhood, he concentrated on assembling the model, and the boy who was as dazzling as the sun was sitting beside him.

The spaceship model is huge and has countless parts. It is not an easy task for a novice to complete. Unexpectedly, Jiang Chen put it together.

"I... I have been working on it for a long time, and some parts were actually broken by me. If you look carefully, you can see it. Some parts are still missing. I can only buy another set to make up for the missing. This set is out of print. I still I bought it from a collector." Jiang Chen blushed, carefully observing Han Shaojun's reaction.

Han Shaojun stared blankly at the model, and the huge spaceship was reflected in his eyes, just like a real spaceship in the vast universe.

Jiang Chen whispered in his ear: "Every time I miss you, I fight for a while, and I finish it before I know it. I just want...to show you..."

The hot air was blowing into his ears when he spoke, and Han Shaojun suddenly realized that the two were too close together, so he took a step back immediately, and nodded calmly: "It's a good fight."

Jiang Chen was taken aback by the almost perfunctory words.

"I've seen the model, can I go?"

The expectation that was full of hearts was poured with cold water, and Jiang Chen was generally unable to move.

"I'm leaving."

"Shaojun!" Jiang Chen shouted in an aggrieved voice.

"What else?"

"You...don't you like it?" Jiang Chen was in a daze, as if carefully presenting something that he regarded as a treasure to him with both hands, but he abandoned it like a shoe.

"Didn't I say you did a good job? What else do you want?"

"Don't you know what I want?"

Han Shaojun laughed, and looked at Jiang Chen with an unreasonable look: "Do you think that a model between us can solve it?"

"Of course I didn't think so!" Jiang Chen roared, then realized that he was too loud, and scratched his hair angrily, "I mean, I know I was wrong, and I don't beg you to forgive me now , just give me a chance to love you."

"Emotional matters can't be said to have opportunities or no opportunities. If there is one, there will be one, and if there is one, there will be none."

"Yes! There must be something between us!" Jiang Chen couldn't help but hugged Han Shaojun, his voice trembling with excitement, "I miss you, I really miss you! Didn't you give me many chances before?" ? gave me a chance to hug you and kiss you! I miss that feeling!"

Han Shaojun didn't push him away like before, but he didn't respond either. He just stood there like a log: "You used to have the opportunity to hug me, kiss me, and even fuck me, just because I loved you before."

Jiang Chen trembled like an electric shock.Jiang Chen should have understood long ago that Han Shaojun didn't owe him anything, nor was he any worse than him, there was only one reason why he could hurt him, be pampered by him, enter his body and act recklessly, and that was that he loved him.

But now the word love has an extra "before".

"I'm really leaving." Han Shaojun took a step back, and Jiang Chen let go like a cicada.

Seeing that Han Shaojun was really about to leave, Jiang Chen shouted again: "You said before that even failed products are polished by hand, and should not be discarded at will!"

Han Shaojun looked puzzled, he didn't remember saying such a thing at all.

Jiang Chen was terrified and sad: "You treat me as a failure, okay, don't throw me away."

Like a lost child who couldn't find his way home, Jiang Chen staggered as if his soul had been drawn out, as if he wanted to chase Han Shaojun, but also seemed to fall down.

"Children's talk." Han Shaojun dropped the words lightly and left, he didn't know if he was talking about children's talk back then, or Jiang Chen was talking about child's talk.

The people still left, as if Han Shaojun's arrival was just a fantasy imagined by Jiang Chen, only the cold and huge model on the table was real.

"Meow!" Cream Bun got into the study, scratching Jiang Chen's trouser leg and screaming.

Jiang Chen lowered his head, facing a pair of dark round eyes, the kitten meowed childishly, begging for comfort pitifully.Suddenly, Jiang Chen felt that he was very similar to this kitten in front of Han Shaojun.

Letting out the breath he had held for a long time, Jiang Chen bent down and hugged the cream bag into his arms, stroking its soft fur: "We are the same."